I kind of think I should stop apologizing for not having updated in forever. I keep on falling off the face of the earth anyway. But still, here is a brand new chapter for you all- I hope you like it.

Sean POV

When grandpa had moved to Lima he had made sure he had more than one bedroom for the times he wanted to have me for visiting or whatever. Don't ask me why, but he kind of fell in love with a great big mansion right outside town. And as that meant I, mama and Gordon all had our own rooms- I couldn't complain.

Grandpa's and mama's rooms were downstairs- that was planned as grandpa's age, and mama's pregnancy could make it hard to get it up the stairs. And with that Gordon had one of the bedrooms on the second floor. The whole third floor was one room- and that was mine. And still, there were three more bedrooms.

I laid on my back on my bed that afternoon- more likely the afternoon of Saturday the seventeenth of February in 2018. I had just come back from the stables and after a long week in school I could just as well have fallen asleep there and then- which I kind of did. I dozed off but flinched awake what must have been ten seconds later when I heard heavy footsteps on the stairs up to my room. I knew I should have stood up and check who it was (mama most likely) but for some reason in my half- asleep state I couldn't get myself to move.

"Seanie." Her knock on the door pulled me back to reality. "You said you wanted to talk to me. Can I come in?"

"Yes." I sat up on my bed and stood up to unlock the door. "Sorry, but Gordon's been all over me the last few days, I locked it so he would think I wasn't here when he and grandpa comes home." Mama gave a laugh. "So yeah, I wanted to talk to you and…" I reached for a small bag from the pharmacy that laid on my bedside table. "And I've gotten some of these…" I pulled up a small box and read the tag. "Ritalin."

"Those are ADHD- meds that makes it easier to concentrate and keep still right?" I nodded. "Well… if you want to try them it's up to you. And if they work they do. And if they don't they don't." I smirked. "You know what I mean." Mama sat down by the head of the bed and threw my pillow at me. Then she saw my expression had gone more serious again and she frowned. "Is there something else?"

"Mama…" I sighed, I had twisted and turned the options I had at this point. But just come to the conclusion that I needed to ask her before I made any decisions. "You know… when the twins are born I know I will have to help a lot and all of that… and there's still a lot to finish before and… I've got nothing against that I don't… But with Teddy and everything… Do you think it would be better if I… didn't have him to worry about to and sol…"

"NO." Mum had interrupted before I had finished the sentence that I had been so afraid of speaking out loud- because what if she thought it was the best. "Seanie… You know I would never do that to you. And I swear to you, whatever it takes- you will NOT have to get rid of Teddy. So don't you even think about that."

"But wha…"

"DON'T" I nodded. "Do you promise?" I nodded again and held my little finger towards hers. "From one thing to the other… when were you thinking about trying out those medicines?"

Leah POV

"Hey Lex." I said on the Hudmel's porch steps barely ten minutes after dad's phone had called. "IknowIdidnotbringanythingbutthereisachildinNorthCarolinaandweneedtogo." Lex raised an eyebrow and only seemed confused.

"SorryIknowIdidn't…"

"LEAH." Lex shouted my name to interrupt me. "You're speaking too fast. Slow down. Take a deep breath and start over."

"Sorry." I apologized and quickly breathed in. "I know I didn't bring any stuff like I was supposed to. But while I was home my dad's phone called. And you know how Jonah's the only one in the world with his condition? Well, there is a two month old boy in North Carolina that they think have the same condition. And we kind of need to go there and we are kind of leaving in like an hour and I don't want to but I have to ask. Can Ari stay here for a few days?"

"YES." We heard Carole's voice from inside the house. "And I heard all of that. Leah come on, chill out. Take a breath." Not until then I realized I was bouncing up and down on my toes. "Come in and…"

"I don't have time to come in. I need to go home again and we'll just pack and get in the car and then we're going to some place called Ashe and in the middle of nowhere in North Carolina and I gotta go now so Lex can you come with me and get the dog food and stuff?"

"I'll take the car so you don't have to carry everything the whole way here and… Leah? Did you run the whole way here?" I nodded quickly. "Well… I suppose we can say your back's all healed up." She smirked at me and grabbed her car keys from the window seal in the hallway. "Burt, I'll go with the girls. I and Lex will be right back."

When we came inside and through the hallway Jonah laid on the living room couch- I could tell he was restless and wanted to help out. But fact remained that his heart was getting weaker by the day and mum wouldn't have let him move an inch too much.

"How are you doing Jonah?" Lex smirked and leaned against the arm support. "It's a hard knock life isn't it?"

"Oh yes." Jonah smirked back. "Very hard. Mum, mum. Can you pass me that pillow?" Mum was just passing and didn't hear the joking tone in Jonah's voice. But still, she'd do anything for Jonah and with that she lifted the pillow that laid just by Jonah's feet and Lex laughed. "So, you're taking care of Ari for our trip? It's a hard knock life for you too."

"Oh yes." Carole had just come into the living room. "It's a very hard knock life with Ariel in the house." She smirked. "Leah will you show me where the dog food and stuff are?" I nodded and showed the way to my room. Then grabbed a big plastic box in which we had food and toys (that would say the ones not spread all over the house) and brush for Ariel's fur and everything. "Thank you."

I honestly would never remember much of the time we spent packing and then threw everything into the car. I remember it being one thing after the other that Dr. Dylan wanted to test Jonah for so dad was on the phone with him for a good part of the trip and then we played a game with trying to guess the name of the little boy in Ashe.

Then Sunday was driving, getting out of the car and eat something. Driving more, for me it was a lot of reading on the fault of our stars. I must have read through it four times before we arrived in Ashe. But I had forgotten everything to make the time pass by apart from my phone and that book.

"Leah." Jonah stated when we drove by the millionth sign that said Ashe and how far it was left. "If you could tell the parents of this baby anything. I mean about… Well anything about heart diseases and living with it- what would you say?"

I shook my head and glared at Jonah, I did not want to talk about it. I did never want to talk about it. Jonah just sighed and leaned his head against the window. He closed his eyes and if I didn't know him as well as I did I would have thought he'd fallen asleep.

"LEAH"

Somewhere in knowing that Jonah would never fall asleep like that I had fallen asleep myself. And not until Jonah actually shouted my name I flinched awake and looked up. I could spot that we were outside some hotel, but not much more than that as I drowsily grabbed my backpack. Half- sleeping stood behind dad while he got us a room. And then walked up to the room in some kind of tired slow motion before I fell into the right bed.

It felt like forever until we were meeting that baby with Carmichael Syndrome, and the only thought I had the time to think about what tests they wanted to take on Jonah's heart that might show something that would help them help this baby. And with the wish that there had been one born before Jonah- so Jonah could have been helped before it was too late, I fell asleep and didn't wake up until…

"LEAH."

Well, I guess Jonah's attempt of waking me up with shouting my name at the top of his lungs was working quite well. And as soon as I realized we were only eating breakfast and then going to the hospital to meet that baby and his parents had me shooting right out of bed and into some clothes. And still, it felt as if something was making everything go in slow motion until we stood by that hospital door and opened it to see Dr. Dylan had found his way there before us.

Dr. Dylan frowned while looking down on the baby, the baby was attached to a machine sounding way too alike the one Jonah had that would only 'speak' if Jonah's heart wasn't beating properly and shivers ran down my spine.

For a moment I just wanted to get away and run and run and run. Run so fast and far I'd run away from all the feelings in the room. Knowing that since no one had been born with the condition before Jonah, they hadn't known what they knew now and therefore Jonah lived on borrowed time. Away from the young parents who stood with tear stained cheeks by the crib while Dr. Dylan looked up, then saw us and smiled slightly. He carefully lifted the baby boy up and smiled.

"Carmichael's…" He spoke as if this was a really big moment. "This is Lyssa and Victor. Taylor's this is Leah, Jonah, Edna and Abram Carmichael… And this." Dr. Dylan cradled the baby slightly in his arms. "This is Justin."

Dr. Dylan is portrayed by Stellan Skarsgård

So well. There is a baby named Justin who has got Carmichael syndrome. Sean thought he'd give up his horse when the babies are born to be able to help out more but Eliza won't let him. Sean is also trying out Ritalin- a kind of ADHD- meds. While at the same time, Carole loves Ariel. But doesn't everybody really?

Random fact

I am actually quite sick and tired of this story. And I guess you can see that in the way this chapter just moves on too fast. I'm sorry it didn't end up any better.