Thanks to Ally R. Swan for reviewing.
I have started two new multi-chapter stories since I updated last. And a bunch of oneshots. I'll list them all and the fandoms they're in. And maybe someone of you might find something I like.
So, first to my new multi- chapter stories
-What I did for hate- the dumping ground (two chapters)
-I'll tell you I'm fine (but I'm actually not)- Alexa and Katie (two chapters done, one to go)
And oneshots, a whole bunch
-Real family isn't always by blood- No good Nick
-Reunited- The lord of the flies
-Happy birthday to you- Once upon a time (birthday gift for Ally R. Swan)
-Different birthdays- 13 reasons why (birthday gift for Dark Heart 945)
-Drowning with love- glee (in memory of Naya Rivera)
-A new type of music- If Only
-Nobody said it was easy (take me back to the start)- Everything everything
"phew" that's all of them. I hope someone out there finds something to read.
"I didn't even know you could play the violin."
Nowadays I spent more time at the Hudmels' than what I did at home. And it was on Monday afternoon- right after Mr. Schuester had told us about this and next week's theme and Lex had pulled out a case from under her bed.
"To be honest I almost forgot about it myself. In between school and friends and my family it was like I forgot about it. A small smile grew on her lips but she had a dreamy look in her eyes that that violin meant more to her than any smile ever could.
"Should I go home so you can practice?"
"No…" Lex smirked. "You should go home so I don't make you deaf by trying to practice. I haven't touched this in like a year…"
I laughed got up, Still knew there was something serious in Lex's joke and I had to leave.
"See you tomorrow."
I kept laughing while going home but stopped while going. Things might have changed since I came home and we weren't fighting.
But everything was wrong, I went straight into my room every afternoon and only came out to have dinner and give Ariel her evening walk.
I had never been so happy I'd have been obsessed with dogs my whole life.
I could never have imagined my life and what it could have been like if I hadn't had my big, white furball of a friend wasn't by my side.
I had only gotten her in September, but that one Monday afternoon in April I got up to sit on my bed for the billionth time and patted in front of me. Ariel got up too and I remembered how I'd lifted her up when she was just a little puppy.
I moved where I sat and buried one hand and my whole face in her fur.
"I love you…" I mumbled to her. "… hmm. I and Lex must figure something to do together for this theme. I know she didn't mean to hurt me or anything but it just feels like everyone trades me for someone else or leaves me outside…" I sighed. "Gosh. Is it even possible to feel so sorry for myself? I know Lex didn't mean it like this it's just…"
I stopped talking and sighed deeply, Lex wasn't anything like my mind was telling me she was right now. And neither was I.
I just couldn't wait for glee club tomorrow. After all, I couldn't wait to see what Lex had come up with for song.
Sean POV
After many if's and but's today had been the day I'd try Ritalin for the first time. I knew I was doing this on a Tuesday out of all days. I also knew that the following day I wouldn't go around and wait in case there would be any side effects.
"There we go…." I swallowed the pill easily but I was starting to become insecure since both mama and grandpa were watching me, and even Gordon even though he was too little to understand what was really going on. "…Tuesday morning, seventeenth of April. And I'm sure everything will be fine." I ruffled in Gordon's hair, slightly kissed mama's forehead and stroke her belly. "You two, be good in there… See you later."
I got in my car, that I was still so unprepared that it was easy to start and I didn't need to tug the steering wheel for it to turn like with my old car that stood in the parking loot until I- or somebody else had figured what to do with it…
No one of us wanted to just send it to be thrown away since it had once been my dad's…
It was when I suddenly got dizzy on my way to school that I knew that if I'd been driving my old car it wouldn't have mattered if I slightly shivered for a moment and tugged the wheel what must have been only a few centimeters.
The car jumped to the side and I quickly turned over on the correct side of the road with other cars honking around me.
The dizziness spell that had hit me was gone within seconds, but it was gone long before my whole body had stopped shaking.
With my hands finally still, but my heart still pounding weirdly I steered out into the road again about the same time that my first class started.
I didn't get any other dizziness spells during that whole day.
But there was something else…
Hadn't I checked the common side effects of Ritalin before I took them I'd think I had come down with something. I just kept feeling more and more nauseas until the point I almost had to go to the bathroom in case I'd throw up.
"Mr. Moraiety?" Suddenly my teacher called my attention. "Are you doing alright? You seemed far away."
"I'm fine. I… I think I have only got to see the nurse… or something."
Before anyone or anything had had the time to stop me I got up, gathered my stuff and half ran out of the room…
I thought that these meds were supposed to make me concentrate better. For the last couple of hours everything I could think of was how I felt…
Leah POV
"Good day fellow students…"
It was Tuesday afternoon, and time for the glee club. And Mr. Schuester was as usual the last one to come into the room.
"Anyone have any songs for this week?"
"There are millions of songs about this theme…" Caroline said- she usually didn't say much. "…It's hard knowing what to do and who to do it with."
"I think you have a point… But there are two hands raised. Lex? Tyler? Do you two have something to do together."
"No."
They laughed when they had said the exact same thing at the exact same time and Mr. Schue chuckled.
"Ladies first."
Lex stood up but stuck out her tongue at her boyfriend. Lex was a tomboy and I (and Tyler) knew exactly how she felt about being called a lady.
"Well… it's been a while since you saw me with my little friend with and honestly I wasn't so sure why. I tried to think of a reason but… it's about a piece of my life that I'm trying to forget… and trying to remember everything I am now… everything I have now… all of my friends and family and all that matters…"
I could feel shivers going down my spine.
I wished I would have met Lex years ago…
But still. I knew her now and in another life than what she'd had before.
"And that's what this week… weeks are about. And I was pretty sure I wouldn't find a song that was… enough. And it's not. But it's something like it I guess.I really like this song. I've listened to it from time to time ever since I can remember. And I thought it might suit for this theme. And I've had the violin lying under my bed for months. I even forgot I had one and could play." She gave a short laugh. "But I know, and I've been practicing last night so I at least know that this won't hurt your ears. And I decided to do it. So here it goes."
I had to admit that even though knowing Lex since this fall and spending so much time along with her I hadn't even known she could play the violin. But if she was anywhere near as good at playing violin as she was at singing it would make it beautiful
I was pretty sure everyone in this room had heard this song before- it was a very well known one.
But even though it was beautiful, how Lex just played the violin on the intro, then sang the verse before she both played and sang the refrain, we all just knew that there was more to this song than what one person could do.
She lowered her violin and looked over the group as soon as she had finished and nodded as we clapped for her. She looked down with a dreamy look on her violin.
It wasn't hard to guess that it meant a lot to her.
"First off." Mr. Schue stood up to say. "Lex, that was beautiful. And second…" He smiled widely. "I think we just found our first song for nationals."
"Whoa."
We cheered and clapped our hands, Lex showed a smile as Mr. Schue clapped her shoulder before she went to sit down next to me again.
"I have a song." Tyler got up, took a guitar from the band and then turned to all of us. "I remembered some of my favorite movies when I was little. And I started thinking about it and I started thinking about the songs. And actually, those songs- and this song I'm going to sing now is the first few songs I ever sang so… I guess without them I wouldn't be here…"
"We're lucky then." Mr. Schue said and we all agreed. "Which movies were they?"
"The ones about Stuart Little." Tyler gave a short chuckle. "And I just had to re-watch them on Monday and Tuesday and I still love them just as much… and I love all the songs, I never forgot the chords to it." He ran his hand down the springs. "And my favorite goes like this."
Tyler started playing on his guitar, signing to the band that he wanted to make this one on his own.
I couldn't help but remember the movies about the little white rat in a red shirt.
That song really was sung from one friend who wanted to show they'd take care and stand up for the other.
I might have watched the Stuart Little- movies, but I didn't recognize the song, but I knew it was perfect for Tyler.
I knew he was friendly, and that he had no enemies at this school. That was except for Teeghan of course. But he was just the type to show it, never afraid of what people would think of it. Just like this song.
My love you can be sure of baby
When he finished the song he almost seemed sweaty. And he shook his fringe out of his eyes and bowed as the rest of us clapped our hands.
"That was fun." Tyler said with a wide smile.
"And we sure did like it as much as you did…" Mr. Schue got up with a short laugh. "Doesn't anyone have a song to do? I guess not."
The whole room was silent for just a moment.
"Wait." Marcie looked around. "Where's Sean?"
"He wasn't feeling well earlier so he went home."
Marcie POV
It was only about one single theme of songs in glee club that had made the last months kind of disappear.
Suddenly I remembered the day, soon after Sean had moved to Lima. I was five and he was ten. He had suddenly turned up in the stables and searched for the boss.
"I'm Sean." He had had a crooked smile, but still kind of nervously. "I'm looking for a Mrs… Banks."
Mum had sent me a weird look. She had told me later she was sure I had my life's first crush and I would grow to fall in love with him.
Sean and I had stayed friends since long… All until that day…
Something clenched in my chest and I could have started crying right then and there.
"I hope he's okay." I said, more to myself than to anyone else. And just afterwards I heard Mr. Schue ending the rehearsal and mostly on automat.
I probably shouldn't have worried. Someone not feeling well was usually just someone having a bug, they'd be gone from school during a day or two and they'd be back as good as new.
So I didn't know where the feeling that I was so worried about him came from…
"Marcie…" Ben's voice got me back to here and now and I stopped. "Where are you? You seemed so far away."
"Ehrm…" I had meant to go with Ben home like so often. "There's something I have to go and sort out."
I probably shouldn't tell my boyfriend I was going to see the best friend he was worst enemy with- all because Sean had kissed me what felt like a thousand years ago.
"What?" Ben smirked slightly. "Something I can help you with?"
"No." I answered a bit too quickly. "But… I'll see you tomorrow." I kissed him quickly. "I love you…"
"I love you too."
Ben and I went in different directions, I ran across the parking lot and quickly got onto the right bus, the bus that would lead me up the hill where Sean lived nowadays…
The thoughts crossed my mind that I had missed the whole part with him moving from Curtis to his granddad. A part where I should have come, if not to help Sean then to help Mrs. Moraiety.
Next stop…
I didn't even listen to the electronic voice going through the bus. I knew where it was going and when I got off I ran the last part. Everything as if to get there before I had the chance to change my mind.
Thoughts were flashing in my mind, what if Sean was contagious and I got ill too? Why was I even as if I was in such a rush?
I took the porch steps in a few jumps and before I had the time to change my mind I rang the doorbell.
A few seconds passed by, then I heard footsteps coming closer to the door.
That was when I had to realize that whoever opened the door, I would have no idea about what to say.
Playlist
Lex: You raise me up- Josh Groban
Tyler: Count on me- Billy Gilman
Random fact
Writing Sean on Ritalin was certainly interesting. I took Ritalin for about six and a half years. Then I had to quit them because they had too many side effects.
There was this one day when my mum accidentally took my meds (she had an infection that had moved to her kidneys and her pills were the same size as mine) and I got the inspiration from what she said she'd been feeling while driving for Sean driving to school.
