2 Years Ago, 2 weeks after James left
Kendall kept on flickering the lighter on his way back home. Home. This place was his new home after leaving Minnesota behind. Now, it doesn't feel like home anymore.
Kendall walked back in 2J and saw Logan sitting on the couch.
Logan got up from the orange couch. "Where have you been?"
"Why do you care?" Kendall said.
"Because were best friends." Logan said.
"Best friends? You guys blindsided me!" Kendall yelled and stormed off in his room he had shared with James, slamming the door behind him. He slid down against the door, bringing his knees to his chest. He wanted to fix their friendship. He wanted to try to fix it. But why should he when the other three seemed to be drifting apart from him. It wasn't supposed to happen like this. They weren't supposed to be drifting apart. Not now. Not never. They were supposed to be best friends forever. So, what changed? Did this town change his friends again? Like it did before when they got Hollywood fever. But this time it felt different. It was different.
Kendall then felt his body trembling. His heart started to beat more rapidly, and he felt chest pain. What the hell was wrong with him? After a couple minutes, he seemed to calm down. He pulled out his phone and try to figure out what just happened. He could have just asked Logan, but he didn't feel like talking to him right now. Then the words popped up.
Panic Attack.
He had his first panic attack. He slowly got up from where he was sitting and headed for his bed and sat on it. Looking around the room. He felt sick. He felt hurt. He felt betrayed. He felt hopeless. But the worst feeling he felt was lonely. He opened the lighter and flickered it.
Logan knocked on the door but got no answer. He then opened the door and saw Kendall with a lighter.
"What are you doing with a lighter?"
Kendall looked up, startled.
"Kendall, why do you have a lighter?" Logan asked.
"Cause I can." Kendall said, harshly.
"Look man, I know you're upset -"
Kendall cut him off. "Mad? I'm hurt you guys didn't even discuss with me how you wanted to quit the band. I'm hurt that James won't return my texts or calls. I'm hurt that you guys don't care how I fell!"
"We do care about how you feel." Logan said.
"Really? Then how come you guys didn't discuss about quitting the band with me before telling Gustavo that we wanted to." Kendall said.
"We were going to."
"Why didn't you?" Kendall asked looking at Logan who didn't had a response to that. Kendall shook his head. "There's the door. You can go now."
"We should talk about this." Logan said.
"Talk about what?"
"How you're taking your feelings out on us. I know James left because he needed a break, and you shouldn't be mad at him for wanting to leave and go back to Minnesota for a while." Logan said.
"You're not even listening to me."
"You're pulling us away." Logan said.
"I'm pulling you guys away? Are you fucking serious right now!" Kendall said, anger building inside him. "You guys made the decision to quit the band without even talking to me about it! And I'm the one pulling away? You guys act like our friendship doesn't matter anymore. You guys act like I'm not part of our friendship anymore."
It was silence for a few moments between them.
Kendall was hoping Logan was going to say something, anything but instead he just left the room and shut the door behind him.
Kendall watched Logan shut the door behind him and that's when Kendall broke down.
For the first time since he was five years old. He cried himself to sleep.
Hoped you guys liked it. Can their friendship be fixed? Was Kendall right for being upset?