Chapter Twenty Four
Peace filled me as I awoke on his chest, a small pool of drool on his shirt. Looking up I see him awake. Dicks eyes watch me as I sleep. Walls still up, I can't feel his emotions. "Hey." He leans down kissing my forehead.
"Hey." I lay my head back down.
"You okay?" He asks softly.
"No." I sigh.
"It's just 2 weeks, come with me." He rubs his hand on my beck.
"Think Jason will let me out of his sight?" I huff. "He's been like a mother bird."
"He just wants to make sure you and the baby's fine." He smiles softly.
"Well it's annoying." I groan setting up. "I got up last night for a late night snack and he judged me."
"Well what did you eat?" He sits up kissing my cheek.
"An Oreo." I hesitate.
"And?" He knows there's more.
"Peanut butter and a pickle on top." I smirk, "with a dash of cayenne pepper."
"That sounds gross." He laughs, "I'll try it though."
"I figured you'd be on board." I smile. "Not my fault this things wants weird shit." I point to my belly. The larger mass shows growth as I've now hit 18 weeks.
"What are you craving now?" He gets up out of our bed stretching.
"Fried rice." I stand placing a hand on top of the bump.
"I can fix it after I shower." He smiles heading into the bathroom.
"It's 8am Are you sure?" I follow him.
"Yeah, I don't care." He starts the hot water, "could be worse."
"True." I sit to pee, "I have my doctors appointment tomorrow and then I can meet you in Jump if Jason let's me."
"He's not your fucking keeper." He huffs out, "you wanna come I'll arrange it to happen."
"Just don't want to cause drama." I sigh, "he's already pretty pissed about not being able to go to doctors appointments."
"Well as a man who murders, he can't get pissy the Justice League doesn't want him in their watch tower." He slips his shirt off.
"I know, but he stopped killing." I sigh, "and he's been there before."
"I know, but his actions had consequences Rae." He steps into the shower.
"He didn't ask to be brought back and go mad." I point out. "He's been working really hard to tame that madness."
"Understandably, but it still doesn't take back what he did." Dick watches as I brush my teeth.
"I know." I sigh, "he asked me if I could help go through his mind."
"No." Dick turns quick, "you're not going into his head." He puts his foot down.
"I wasn't going to." I turn sharp. "Why are you mad?"
"He's taken so much, and he's not taking our bond." He blurts out. I'm stunned by the hurt radiating off of him.
"Dick I-" he interrupts
"If you do this, I'm going to be Done Rae." He says bitterly.
"What the fuck?" I yell. "I just told you I wasn't. Quit being a jerk."
"I know, but I'm just letting you know." He scrubs his scalp.
"Well I'm letting you know, that I don't like your attitude." I storm out.
Heading to the closet I grab a pair of leggings and a tee. Throwing it on I'm immediately pissed at how tight the shirt is. Dick walks out in just a towel and I'm immediately frustrated as he looks at the shirt on the floor. "We need to take you shopping." He mumbles.
"I can take myself." I slam the dresser drawer pulling out a different shirt. Tugging it on, the shirt rides above my belly. "What the hell." I rip it off.
"Here." He pulls out a shirt of his. I look at the navy shirt and I burst into tears. "Rae I-"
"I'm so sick of getting fat!" I blurt out with my sob. "And you're going to leave me."
"I'm not going anywhere." He sighs out. "I shouldn't have said that. It just hurts"
"Well threatening to be done, fucking hurts." I turn walking out of my room. Walking out in my leggings and the black bra I storm through the living room to the kitchen. Stopping in my tracks I notice Jason standing in the kitchen staring at me. My eyes still filled with tears. Looking at my bra, I turn and storm back to the room.
Dick stands eyeing me up and down as I storm past him holding his shirt. Digging through the closet I throw stuff to the floor, knowing it won't fit. "Rae." Dick sighs as he stands outside of the closet dressed, "just wear my shirt."
"I don't want it!" I cry.
"Knock off the bullshit attitude." Jason yells behind Dick, "take the fucking shirt."
"Fuck you." I grab a hoodie and pull it on.
"What did you do to rapture this?" Jason scoffs.
"She told me about you asking for her help going into your mind." He crosses his arms.
"Didn't think it was that bad of an idea?" I step out past the men.
"Well apparently he will leave me if I do." I grab socks out of my dresser.
"What?" Jason looks to Dick sharp. "You threatened to leave over that?"
"It kills the bond she has with me. If she chooses to do that to have one with you. It's going to destroy me." He rubs his face.
"I didn't know that, Dick. I would have never asked." He looks wide eyed.
Dick sighs out. "Okay maybe I overreacted"
Storming out of the room I almost trip over Junie as she runs from the room. She howls as I walk through the living room. Grabbing her food bowl I throw food in the dish. Jason and Dick walk out watching me as I slam shit around. Grabbing my purse I pull my phone out calling Megan.
"Hello?" she answers.
"Hey are you busy today?" I grumble as I open the cabinet grabbing my prenatal vitamins.
"Eh, family dinner tonight." She sounds enthused.
"I need to go shopping for an outfit. Wanna go?" I sigh.
"You sound in a great mood. I'm guessing you need to vent. Sure. Meet at the mall in an hour?" she laughs.
"Sounds great." I smile hanging up.
I throw the pill in my mouth taking a swig of water, swallowing it. I glare at the men as they look to each other.
"Hey, I didn't do anything." Jason holds his hands in defense.
"I think you need to move out." I grab my purse quickly dropping it. I grab my stomach as the sensation happens again.
"What's wrong." Dick rushes to me.
"They moved." I look down at the grey cloth of the sweatshirt. Dick smiles stepping to me. "I would never lose our bond" I look away. "That's why I told him no."
"I'm sorry. I'm just still upset about everything." He brushes a hair from my face. "I just need time."
"Then you take these 2 weeks away to get yourself sorted." I look away. "I can't change that it's not yours, but these frequent outbursts of anger and hurt are destroying me. Take your wall down and let me feel it all at once."
"I wasn't meaning to hurt you." He looks shocked.
"And I want you to find a new place." I huff, "I need some privacy. I don't need a watch dog."
"Okay." Jason agrees.
Leaving the two standing there I walk out of my home with my purse slung over my shoulder. Standing in the elevator I lean against the wall placing my hand on my stomach. "Hey, you didn't have to move to tell me I was being emotional. Kay kid?" I smile as I rub the bump.
Walking out into the garage I pull the keys out to the car Dick keeps here. His bike sits against the wall, so I know he can get around if he needs to. The red gloss on the suv is sleek on the Porsche, sighing I hop into the drivers seat. Hardly ever driving, as anywhere I go Dick goes. Heading out of the garage I drive to meet Megan, when suddenly it hits me.
Oh shit. I haven't told Megan about being pregnant. Or that Jason's alive. How do I even explain that without exposing the Batman ordeal? Or that it isn't Dicks baby I'm carrying. How will I ever tell people any of this. Fuck. I my chest tightens and I pull into a parking spot. My anxiety is high as hell right now.
My phone lights up as Megan calls. "Hey." I answer shakily.
"You freaking out for some reason?" she scoffs. I look up to see her a few cars over sitting on the side of her car watching me.
"Yeah." I huff. "You will too." I hang up. I step out of the car as she walks to me.
"Alright what's wrong?" She walks to me.
"This." I lift up my shirt exposing my belly.
"When the hell did that happen!" She screams.
"About 18ish weeks ago." I sigh.
"And here I was excited to tell you I'm pregnant." She smiles.
"Really?" I smile as she pulls out her photos from her purse.
"I'm only 8 weeks." She smiles, "so you're already a leap ahead."
"Congrats." I smile as I look to the static photos.
"You too!" She gleams, "Dick must be excited."
"It's complicated." I smile. "How is Matt taking it?" She links my arm as we walk into the mall.
"He's at home already priming walls to paint.!" She gleams with excitement. "Man can barely contain himself."
"Sounds about right." I smile as we walk into the mall.
"Do you know what you're having?" She smiles.
"No. I don't think I'm going to find out." I shrug, "this was already a surprise, why not let this be a surprise."
"I mean all those years with him wanting to bend you over, he made damn sure you weren't going anywhere." She laughs. I nod.
Walking towards some maternity store she talks about her pregnancy so far and married life. She seems to be doing well. Seeing the store we head towards it until a loud bang on the escalator catches our attention. A woman starts falling down as her stroller tumbles with her. Quickly I whip my hand up causing the tumble to stop. I gently set her and the stroller down on the solid floor without notice. Turning to Megan she stares at me with a smirk. Shit.
"So now that this is finally in the open." She motions her hand, "can we talk about Dicks ass in his Nightwing Costume?"
"Eh-what?" I blush red and panic.
"I've known forever." She shrugs off. "You kinda confirmed my suspicion when Jason died and your powers went all berserk."
"You're not scared?" I blush.
"No." She smiles, "should I be?"
"Most people are." I look away.
"Well I'm not." She elbows my arm. "Come on." She motions
"You're not going to tell anyone are you?" I raise a brow.
"Hell no. Matt and I are the only ones, and he's the one who connected Nightwing." She laughs.
"So do you know about Jason?" I sigh as we make it into the store.
"He was the second Robin." She shrugs as we look around.
"He's alive." I sigh.
"Hold on, what?" She turns around fast.
"Yeah." I blush. "He's my mystery man who kept sending me flowers."
"Holy shit. Are you okay?" She looks worried.
"Yeah. Except he's now a crime lord, the Red Hood, and I slept with him before I gave into Dick." I sigh.
"Oohhh shit." She laughs. "So is that why it's complicated with Dick?"
"It's not Dicks baby." I admit looking away, "and I hate myself for it."
"Oh Rachel. Things happen. And you can't change them." She sighs, "you just have to make the best of it."
"Trying to." I sigh picking up a pair of maternity jeans.
"So how was Jason after all of those years?" She smirks.
"I didn't know it was Jason until after we hooked up." I smirk.
"Oohh so he lived out your masked man kink." She nods in approval.
"Turns out it's not that hot." I smirk
"You're still into it if you're with Dick." She laughs, "he's fucking hot in and out of that outfit."
"He is." I smile.
We manage to find some clothes and spend the morning catching up. It's nice with everything out in the open and not trying to hide anymore. She's been so understanding and completely sweet. The hug in the parking lot was lingered as we parted ways. It had been so long since I'd seen her.
The drive home may have had some shed tears as I felt so much better from my morning with Megan. Pulling into the garage I try to compose myself as the door swings open and I see Dick standing there with flowers. Stepping out I eye him up and down, crossing my arms.
"Cute." I still hold my anger.
"I also have a new pack of Oreos for you." He smirks.
"Well lucky for you I'm starving." I sigh. Walking to the trunk I pop it open. Dick walks back to help me with the bags.
"Find anything good?" He eyes the shopping bags.
"Just a few new outfits." I sigh, "since I'm getting fat."
"You're so beautiful Rae.". He smiles.
"Am I?" I stop turning to him. "Because you've barely touched me for weeks."
"I'm sorry Rae. I'm trying, I really am." He rubs his neck.
"Maybe you should go see Leslie." I close the trunk.
"That's a good idea." He sighs.
"And I have to stop expecting you to be okay with this." I step into the elevator.
"I said I would accept it." He sighs folding in with bags in hand.
"Saying and doing is two different things." I lay my head against the elevator.
"It is." He admits."no matter what, you're mine." He smirks
"Always." I smile leaning in to kiss him.
Dick reminding me that I'm his, always makes me feel good. Makes me feel wanted in the worst times. He still wants me even when I carry his brothers baby. The reassurance is now for myself as well. And boy did I need it.
Hey guys, I'm in a writers block. Hoping to get back into the swing of things. I'm hoping someone is reading. Thanks!