Josh

I couldn't believe it; we had 2 beautiful baby girls, and I was over the moon happy about it. Ashe was 3 going on 20 and she was a handful as it is and now, we have Janna. She is hard to read right now as she is only a few days old, but I am going to figure her out, not like I have anything better to do. With Sophie wanting to finish school and me being injured I had nothing better to do than hang out with my girls. Ashe was loving having me at home, although I couldn't really do much, my leg was giving me problems. It hurt a lot I am not going to lie; I was going to really miss basketball. I didn't know if I would ever get it back, I can barely walk to the damn bathroom now, without excruciating pain, so this was going to be interesting. Sophie came down she changed Janna for the 20th time this girl liked to puke up her milk, it was gross. "Does she have some sort of intolerance?" I asked, "no she just drinks so fast it is too much for her, I wonder if we can get that fixed" she said. "Yeah maybe" I said not really knowing that she just said to me, "I have school soon, Sylvie will be here to help" she said. "I do not need Sylvie" I said annoyed I hated how she wasn't fired yet. "Josh there is no way in hell you can take care of both Janna and Ashe when you can't even walk! Sylvie will take Ashe to the park, and then you just need to feed Janna when she cries" Sophie said. It made sense and she was right, I wasn't going to fight her on the subject, but Sylvie needed to go, she literally lost Ashe twice, so I didn't exactly trust her. Apparently, they were not her fault but Ashe was in her care, so I don't know how it wasn't her fault. Sophie kissed all 3 of us before leaving for school, as soon as she left, I already had my hands full. Ashe was crying because I wasn't playing with her and Janna was crying because I wasn't fast enough on my feet to get her bottle. I mean damn I was struggling; I don't know how I am going to survive hurt here.

"Baby girl daddy will play with you after I feed your sister okay" I said, "no now!" she screamed loudly making Janna cry louder, it was hard to even think in this noise. I heard someone walk into the house, I looked to see Sylvie, "oh my what is wrong?" she asked Ashe, "daddy won't play" she whined, "daddy looks busy but I can play, or maybe we can go to the park?" she said, "PARK YAY!" Ashe cheered as she went to get her jacket and shoes, I was able to get the bottle ready for Janna and I sat down with her in my arms. I was happy to have he silence. I wanted to pace her while she ate because I didn't need to have her throw up again, I wanted to see if we could figure it out. After she ate I burped her and rocked her in my arms, she was still so small I wanted to shelter her from everything. I had no idea if she was a mommy's girl or a daddy's girl yet but I am not sure I could handle both of them being daddy's girls. Ashe was getting better, and she was still a daddy's girl but ever since she saw her mom get hurt, she was more attached to her. I felt bad that I couldn't do much but sit here, I wanted so badly to chase her around the farm or something, but I would need to wait until my leg healed, I admit it hurt like hell. Even just the slightest movement set it off into a flair of pain, I am not sure how I am going to survive this next year. Christmas was amazing and the holidays were over, Janna was born on January 2nd and I just sort of missed basketball. I turned on the TV to watch the Raptors were playing without me, it did make a bit sad. I know I wanted toe be at home with my family but it just felt like I should be there. I had no idea if I was going to ever going to see Angela and Rory again, I was going to miss them a lot. I made a new life for myself and now I was stuck here in this chair not being able to walk all that much. My leg was stiff I did overdo it a lot over the holidays and now I was paying for it. I heard my phone ring it was Riley; she was in college now and I was proud of her. She was following along in grandma's footsteps she was wanting to become a vet. She had to go to school in Calgary for now and she was lonely. I answered, "hello" I said, "Josh I am so homesick, how is Janna?" she asked, "good she is asleep, for now. I bet you are homesick but think of what you are doing, I am proud of you" I said, "thanks, ugh I wish Toronto accepted me" she said, "keep trying you never know kiddo" I said. She was on a waiting list for the program in Toronto but for now she needed to concentrate on school. If she wanted to transfer, she was going to need to work hard. "Work hard Riley, they will call you eventually and hey I am only a call away" I said. "I know ugh send me pics okay" she said, "I will" I replied as she hung up and Janna woke up for another feed. Her and I were in a routine, when Ashe came back with Sylvie and Sophie came home from school.

Sophie started on dinner, and I put Janna down so I could have some time with Ashe, "daddy play with me" she said, "sure but it has to be something that doesn't require daddy to move" I said. "Horsey" she said, "Awe Ashe baby I can't daddy's leg is sore" I said. She started to cry but I distracted her with some dolls and were able to play house before dinner. Getting her to eat these days was a chore, I mean it was a miracle if she was able to get any nutrients into her body. She was healthy though and super happy I guess that was all that mattered. Dr. Shepard told us she would not starve herself and she would eat when she is hungry. I mean sure she could eat snacks all day long that was not an issue for her but when it came to substantial food it was a nightmare. Once again, she barely, ate but Sylvie took her upstairs and gave her a bath, while Sophie fed Janna on the couch. I tried to move a bit more I didn't want to have a stiff leg forever. "Josh if it is bothering you get it looked at" she said, "I will but I just I am hoping it will go away" I said. "You know it won't go see someone tomorrow" she said, "Okay, can we talk about Sylvie" I said, "sure what about her?" Sophie asked, "she is going back to school right, well I am not sure I can do this on my own" I said. "Right well you wanted her to today do I am not sure" Sophie said. "We need to talk about it but tonight is not the night" I said. "When she leaves we will figure it out, but for now Josh we are fine" she said. She kissed me and took Janna upstairs I sighed as I sat on the couch. I knew there was an election tomorrow and I was going to need to vote. Something told me that Mayor Goodway was not going to be mayor this time, the guy running against her sounded pretty promising. He promised a lot of changes to Adventure Bay and I felt like I might vote for him. I mean I wanted Adventure Bay to be somewhere I was proud to raise my kids, there was just too much crime and suffering here. I mean if there wasn't then my uncle Chase would be out of a job but I felt like lately the crime was just getting worse. I wanted and end to that and he promised it would happen, so we will have to see. I was going to need to go see a doctor, vote and figure out what we were going to do about Sylvie leaving. I knew that I was a target being an NBA star but I just didn't need anything to happen to my kids. I wanted to be able to protect them, I needed to protect them and having a busted leg was not helping me. Only time would heal it though and I had a feeling the way it was healing I was most likely going to need surgery which was going to take even longer for the healing process. I just needed to take things one day at a time and getting it looked at was first on my list, I knew Sophie had school again so I would most likely be taking Janna with me unless Sylvie took her too. I just don't know about Sylvie anymore, sure she is good with Ashe but I still have a hard time trusting her. She is leaving for school so I think just getting rid of her now would be better, there is no need to hold onto her if she is just going to leave anyways.