Lex POV
I sat on the floor in my room. I held the DVD:s in my hands in front of me, just as there was a knock on the door and dad came in.
"You okay kid?" I looked up at him and nodded, he sat down by me. "When you're upset, or sad with something… you sit down on the floor, lean your back against a wall. Put one leg straight out and rest it on the ground, the other one you pull up in I don't know how many degrees, you rest one arm against the bent knee and put your hands together, or if there's an item- you finger with it like you're doing with those DVD:s now." I laughed.
"Seriously dad… didn't know you were the one to see such details!" Dad chuckled.
"I'm not…. Carole is… but, that stays between you and me okay?" I nodded. "Now… do you want to talk about it?" I sighed and reached my hand up to lay the DVD:s on my desk. I looked to my hands- partly to hide the tears that were rising in my eyes. But who was I actually trying to fool? Dad pulled me close.
"You'll hate me." I almost whispered. I could feel dad putting his hand on my head.
"Alexandria Cara Snow Hudmel!" Oh! Know I knew he was going to say something serious- I'd never actually heard him use my full name like that. "Don't you dare say something like that I would ever hate you. I love you alright? So does Carole, Finn, Kurt, Blaine, Rebeccah, Tyler and the list goes on and on and on." I shook my head.
"Brian… he used to, when I was late from school, or… had missed a spot when taking the dishes or whatever. He beat me up- or he put one of those DVD:s in the recorder and forced me to watch them. That was the worse punishment- than getting beat I mean. He used to turn one of them off after like ten minutes playing, I tried watching the whole thing once because I wanted to know what he didn't want me to see. He found out before I got that far and… you know." I loosened myself from dad's embrace and leaned against the wall again. I sighed, and reached up to hold onto the DVD:s again. Dad kept his arm around my shoulders, slowly stroking my upper arm. At last I stood up and faced him.
"I'll watch it sooner or later anyway. Might as well get it over with!" I opened the door, keeping a steady grip of the DVD:s I walked downstairs, walked past mum and put the DVD in the player. It loaded and soon a picture of the kitchen in my old house. It was quiet and no one were in there at the moment- it was changed when Maddie was shown getting pushed into the vision of the camera. I swallowed.
"NO" My voice was heard, as I came running into the picture and tried to push Wyatt away from Maddie just as Brian came into the picture, he lifted me in the shirt and threw me away from him- right into one of the kitchen chairs. I tilted my head backwards and tried- I don't even know what.
"I have let go- I have let go- I have let go." I thought- thinking about both Maddie and Brian and Wyatt- but there was no use with trying. I realized I had let go but- the past was always there as I drew a deep breath and started thinking about a song.
And this song was so perfect, I could just as well had been singing all of- or at least most of it to Maddie. My Maddie. I felt the tears were starting to get too many for me to fight against and they started rolling down my cheeks and dripping down on my shirt.
At last- after what felt like hours during the fifteen minutes the DVD was playing the screen went black, I hang with my head and buried my face in my hands but could still hear when mum sat down on the floor next to me and pulled me close. I sobbed against her shoulder as she stroke my hair and talked comforting as dad sat down on the other side and embraced us both.
"Sch sweetheart." Mum almost whispered. "It's okay. You're safe now." I clenched my hands so strongly around the fabric in mum's shirt It was as if my life was depending on it.
Alice POV
"…And then Sarah got the part as the evil witch in the play. And she wanted to be princess- but Laney got that part so Sarah started fighting Laney and pull her hair on the break. And then Brandon went over there and pushed Sarah away and then Sarah started fighting Brandon instead and Mr. Mason had to break it up and I went over to be nice to Laney and get her to the teacher because she had scraped her knees…" I looked down and smiled at the stories Josh had to tell me about his day as we walked down the sidewalk hand in hand. Josh speaking had gotten loads better just the last few months. He could now say R without any problems and only lisping a little bit when he said S.
Earlier the stories he always told me had sometimes made me crazy because he talked so much. Now I could just listen to them forever. The weeks Josh had been gone had been some of the worst in my life and I still had a lump in my throat of happiness thinking about the glee- rehearsal when Mr. Schue brought him into the audiotourium.
"Okay Josh." I unlocked the door at home. "Go do whatever you want, I need to do some homework." Josh ran off to the living room to play TV- games. I walked upstairs to my room and put my homework books on the desk and sat down. But I had soon lost my concentration and got stuck watching the photo that had been shot of all the last years' new directions when we won Sectionals. But I wasn't looking at the Glee club- I was looking at one boy only- and boy was he beautiful?
Leah POV
"I remember… I remember…" Me, Jack and Jonah were playing a game we called "I remember" which was just what it sounded like. One of us said a memory, the next said a memory the earlier memory had made one think about and then it went around and around and around. Now it was my turn.
"I remember when I was like four- I was grounded for like a year because I told dad I wished you'd die soon so I could have your room." The boys laughed. I knew that story didn't hurt Jonah- at least I hoped he didn't- he knew how children thought so he had always just waved it off with a laugh. "Jonah?"
"I remember when you were a new- born, and dad and Ryan were building a room of that walk- in closet and mum was sitting here in the living room with you and me and then there was this major bang and dad came out of the closet just covered in dust from the wooden boards. Jack?"
"I remember when I was spending the night here for the first time and your dad went crazy about me and Leah sharing room." I screamed with laughter when I remembered.
"Oh you heard that fight?" I gasped after a while.
"Yep… and now I remember I've forgotten to give you your birthday present. Jack stood up and went out the room, coming back with a small square package that I slowly unwrapped to a necklace with a silver- heart and a small key hanging from it.
"Oh Jack is beautiful." I told him, he reached his hand to mine and showed me how the heart could be opened with the key could be opened to a picture of me an him.
"This is my heart." Jack laid a finger on the heart. "And that is the key to it. So now you've got the key to my heart love. Ha- you've always had it actually. Now you've got it in a way that people can see."
"Awww, you're so cute." I kissed my boyfriend with moans from Jonah heard in the background.
"Ew guys. Get a room for Christ's sake."
Playlist
The song Lex is thinking about- My immortal- Evanescence
