...
You know, being an eminence wasnt the only cool thing about basically living Cid's life...
The girls were a pleasant surprise in my early years and now i know why it must have sucked for Cid thinking that they basically no longer want to 'roleplay' with him...
Oh well, problem for future me!
Problem for current me was the Wild Claire that i took back was constantly poking me.
"I know you did something, fess up!"
"Did what?"
"You were part of the rescue operation, dont lie to me."
"What are you talking about, Claire?"
I had become somewhat of a great actor over those last 3 years and when i tell you this wasnt acting and i was seriously about to 'I AM ATOMIC' her ass into next saturday, i wouldnt be joking.
"You were the boy clad in black!"
The poking intensified as did the regret for my life choices.
"What boy in black."
I tried holding back but i sound so fucking done its astonishing.
Though... 'i looked into the abyss once and it has since called me its master' was a GREAT one liner!
Hi.
This is future me.
Remember that problem i left for myself earlier?
Yeah, I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT!
WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN THEY TELL ME THEY ARE LEAVING FOR THE BETTERMENT OF THE GARDEN?
All 7 are right fucking behind me telling me basically 'yeah, were leaving lmao, bye!' HOW THE FUCK DO I RESPOND?!
Hm... maybe something like...
"...Remember that all places that have light, must have shadows. the bigger the light the stronger the shadow."
I guess a wise quote was fine...
I turn away but as i turn to leave i couldnt help but look over my shoulder and tell them
"...You mustnt forget about your health, stay safe my dear shades."
Then i turned my head and proceeded to walk away not seeing their surprised expressions.
After a certain distance in which im sure they couldnt see me anymore...
I let out a small tear.
I of course immediately wipe it as no eminence would ever cry...
But if thats the case, why am i crying right now?
...
Im going to miss them.
Here i am in front of the carriage thats going to take Claire away to the academy.
"Ill see you in 2 years, Kazoto."
"Right, just dont be slacking off because i might take it seriously when i enter the academy"
I shrug.
To answer your question, no. no i wont be taking it seriously.
"Really now?"
She said in a teasing tone.
"Uh huh."
I reply in a confident manner.
"Sure you will..."
Her smile softly goes away before she hugs me.
"Promise me that you'll be fine?"
"Promise."
She lets go of the surprise hug.
We dont say another word as she turns her back to me and start waving before entering the carriage and leaving.
...
I let out a sigh letting go of overdrive to conserve my brains braincells.
I ignore the Kagenou's arguing in the background as i silently leave the area.
I dejectedly walk back to my house.
To keep appearances up, of course...
I mean if i wanted to i could basically get to the capital in less then a day but...
Thats not something 'Kazoto' can do...
Man, this hit me way harder then i expected...
It will be fine, wont it?
Ill get to see everyone soon anyways and then we have Alexandria...
Why do i keep finding myself having to tell myself that its fine?!
ARGHHH THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!
...
I guess ill see them soon and thats that...
IS IT TIME? IS IT TIME? IS IT TIME YET?
I run down the stairs in a hurry and trip.
My mother screams out seeing me fall and my father is already moving to try and catch me.
"KAZOTO!"
...Only for me to put my hand on the ground and spin a 190 doing a front flip exactly in front of my parents.
"I am here!"
My mother looked shocked, appalled, flabbergasted, i cant really think of any other adjectives so imagine another 56 please.
"Since when-"
"Is the carriage here?!"
Stars brimming in my red eyes basically.
My father snapped out of his shock and started laughing, doubling over.
"HAHAHAHAHA! THATS MY BOY! HAHAHA-"
He had a goofy grin as he fell to the floor laughing.
Even mother couldnt hold it in and started giggling a bit seeing my father rolling over laughing.
Finally my dad got up and confirmed my great theory of time passage. (he basically told me 'yeah the carriage is here.')
Okay, remember what you practiced for this!
We finally are in front of the carriage.
Father put his hand on my shoulder and smiled a sad smile.
"Listen champ, no matter what we are proud of you... okay?"
I smile at him back and nod.
"Yes father"
"Take care of yourself okay Kazoto? your mother is an old woman now and cant handle much more stress!"
"Ill try my best mother"
I smile at her as well as i enter the carriage.
I wave to them through the window one final time as the carriage takes off.
...
Alright.
Heres the academy plan, im planning to go another route instead of that of Cid's mob.
Im gonna be a side/supporting character!
That way, i can help the heroine known as Claire while still not being suspectable of being the shadow eminence himself!
Like, for example...
Im not being friends with skel or po those two make me wanna kill myself.
But in exchange i wont be involved with alexia since no one makes the stupid bet with me
I mean, its her problem not mine soooo...
Hey, im the supporting cast of Claire's story not Alexia's she can go do whatever she wants for all i care.
Speaking of...
The bunshin tournament.
Or what was the school one called?
Bah! doesnt matter!
Regardless im going to try and make it far in.
Not too far to the point im noticed by big parties but far enough to be said that i at the very least, tried.
I still dont know what to do about sherry...
Telling her straight up? wont believe me.
Letting her see and hear? traumatized.
Showing myself as shadow after he talks? tells her im shadow as 1. and its the same as the second point.
So i have to find a way to kill him while letting sherry figure it out by herself.
...
No biggie im sure, good luck future me!
But i have a plan for a special someone later down the line...
I subconsciously smile.
Someone very special indeed.
Oh and im goin to live in the advanced student dorm rooms with Claire.
The place Cid lived in... left alot to be desired.
Either i ask Gamma for help or i hunt bandits until im 46 either way ill have the money right?
...On second thought? im not bothering Gamma with that, im just gonna make it far enough to be noticed in the tournament so they give me a free pass...
Midgar academy...
Prepare yourself because the shadow eminence himself is on his way!
...
This is the part where i say that sounded better in my head but this IS my head so its a little awkward, bear with me please...
