Lex POV

"Lex, sweetie?" I heard mum's voice on the other side of the bathroom door, and she knocked it. "Can you let me in?" I reached my hand up towards the door handle, unlock it and then hug my legs again. Mum comes into the room, she asked if I had been sick. I just shook my head, my chin still resting against my knees.

"I'm just like him, am I?" I asked, mum frowned and sat down on the floor next to me, laying an arm around my shoulders. "All… weird and so confused I don't know what's up and what's down. Hate that I love and love that I hate and as soon as I've managed to get just a little bit control of things that just messes it all up. I'm exactly like him."

"You're nothing like him." Mum answered me. "You're kind, you would never hurt anyone, you're polite and have got respect. Then I have only mentioned a few things." I rested my head backwards towards mum's shoulder.

"And even if you were" dad came into the room. "Have some of his personality- you have got some from him, some from your mother, and then some of your own. You're exactly like you- not exactly like anyone else."

Dad was right, I was me- a bit like Brian, a bit like Katheryn, the rest of how I had been formed of the environment around me. But even if I for the moment was confused- I knew one thing. I would never ever hurt my child- if I ever had one- or anyone else- as he had done.

Leah POV

I span around, I was all alone in a black space. "MUM." I shouted. "DAD, JONAH, JONAH, JONAH WHERE ARE YOU?" It didn't make a difference, I was still all alone and it was still dark around me. Though suddenly two bright lights shone up the environment with a car that came just closer, and closer, and closer.

My eyes shot open, I was breathing heavily, and sweaty. This was the newest version of a nightmare I had dreamt since I was six years old. And I knew what was needed to do, I sat up and got my crutches from the side of the bed. Then I slowly made my way out of the room and down the hall. Ariel came after me groggily- stumbling from one side to another.

I opened to Jonah's my room, he can't have been asleep because he looked up when I came into the room, I climbed up at the edge of the bed. Jonah had a monitor attached to him at one side. It was quiet as long as Jonah's heart beat normally. If something wasn't as it should it alarmed.

Jonah also had a very wide bed, I, him and our parents had used to lay in it all four when I and Jonah were so little mum and dad read fairytales, and we could easily fit into the big bed. Of course, I and Jonah had grown a lot since then and we were too old for fairytales, but I think that if we just tried enough we would be able to lay all four in the bed.

"Nightmare?" He asked groggily, I nodded. Jonah lifted one of the pillows and laid it on my side. We had done this since I was five and had that nightmare for the first time. I needed to check he was still there so I came sneaking into his room. Then I slept with him. I laid the crutches on the floor next to the bed, then lifted up Ariel and laid down myself, placing Ariel- already half- sleeping in between us.

Jonah lifted a hand and stroke Ariel's back, I stroke her head, and in the morning when mum came in to wake Jonah up I had used Ari's back as a pillow, Jonah had his arm around my shoulders and all three were sleeping tightly.

"Bye dad." I threw the car- door closed and took the crutches in steady grips. Dad had been insisting on driving us to school until he was sure I could keep my balance on the crutches. I slowly made my way towards McKinley, where Mr. Schue was just walking up from his car and held the door open for me and Jonah when we came up- a big smile on his lips.

"So you're on your feet again." He smirked a bit and I nodded while stepping over the threshold and into the school. "That's great. See you later at history." He raised his hand in a goodbye and then turned into a side- corridor as I and Jonah continued making our way through the crowds in the hallways.

"Hey." I greeted Lex who stood by her locker pulling out books and putting them in her bag. "So you're better now?" Lex nodded, but still didn't look at me. After closing and locking her locker she did and I almost gasped with surprise.

Lex had been skinny already before I got to know her, but it was clear that she'd lost weight that she actually didn't have to lose. How she had managed to go from a skinny person to what looked like a walking skeleton was for me a question. There were dark shadows under her eyes.

"You kind of look like you haven't been sleeping for a year or something." I heard Jonah behind me. This was the bad part with his never- leave anything- unsaid- motto. Though he usually kept out saying things that could be mean- I knew he didn't mean anything bad with it- but Lex just glared at him, turned around and walked away.

Mr. Schue POV

"Do I bother a lot?" I looked up from the assignments I was correcting and saw Moa Dallvin standing in the door with a raised eyebrow to me. I smiled and shook my head.

"No, no, not at all." I pushed my chair a bit backwards. "What can I do for you?" Moa smiled, closed the door after her and sat down on the opposite side of the desk for me. I could tell she was a bit nervous, she twisted her hands together and took a deep breath before continuing.

"I really don't know why I'm nervous to ask you this but…" I smiled again, I could tell by her speaking that she was nervous. Her north- Swedish accent shone through more than ever. "… I was hoping we could have an extra glee- meeting on Wednesday. It's my brother's birthday, and his only wish is to get to come with me to school. I asked principle Figgins about it and he said it was alright. So... I was hoping I could let him meet the glee- club."

"Of course." I answered her. "I can arrange that." She smiled again. "Is there anything more we should have… cake?" I knew several of my New Directions would love to eat cake during an extra meeting with glee- club. Moa smiled and shrugged.

"I'll fix with everything needed, but I was hoping I could leave the stuff in the choir room or in here during the day." I answered her that she could leave everything in here and I would lock the door to my office when I wasn't in here.

Just when Moa was about to leave, Sean Moraiety came leaning through the door and asked if he could talk to me. Moa left and then Sean came and sat down, he explained that he'd go with his mum to the hospital for some sort of check up tomorrow. And therefore would miss the glee- meeting. Just fast he mentioned someone named Curtis, and for a split second there was something in his eyes I didn't really recognize. But I knew I had seen it before- if only I could remember where.

It was later that day when I was eating lunch I realized where I'd seen it before. And I almost dropped my cup when I realized that I recognized it from what I had seen in Lex when she still lived with Brian. And I felt a gust of fear- had I to do with another teenager abused at home this year? And if… what would I have to do about it?

Leah POV

"So… Moa is teaching you all a song today." Mr. Schue stepped back and Moa stepped out of the floor with a bunch of papers that she handed out to us. It had four lines on it with words, and it was all in Swedish.

"So what is this?" Jasper asked, Moa jumped up on the piano to sit there. And then she started explaining.

"My brother Nils turns four tomorrow. He will come with me to school and you will surprise him with singing one of the Swedish happy birthday songs. There are multiple but I figured this would be the easiest for you to learn this as it's got the same melody as happy birthday to you, three of the lines are the exact same words and the fourth is only "kära" and then my brother's name. So… you see that A with two dots over, it's pronounced like… like… if you know the first sound that comes after the "L" sound in Lex." Sounds of everyone trying to pronounce it right, at last Moa had gone through every word and we started singing.

Ha den äran idag
Ha den äran idag
Ha den äran kära Ni- ils
Ha den äran idag

It took us to sing through the song about three thousand times but at last Moa thought it was good enough. Then she told us to sing through it loads of times during the afternoon and before Nils's party tomorrow.

"So…" Mr. Schue spoke up. "I have come up with an assignment for this week. You will- if you want to. Choose a song, and give it a complete makeover so to say. Make the lyrics your own but keep the song itself. Change the melody as long as you want but keep the most important in the story… now… see you all tomorrow at noon."

The forenoon before the party I came walking through the corridor when Moa came from the other direction, holding four year old Nils's hand. He had a big smile on his face looking up at all the teenagers and teachers in the hallway with a shining smile. Moa came up to me and Jonah.

"Please… I really need to go to the bathroom can you look after Nils for five minutes." Moa was jumping from one foot to another, I was just opening my mouth to say something when Jonah took Nils's hand. Moa told Nils something and then pushed her way through the crowds towards the bathroom.

I and Jonah sat down on the closest bench and Nils climbed up next to me. He looked to me and smiled.

"Hi Nils. I'm Leah." I said. "This is my brother Jonah. We're friends of your sister Moa." Nils's smile faded and tears were rising in his eyes as he first started sniveling, and then started crying loudly. People were looking at me, Jonah and Nils walking by and I couldn't know if they were looking angrily at Nils for crying or at me and Jonah for not doing anything about it.

"Did I say something wrong?" Jonah shook his head at my question and reach forward and stroke Nils's hair. He said something while I laid an arm around Nils's shoulders but Nils just cried louder and the minutes before Moa came running felt like hours.

"What did you do?" Moa fizzled, lifting her brother up. I explained what had Nils start crying, she glared at me.

"Well of course he's crying then he doesn't understand what you say." Moa said something to Nils that I didn't understand and then walked away.

"I don't understand." Jonah said when we sat in the choir room, waiting for Mr. Schue, Moa and Nils to come. A banner had been hung on the wall behind us with the text "Grattis på födelsedagen Nils" (Translation: Happy birthday Nils) there was a cake with the same text standing on the piano and a couple of other cakes and smaller biscuits and soda standing on the piano with red plastic cups and paper plates as well as napkins and plastic spoons.

"What is it you don't understand?" I asked him.

"Why some people think homosexuality is wrong." He turned the page in his paper and I saw there was an article about homophobia.

"Well…" I began. "The bible says…"

"That a man shall not go to bed with a man who goes to bed with a woman." Connor filled in. "Wow Leah- I didn't think that of you." I opened my mouth but he spoke up again. "Oh so what was it you were going to say? That the bible says so and that it's wrong, that you've got nothing against homosexual people but at the homosexuality itself."

"No Connor I didn't mean it like that." I started to explain. Connor just snorted.

"No what you meant was saying something like… let's see… fag? Puff? Anything not to use a good word for homosexual people."

"No Connor let me finish, I am not homophobic I swear."

"Nobody is." I opened my mouth to explain but right then Mr. Schue came running and turned the lights of, we stood up just as Moa and Nils came through the door and we started singing.

So… if anyone wonders no, I have got nothing against homosexuality. Not Leah either and her explanation- which is the same as I use- will come up in a few chapters.

So now when I've started using Swedish songs I'd like you all to either leave in a review or send me a PM and tell me if you want me to translate all the Swedish song- lyrics and send it to you through PM:s So… see you next time

About what Connor quotes from the bible, I have… three different bibles, all protestant (if there are different whether you're protestant, catholic or orthodox- because I don't know if there are) and all in Swedish. I am not so sure what the English bible says so I simply just have to translate it to English and hope I get it right.