Like the last chapter, this one will be told from Sean's pov
"Stop the wedding."
For a few seconds the whole church went silent like the grave and everybody's heads turned for the owners of them to look to what mad guy who dared to just run into the church in the middle of a wedding and shout at the whole thing to be cut off right there and then.
"Sean?" The first one to break the silence was mama. "…Sean Michael Morai…" She didn't get the time to finish while I walked fast, almost jogged to the chapel and started pulling out the chords that were plugged into a laptop to show pictures of mama, Curtis and Gordon over the chapel and I started putting them into Marcie's phone. Then waited nervously until I could see the phone's background picture of Ben and Marcie's horse Hugo towards the light brown and white wall over the chapel.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?"
"Sorry mama." I shook her hands off when she was trying to pull me away. "If you're gonna marry… then I'm going to need you to know who you are really marrying." I pressed the right conversation in the messages and got up the video. "I filmed this." I pressed it up so it would get bitter and all the people in the church when the video started playing and everybody could see Curtis flirting with a woman who obviously wasn't my mum.
I looked towards my mama, her chin had dropped and I thought that she would start crying but she never did. Then I looked towards Curtis, who had blushed and his light brown eyes seemed burning orange when he looked into my dark ones. Then I looked towards grandpa- he might not be mama's dad but that didn't make him any less protective and if he would have given himself right into a fist fight with the man in front of him it wouldn't have surprised me.
"Curtis you rotten…" the video wasn't even over when mama spurted over to her now soon to be ex-boyfriend. "I have never… ever…" She was holding a bouquet in her hands and now started hitting every spot she could reach half with that and half with her hand. "I never… ever…" She dropped the flowers and spurted down the aisle and out the door. And I only glared to Curtis, realized all the people in here were doing that and then hurried after mama out of the church and into the cold winter air.
Mama had sunk down onto the cold stone just outside the church and had put her head in her hands. She was shaking with silent sobs that got louder once I had more or less forced her to rise her arms so I could pull my hoodie over her. It wasn't that warm, but at least it was better than her thin dress and then her sobs got even louder as I kneeled and pulled her close.
We sat like that for a few minutes, and the only thing heard was mama's sobs and the cars driving by on the street. Then suddenly, we heard the door to the church open and while both I and mama looked up Curtis came walking up.
"NO." Mum shouted when he was only a few meters away from us and she stood up. "Don't you dare try and apologize for this. Thank God we didn't get married a minute before we did because the only thing that it takes for me right now is to say I end this relationship here and now and so I will. I never ever want to see you again. You stay away from me and Sean. Whether about Gordon or the twins I can't say much but you bet I won't ever talk to you again. You have done nothing but tear me and my son apart and I feel like for you, the way I never could hate anyone. So we are over Curtis Leigh. We are done."
"If I turn around and walk now…" Curtis was on his way to put an ultimatum. "You will have lost me forever. You can come and get your things- when I'm not at home from the house but you will be homeless. You won't have anywhere to go and you will have nobody."
"Excuse me." Grandpa interrupted. "But… they will… The moment you try and chuck them out I will be there in the way you never could." I had never seen grandpa like this- his expression was cold and hard as stone. "And you are a filthy little rat of a man."
"I…" I supported mama while she stood up and with tear-stained cheeks faced Curtis. "I won't come with you. And I do never ever want to see you again."
"Then…" Curtis was slowly backing away towards his car. "…I want nothing more to do with neither you nor Gordon nor the twins and certainly not with…" I could almost hear Curtis growl when he looked to me. Then watched him when he stomped closer to me and slapped me so hard I would have lost my balance if grandpa hadn't caught me.
"If I ever…" I had never seen mama so angry as when she clenched her hand around the fabric in Curtis's shirt. "…Ever see you touch… my son again…. I will sue you on everything you have." Mum was so angry she was only wheezing and in her eyes there was a fire not even I had seen before. "And I'll make sure you never see me nor your kids ever again." Curtis snorted.
"Come on Liza. I never wanted kids in the first place. If I never see Gordon or… them again." He gestured towards mum's belly. "Then I'm the only one who wins something… Goodbye." He finally got into his car, hit the gas so hard the gravel flew around the tires and skid out of the parking lot. And hopefully out of all of our lives.
I expected mama to break down crying again, but she didn't. She just stood watching Curtis's car until it disappeared around the corner and then turned to me and everybody- including Marcie and the rest of the glee club who stood with the rest of the wedding guests on the steps.
"Nothing more to see here." Grandpa had spoken before mama seemed to come up with anything else. "Eliza, Sean and… Gordon… You don't mind coming home with me do you?" Mama shook her head and Gordon looked up with his head to the side as if he was curious on the elder man in front of him and at last he nodded- he was going wherever his mum and big brother were going. "Sean… You've got your car right?"
"Yes… I'll come in a minute I just need to do something first." Grandpa nodded and laid his arm around mama's shoulders. By the time I turned towards the glee club they had started walking towards grandpa's car.
"I'll go and get your phone." Marcie just continued glaring at me. She wasn't going to accept any apologies just yet. "Hey…" When I came back I just held it to her. "I know that you're still angry with me and you've got the right to be without a doubt. But I hope that we can be friends someday." Marcie just continued glaring at me and when Ben came and laid his arm around her shoulders he turned her away from me and they walked towards the van that Mr. Schuester had driven her. Mr. Schuester was just walking by me and slightly patted my shoulder before he turned and jogged after Tyler who had gotten in last of the students while I turned to my car and drove home.
I must have driven faster than grandpa or they had stopped along the way because I came to his driveway almost at the exact same time as they did and jogged to catch up with them while grandpa unlocked the door.
"So." When we stepped into grandpa's house Gordon walked first, then mama, I and at last grandpa who turned on the lights and closed the door. "Make yourself at home. Food in the fridge, there are two bedrooms and I'll try and set up who lives with who but…"
"Dad said that tonight we'd have a sleepover in the living room. Can we have it here?"
"Yeah sure." Grandpa answered him before I had had the time to protest. "Don't worry you two. Eliza, you can use the bed upstairs if you want to but if you want to be around you've got the couch and Sean- don't you dare protest!"
And then with all of my thoughts spinning after everything that had happened earlier and Marcie was still angry with me and Curtis wasn't there anymore and Teddy but no my friend Molly was taking care of him tonight so I didn't need to mind and grandpa went away and then bought pizza for us all that we sat and ate on the living room floor and then suddenly it was night time and while I, grandpa and Gordon laid on each blow-up-mattress mama laid on the couch.
Grandpa and Gordon didn't seem to have any troubles falling asleep. Grandpa had went and bought a few blow- up mattresses to have and he and my little brother had put together their mattresses and grandpa had fallen asleep on his stomach with his arm over Gordon's stomach where he laid sprawled on his back with arms and legs all pointing in different directions.
"Seanie." I looked to mama in the sofa and realized she was awake too. "Are you alright?" I nodded and raised an eyebrow- hoping that she would get the wink. "I'm okay, here. Come and sit." She sat up and patted on the sofa cushion next to her so I crawled up from my mattress and went to sit down next to her. "What's going on?"
"I'm sorry I destroyed the whole marriage to you." I told her and leaned against the back of the sofa. "Maybe you could both have made it work if I hadn't seen all that or just wouldn't have told you it or…"
"Oh Seanie." Mama played with my hair and twisted a curl around her finger. "I will be… forever grateful that you did not just see it but spoke up. If I would have known he was doing those things I would have left him in an instant without a doubt. I could never live without you… But life with him after all of this is just… as long as I can still have you… it's not worth it…. I love you Seanie. And for every day I tell myself that there is nothing you could do that could make me love you more and for every day you prove me wrong."
"Mama." I decided to take the moment, even though it might destroy the moment we had together. "Would you still love me if… If there was something wrong with me… If I had ADHD?"
"Sean Michael… I figured that when you were ten." I let hear a short, nervous laugh. "I did… and I love you just as much. I love you. More than anything else in the whole wide universe and more than life itself and… I wouldn't change a single thing about you because… every single little piece of you and your past has gotten you to the man you are today. And you sir! Are a whole lot more of a man than… as Paul said- that filthy little rat I can't believe I ever was about to marry." I smiled and swallowed the tears in my throat. "And you are the kindest, strongest, bravest most wonderful man I have ever known… and you're mine! And nothing, nothing you ever did could make me less proud of you than I am right now and… I love you so much I think my heart could break. I love you… I love you."
I sighed slightly, not because I was bored or tired of this or anything. But… I guess the roar of feelings come up inside of me. And the one strongest of them all.
"I love you too mama."
Mama silent again, and so did I and truth be told I lost count of how long we just sat there. The radio in the kitchen played on low volume but none of us minded about it. We didn't have the strength to go and turn it off so it just continued playing through one song after the other mixed with commercial and announcements of what would be playing next.
One thought after the other played through my head about what to say, what to ask or what to do. But I let go of it as far as it came and none of it all seemed irrelevant. Although, there was one question that kept on coming back…
"Mama… If we won't be having anything else to do with Curtis... I mean, he's the reason we moved here to Lima in the first place. I mean… we used to live in New York… which you know of course so will that mean… Will we move back there?"
"No." I had been almost afraid of asking the question, fearing that the answer would be the opposite. "Your whole life is in Lima. Gordon's whole life is here in Lima. Paul is here and… I do not want either Gordon or the twins nor you wandering around the streets in New York… so we're staying here whether you like it or not."
"That's what I wanted to hear."
I smiled and mama smiled back but seemed a bit distant. I stroke her cheek and she returned to reality for a second, smiled at me and then returned. I worriedly took her hand- what was going on now? Was there something I could do for her?
"I'm sorry Seanie… I should have listened to you about him from the start… But… For a few reasons I'm happy I didn't. If I had then Gordon wouldn't be here, and neither would your little sisters or brothers." Mama laid a hand on her belly and sighed slightly. "Although… With Curtis not here anymore I'm going to need you to help me out more… I'm sorry Sean. I know you've got your own things and Teddy and school and everything but…"
"Mama." I interrupted. "That's okay. I know. And… we'll make it work." Mama nodded and when both she and I silent again I could hear the song playing quietly from the radio. Then smiled, stood up and held out my hand when I realized how perfect it was. "May I have this dance?"
Mama stood up with the biggest smile for today- forever and while I softly sang along to the song- hoped that it wasn't too false, holding mama in my arms and slowly moving to side to side around and around. It was almost fascinating how the radio could suddenly play such a perfect song for the moment being and while Gordon and grandpa laid on the floor in their sleeping bags sleeping tightly I wouldn't have changed anything.
"…I'll be your soldier…"
Playlist
Song on the radio- Soldier- Gavin DeGraw
After this the story will return to be about Leah, but Sean will still have quite a bit of pov's a bit here and there and with several important storylines. So I hope you like him! I know I do!
Random fact
I have planned the scene with Sean and Eliza in the living room for so long you wouldn't even believe. And it doesn't even feel real that I've finally written it. The fact that I found the song playing was a total coincidence that just makes me feel… wow! We were in class and listening to music while ending it and somebody put it on. But it is perfect, isn't it?
