A/N: Thank you for the reviews! I really appreciate it and thank you for the positive feedback. Excuse this chapter because I did not know how I was going to go about the newborn battle, so I skipped it.

Disclaimer: All landscapes, plots, and characters belong to Stephanie Meyer

Jacob POV

My head was reeling. I couldn't believe the night me and Bella had it's all I think about, I knew I had to focus on the fight at hand, but I couldn't. Everything was a blur the world was moving fast around me; I was on autopilot and Bella was the only thing on my mind.

I snapped out of my train of thought by a searing pain that rippled through my body causing me to phase back, withering in pain, I looked up seeing everyone rush to me "Bella" I muttered before darkness consumed me.

"Jacob" I heard in my abyss of darkness "Jacob" the voice persisted; my senses kicked in filling my nose with the stench of death. My eyes shot open investigating my surroundings I tried to sit up causing a jolt of pain.

"Relax Jacob you are safe. You got injured in the newborn battle and the bones on your right side are shattered and healed improperly…unfortunately I must rebreak them so they can align" he stated.

"Is there any other option" I croaked already in agony. "I am afraid not…now I need you to remain perfectly still I will work as quickly as possible, but this is a delicate procedure…are you ready" he questioned while held my arm steady, I could only nod, trying to focus on relaxing my body as much as possible hoping it would lessen the pain.

One quick deliberate tug on my arm and an oud snapping sound filled the room "son of a bitch" I said through gritted teeth the pain was even worse than imagined, with every bone he reset I faded in and out of consciousness. The pain was excruciating, it seemed like a lifetime had passed "all right Jacob I am finished… I gave you morphine to help you with the pain…I wasn't sure how fast you would burn it of so I gave you three times the dose I would give a normal human, it should bring some relief, I will be to check on your healing process in a day or so" he said as he bandaged my arm and around my ribs.

"Thanks doc" I muttered, while he was leaving, I heard the familiar raddling of a clunky old truck followed by clumsy footsteps leading to me.

"Bella" I murmured as she came into view "Jake" she squeaked "I am sorry this happened to you" she said pulling up a chair to sit next to me. "I'm alright… besides there is things that have hurt worst" my thoughts trailing off to her agreeing to an eternity with him causing the clenching in my chest once more "Jake I don't mean to hurt you…you are my best friend and I hate seeing you like this" she stated shakily as if she was holding back tears.

"I know, same old song I've heard time and time again."

"Jake, I do hate seeing you hurt …I love you she said softly.

"You love him more."

"Please don't do this…you are important to me" she sighed "don't do what? You say you love me, and you say I'm important to you but that's not enough for you to be with me, it could be so simple."

"it's not simple because I need both of you" she said and for a moment the room was silent "Jacob… I don't want to have this debate tonight, and I don't want you to be upset with me… I just want to be sure you're ok" she said breaking the silence "well, I'm fine…considering the circumstances."

"I'm staying with you tonight; I want to make sure you're recovering properly… I can't have a rumpled up best friend" she stated making me chuckle. The rest of the night we reminisced about old fishing trips we took with our dads when we were little. I woke up to Bella looking as if she was studying my features "I could get use to this" I said smirking.

"Get use to what?" she questioned.

" you being the first thing I see when I wake up" I said a slight blush began to creep across her face "well enjoy it while it last" she said humor laced in her tone, I would never get to truly enjoy anything with Bella I wished with every fiber of my being it was different but it wasn't " I was waiting for you to wake up so I could ask if you would like a sponge bath… I know you've been sweating like crazy during your healing process" she said, avoiding eye contact.

"A sponge bath?... Of course, I would love one"

"Yes, you smell…don't make it a big deal" she said blushing, as she gently unraveled my arm.

"No need to blush Bella…you have seen everything there is to see" I mused.

"Jake" she warned.

"I'm just teasing… I really appreciate you."

"I appreciate you too" she beamed.

She washed me with slow, careful gestures not wanting to hurt me. I watched her as she would squeeze out the sponge bringing it back to my body gently patting away the excess water. I could not help my mind wandering to that night in the tent how beautiful she looked, how amazing she felt. She abruptly stops, bringing me out of my trance.

"Bells… I'm sorry, sometimes it has a mind of its own" very aware of my manhood straining against my shorts.

"No… it is fine… I need to clean that area anyway" she squeaked, still not making eye contact with me but she was blushing so hard her ears were pink.

"It's fine…I don't want to make you uncomfortable" I was afraid she would cut her visit short, and I craved her company.

"Jake its fine" she repeated.

Before I could protest, she began tugging my shorts down. I lifted slightly helping her. She paused for a long while taking me in with her gaze, making me feel self-conscious.

"Uhm. Bella" I questioned.

She firmly grabbed my shaft washing around it, trying to form a coherent thought will her touching me in any way always made me forget about everything else. I closed my eyes trying to regain control of my body.

"I-I'm not hurting you, am I?" she stammered releasing her grip slightly I just shook my head unable to form words. Moments later her mouth took my erect member in, her tongue making circular motion around the tip, it was long and soft it seemed to wrap itself around me, my body begin to tremble slightly using all the resolve I had to keep myself together.

"Shit…B-Bella stop' I said putting my hand on her shoulder to still her, she looked up at me inquisitively.

"hmm" the vibrations from her humming almost sent me over the edge.

"Oh, my fuck… you don't need to do this" I told her trying to regulate my breathing, that's when she took her mouth off me "you don't want me in this way do you? God of course you don't, what we did was supposed to be a one-time thing" she began to ramble "Of course I want you, isn't it obvious? I'm just confused."

"About what?" she asked, she couldn't be serious.

"This…us"

"Jacob…I am just as confused as you are…I don't know why but it's like I crave you, when I'm around you… I crave your warmth and without it, it feels like the world is too cold" she confessed her eyes looked glossy as if she was holding bacon tears "maybe I should just go" she said getting up from where she was sitting.

"NO…please I need you here with me" I said weakly "I c-can't "she said her tears now falling. She turned and left and this time it felt permanent.

Bella POV

What was wrong with me? It was like I couldn't control myself around him, like something clicked and I needed him like I needed oxygen, but I still love Edward. My mind continued to race the whole ride home. As I pulled up to Charlie's I noticed the cruiser was gone. Finally able to release the tears that were threatening to fall the whole ride home, the sobs racked my body. What was I doing? I love Jacob but I can't be with him because he might imprint and where would this leave me and Edward if he found out, I needed to be alone.

After showering I climbed into bed ready to doze off tired of overthinking everything when I heard a knock at the window it was Edward

"Hey love" he said opening the window.

"hey" I said as he climbed into my bed.

"How is Jacob? I know it was important for you to make sure he was ok" he said his voice sounding strained.

My heart begins to race. He is fine, I'm not for some reason I can't control myself around him I thought, feeling guilt wash over me.

"Bella are you ok?" he inquired pulling me into an embrace I flinched involuntarily at the cold that radiated off him he retracted his arm instantly as if he hurt me.

"Edward I am fine…he is fine… I'm tired" I mumbled even though I wasn't fine at all.

"Ok love gets some rest…I have a surprise for you tomorrow" he said placing a kiss on my forehead. I closed my eyes, but I didn't rest at all. I was making a list of why I was acting this way. The first thought being insanity, the second being I am falling in love with Jacob which scared me even more.

As soon as I awoke, I was dreading the day little to no sleep, and a probing Edward was not ideal, but I forced myself out of bed to shower and got ready for the day. Edward arrived right after I finished breakfast to take me to the meadow.

I loved this meadow surrounded by lavender gave me a sense of comfort "Are you feeling better today?" Edward asked as he brought my hand up to kiss it.

"I'm fine Edward really… I just wish I had more sleep" grumbled hoping my voice sounded more convincing than it felt.

"You are still just as beautiful with or without sleep "he said caressing my cheek, his touch still made my heart flutter, I loved him that much I was sure of but was I still in love with him.

"Thank you"

"Bella, I brought you here because I wanted to ask you something… Every waking moment before I met you seemed pointless a forever with no meaning, but when I met you, my heart was full everything made since, and you were my missing piece …. I want to spend my eternity with you if you'll have …will you marry me" he said pulling a ring out of his pocket.

I was stunned he wanted to marry me. I loved Edward and he made me happy, but I couldn't help but feel like he deserves someone to love him fully but maybe I could grow to love him fully I deserved a shot at happiness and so did he.

"yes" I sobbed unable to control the tears, the emotional turmoil was eating away at me because I wanted to be all in, but Jacob was on my mind. He would imprint one day and be even happier, I couldn't choose him and end up like Leah.

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It had two weeks since Edward proposed, Alice was buzzing around with wedding plans constantly bothering me, but the only thing I could think of was today was Jacob's birthday I hadn't heard from him, every time I called Billy would say he was busy or on patrol It ached not hearing from him.

I had to see him. I don't know what I did to him or why he wasn't speaking to me, but I was going to make it a point to see him today.

"Earth to Bella…. You never decided on a color scheme for the reception" Alice quipped.

"I'm sorry Alice… whatever you think would look best" I honestly had no interest in the details of the wedding, I wasn't even sure I still wanted a wedding.

"It's not what I decide it's your special day but because I have great taste this wedding will be perfect "she said while taking my measurements.

"Where is Edward?"

"He went into town with Jasper and Emmett to get their suits for the ceremony… I know you miss your friend Bella, but this is important it's you and Edward's wedding" she huffed I could tell she was slightly irritated by my lack of excitement.

My best friend is important."

"Sorry bad choice of words, I know he is important to you so invite him to the wedding!" she exclaimed as if she found all the answers to my problems.

"no" I said quickly earning me an odd look from Alice. Edward came to the same conclusion, but I didn't want Jacob there because I didn't want to hurt him more than I already had. After Alice had finished going over wedding plans with me, I went back to Charlie's and jumped in the shower trying to wash any possible vampire smell. Had made the decision to make a pop-up appearance at Emily's, I dressed in an olive-green skater dress that had pockets, black cardigan, and Black fleece leggings. I quickly threw on my hat and coat and headed that way.

I asked Charlie to drive me there because his car could handle the cold weather, and just in case Jacob was being stubborn, I knew Charlie would leave before me so I would hope beyond all hope Jake would give me a ride so I could talk to him, pulling up to such a familiar place gave me a sense of comfort, seeing some of the wolves standing outside of Emily's I began to feel nerves creep up

"Well look what the cat dragged in" Quil chided as he made his way to me as I stumbled out of Charlie's cruiser "glad you could make it Bella… I don't know if Jake would say the same" Embry expressed as we made our way into Emily's, accusing and sad stares were etched on everyones face, Jacob was sitting next to Sam with an unreadable expression.

"Happy Birthday Jacob" Charlie said seeming to sense the tension in the room as he made his way over to Billy.

"Thanks Charlie" he said with a half-smile that was gone as quick as it came.

"Hey…everyone" I said shuffling nervously.

"Hey Bella…nice to see you" Billy said with sadness heavy in his eyes.

"Hey Bella, it's nice of you to come… if you are hungry let me know I'll make you a plate" Emily said smiling as she held her son on her hip, he was a spitting image of Sam.

"Hey Bella" Sam said which slightly shocked me because I was under the impression, he didn't care for me very much, Jake never turned to look at me.

"Happy birthday Jake" I said as I sat near him, he looked at me and scoffed.

"Jacob…happy birthday" I repeated while reaching out to touch him.

"don't touch me" he snipped. The room seemed to still everyone watching our interaction with each other.

"Did I do something wrong?" I was genuinely confused.

"You never do" he said with a sarcastic laced tone. After what seemed like a lifetime everyone started to bustle around the house again, Emily placing more food around the table, after singing happy birthday I approached him one more time, I was desperate I needed my sunshine.

"Jake, can I talk to you privately" I asked knowing it would hardly be private considering all the supernatural hearing in the room.

"There is nothing to talk about" he huffed turning to meet my gaze.

"Yes, there is…if I did something wrong, I want to fix it…please" I begged after a long moment he reluctantly followed me outside.

"What do you want to talk about I was trying to enjoy my party."

"us" I whispered taken aback by his harsh tone.

"Us? There is no us… that was made very clear when you agreed to marry the leech" he sneered. I was stunned, I didn't know anyone was near the meadow that day but us, I was going to tell him, but I wanted to wait, Edward heard him and said nothing.

"Jake I was going to tell you but Ed- "

"You tend to blame everyone but yourself. YOU had sex with me, YOU tell me you love me, YOU act like you care about me, and somehow you never think it's your fault… you strung me along for what? Am I a joke to you?" he said his tone void of any emotion besides anger?

"No, Jake I wanted to tell you, but it wasn't the right time…and I wanted you to hear it from me…you're not a joke I'm just screw up."

"Just leave" he snipped.

"no" I said shakily.

"What?" he said furrowing his eyebrows.

"I can't leave I don't have a ride."

I told Charlie to leave without me in an effort to get on better terms with my best friend.

"Damn it…lets go" he muttered as began walking towards the garage.

"What about your party?"

"The sooner I drop you off the sooner I can get back to it" he huffed.

We rode in silence for the first few minutes.

"Jake I'm really sorry."

"I know" he sighed.

"Jake please" I begged.

"Please what? I have nothing left to give…my love is obviously not enough" he said clenching the steering wheel.

"Jake pull over" I said but he kept driving not even glancing at me.

"Jake pull over!" I exclaimed he pulled over his eyes still facing the road.

"Please look at me…" when he finally looked at me, the expression he wore almost made me burst into tears.

"Your love is more than enough…I'm not good enough for you" I hoped he would understand.

"You are enough for me Bella! I love everything about you" he stated.

"Jacob you are everything good in the world and I-lm plain, selfish, indecisive, clumsy" I murmured tears streaming down my cheek, his warm hands cupped my face wiping away the tears that was falling with his thumb.

"And you stubborn…smart, kind, shy, and you're the most beautiful women I have ever laid eyes on… I love and trust you with everything that I have, I just wish you felt the same" he said somberly.

"I wish I could see me from your point of view" I chuckled kissing the palm of his hand.

"I don't know any other way to show you…I've tried" he said truth is I was scared what if I wasn't good enough, what if he imprinted.

"Kiss me" I whispered I just wanted to be us, Jake and Bells even if it was just for a moment. He hesitated for a moment then leaned in pressing his lips gently to mine making my body shiver "are you cold?" he asked pulling away studying my face "no" I started leaning in to kiss him once more this time deepening the kiss. Without breaking the kiss, I climbed over to his seat straddling him, raking my nails over his chest "Bella" he groaned as I started placing kisses down his neck "we have to stop" he said I could feel his resolve slipping away with each peck.

"no" I mumbled against his neck as I rocked my hips against him "Bella" he huffed "no" I said again bringing my mouth to his once more. His hands were on my hips trying to steady my movements, I lifted up slightly snaking my hand between us unbuttoning and unzipping his pants allowing his erection to spring free. I wanted to feel whole again, I started struggling with removing my legging since we were in such close quarters, in one quick motion he ripped my legging, my panties followed.

I lined the tip of his erection up with my entrance "look at me" I said he locked his gaze on mine as I slid down him until he filled me. His eyes filled with lust and desire almost sent me over the edge on their own. I lifted up slowly lowering myself back onto him effectively making me whimper.

I picked up the pace, almost lifting myself off of him completely and lowering back down, he wrapped his arms around me hugging me closer to him, and began thrusting upward "yes" I moaned as he began pounding into me "fuck" he grunted I felt myself clenching around him as an orgasm quaked through my body he didn't slow his pace, still thrusting into me he leaned back lifting my shirt and unclasping my bra freeing my breast. Cupping one in his hand and the other in his mouth swirling and nipping, I felt like I was going to explode "Jake t-too much" I whimpered feeling like all my senses were being overloaded "no" he grunted picking up pace as he rocked into me, I felt the familiar coil in my stomach begin to tighten "FUCK JAKE" I yelled as I felt my legs begin to convulse, my orgasm making me clench around him, milking him "shit" he groaned spilling inside of me moments later.

We sat there for a moment trying to catch our breaths, me reveling in his warmth "happy birthday" I huffed still laying against is chest "thank you" he chuckled. The rest of the ride was filled with light conversation neither of us wanting to ruin the mood, when we arrived I tried my best to fix my appearance "thank you for the ride" I said immediately regretting the double meaning "anytime" he grinned as my blush grew darker "later Jake" I said retreating to the house "good bye Bella "he said sadness flickered in his expression once more before it was unreadable again Why did he say good bye? We never say goodbye, it was always see you later, Is this really the end of Jake and Bells?