A/N: Hey everyone! Thank you for sticking with me and this story.

Sorry for the long-awaited updates and the fact that this is just a

re write of chapter 4 BUT I will do better I promise... or at least try

to do better I just wanted to change the trajectory of this story a

bit so bear with me, on the plus side I plan to update the story

twice today so chapter 5 should be up right after this.

Disclaimer: I own nothing related to or affiliated with the Twilight

franchise, all of which belongs to Stephanie Meyer

Bella POV

I sat in that bathroom in utter disbelief, my life was in shambles. I

called off my engagement, I cheated on my fiancé, I pushed my best

friend away and I finally realized that I loved him, he imprinted on

someone else, and now I am pregnant with his child. This couldn't

be more of a slap in the face from the universe "get it together Bella"

I muttered to myself wiping my face and finally exiting the bathroom.

On the way back to Charlie's I couldn't stop thinking about what I

should do, this was going to change everything, but was I ready for

that? I have no idea, but I decided before jumping to any extreme

conclusions I should make a doctor's appointment to confirm the

pregnancy.

I made the appointment for the next day hoping I just got a false

positive and could run away from everything and start over " Hi Ms.

Swan I am Dr. Aldrige, I hear you came to see me for a positive

pregnancy test" she said smiling as she entered the room, I tried to

imitate the smile but it probably look closer to a grimace " y-yes " I

stuttered nerves getting the best of me " Ok first things first, do you

remember your last period?" she said ready to document my

answer. Oh god when was my last period? I had no idea, with

everything going on I hadn't paid it much attention "I don't know" I

muttered " That is fine, I just needed a urine sample and I will be

right back with your test results" I nodded in response as the small

hope started to vanish everything was happening so fast and I just

needed everything to slow down for once. " Alright miss Swan,

congratulations you are indeed pregnant" she said " I- uh, ok" I was

lost for words, I wanted to express how I felt but I wasn't sure how I

felt " we want you back here in a week, to see the baby and get an

estimate on how far along you are, How is next Friday?" she asked "

it's fine" I muttered " ok, great and if you have any questions or

concerns before then feel free to call the office" she said getting up

from her seat.

On the ride home I sobbed, which became a constant thing lately.

What was I going to do? Should I keep it? How will I tell everyone?

Should I tell everyone? Who should I tell first? All these questions

rang in my head all at once. I still didn't know the answer to the most

important question, should I tell Jacob. I wasn't even sure if I wanted

to keep it, I would never want to give birth to a baby in this mess I

created.

Jacobs POV

Being away from Bella felt like I was dying inside but she chose what

she wanted in life, and it wasn't me. Seeing her that day, seeing her

sick was devastating, every time I thought I could make it without

her she would come back, it made sense she was my imprint, but

she doesn't love me like I love her so it's time to move on. I couldn't

allow myself to be someone's second option she was married going

to get married and die. I finally got a little happiness through those

dreadful days when I met Ana.

Flash back*

I sat in the sand at the beach alone. With nothing but my thoughts, I

couldn't believe the love of my life was going to die, well become a

vampire but it was all the same to me.

"Can I join you" an unfamiliar voice chimed.

"no" I snipped.

"Cool… I'm Liliana but I go by Ana…and you are?" she said sitting

next to me.

"Not interested in small talk" why wouldn't she get a clue.

"Grumpy… it's ok the feistier the better its good for character and I

like my friends to have a little personality." She said smiling at me.

"I don't want or need your friendship" I huffed growing slightly

irritated at the fact she wasn't catching the hint.

"no one needs friends… they are just good to have especially when

you're feeling alone" she noted, removing the small bag off her back,

taking out a sandwich.

"Would you like a piece … it's turkey and cheddar because people

who eat ham honestly scare me."

"So… people who eat bacon must make you want to jump out of

your skin" I stated raising an eyebrow she replied she an

exaggerated shudder.

"They are absolutely maniacal." She said wrapping her arms around

herself which made me chuckle.

"Oh, wow he has a personality…and a really amazing smile which

you should do more often, Mr. mystery" she said ripping her

sandwich in half handing me a piece.

"it's Jake."

End flashback*

She made everything easier, Bella's name still brought pain, but

having Ana around made it bearable.

"What are you thinking about?" she said coming in wrapping her

arms around me.

"you" I said.

"Well good I was beginning to think you found something more

interesting to run through your mind" she said giving me a peck on

the cheek, we just enjoyed each other's company we had no labels

Except that we were good friends and I appreciate that she

understood my heart was stilling healing.

"Breakfast is ready and of course I added the real villain of the day

bacon" she giggled leaving the room. Today her warm smile and

laughter couldn't help me from the absence ache I got from not

being around my imprint especially since she needed me, she was

sick.

I decided to call her but all I got was her voicemail. I wanted to go

over there and take care of her but I knew that I couldn't, she didn't

want or need me the way I need her so a phone call to check up on

her would just have to do, and I will keep calling until I get answer,

until I know she is ok.

Bella POV

The week had come and gone. A week of crying, morning sickness,

Jake calling at least ten times a day leaving voicemails asking if I

was ok, and sleepless nights. This pregnancy and the situation I'm

in made it all the worst but today I was going to see the baby that

was wreaking havoc on my body, the entire time I was waiting to be

seen, even when they took my vitals all I could think about was Jake.

Laying on that table as the doctor squeezed this blue jelly on my

stomach felt like an out of body experience. Then the screen lit up

and there in all its glory was the baby "Ms. Swan you about 10

weeks" the nurse said. Couldn't take my eyes off the screen, which

was my baby. Me and Jake's baby "you are one of the lucky ones,

you are almost out of the first trimester and the morning sickness

should subside" she said as she wiped the jelly off my stomach and

printed out the ultrasound.

Pregnant, I Bella Swan was pregnant, the weight and the realization

of this situation weighed in and to add to this cruel joke, the father

wasn't my estranged boyfriend who I wasn't sure I still wanted to be

with, it was my best friend who I was sure was happy without me. I

stared at the ultrasound; the blob vaguely resembled a baby staring

back at me 'ok Bella, what's first' I thought, standing up examining

myself in the mirror, grazing my hand over my abdomen. There was

a slight bump that could easily be mistaken for bloat 'I am about 10

weeks now and not noticeably showing so I can hide it...do I even

want this baby' I thought and immediately reprimanded myself,

typical me wanting to take the easy way out of a mess I created, but

I didn't want to bring this baby into my fucked-up reality, and I didn't

want to ruin Jacob's life more than I had "Jake I could really use your

support right now" I muttered to myself tears prickling my eyes, I

wiped away the stray tears that had fallen and picked up my phone I

needed to talk to someone " Hey can you meet me in Port Angelos

at that cafe on Struan?... please and please come alone... and don't

tell anyone you are meeting me, I just really need to talk to

someone" I said my shakily "Sure, Swan" she said hanging up the

phone.

Walking into the cafe I saw a less than thrilled Leah waiting for me, I

felt like she was the best option to get advice from because she

would be brutally honest with me "I'm glad you came... I wasn't sure

you would, does anyone know you are here" I asked her while I sat

across from her "if by people you mean Jacob, he has no idea I am

here now quit wasting my time Swan, what did you need to talk

about so badly you called me of all people" she snipped " I need

your advice" I said "my advice to you don't call my phone again

wasting the only free time I had today" she scoffed standing up to

leave " Wait!... Leah I'm pregnant" I said hurriedly, she froze for a

moment and sat back down "you are such a horrible person... and

for some God forsaken reason everyone thinks you are some kind of

saint and you're not, in fact you are the furthest thing from it... you

drag Jacob along, tell him you love him only not enough, get married

to his mortal enemy, sport around that huge horrendous ring, get

pregnant with some monster baby, and then you call me, to what?

Help you drag Jake into your screwed up life... How could you do

this to him? You're his impr- he loves you and all you keep doing is

dragging him into your bullshit because you know he will come and

honestly, I-" she fumed but I cut her off "I'm not married and Jacob

is the father" I whispered knowing most of what she said was true I

was horrible but it didn't make it hurt any less " How do you know

it's Jacob's?" she questioned

"Because Edward barely wants to kiss me let alone have sex with

me" I said taking the ultrasound out of my pocket sliding it across

the table "I'm 10 weeks" I told her "Have you told Jacob or anyone

else?" she asked "no" I said "Why?" she asked sliding the image

back to me " I just found out myself and that's why I called you, I

don't want to hurt Jacob more than I have already have" I said " I can

only tell you one thing this life doesn't bring many joys, especially

for people like me and Jake, our life was decided for us as soon as

we phased and one of the joys I will never experience is children...

tell him, he deserves to know even if you decide not to keep it and

don't take too long to tell or I will" she said getting up and leaving.

The only thing this conversation helped me figure out was things I

already knew, that I am a horrible person, and I need to tell Jacob I

am pregnant. I still wasn't sure if I wanted this baby but I was sure I

didn't want to lose Jacob.