I have just gotten my laptop back. Now I need to re- get used to these buttons and I'm used to lighter ones. So if I miss a letter here and there well… I guess you can live with that.
I have taken away all the songlyrics used in my stories. It made have made some of the parts looking a bit weird but… I guess you can live with that. And instead of the songs there's a playlist in the end of the chapter where I put the title of the songs used so you can just go and find it.
Moa POV
"So why do you think Mr. Schue put us together?" Aiden asked. "Oh yeah right… didn't he say something about that after putting everybody else together we were the only ones left?" I nodded and looked down the road. Turned out I and Aiden lived in the same direction from McKinley, so now we were walking towards our houses, both of us leading each bike but it was easier talking when walking than when riding each bike. "Hey… you okay? You're so quiet?" I nodded. "Hey… you tell three normal things about you, then three completely weird and crazy facts about yourself and then I'll do the same." I sighed.
"I can never come up with anything but okay." I answered. "First, I'm from Sweden. The second. Hm.. My birthday is May the second and third…." I thought hard about coming up with something. "I don't know… my middle name is Elizabeth." I bit my tongue and tried to come up with three weird things about myself. "Okay, ehrm… I have read the series about Anne of the green gables at least ten times. I refuse to play truth or dare. And at last… hmm… Before I die I want to be on top of the Mount Everest to really be able to shout that I'm on top of the world" I looked to Aiden.
"Okay my turn, I have two brothers, Collin and Eric. My best friend is Jasper. I am addicted to the Internet and my phone. So weird facts… I cut three fingers off when I was seven and would help…" he made hare- ears with his fingers to show me that helping wasn't really helping. "…my dad with a chainsaw- " he showed me his hand- two of the fingers he cut off had been sown back and showed scars while the third well…. Had not been sown back "I love this blogger- ehrm- CurvyChica or whatever she calls herself. And at last… I have eaten the same thing for breakfast- a cheese sandwich, a carrot and a glass of milk- every day for as far as I can remember."
I looked to Aiden while we walked talking down the block, he was pulling a hand through his hair and at that point I couldn't understand how I had not noticed the scars and the missing finger on his hand before. Well- maybe because I had did what I was going to keep on doing now and concentrate on his person more than his hand.
Aiden was a nice guy- no doubt about that. Maybe it would have been a good decision of Mr. Schue o leave us for last and have us paired up. Because I had a feeling I would have a good friend in Aiden Not more though, I was too heartbroken and he was obviously in love with someone else.
Anna POV
"Yeah" Ben answered my question shortly. Whenever he answered something I asked his answer would be short, whatever it was I asked with no emotion in his voice and it just made me feel even worse for what I had done to him last winter. When we stopped at my gate I at last took a deep breath and told him what I had wanted to say for a long time.
"Look Ben. I'm sorry for what I did to you, I have said that loads of times. If I could have it undone I would but… nothing can change what I did then. And the way you act towards me does nothing else than make me feel even worse so…" I couldn't come up with anything more to say. Ben just sighed and shook his head.
"I don't think you understand what you did Anna." He told me. "The way you questioned whether I belong to my family… whether I belong here or not is something you could never understand how much it hurt. And if it hurts you that I can't forget it, then maybe you're feeling a little part of how what you did hurt me. I'm sorry Anna… I can't forget it." Ben turned around and walked down the road, I walked inside and ran straight up to my room and turned the radio on.
When I heard the slogan of the radio channel blast out from the speakers I almost shot the radio off because I was sure it meant it was going to be coming commercial, but when I heard a song coming out I laid back down, and the more I heard of the lyrics- the more sure I was that this was going to give me one last try to explain to Ben how I really felt about Ben.
Sean POV
"Are you okay Sean?" Marcie asked and brought me back to reality while in the car when I was driving her home to also go and get some books I had forgotten after doing homework with Marcie this weekend. "You're so quiet" I had been pretty far away when she asked so I cleared my throat and thought a few seconds before I realized what she had asked me.
"Yes I'm fine." I answered her. "I was thinking about… well… about mama I guess and… some things." I sighed and steered to the left, making the sharp twist in the steering wheel that was needed for the wheels turning at all. Marcie- as usual was unprepared for it and quickly grabbed the door not to fall over- again. "Sorry Marcie. If there was another way I would."
"How about getting a car that is not… which year is this from?" I thought a few seconds and answered her it was from 1948 "yeah…" she counted. "How about getting a car that is not sixty nine years old. Your grandpa won three million dollars or something like that a few years ago didn't he? Have you tried doing him some favors?" Marcie smirked to let me know she was joking. I turned the car sharper than ever in the turn to have my payback.
"I'm not going to do that- it's his money."
I walked over to the paddock where Hugo and Donnie the Donkey walked and pulled up a few bits of a carrot from my pocket. Hugo heard me coming and slowly came walking over the few meters to me when I held out the carrots. "I'll go get your books" Marcie said and ran inside. I put my hand in my pocket and pulled out some pieces of carrots and apples to Donnie as well and scratched him between the ears.
I had lost count of how long I had known Marcie. The only things I still knew was that I and Marcie had been best friends for a long time. And that I the last few months had felt something more for her- but I hadn't realized it until it was too late. Marcie loved Ben- Ben loved Marcie. Marcie was too happy and of course I was happy for her- I just couldn't help wishing I was the one making her that happy.
Alice POV
I was so happy about getting paired up with Johnny. I had been in love with him since a while now. I just was too scared that he wouldn't love me back to say anything to him. Maybe this duet competition would help me to get closer to him and then maybe I would find a way to tell him. I was walking in my own thoughts brainstorming for songs I maybe could sing to him to make him understand what I was feeling when someone caught up with me and made me jump.
"Oh…." It was Johnny. "Sorry I didn't mean to scare you." He chuckled and pulled a hand through his hair- if possible making it stand right up even more. I just told him it was okay, he seemed a bit nervous and when he asked me if I could help him with something I answered him sure. "There is this girl I like but I'm not sure how to tell her… I was wondering if you could give me some tips?!" I did my very best to keep on smiling and not to show him what I felt.
I was heartbroken, for so long I had been falling without being able to catch myself for Johnny Black and hearing him say this- he could just as well had been punching me in the stomach. I thought I had been seeing something in him that meant that he liked me back, but I guess I was just wishing for it to happen- searching so hard for things that weren't there I started seeing such stuff. Because obviously he liked someone else.
I had to pull myself back to reality. "Ehrm… I don't know. I guess you could just come right out and tell her." Johnny protested- he had already tried and apparently it didn't work because he couldn't find the right words- then he asked me what I would like him to do if it was me he was talking about. "Invite her to some place you know she likes. It can be a restaurant, the beach or wherever. Then she's going to ask why you wanted her to be there so… you can tell her. Decide what you want to say before it but put some heart in it."
"Should I bring flowers?" I shrugged.
"If you want to… it could never hurt to do so though… This is my house." Before Johnny had the time to say anything else- or see that I was crying I hurried up the driveway and into the house before I ran to my room and threw myself on my bed and cried my heart out into my pillow.
Jasper POV
I and Caroline had been going to sit in the auditorium at the school. She jumped up at the piano and sat with a notebook on her lap and took notes about the ideas we both had for the duet competition- or- more likely- the ideas I had because she was so shy she barely said a word at all. Until she told me she had to go to the bathroom, she laid her notebook at the piano and then left the room. I still hadn't had any idea of how to find out if she liked Aiden or not but I took the notebook, looked around to see that she wasn't coming and then riffled a bit in it to find what I was looking for.
On one page she had written Aiden's name, draw a heart around it and all around written "I'm so in love" what looked like about a thousand times. "What are you doing?" I suddenly heard behind me. I fast slipped the notebook so I held it inside my hoodie and turned around to see Caroline. "Did you read in my notebook?" I nodded.
"Yeah… I only checked some things you had written for the duet… Oh" I looked to my watch. "I gotta go. I forgot I promised my mum I was going to fix dinner before she come home from work. Bye." I walked out of the room and then ran down the hallway and down the road before she would have the time to realize I had taken it and then come after.
I hadn't promised my mum I would fix dinner- I was the worst cook ever and couldn't even boil pasta right. I didn't even go home-instead I walked right up to Aiden's house and knocked the door and then walked in and walked to his room when Eric opened for me. "Aiden… I know you're in love with that Caroline" I exclaimed and without waiting for an answer I continued. "And here's the proof that she is head over heels falling for you too so if you don't talk to her… I will make sure you have to."
Leah POV
"Whatever." Connor answered me when I tried to give ideas for our duet. He didn't even look at me and his way with trying to ignore me- he didn't even give me a chance to say anything- just like he had done the last weeks and then suddenly I had had enough. We were still sitting in the choir room and I hit my palm in the chair so hard the sound made Connor flinch and look up. "What are you do…" he started asking but I interrupted.
"Now Connor whatever your middle name is Atkins. I have been trying for weeks to tell you what my vision on homosexuality and the bible is and if you had listened to me from the start I wouldn't have needed to spend the last weeks to try to explain what I was trying to say so you don't say a single word until I'm finished." I took a deep breath before I started to get some air. Connor started to say something but I held up a finger to silent him and he silent.
"What I was saying was that the bible says that a man shall not go to bed with a man who goes to bed with a woman. Now- that is what Christian's have gotten as acts of homosexuality is wrong- BUT. The bible also says that God is love- and an act of sexuality is an act of love right? Or at least in most cases. And doesn't that make an act of sexuality an act of God- whichever kind of sexuality it is. Now that's what I believe- that love is love and Love is God so how could an act of God be a sin? It couldn't!" I stopped talking and hoped that my message had gotten to him. Connor sighed and looked down a few minutes- seeming to take in what I had just said.
"So you haven't got anything against homosexuality?" I shook my head. "And you don't think it's a sin?" I shook my head again and Connor sighed. "I have been acting like a jerk to you right?" I shrugged, then nodded. "I'm sorry… but okay… if you forgive me then I forgive you." He held out his hand and I took it.
"There's one thing great with the Carmichael's Connor. There probably is a load of bad things to say about us but we aren't resentful" (google translate- don't know if that's the word) I shook his hand and then let go and took my crutches. "But it's getting quite late. I need to go home and care for my dog… see you tomorrow then I guess."
And for the first time in quite some time I didn't get a stomachache thinking about that I would see Connor soon again- as I slowly made my way down the hallway and then to the parking lot where dad was waiting with Ariel. "Hey Ari" I climbed up in the car and she jumped up in my lap and I scratched behind her ears. "You know I love you right? And I love you so much if you could feel all of it, it would make you explode with all my love. That's how much I love you."
So… done… I actually- ehrm when I was writing those facts about Aiden and Moa I was thinking about my Uncle- and so I started thinking about how he lost a finger to reasons that are unimportant to mention. And I worked a bit on that and then came up with that about Aiden and his hand.
CurvyChica is not a real blogger- however- she will come up more in the sequel for this. Her CLA is Raini Rodriguez. And no I didn't come up with anything better than CurvyChica
Playlist
The song Anna hears- Ben- Jackson five
