Here's a new chapter while I finish up the Krile focused one and the Moonfire Faire one.

So here's a peek into Naruko's personal thoughts from the start of ARR to the end, along with some small details talking 1.0 and before.

Ok so real quick before the fic. I'm not bashing Alphinaud in this. All I've done is keep him in his ARR mindset for now due to him not getting that big kick of character development in HW. Because let's face it, ARR Alphinaud didn't see the WoL as a friend or ally. He saw him as a tool to be used, just look at his statement when he was told the Alliance couldn't commit a large force for his plan to defend Ishgard. He straight up insulted the WoL while sitting next to him and then acted like he was in the right, only for the WoL and the 'greedy' adventurers to outperform his precious Crystal Braves.


"Is this truly a wise idea?"

The Scions(baring Naruko and Tataru who were still refusing to come back to the Rising Stones for longer than a few hours) were gathered around one of the round tables. On said table lay a book. And what a book it was, it was worn, had a few tears in it and for whatever reason, had a small strip of cloth with a tiny crystal tied in it dangling from the spine… it was a journal... probably. Could be a grimoire… maybe a cookbook? Naruko did take up cooking a few months before the banquet… oooh, maybe the recipe for that pulled pork stuff she made a few times was in there? Perhaps one for her baked cheesecake?

"Really Alisaie? This may hold the answers we seek and yet here you are saying this is a bad idea." Alphinaud said with a roll of his eyes.

"Yes brother. I do think this is a terrible idea. Twelve above, Naruko has already been cleared of attempted regicide and yet you still don't trust her!?" Honestly Alisaie was sick of it. Naruko had near single handedly proved her innocence along with bringing the true villain to light… and yet here they stood, ready to violate what little remained of her privacy by reading her journal.

Why? Because Alphinaud was insistent that they do so because he was still so certain that Naruko could still possibly be a spy or that she could be potentially hiding something dangerous…. It's clear he is only doing it because Naruko kicked the crap out of him after the Halatali incident. As well as the fact that his precious Grand Company of Eorzea damn near ended in a full on civil war in Ul'dah…honestly, you would think he would have learnt his lesson after that rather brutal dressing down he'd gotten from Naruko, the day the truth was laid bare. But alas, Alphinaud was far too prideful to see his own shortcomings.. as per usual.

"Alisaie.. I understand your trepidation but this is the best course of action. Besides, if it does indeed clear Naruko of the lingering accusations against her, isn't it a worthwhile sacrifice?" Minfilia reasoned. Alisaie however was having none of it "And how the hell do you think this will go down when she finds out? Good luck trying to fight her if she goes ballistic." Alisaie yelled as she stormed off. "I want no part in this!" She shouted as she exited.

Shortly afterwards Urianger followed, silently disagreeing with the idea of reading the Warrior of Light's private thoughts.

Alphinaud scoffed softly as he opened the journal. They were doing the right thing, and sure, Naruko would probably be rather cross with them about this.. if she found out that is, which she won't. So really it was a victimless crime.

Naruko's journal

Private, do not read. That means you Tataru..no seriously, if any of you so much as glance at the next page I will know. And it will not be pretty…

No really. Don't. Unless you wanna read about my chronic nightmares and my odd habits/things I get up to in my spare time, stop now.

"I wonder what she means by 'she will know'?" Y'shtola murmurs as Alphinaud turned the page.

"What was that about chronic nightmares?" Minfilia murmured softly. "What, you've never been woken up in the dead of night by her screaming?" Yda asked much to the shock of the others, minus Y'shtola who nodded "I can confirm that she has done that on a rare few occasions.. I know this due to my room being across from hers after all."

Minfilia looked visibly troubled by that fact.

"Gods, her penmanship is almost as bad as yours Yda." Papalymo grumbled as he looked at the slightly messy handwriting.

"Hey!"

Entry 1.

It's been about four days since I was flung through time & space by that spell. I still can't believe it flung me to gods know where and completely ass naked...I landed on a rock and my butt still has a bruise from it… blasted pointy thing.. if I had landed an ilm or two to the left it would have probably gone in my butt and that would not have been fun.

I'm beginning to think Hydaelyn is taunting me as well. There was a box a few fulms from where I landed that had my name on it, the contents of which were:

This journal.

A small pouch that has this strange little symbol on it.

A coin pouch with 10000 Gil in it.

Clothes (that were to fucking small! Seriously, it felt like my tits were getting crushed)

A ham and cheese sandwich (where the hell did she get that?)

A bottle of orange juice.

A waterskin that held far more water than it should be able to… no really, it took me five whole minutes to refill it. After which I emptied the contents into an empty barrel I found on the side of the road and it started overflowing.

A short sword (Where the hell is my Bravura!?)

Something called an 'Armory Chest Crystal' I'm totally calling it something else though..hmm, thoughts for later.

A map that shows my current location(I think it has some bullshit magic or something because it changes depending where I am.)

And a book that was nothing but crossword puzzles (Where the hell did Hydaelyn get sticky notes? Because it had one on it that said 'Something to keep your brain busy' on it)

A pen (how else would I be writing after all)

But onto serious matters, my memory is a touch foggy, but I remember the battle of Carteneau.. I remember the destruction Bahamut had wrought… gods why did I get a second chance? My failure to stop Nael van Darnus is the reason Dalamud fell. Why? Why did Hydaelyn pluck me from the aether for five years?

Do I truly deserve this second chance?

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Entry 2.

I'm having a hard time remembering some of my old techniques. It's really starting to piss me off.

But on other news I've been settling in fine. Momodi is still as kind(and beautiful) as I remember..though it hurts that she doesn't remember me… no-one does…

Kinda sucks because I was sorta hoping Momodi remembered me… What? She's a friend, a very very beautiful friend… oh god I'm talking to myself again… well actually this would be writing to myself but… Oh goddamn it.

Oh and I got dogpiled this afternoon. Yeah I had to find some prissy little rich girl and it ended in me fighting off some lesser Voidsent with that Thancred guy that was part of Old Man Louisoix's group. Long story short, I socked the fucking cunt in the eye after she kept going at me… which led to me getting bodied by some Sultansworn.

Why they were there I haven't a damn clue. Maybe she is a friend of the Sultana's?

Regardless, if you're gonna talk shit. Be prepared to get hit.

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Entry 3.

Well I'm surprised I'm not a dead woman. Turns out the snide little bitch I socked 10 days ago was the Sultana.

When I awoke from the Echo giving yet another inopportune vision during the banquet I found that I was not alone in my room. Momodi had sat at my bedside the entire night and when I awoke had rushed out of the room claiming the Flame General wished to speak with me the moment I awoke. She returned a few minutes later saying that Raubahn and Nanamo wished to speak with me, and then she left again.

Honestly… I'm fucking terrified.

And sure I've faced Primals and other god awful creatures in the past… but the anger of a potentially angry father is far, far worse. And while yes Raubahn isn't Her Grace's blood father, I'm not fool enough to not see that he sees her as something of a daughter he never had.

So now I wait… oh crap I think that's them now.

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Entry 5.

Well I'm alive somehow.

When Momodi came back she was accompanied by Raubahn and Nanamo. And much to my surprise I was not going to be tossed in jail for punching her… though after getting a good look at her I really feel shit for doing it… but then on the other hand her calling me a witless whore, who would be better off selling herself instead of adventuring went to far… but then again she couldn't have known that I damn nearly got forced into that kind of life back before I was forced into the XIVth back when I was fifteen after I got my grabbers on Gaius van Baelsar's coin purse. And so I apologized for hitting her and told her that I reacted like that due to her words touching on a nerve… not that it excused me punching her. Despite the fact that she insisted that she was in the wrong and all.. but really! How does she expect me not to apologize when she's giving me that sad look? And don't even get me started on how the black eye made it worse.

-Side note-

I still don't know why the hell they spell Jail like Gaol here in Eorzea and in some places in Othard and Hingashi? It's like Namedays.. just call them fucking Birthday's you dicks.

-Side note 2-

Man I rushed this entry so much that I forgot paragraphs. Oh well..

"Well this is getting us nowhere fast." Yda complained. This isn't what she was expecting, and by that she was under the impression that the journal would hold more than a brief summary of events, or possibly just the good bits. But no, Naruko used her journal like any other person would.. much to Yda's boredom.

"I agree. All we have found so far is just irrelevant information.. although I am quite shocked that Naruko nearly fell into a life of prostitution…" Y'shtola said with a frown.

"Indeed.. though I'm not all that surprised. Many orphan's that resort to thievery usually end up dead, in prison or worse." Thancred said almost bitterly. Seeing this brought back memories that he would rather stay buried.

"Orphan? Thancred, her mother is alive and well from what Yugiri has told us." Minfilia pointed out. Thancred shook his head "You don't honestly believe that Naruko ran away when she was ten do you? Call it experience but there was definitely more to the situation."

While they were speaking, Alphinaud continued to read through the entries until he stumbled across a certain one "Why in the Twelve's name would she write this!?"

The others looked at Alphinaud who turned away from the book red-faced.

"Ooooh let me see. Let me see!" Yda shouted as she snatched the book "Hmm nothing too strange, why did you… oh.. ooooh by Rhalgr." she muttered as her cheeks reddened.

Entry 29.

Well I certainly had an interesting time last night.

To start off I got this offer to join some group or something. I asked the person who told me about it(I can't remember their name but he was familiar) to give me a week or two to make my decision. All in all, damn pretty suspicious if you ask me so I went back to the Quicksand to ask Momodi her opinion...to which I completely forgot to do.

I HAD A GOOD REASON THOUGH!

See, after sitting and getting myself a drink this Lalafell girl sits next to me and orders a tall glass of Vodka and Orange juice. Not a bad drink for a warm night. I myself was drinking Gin and Tonic, nice and refreshing with a hint of sourness from the lime.(Note, it's funny how I don't usually drink but when I do I always go for stuff like that… I blame Wulfgard, the old bastard always said if you are gonna drink, then you may as well drink something decent. Then again, I've always thought most beers and ales taste like earwax so I guess it makes sense… gods damn Doman taste buds.)

Anyway the Lalafell was an interesting one that's for sure. She was wearing a long sleeved pink shirt, brown work pants and these cute red shoes. Her hair was loosely tied back and was a beautiful shade of lilac that matched well with her violet eyes. We immediately hit it off. It started innocently enough, both of us just talking about our day and such. She wasn't very subtle with her flirting which I found to be.. well if I'm honest, extremely hot… what? I haven't gotten laid in like what five years technically. And anyway she was totally my type. Forward, but not a massive creep. Flirty, but not sleazy or cringeworthy. Cute… ok look, I like girls that are shorter than me ok! It's not my fault that I'm only 5'4.

So after a few hours of drinking and flirting we wound up in my room. Next thing I know we're pretty much naked and making out, one thing led to another and then she was playing with my tits like a woman possessed. So not to be outmatched by this miniature sex fiend, I grabbed her by the hips and spun her upside down so her ass and pussy were in my face and I just fucking went for it. Gods the sounds she made were so cute.. and hot…

Anyway we were going at it for quite a while.. by the time we were finished I'm pretty sure the sun was just starting to peak above the horizon… sadly though, when I woke up later in the day(with one hell of a hangover) she was gone… and here I am feeling like an idiot because I never got her name.

Seriously, I haven't had sex that great since that time Momodi gave me that early birthday present five years ago…

Huh now that I think of it, that may be why I'm into Lalafell women.

"I.. I'm just going to pretend I didn't just read that." Minfilia says with a blush. It was extremely apparent who the Lalafell that Naruko described was and if she was honest she knows exactly the aftermath of that night.. What an awkward afternoon that was.

"Wait so this is how Naruko and Tataru met?" Yda asked, getting nods from the others "And they banged on their first meeting?... Guess that explains why after she joined us, there were strange sounds that came from the showers late at night back at the Waking Sands every now and then… and here I thought the place was haunted."

Minfilia looked aghast "What!?"

"I think that we should stop here… gods know if she wrote anymore of her… experiences." Y'shtola said as she went to grab the journal.

"But we haven't found anything of merit yet." Alphinaud tried to argue.

"Alphinaud we don't even know how many entries are written.. we could very well be here for hours." The Miqo'te woman pressed. "And unless you wish to subject us all to the possibility of reading about Naruko's sex life, I'd suggest we quit whilst we are-"

"One hundred and fifty five." Everybody turned to Yda who held the journal open on one of its last pages "There are one hundred and fifty five entries, with around ten or so pages left blank...so what if we just pick six numbers and then call it quits?" She suggests.

"Hm, I see you are finally using your head from once Yda." Papalymo said almost smugly.

"Rude!"

Y'shtola let out a sigh before giving a small nod "Leave it up to chance then? I suppose it is quicker than reading through all the entries. But if we stumble across more… intimate information like what we just read, I will personally blame each and every one of you."

After a few moments of deliberation they had picked out six entries.

"Alright then, after this we put it back in Naruko's chambers and pretend we never touched it." Minfilia said, getting nods of agreement. However, little did they know, the small crystal attached to the spine had been glowing ever since they opened the slightly tattered journal.

Entry 55.

I've been a touch ill lately. I think the Lassi I drank may have curdled. As I write this I am seated on the toilet, my stomach in agony… I feel like Mt. Roda just exploded from my ass.

This is the last time I EVER trust Yda to make something. Family recipe my ass.

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Entry 34.

So I ended up taking that offer I got. Momodi explained to me that the Scions are good people and that if they are interested in me I should hear them out. She also refused to tell me the name of that Lalafell that damn near fucked me into the bed two weeks ago, something about me finding out soon enough or something. Of course, I could have said no. But I swear that woman knows just what buttons to press… and I don't mean in the bedroom that is.. I blame her for my Lalafell preference, gods damn small succubus. Gods she looks beautiful with her hair down…

And of course it turned out she was the receptionist for the Scions.. poor thing fainted when she saw me… Tataru, that's her name.

So as I said I took the offer.. and then almost immediately they threw me into an investigation into the Amalj'aa. Which in turn ended with me having to fight their 'god' Ifrit. After that I was asked to join a Grand Company. I went with the Immortal Flames… I wonder if I'll get my old Company stuff back if people remembered me?

I won't lie, it's good to see the Circle of Knowing survived.. somewhat…. Actually, didn't Minfilia also lead a group five years ago? I could have sworn that she did…

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Entry 93.

Good news journal, I am now officially in a relationship with Nanamo. The two of us had a talk after my last job for the Culinarian Guild and it ended with us confessing to each other… after I botched it and made her think I was talking about Tataru.. which made her cry.. which led to her falling in the water and needing to dry her clothes at my apartment.

Things are honestly starting to look up… though I'm not happy about my apartment door getting kicked in. Nor am I happy with Merlwyb causing Nanamo to nearly choke on her breakfast.

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Entry 152.

I don't trust Ilberd. Right from the start I have had this feeling about him… as if he is planning something. Riol agrees that something stinks, and it's not Minfilia's cooking.. First that shit with that black marketeer happened and then we found poor Wilred's corpse at Urth's Fount a week after he disappeared.. and I swear Ilberd looked almost pleased when I brought it up. I've voiced this concern to the others but they just simply shrugged it off. They just think I am stressed from the whole Iceheart situation and that I need to calm down and take a few days off.

And on that note… I have noticed the others are acting almost hostile towards me.. just yesterday when I entered Minfilia's office to ask if she wanted anything from the market in Limsa while Tataru and I were there, they were in the middle of a meeting and all but told me to fuck off…

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Entry 124.

I've been having those dreams again… and as a result I haven't slept properly in a week. Gods I'm so tired. And yet I fear drifting into the realm of dreams.. I fear seeing those visions of that city burning… and of the stars falling… ever since I was a child this fucking nightmare has plagued me! Why!?

Whenever the dream ends I feel as if my heart has been ripped in two..I feel despair and sorrow for a city that I don't even know is real or not!

So why… Why does it hurt so much?...

It wasn't fun explaining to Nanamo why I woke up screaming at two in the morning.. but I agree with her. The Echo is fucking bullshit.

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Entry 133.

When all is said and done with the Iceheart/Ivy situation I'm going to tell the others of my past in the XIVth. They deserve to know… I only fear how they will take it.

Will they hate me? Will they understand?... Will they cast me out…

If they hate me then they hate me. I can't… I can't keep living like this. I can't keep doing this. I need to tell them… better it comes from me then someone else.

Even though I am plagued by these thoughts, I am hopeful. When I told Tataru seven months ago she understood… albeit I was drunk when I told her and subsequently began to bawl my eyes out in fear she would hate me. She obviously didn't and swore to keep it a secret… I swear she is too good to me.

And when I finally worked up the courage a month ago to tell Raubahn and Nanamo...they didn't hate me… I didn't cry though, I came close but I didn't cry… that is until Nanamo hugged me and said that she loved me no matter what..

I cried then.

The Scions sat around the table in varying states of shock.

"She… she was going to tell us.." Minfilia whispered.

"That..that can't be right.." Alphinaud said, rereading the entry. The look of realization slowly appeared on his face "She...she wasn't a spy…"

"Gods how could we have been so blind? We took her skittishness and accusations against Ilberd as such clear signs of betrayal.." Y'shtola said with a disappointed sigh. Seriously, they knew better than this.. Master Matoya taught her better than this…

The others had similar thoughts. When they had received the information none of them wanted to believe it.. but as they slowly read through the various documents it became harder and harder to not see Naruko as a potential traitor.

Twelve damn it, how could they be so blind? When they had received the information the first thing they should have done was directly question her, not wait until the banquet where they had originally intended to reveal the information.

Alphinaud's eyes widened. "Gods… we played right into his hands." He said in both horror and shame. The info they had received came from a member of the Braves.. who in turn had received it from one of Teledji Adeledji's people.

Thinking about it, it was obvious wasn't it? They already knew any information coming from him could not be trusted... But instead of seeing through the obvious ploy, they accepted the information as fact, and in the process they had nearly damned the one person that had any chance to fight back the Ascians… but above all that…

They had turned in their friend.

Alphinaud leaned back in shock..'Was.. was I truly so desperate for validation.. so jealous of her that I…'

After a moment or two Minfilia finally spoke "Go to the final entry.."

With a small nod Alphinaud turned the page to the final entry.

Entry 155.

Something feels off about all this. I don't know what, but something is going to happen tonight.

I've informed Raubahn to be on alert and he agreed that something feels off… I.. I think Ilberd and his lot are planning something. I don't have solid proof, but I have a feeling they are on Adeledji's coin..

But when I brought it up to the others they said I was being paranoid. Gods why! Why won't they listen! Thal damn it! I told them! I told them this Grand Company of Eorzea shit would bite us in the ass, I told them that just randomly hiring people without doing any form of background check was foolishness... but no. Of course nobody fucking listens to me! I'm just the fucking person that hits things, their fucking weapon of light that they shake at their enemies… of course I'd be ignored.

I was never their friend. Never their ally.. all I am to them is a tool…

Please.. please let me be wrong… by the Twelve let me be wrong.

The Scions stared at the final entry of the journal in guilt and horror.

Naruko had tried… gods she had tried so damn hard to prevent the banquet incident.

"So not only do you still think me a traitor… but you also believe it appropriate to read my personal thoughts?" A cold voice spoke from behind them.

Alphinaud and the others broke out in a cold sweat as they slowly turned to see Naruko staring at them with her arms crossed, her dark armour marred with the telltale signs of recent combat.

Wordlessly, she held her hand out to which Alphinaud scrambled to hand her the journal.

"Hmph.. did you truly think I wouldn't have some form of protection on this?" She said motioning to the dangling crystal.

The others didn't answer.

"No matter… Now then, if you will excuse me I need to retrieve my other private things before you violate my privacy more than you already have." Naruko said as she deposited the worn book into her storage space before walking off towards the private rooms.

Shortly afterwards she was headed back out with a slightly bulging sack over her shoulder.

"Naruko wait!" Minfilia called out.

Naruko stopped just shy of the door "Do.. do you truly believe that we never saw you as a comrade.. as a friend?" Minfilia asked softly.

Naruko let out a sigh before turning her head slightly "If I were either, would you have turned on me as you did? If I were either.. would you have made assumptions without asking me?" She asked, only to receive silence "I thought as much. Now if you excuse me, I need to be on my way."

With that, she left. Leaving only the guilty in her wake.


Yeah, so the reason why I posted this instead of the Krile one is because I kinda fucked up and had to start form scratch. Long story short it's supposed to be a handful of instances where Krile and Naruko interact while Krile flip flops hopelessly because she's a bi mess in this fic and Naruko is exactly her type.. you'll find out more when it comes out. Also, I'll be explaining how the Naruko/Nanamo/Tataru/Krile relationship will work in that chapter… let's just say that Nanamo has been reading too much far eastern literature and has gotten ideas.

So be ready for a bit of backstory for Krile and her days at the Studium(it's brief but there), badly done perverse humor, bad jokes, misunderstandings involving friendly flirtation being taken literally, Tataru slapping Naruko's ass, Krile openly ogling Naruko(much to the chagrin of Y'shtola and a few others.. they are sick of her extreme thirst) and a brief few moments where Krile is a depressed and angry mess(she throws a bottle of rather expensive alcohol at Nanamo and immediately regrets it and freaks out) and finally, a bit of how Tataru deals with her feels…

And as for the Moonfire Faire chapter… let's just say that Naruko and Nanamo have a day(s) at the beach and shenanigans ensue.. and Raubahn sees something that makes him want to bleach his eyes with the strongest of alchemical mixtures.

So yeah. Depending on what one I finish first, that will be the one released.

Also come on, who didn't think that Momodi was behind Naruko's preference?