I only own the plot
CPOV
"Elena got her claws in me too early. She used everything Grace told her against me. I didn't know that was what she was doing at first, but I recently just figured it out. I was sad. I just wanted attention and that is what she gave me. She gave me my first kiss. I never had sex with her, but I let her beat me whenever she wanted. She is into BDSM. As long as her attention was devoted only to me, I let her hit me with whatever she wanted. She wanted to have sex with me, but I told her no everytime. She would bring in others to watch her beat me and then she would have sex with them infront of me. I never found her attractive. I just craved attention. I left her 6 years ago. I became a dominant instead. I was tired of depending on her for affection. I thought that maybe if I reversed the roles, I wouldn't be so lonely anymore. I would have someone who depended on me. In the beginning, the relationships were sexual, but the later relationships were like the one I had with Elena. I thought if I added sex into the mix, the relationships would mean more. They didn't. I stopped being a dom over a year ago. I was resigned to living my life alone." There it is. I feel sick that I confessed my dark past to my Beauty, but I need everything out in the open. She needs to know all of me because I am about to lay all of my cards on the table today. Hopefully she feels the same. Here goes nothing.
"That was until I met you. Now that I know you, I don't think I can go back to that life. I need you in my life. I'd understand if you just want to be friends after what I just told you, but I just need you in my life Ana. You bring so much to my life. Joy, light, Beauty. Please Anast-" I am cut off with a blinding kiss from her. She crawls into my lap and continues to kiss my lights out. She pulls away and starts pecking all over my face.
"Christian, baby. I am so sorry for what you went through. Never will you have to go through anything else alone. I am here. As your partner in everything. I need you to be with me as much as you need me to be with you. You have my full attention. Always will. If you feel uncomfortable with anything, I need you to communicate with me so that we can fix the issue. I am a clingy person and I know that can be annoying to some. Just let me know if you need space please." She thinks she's clingy? Just wait until she meets my possessive and overprotective side.
"Never. I want you to invade every aspect of my life. I want to share everything with you. I have no more secrets. You know everything." I kiss her once more and we break apart. I can't wait another second to ask her.
"Will you be my girlfriend Beauty?" I ask shyly even though I am kind of sure of her answer.
"Baby, it would be an honor to be yours. I have to let you know that I don't share. If I am gonna be yours, you have to be mine as well. All in." She looks at me in my eye to let me know she is being truthful.
"Beauty, I am way too possessive and overprotective to even think about sharing any part of us with anyone else. That's not up for discussion." I look back into her eyes so she knows I mean every word.
She smiles at me. So beautiful. "Ok then. Since that is settled and I know everything about you now. I guess it's my turn to get everything out in the open. I want no secrets between us. I will warn you, it is not all roses and fun in the beginning. I was hurt and traumatized while I was still living with my mom."
I brace myself for the story that was about to come. I know I won't like it, but I have to listen without reacting like how she did for me. Regardless of what she says, I'm here no matter what.
