Hello : ) This is Linnéa asking for your attention for the little while, maybe the few minutes it would take for you to read through this message. And she… wait why am I talking about myself in third person? Well, let's start over again.

Hello : ) I just wanted to take the opportunity to, tell you how much each and every one of you mean to me. This is kind of random so if you think it's nothing else than nagging for attention you're probably right! Well… onto what I was actually going to say to you.

Well, if we have been chatting much the last few months then you might know that right now I am facing some major changes. And I'm not going to lie, I have been feeling… like everything I have done earlier is just going to waste and that this will never go well… but that feeling have started to fade more and more, and right now I can usually shrug and have a feeling that "it will be alright"

Last week I got a couple of really good news and well… I know that other people- not least my friends on here have helped me to get so to the point I'm going to be able to do this so to the point that I just feel that things are going to be alright in the end- no matter how! So I just wanted to say thank you.

I wanted to thank you for being my friend, or for believing in me- because even if it maybe from time to time was only a "great chapter" a bit here and there or a couple of messages every once in a while or whatever it was- it was too much for me to explain in a simple message with written words.

So if you were there for me, and believed in me then thank you. There is no way I could have been where I am today without you. So thank you yet again, you've meant so much more than I could ever say.

And if there is something I have gotten wrong and in fact you weren't my friend or didn't believe in me. Then I think that the news I have gotten the past few days will give me the right to say…

in your face!

-Linnéa

Later on Friday afternoon most of the glee club had left the Hudmel's house, left was only the Hudmel's themselves, me, Tyler and Connor. Lex had gotten lost long into the world of Hazel Grace Lancaster and had barely looked up from the book I had given her for a long while, and Burt and Carole wanted to know more about my parents.

"My mum's… well, what does she do? She works in church… in some sort of office, a bit with children going to church and yada, yada. My dad's a priest… they went on some Protestant Christian's summer camp years and years ago and…. Voila!" Carole smiled, Burt looked a bit confused- I could almost guess what it was- people had noticed before.

"But your dad isn't wearing one of those… weird… collars…. Actually… he isn't doing anything I've noticed that priests usually do even outside the church." I smiled and tried to cover a sigh, I had learnt to explain this as fast as possible. And I had explained it… loads and loads and loads and loads of times.

"Dad prefers to leave his work at work. And I mean- we're Protestants and most others here are Catholics. So dad probably wouldn't get too liked if he walked around town trying to teach others about our beliefs and rules." I smiled. "You should have heard the life when dad became a priest and made it clear to his boss and colleagues that he was going to do it like this. I was four and even I understood something was going on."

"So…. You're Protestant?" I nodded. "Well that's… interesting. So… but American is to big parts Catholic right?" I nodded, when I was younger questions like these had made me go mad. Now I just answered them, I had all answers finished anyway. "So what do you do if… well if a friend is… doing something in church- and she's Catholic…. And wants your help… what do you do?"

"I go to that Catholic church!" I answered quickly. "And if I need help working at dad's church then they come with me to the Protestantism church. It's not any more complicated than that." Burt scratched the back of his head, but we were interrupted as Connor was trying to get Lex's attention and with her long gone in the fault in our stars- mission impossible! And quite amusing!

"Lex… Lex… Lex…" Connor shook his head. "Lex come on, I've got to leave now and I'd rather you see me do it… and hear for that matter." He scratched his neck confused. "Do you guys have any ideas of what might have Lex return to reality?" He looked to us. And in fact- I didn't have any idea. "Leah what have you done?" Connor smiled to let me know he was joking.

"Only one think that we can be sure helps." Burt leaned over the table and pulled the book out of Lex's hands, closing it in the move and then laid it by him in the sofa. Lex hadn't really gotten what was going on yet and was trying to stutter something. "You'll get it back when everyone's left. We need you in reality now!"

"I gotta go now." Connor exclaimed before Lex had the time to protest more. "I'm picking up Emily from a friend's and she needs to be home soon. So… happy birthday. I'll see you on Monday. Bye." Connor walked out into the hallway and then we heard the door open and close, right before Lex looked pleading to Burt.

"Can I have that book back now? Please dad." Burt shook his head- later, Lex seemed to understand eh was serious so she gave up and turned to me instead. "So where were you during the whole mid- term holidays? You just disappeared with saying that you couldn't hang out and then we didn't hear anything else until school started again!" I nodded.

"Dad got some work to do in Michigan. It was on pretty short notice A/N: I think that's how you say it so I went with him and went to Benton Harbor to my friend Hannah and then to Jack. So I mostly just hung out with Jack during the whole holidays. So what did you do during the holidays? Finn and… ehrm… Kurt was arriving right?"

"Yeah… well… I spent loads of times with Finn, Kurt and Blaine. And then… Well I didn't do much because the second day of the holidays I hurt my foot and someone…" Lex looked to her mum to show who she meant, but smiling to let everyone know she wasn't angry for real. "…wouldn't let me move from the sofa." I couldn't help but chuckle.

"It's because I care about you honey!" Carole answered. "I know you didn't like it but I didn't want you to get even more hurt…. And how would it had felt if I just let it go and didn't care about it at all?" A memory turned up for me, about when I was six and I and Jonah stayed at grandma and grandpa's and mostly as a joke I threw my hand up in the air.

"Oh, oh, oh. I know the answer to that" I jumped where I was sitting. "Can I answer the question?" The others looked… well… mildly amused. "Okay, it was only a joke guys!" I shoved my hands in my pockets again and decided to change the subject. "Well… so we've all got until Tuesday afternoon to make these music- videos for the duet competition. How is yours and Jonah's going?"

I didn't notice that a frown formed in Carole's forehead when I said that it was a joke, and neither did anyone else I could guess because no one said anything else about it. "By the way Leah?" Burt suddenly exclaimed when I was just about to leave. "If your dad's a priest, and your mum too works in church… what do you all say about homosexuality?"

I smiled slightly. I knew Kurt Hudmel was gay and through that looks on LGBT was an important question. I had more or less been waiting for him to answer the question and would pull the exact same thing for him as I did for Connor. "People believe that Christians doesn't like gays because the bible says a man shall not go with a man who goes with a woman. But the bible also says that God is love, and actions of sexuality are actions of love- which makes them actions of God. How could that be a sin?"

And at that Burt looked even more confused. I covered a sigh. "What I mean is that I don't have anything against any kind of LGBT, asexual or pansexual or whatever they're all called. Neither does anyone else in my family." Burt smiled, looked almost proud to be more exact. "By the way… I've…" I looked to my watch. "I've got to go home now. And hopefully- and probably because you won't be anywhere close." I had stood up and backed looking towards Carole. "I won't fall ag… whoa"

I tripped over something on the floor not watching out. And tried to stay on my feet but of course fell right on my butt and right on the damned coccyx! The others first looked kind of worried until I was the one who started laughing and it wasn't long before the laughter's echoed loud through the house. "Seriously?" I whimpered pushing myself up. "And ow!"

"Are you okay honey?" Carole frowned- well, as much as a person could frown wiping tears from laughter from their eyes. I nodded. "Maybe you should leave before you fall again!" I shook my head and then looked to Lex who was trying to sneak behind Burt and grab the book without any of the others noticing.

"Oh no you don't!" Burt saw her and then pulled her close and held her in a tight grip with his arms around her body- including her arms so she couldn't move. "I'll let you go when Leah's left. Then you can have your book!" I smiled and shook my head.

"I better leave now then. The first time I read that book every minute I had to put it down was like torture." I kneeled and tied my shoelaces and then pushed myself up again. "And ass you said, I probably should before I fall again. Bye guys." I walked out in the hallway and then outside. Walked home- without falling any more times and walked up to Jonah's room.

Today had been a bad day so Jonah had stayed home already in the morning, these bad days were coming more and more often. And they were only getting worse and it was going fast. Jonah- as always was doing the best of what he could do but some days- like today he could barely get out of bed and felt that he couldn't get anything done if he tried.

"Are you alright?" I walked into his room, he laid curled up in his blanket and- quite pale but lifted his head and smiled when I came in and nodded tiredly. "Lex and the others say that they hope you feel better soon." I stopped talking- knowing that that- if it happened probably wouldn't last long. "I think Lex liked the book I bought, she started reading it and then she got so caught up she didn't answer on anything we said until Burt Hudmel ripped the book out of her hands." Jonah laughed slightly. "I guess I should get a call in a few hours form her crying and saying whatever about how terrible the book is!"

"I suppose so." Jonah said hoarsely. "Well… I guess I will see tomorrow. I'm going to hers to fix that music vid…" Jonah was cut off when he started coughing. I flinched nervously. "Take it easy Leigh, I'm okay." He cleared his throat. "It's just a cough." I nodded- I didn't really want to think about it but I knew- and knew that Jonah knew, that for him "just a cough" could turn into something much, much worse.

It wasn't until late that evening when my phone called, "LEX" read over the caller's ID and I knew what was coming. "Yes." I put the phone to my ear and continued scratching Ariel's belly with the other hand. "So what did you think?"

"LEAH!" Lex shouted so loud I had to hold the phone a good bit away from my ear. "HOW COULD YOU? LIKE DO YOU WANT TO FREAKING SCAR ME FOR LIFE OR WHAT? I'VE BEEN CRYING FOR LIKE TWO HOURS AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT" Lex was cut off when I started laughing. I knew Lex didn't say anything serious now like it might have sounded like if I hadn't known her. "This is the saddest book I've ever read."

"But it's pretty good too isn't it?" I put the phone to my ear again now when Lex was speaking in a normal tone and not shouting in my ear

"It's seriously one of the best books I've ever read. And I hate that I love this book so much"

"I hate that I love this video so much!" Lex whispered to me on Wednesday afternoon when the New Directions sat around the choir room watching- first watching Lex and Jonah's music video for this year's duet competition. And I had to agree with Lex- it was about… well… something quite heavy and they had mixed films with one of them singing with photos of Lex after her dad had hurt her, photos from the hospital then. And photos from when Jonah had been in hospital.

At last there was filmed when both of them were standing in that some sort of studio and sang the last refrain. "It's really good you know!" I whispered back to Lex. "And even though it's kind of… terrible I mean… the song's about standing up every time there is something or someone that wants and tries to bring you down like your dad and uncle or Jonah's heart disease."

I glanced over to Jonah, he really hadn't been well the last few weeks and even though I knew he was fighting hard not to show I could see he was in pain. He had a cold and… in his state that could lead to severe complications and… in a worst case scenario- death. But Jonah being Jonah kept on smiling and telling us all he was just fine, even though I could see it was getting harder for him to pretend.

I felt the now well- known lump rise in my throat thinking about that it might be so that Jonah didn't have long left. But so someone- I didn't concentrate on it much enough to hear who it was said something funny and Jonah hang onto it. It once again reminded me of the fact that Jonah would just be- today. And so I shook the thoughts of yet another time.

"So who wants to show their video next?" Mr. Schue clapped his hands together and glanced over the group. No one answered at first then Aiden slowly raised his hand. "Aiden and Moa? Come on then." Mr. Schue sat down again while Aiden put the DVD they had made in the player and the music started playing loud through the choir room.

I'd have to admit that- this video- even though all of the beautiful pictures obviously shot in Sweden with text reading the names of the places. With the song was mostly just comical. Aiden and Moa were both really good singers but there was no chance they were doing this song seriously- no chance!

"Well guys that was…" Mr. Schue hesitated for the right word standing up again. "Extraordinary… who wants to go next?" This time he had barely asked the question before Amy raised her hand. "Amy and Rafaél, the floor and… the DVD player is yours!" Amy and Rafaél stood up.

Their video was so my favorite so far. It was just beautiful the way that they had mixed it with each of them singing in the studio by themselves, then singing together and mixed photos from when they were little until high school and the song was just beautiful. It was clear that the others liked it too because the applause for Amy and Rafaél were the loudest so far.

"That was beautiful guys. So…" Mr. Schue glanced over the group and when no one else did I raised my hand. "Leah and Connor." I and Connor stood up. I glanced over the group and told the others what I and Connor had thought about the song and why we had chosen it. And doing just that I couldn't help to notice that everyone were sitting in their duet- couples.

Everyone except Marcie and Sean, Sean was holding onto a DVD so they must have done their music video like they should but they were sitting in each end of the crowd in the choir room. I couldn't help but to feel sad for them, they were best friends! And now they just let this one thing keep them apart.

When Hannah lived in Lima, we had been fighting every once in a while. Once it happened that we didn't talk for a while but at the longest- when we find out we were together with the same guy- we were nine, then we had said that we weren't ever going to talk to each other against. Ever turned out to be two hours, until Hannah's parents were going out of town for the night and she didn't want to be home alone. I couldn't imagine not talking to my best friend like Marcie and Sean weren't talking now.

Connor put the DVD in the player and we showed the video we had done, with big parts with photos of I or Connor with pictures of- amongst others Connor and his sisters or brothers, I and Jack, I and Jonah etc. etc. We both along with people that we loved and I really couldn't have been any happier with the way it all turned out.

"We can go next" Ben said before Mr. Schue had the time to ask who would go next. So that was him and Anna, next went Caroline and Jasper- and just as always Caroline's voice was just… my God how could that huge voice have place in that short and tiny body? Alice and Johnny were the next- and they were probably the ones that we others had looked forward the most to see.

It wasn't a secret that Alice and Johnny had found each other in a very, very special way. Well it hadn't exactly been invisible to see that they really had liked- liked each other before either. I thought that the only ones that couldn't really see that they both liked each other was themselves!

I knew for a fact that there were two official versions of this song. And I couldn't help to just love the way Alice and Johnny had mixed the faster version with the slower and made it into one version- their own version. They were just a really cute couple- I'm not so sure anyone could protest against that matter of fact!

"That's good guys." Mr. Schue said afterwards. "So… two duets left. Teeghan, Tyler. You want to go next?" Tyler nodded and stood up, but still kept away from Teeghan- which looked like as far as possible during the whole time they music video played. I couldn't help to notice that Tyler totally seemed that he knew what he was singing about. Teeghan- not so much!

And so it was only Marcie and Sean left, Marcie put the DVD in and the stood as usual on either side of the room while the music played. They obviously hadn't had to meet to film Because parts of the video was filmed in a room that obviously was Sean's room at home and parts of it- the parts with Marcie in her stables.

And during all the while Marcie looked only to the TV player while Sean sadly looked to Marcie.

"That's great guys" Mr. Schue stood up and clapped his hands when Marcie and Sean had gone back to sit in each end of the crowd. "This will be a hard decision to make but I've got all of the music videos so on Thursday I will have made my decision!"…

"So." Mr. Schue began on Thursday. "I have made my decision and the winners are…"

Playlist

Lex/ Jonah- Titanium- David Guetta feat. Sia

Moa/ Aiden- Sweden- the stranglers

Amy/ Rafaél- The gift of a friend- Demi Lovato

Leah/ Connor- I wanna know what love is- Foreigner

Anna/ Ben- I'm just a kid- Simple Plan

Caroline/ Jasper- Chasing cars- Snow Patrol

Alice/ Johnny- Every time we touch- Cascada

Teeghan/ Tyler- I knew you were trouble- Taylor Swift

Marcie/ Sean- Love the way you lie- Eminem feat. Rihanna