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This chapter has a small spoiler for the ending of the fault in our stars.

"LEAH." Lex cried dramatically when we had finished watching the fault in our stars. "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME? UUUUUUAAAAAAAH." She faked crying screaming out loud and I couldn't help but laugh. "May I ask how many times you have read this, and how many times you have watched this movie?"

"I lost count for both after fifteen somewhere."

"BOOOOO." Lex continued her dramatic fake-crying. "WHY DID HE HAVE TO DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEE?"

I couldn't help but laugh. Then looked down in the empty, of what at least had been a bag of Haribo Candy and slumped back towards the sofa while Lex went to turn the TV off.

"What time is it by the way?"

I couldn't help but yawn. And not until then I realized that even though we hadn't kept an eye on the clock it would kind of have to be quite late by now.

"Two a. m." Lex had checked her phone. "Do you think maybe we should have gone to bed like two hours ago?" She yawned too. "Well. When the cat's gone the rats are dancing on the table. And speaking about table…"

When we went to the store earlier today I and Lex had gotten each bag of Haribo Candy, each pack of Ben and Jerry's ice cream. We had also made pizza and hot chocolate during the afternoon and night and the rests of it all was all around the table in a whole big mess.

"Should we leave this until tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow." I agreed. "Well. We've been in each pyjamas since right after we came back from the store so everything we have to do is get into bed." We walked up the stairs and towards Lex's room. "Come on Ari."

Ariel had been sleeping. But when I called out for her, tiredly stood up and with a deep sigh slowly followed us into Lex's room. Where she laid down by the foot of the tent bed I used at sleepovers. And with another sigh she fell back asleep.

"Aw. For once in her life Ari was tired." I couldn't help but laugh. "Now who's that?" I pointed to a framed photo on Lex's bedside table. It was on a girl- maybe two or three years old, holding a baby wrapped in a pink and blue patterned blanket in her arms. And a boy about a year old sitting next to them, fingering with the blanket and a great big smile towards the baby. "In the picture."

"That older girl is me." Lex slumped down on her bed. "The little boy is my brother Zeb. And the baby is our sister Maddie."

For a minute memories started flashing by. I might have heard Lex talking about her little sister, brother and her biological parents before. Of course we had seen her dad and uncle at the day we were with glee club at Johnsdale prison. But I realized I actually might not have heard much about neither Zeb nor Maddie.

Except that day in the beginning of the school year when Lex had told me that she had had a little sister, and that she was adopted. And right then she had had some sort of the same expression she had had that then. She had lost a sibling, and we both knew that someday I would too. And that someday was most likely very soon.

"What was she like? Your sister? I hope you don't mind me asking. You don't have to answer that if you don't want to."

"It's fine." I watched as Lex laid her head down on the pillow. And suddenly she looked so far away. "She was great. You know- like children are. She was just always happy. Over the smallest things. Lexie, look a butterfly. Lexie, look a dog. Lexie, my teacher gave me a golden star in my notebook today. And no, just because Maddie did it that doesn't mean you can call me Lexie. Only my little sister could do that."

"I can imagine you were the best older sister too." Lex just smiled back. "Of course. I'm the youngest in my family so I wouldn't know what it's like being a big sister. But the thought of losing Jonah… I mean. I'm sorry. Why do I always have to make it all about me for?"

"You don't. And even if you did it's okay. Although. Didn't the doctors first say that he wasn't going to live for five minutes? Maybe he'll beat them all over again and live to a hundred years old?" I couldn't help but smile myself. "I mean. There are always dreams and Jonah is seriously like nobody I have ever met before. He doesn't stop for one second to feel sorry for himself. He's like this Duracell batteries rabbit that just keeps going and going and going. They should name that rabbit Jonah Carmichael. We should write to someone who made those commercials and tell them what to name it."

What Lex had said had taken a lighter and a more positive tone towards the end. And I wasn't late to catch it. Pouting and being sad about something that hadn't even happened yet and that might not ever happen would get us nowhere. And if we got stuck we could keep on going with that for like ever.

"So what should we do tomorrow before your parents get back? Except cleaning of course because if they come back to the living room being a mess we'll never hear the end of it."

"Sing" Lex said after a bit of thinking. "…and talk about boys. Talk about boys and… boys… and boys…"

"Boys are jerks. I like that plan."

"Yeah totally. And figure some of the songs that we want to do this week for glee club. Do songs for somebody else. Now which song should I do? Or you? Now. There are like billions of songs about that boys are jerks. But Tyler isn't really a jerk though. I just want to do a song about how much I love him and that I want to spend like every minute of every day with him. But that would be kind of creepy."

"Oh Tyler." I sang on a false, spontaneous melody. "I want to spend every minute of every day of the rest of my life with you. I know you think the same about me too. I never want to meet anyone except for me. So every second for the rest of our lives we will together be…. OW."

Lex had thrown her pillow in my face and I fell back on the bed dramatically during loads of laughing from us both.

"We're going weird." I sat up and handed her pillow back to her. "Maybe that's a sign that we should go to bed." Lex nodded agreeing. "Oh well." I pulled the covers over me, and after one last look to the framed photo on her bedside table Lex put her pillow back in its place and laid down.

"Goodnight then."

"Goodnight Leah."

I turned my back against Lex and made myself comfortable on the bed. But I should have known she wasn't giving in just like that. Because I heard a sound as if she was breathing fast and trying to suppress it and suddenly something hit the back of my head.

"Gotcha."

"Hey." I took the pillow she had thrown at me and threw it back at her. Then took my own pillow and during loads of laughing we started a pillow fight. "I'm going to give you for that. I wasn't even ready."

I couldn't say anymore- I was just laughing too much while I and Lex hit each other with each pillow. And if it was true what people said that joy and sorrow walk side by side. I felt now more than ever that so was the case.

Random fact

Well another filler. But don't worry. Things will start happening soon- very soon.