DIVORCING ORION BLACK

by kquil

Just another fix-it-fic where you fall into a fictional universe and take up the role of a villain but... in this instance, you replace Walburga Black in the Harry Potter Universe. You love the fandom but the Marauders Era has always been quite vague ...will you be able to live peacefully? One thing's for sure, you're getting a divorce and you're taking the kids.

7. VII - INVESTIGATIONS

07 : INVESTIGATIONS

CHPT. SUM. :you investigate the mysterious room you first woke up in while james, sirius and peter investigate where remus disappeared to.

LENGTH :9.5k

TAGS :reggie baby is too precious ; the making of the marauders ; remus needs a hug ; remus' first transformation ; madam pomfrey is there for him ; madam pomfrey is mother ; reader is also mothering ; no orion because he's being served justice ; kreacher is in on it ; detail on reader's bcakground revealed ; walburga's plotting clues

CONTENT WARNING :dead animal ; impications of animal cruelty/abuse ; cancer diagnosis ; life-altering surgery mentions

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Hogwarts 5th September 1971

From very young, Remus has grown a habit of being well-prepared for things, primarily out of necessity and fear. Fear of himself and the necessity to keep others safe from the monster that he was. His parents were adamant in doing everything they could to vanquish the prejudice surrounding lycanthropes and even more determined to erase his views of himself because of his lycanthropy. He is their only son, the light of their world and the most precious being to exist in their lives. Remus will always be grateful for their efforts and unwavering love for him but the situation is bleak. It's hard to escape the nasty whispers and unsavoury gossip that go around about hiskind— not that he wanted to be a werewolf in the first place...

He's lucky enough to be accepted into the greatest wizarding school in Britain by Albus Dumbledore. Despite knowing of his condition, Remus was allowed to attend Hogwarts on the condition that he be carefully monitored and cared for by the school's established matron, Madam Pomfrey. The conditions were explicitly stated in a separate letter his parents received atop his letter of acceptance to the prestigious wizarding school. That day was a dream come true, Remus almost felt feverish holding the letter in his hand and reading about all the things he needed for the start of his tuition at Hogwarts. He couldn't believe his ears when his parents assured his insecurities by stating they received a letter written by Albus Dumbledore himself in the caring for his 'unique constitution'. The letter clearly stated that Remus was free to use an abandoned shack for his transformations, it was far enough from Hogwarts and Hogsmeade to ensure the safety of students and villagers of the respective areas. Madam Pomfrey was to escort Remus to the shack before every transformation and would be the first to fetch him after, ensuring that he was well taken care of throughout his academic career.

Remus worried that he might break through a window or door but Dumbledore's clairvoyant nature accounted for that in his letter. It was explained how the shack no longer had any working doors or windows for exit or entry and that the only entrance was via a secret passageway under the whomping willow. That willow was planted to disguise the entrance of the shack and, due to its violent nature, would attack anyone that drew near and disrupt its many branches. The procedure for calming down the tree would be explained by Madam Pomfrey when Remus arrived and would be approaching his first full moon. Everything was taken care of and Remus, in his relief, was free to feel the excitement of every other student invited to attend Hogwarts.

Tonight would be Remus' first transformation. A Sunday. The timing was poor, it meant that Remus would be missing his first few lessons of the day if the night proved to be especially terrible. Nevertheless, he'll try his best to push through, the idea of doing catch-up work wasn't a welcomed one, especially when so early on in the school term. The entire day, he had been especially antsy and quick to temper, unintentionally putting his close group of friends on edge. Every outburst was followed by a quiet but sincere apology and, although Sirius, James and Peter were put off by his strange behaviour, they couldn't help but worry for their close friend. Their friendship was fairly new but there was already a brotherhood there that was undeniable and hard to suppress. The fact that they shared a dorm room only reinforced the bond between them.

Their concern was obvious and Remus was happy to indulge in it, it fostered a familiar feeling similar to the one brought on by his parents whenever the effects of his condition became particularly unpleasant. And, although it was comforting, Remus made sure to keep his distance. The entire day, Remus was tormented by his conflicting emotions. He was worried about his friends finding out about his condition, worried that his mood swings and irritable nature made the monster that he was obvious. His usually polite mannerisms took on a more brutish design, his movements were rougher, his jaw always ticking about, wanting to gnaw on something, his joints sensitive and tender, building up throughout the day. The unfamiliar environment pinched his nerves and made him highly sensitive, he was scared about any potential mishaps that could happen, many of which, many could occur as it would be his first transformation. He hated days like this but they were his most important days too; he had to be extra careful.

Although James, Sirius and Peter were perfectly justified to snap at Remus for being so 'unlike himself' —as Peter put it, a little too lightly Remus would argue— their levels of concern far outshined their frustration over his behaviour. He only hopes that after this is all over, they will be able to forgive him for the personality shift and things can go back to normal without too many questions being asked of him.

Earlier that day, Madam Pomfrey made sure to visit him, pulling him away from the group for a private talk although she kept their hushed conversation within view of many other students.

"How are you feeling so far? Is everything okay?"

"Just normal stuff, I'm fine," Remus assured but his tense shoulders spoke the truth, exposing his internal worries and growing discomfort. He looks around, only to avoid the curious eyes of other students, especially his dorm mates and close friends. He wonders why their 'private' conversation was being done in the eyes of so many other people, when she first approached him for a quick but discreet talk, he expected her to take him someplace private too but that wasn't the case.

"Honestytakes you a long way, Remus," she eyes him sternly but there's a softness to her gaze as well.

"...I don't feel good. I never feel good," he bites his lip in an attempt to keep his shaky voice steady and looks to the ground to disguise his watery eyes. His hands clenched into fists at his side, partially disguised by his large woolly jumper — an expression of anger at the unfairness of his state but Pomfrey's caring hand against his shoulder settled his rage almost immediately.

"I'm very sorry, dear," they share a brief but understanding look, "I wish you could do more for you but here," she hands him a small note before promising to meet him for his transformation later that night and leaving with an elegant swish of her matron dress.

It was a purposeful performance, Remus quickly gathered after her leaving, something to show others, especially his close friends, that something medically related was wrong but should remain only between them. It was clever. He carefully tucks away the sick note she had given for him to use as the perfect excuse should Filch catch him in the hall out of bed.

Remus holds that same note like a lifeline while dressed in his pyjamas and piquing the curiosity of his dorm mates. He makes the excuse of feeling ill and insists that he go to the hospital wingalone. He stresses the word when his friends shuffle to the edge of their beds. James and Sirius were strong protestors, blocking his way when he tried to swiftly slip away. Their disagreements delayed his journey, pushing him close to snapping harshly but thanks to Peter's shy input and hesitant smile, James finally conceded and held Sirius back with him. Finally, Remus could go with a small smile of thanks as James continued to hold Sirius back. Remus continued to hear his friend's protests even through the door he softly closed shut behind him and began his search for the school matron.

Meeting Madam Pomfrey for the first time was nerve-wracking. Remus had made a point of seeking her out on their first-day tour of Hogwarts. He was nervous and remembered feeling so small under her gaze when he had first introduced himself, all while his friends and classmates remained preoccupied with a brief tour of the hospital wing around him. She knew what he truly was and dreaded the feeling of facing her criticism and repulsion. But he had no reason to be afraid nor so self-deprecating before her; when he looked up from his shoes, he was met with a kind and reassuring smile. There was understanding behind her gentle gaze and a silent promise to take good care of him through the warmth of her hand as she softly petted his head. He hears her soft whisper of assurance:you're in good hands, dear.That was all he needed, all he needed to trust her. She didn't judge him, there wasn't a single drop of animosity or loathing in her eyes and gentle touch. He will remember that day, her acceptance, forever; he believed only his parents had the capacity to care for a monster like him but she refuted that without a single word.

"I am here to make sure you're well taken care of, Remus," Pomfrey comments softly as she leads him through an inconspicuous passage, bypassing most of Hogwarts' stone halls and towering staircases. Regardless, the passage still stretched on forever before Pomfrey was finally leading Remus out onto a hill that housed the isolated cabin. As stated in the letter, it had no windows or doors, all traces of such entrances were boarded up and Remus felt the unsavoury feeling consume the depths of his stomach when comparing the shack to a private jail cell.

"I apologise for its sorry state, Remus" Pomfrey sighs in disappointment, her frown remaining despite his words of assurance. She carefully approaches a knot at the base of the gnarled tree before leading him down another tunnel, one with walls of dirt rather than stone, "I wanted to, at least make it more accommodating for you but to keep suspicions at bay and activity around the shack should be kept to a minimum, Dumbledore insisted that it remains unsightly,"

"It's okay, really," Remus musters a small smile and assures her again, unaware of how he makes her heart clench painfully. Such a young boy doesn't deserve to experience this type of prejudice or mistreatment. She'd much rather patch up miscellaneous injuries from innocent falls and moments of misjudged hazards than treat a sweet, innocent child for such horrific injuries, caused by an affliction he did not want — something hatefully thrust upon him due to bitterness and vengeful desires. Pomfrey was informed of Remus' situation well before the Hogwarts acceptance letters were sent out and, filled with heartache and sympathy, resolved to care for Remus as if he were her own son. The letter of gratitude she had received from the Lupin parents only fuelled her unwavering will. It was also soon established that she would send letters to them after every full moon reporting on the state of Remus' conditions, to keep them informed and assured of his wellbeing. They were good people and they had a lovely son. It was horrible what had become of their family due to ignorance and the thirst for vengeance. Lyall Lupin will regret that fateful day until his last breath. Not a day goes by that he doesn't blame himself for his son's mistreatment and lycanthropy.

Stepping into the dust-filled shack, Remus takes a moment to look around, shivering at the low temperature of the room before moving to the centre and facing Pomfrey. The matron moves to the fireplace and lights it ablaze with a swift wave of her wand before facing him with a kind smile. However, Remus, seeing the lack of chains casts a worried glance at her.

"Are you sure I won't be able to hurt anyone in here?" Remus asks before Pomfrey can say much else. And, again, the matron is astounded at the child's strong character. Despite his condition and the prejudice he faces for it, he worries for others more than himself.

"Professor Dumbledore made sure of that, I promise," Pomfrey goes up to Remus and kneels before him to get at eye level, "You have nothing to worry for. You are safe," uncertainty remained in Remus' gentle, brown eyes and it didn't leave until Pomfry assured him of everyone's safety as well, "everyone else will also remain safe," That was all Remus needed to feel at ease and timidly wave her off as she leaves through the tunnel. Outside the willow comes to life again, swaying against the push of the wind and sensitive to the presence of unwanted strangers.

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Screams rang out through the night,horrificandpainful, that was what had woken Sirius up. Shaken by the disturbing sound, Sirius clambers out of bed to look out of the dorm room window. Like some sort of haunted picture, the full moon hangs suspended in the night sky, laying claim to its dominance over the vast expanse of space, outshining the stars and ousting all clouds that still linger. It glowed like the many poltergeists that roam Hogwarts' halls but the moon's presence was incomparably menacing.

"What is that screaming?" Sirius utters, his grey eyes searching the landscape through his window for some form of explanation.

"I don't know but Remus still hasn't returned," James speaks up from the shadows, nearly making Sirius jump out of his skin.

"W-wait, Remus isn't back yet?" Peter asks, also slipping out of bed and the three make their way over to their friend's absent bunk. "Where could he be?"

"I don't know, but we're going to find out," James grins and holds up a cloak.

"How is that gonna help us find out where Rem—" Sirius begins, rubbing his eyes from sleep but stutters to a stop when James' figure disappears beneath the fabric. The eldest Black brother shares a look of surprise with Peter before turning a grin back to James who was now a floating head.

"I like your thinking, James old chap!" Sirius jests and slips beneath the invisibility cloak with him.

"Will we all be able to fit inside?" Peter's eyes swim with a healthy level of uncertainty, only to be pulled under the cloak despite his protests.

"We'll fit, just keep in time with my pace and be veryvery quiet,"James warns and the two nod affirmatively, Sirius being much more enthusiastic compared to Peter's hesitance.

"I hope we find, Remus soon," Sirius comments under his breath, pressed against James' right as Peter staggers along at James' left.

"I know... with all that screaming outside, I hope he isn't in any trouble." The three make their way to the hospital wing but falter at a hallway junction.Which way was the hospital wing again?

"I-I think we should go right," Peter helpfully stutters after some thought.

"I thought it was left?" Sirius scratches at his head as James gnaws on his inner cheek.

The three collectively decide to go right for the time being and if it's wrong, they simply turn back and go the other way. Sirius didn't anticipate having such an adventure through the halls in the middle of the night and, although it was underpinned by their concern for Remus' whereabouts, he couldn't help but feel exhilarated by the escapade. It was thrilling to challenge the rules and go against them. Sirius was well aware of this already but it's remarkably more exhilarating when sharing the experience with other people, people that the young Black had formed a close brotherhood with. It was a bond he was quickly growing attached to. Of course, no one could ever replace Regulus as his real brother but Sirius enjoys not being the older brother for once. He enjoys having friends of the same age and not being weighed down by responsibilities or a pressing urge to protect them. They all stood on level ground, shoulder to shoulder and fuelled with equal trust for the other. Sirius quickly realised that, if hewereto get in trouble for their misbehaviour, he wouldn't mind too much.

"Damn it, I think it was left after all," James curses and steers all three of them back the way they came.

"S-sorry you guys," Peter squeaks and Sirius can just about feel the heat of embarrassment from his friend's face against his shoulder.

"Mistakes happen, no worries, Pete," James doesn't seem bothered at all, Sirius and Peter can practically hear him grinning through his words.

"Yeah but, next time, we should go where I say first," Sirius cheekily comments, getting a light shove from Peter and chuckles lightly.

Their search continues but ends early when they're caught red handed by Filch. The halls had gotten too dark and doing 'lumos' beneath the invisibility cloak was useless so James had to tuck away their only cover to continue forward, only for Filch to round the corner and smirk wickedly at them. It was good night of mischief while it lasted, they just wish they managed to find Remus before getting caught. Their friend remains the prominent concern in their minds.

Filch had taken them straight to Professor McGonagall who now eyes them narrowly. "Why exactly were you three out of bed past curfew?" Filch remains in the far corner of the room, observing the scene and relishing in his deliverance of misery.

"We wanted to know what the screaming was about," James fibs smoothly, not wanting to out Remus. Sirius nods along beside him after catching onto his friend's intentions.

"But weren't we—"

"Just heading back," Sirius finishes and turns to Peter with wide eyes, pinning him to the spot, "we really didn't stay out too long, Professor, can't you let this slide?" Sirius smiles pleadingly but their transfiguration professor is unaffected and swiftly assigns all of them detention. "Filch will take you back to your dorms and you will stay there, understood?"

"Yes, professor," they say in unison.

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Hogwarts 6th September 1971

It's the next day and Remus still hasn't returned. It was not lunch and the trio were beginning to really worry for their friend.

"We need to find Remus. We should skip History of Magic, it isn't all that important anyway," James' words make Sirius wince ever so slightly, remembering your wisdom of the past providing the perfect lessons for a better future — it was an important subject to learn and Sirius had agreed with you.

"B-but what if we get in trouble?"

"Remus is more important than history, Pete,"

"I-I guess—"

"Wait! Look who it is, lads?!" Sirius points and begins to cheer at the sight of Remus hobbling over to their table with a crooked smile. The trio rise from their seats and immediately rush to his side, eying his awkward ambulation but don't breathe a word.

"What happened to you? Where have you been?" James asks as Peter nods along, still pointedly looking at his hobbling.

"I was feeling sick remember?" Remus shrugs.

"Is that why you're walking funny?"

"Y-yeah," they finally sit back down at the table.

"Does it hurt a lot?" Peter begins to shake at the thought of hurting himself the way Remus seems to have done.

"Not really. Madam Pomfrey says it'll go away through the day," assured and satisfied with his answer they help him pile up his plate before continuing to eat.

"What have you been doing all morning?" Sirius asks through a mouthful of food.

"Making sure I don't get behind on work and doing them in the hospital wing," their jaws drop at his level of studiousness, "yeah, I asked Madam Pomfrey to get the assigned work from classes so I can do them without getting behind,"

"You're the academic of the group then," James comments and grins deviously, "hey, can I copy off you in class?"

"Shove off, James," Remus smiles when James laughs good-naturedly. It was then that the group thought it fun to retell their adventure the night before, all of them grinning when Remus goes bug-eyed at the discovery of James' invisibility cloak.

"I'm sorry you all got detention," Remus feels more than guilty. He didn't realise they would go so far for him and, although it was flattering to know that they would, he felt horrible that it ended in them getting detention. The brunette was surprised, however, when the group easily shrugged it off.

"We'll be doing it again soon, anyway," James smirks, shocking everyone but Sirius is soon grinning beside him. Remus laughs in disbelief but feels a weight being lifted off his shoulders — he managed to land himself a really good group of friends here; it's more than he feels deserves. Peter seems to be the only one nervous about getting in trouble again.

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12 Grimmauld Place 12th September 1971

Today, Orion wasn't present at the dinner table; his stomach had been too weak to hold much food. Not long after a meal, he's having to make yet anotherpainful, arduous, karmictrip to the toilet. You, unfortunately, had to reveal the truth to Regulus after having lunch without a trace of his father in sight. You didn't give much detail about Orion's condition, just that he was having stomach problems and would be occupying the toilet closest to his home office and to avoid that area at all costs. Your baby flushed a soft pink and immediately moved the topic forward, making you giggle. He's such an upright gentleman, trying to keep the subject off unsavoury matters, especially over the dinner table. Conversation flows naturally and there are brief pauses where you both focus on your plates, providing the perfect opportunity for your mind to wander.

You can't find that blasted first roomanywhere. You've searched the entire house and...nothing. The troubling situation has you scratching your head; how can a room no longer exist? This is a magical world full of witches and wizards so you gather that magic may be responsible for the missing room. It's probably similar to the Room of Requirement. Now, it was the question ofwhy.Why does a dark, pureblood family need a magic room that can disappear? With a humourless chuckle, you realise you've answered your own question. The Blacks are a pureblood elitist family that dabbles in the dark arts,of course,they would have a secret room that can disappear. That's probably the only room they allow themselves to practice the dark arts in. But why did you wake up inthat room specifically?

Lost in thought, you barely register the way Regulus repeatedly calls to you. He's seated directly to your right at the table so your distracted attention makes him furrow his brows. When you finally snap to attention and look at him with an apologetic smile, his darling features are crumpled into an expression of worry. His concern was sweet and your heart warms at being blessed with such a caring son. He's truly an angel compared to his biological parents; it's the world's greatest mystery why Regulus Black was born to such a reprehensible pair of parents.

"Is everything alright, mother?"

"Right as rain, dear," he looks spectacle but doesn't press further, happy to flash you a smile before returning to his dinner. "...I do have a question, however, do you mind helping me with something, please, sweetheart?" perhaps knowing where to look would be better. Both Sirius and Regulus were witnesses to your appearance just before you fainted that day, he's sure to know the location. Regulus eagerly nods his head, still chewing on his mouthful and not wanting to be rude, "Do you remember the first night I had that horrible fainting spell?"

"Yes, Mother?" he looks guilty remembering the moment he left with Sirius to the library, where they planned on getting through some boring, last-minute homework for their private tutors. They were upset at your dismissive words, claiming you didn't have sons. It made Sirius snap rudely before stomping away as Regulus scurried behind him, not wanting to face more of his mother's hurtful disdain. It isn't until the morning after that they realise you were suffering enough to faint. Sirius stubbornly refuses to admit to his shameful behaviour but Regulus is drowning in guilt. He hopes you don't look badly on him for that time, Sirius too. The relationship between you was much better now, brighter and warmer, it hurts too much to think of the past and it would be best to only look forward from here.

"Do you remember where I was at that time? I can't quite remember," you laugh softly, trying to make the situation appear unimportant, only curious. Regulus answers quietly, too quietly as he stares down at his plate, "I'm sorry, I didn't catch that, dear,"

"...you were down the hall from the library..."

"I see," you nod thoughtfully, mentally committing to that area's investigation, "thank you, darling," dinner goes on as usual but there's a tension in the air you can't quite shake despite the changing topics of conversation. Regulus was also much quieter. "What's wrong, love?" you ask softly, setting your cutlery down and focusing all your attention on your downhearted youngest.

"I'm sorry about leaving you there, I-I didn't know you were hurting, Mother," he apologises, not expecting you to reach over and lovingly comb your fingers through his hair.

"It's not your fault, little love," you whisper, pressing a kiss to the crown of his head, "and I don't blame you for what happened to me," you angle your head down to smile warmly at him, trying to convey your assurance as much as possible, "besides, I'm all better now. I only have a few fainting spells here and there," his smile is small as he nods and you both refocus your attention to dinner, the atmosphere gradually losing the earlier tension and becoming light again. Regulus remembers how cold and claustrophobic the house felt at that time, he didn't feel comfortable thinking back to it; back then, it was a place that was hard to breathe in. He only had Sirius protecting him...

The house is much warmer now that he has youandSirius. He much prefers the way things are currently. The past should stay in the past.

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Later that night, you ask Kreacher for more information. The topic clearly made Regulus uncomfortable and you didn't want him to do anything he wasn't comfortable with, which is why you didn't ask any further questions, especially at the dinner table where the atmosphere should be lighter. Hopefully, you can fully dismiss all tensions from dinner when you tuck him into bed later on.

Seated at your desk, you suppress the groans of discomfort that were being conducted through the walls from Orion's private office — you can't believe he still hasn't asked Kreacher for a healing potion. But you suppose it's fitting that his ego is making him suffer more at this point. You savour the sounds of his pain for only a few moments more before calling for Kreacher yourself.

"Mistress has called for Kreacher?" the hunched house elf immediately asks after appearing before you with a pop. He remains ever-aged and wrinkled but his unruffled demeanour and, somewhat, contented expression certainly make him appear brighter.

"Yes, I was wondering if the house had any secret rooms, perhaps down the hall from the library," Kreacher gives you a sceptical look, one that was doused with suspicions you immediately set about diffusing, "it seems my fainting spells are getting to me and tampering with my memories," At this, Kreacher's expression morphs into worry and he begins to clutch tightly at his ragged clothes while falling into rambles upon rambles of heightening anxiety for your health. It was a rather endearing sight, knowing someone cares so deeply for your well-being, but you think the poor elf might just self-induce a heart attack if you let him continue like this, "It's okay though Kreacher,I'mokay. Please just tell me about that secret room?"

Kreacher takes a moment to catch his breath and flush away his anxiety before answering, "Ladies of the noble and most ancient house of Black were the only ones, Mistress, they be the only ones allowed into the parlour,"

"Parlour?"

"The private parlour, Mistress, yes," Kreacher nods, subconsciously flattening the wrinkles of his clothes with his hands, standing a little straighter and subtly puffing out his chest, "the powerful, esteemed ladies like to talk inpriiiivateeee," he drags out the word in a low tone, which spikes your interest and reaffirms your speculation on the room being used for dark purposes.

"Is the doorway down the hall from the library, Kreacher?" he nods weakly, his curious eyes taking in your theorising face. "And you say that only the ladies of house Black have access to it?" Kreacher nods once more and you fear that, perhaps the house may be denying you access as you're not atruelady of house Black.This is going to be a problem...

"The parlour can only open to the Mistress," Kreacher affirms but you remain hopeless at it ever opening for you, "and only at a special time, yes — only then,"

"A special time?" you question, dismissing your earlier hopelessness when Kreacher shakes his head, trying to search for the right words.

"The clock face must look a certain way,"so a specific time...

"What time does it open, Kreacher?"

Not knowing the answer, Kreacher seeks refuge behind the sofa of your office's seating area, "Only Mistresses of Black know, Masters of Black do not! Strangers do not! Kreacher does not! Only Mistresses!" not wanting him to work himself up, you quickly placate his high emotions.

"Thank you, Kreacher," the house elf freezes in place and looks at you hesitantly but with rounded, hopeful eyes. Though, he almost seems to frown deeper at the sight of your warm smile, "You were very helpful, thank you," he nods slowly, looking at his feet and silently accepting your gratitude. "You may rest for the evening now. Goodnight Kreacher," Kreacher nods meekly and hesitates for a moment before disappearing with the same popping sound he had appeared in.

With a sigh of defeat, you collapse into your chair and ruminate over the frustratingly incomplete answers Kreacher had given. In the place of answers grew more questions. It's getting late already but you don't think you'll be able to sleep with all the questions to keep you awake. But then you find your eyes transfixed on the desk calendar Walburga had been maintaining before you arrived. You find it hard to look away from the monthly timetable and eventually begin to reach for it.

Subconsciously, you flick back through the months, needing something to do in order to rest your overactive thoughts. Landing on August, you fondly trace August 1st with your finger. The day you had first arrived and given the blessings that were your two sons. Warm affection blooms in your chest at the thought of your darling boys and the privilege of being their mother. You almost miss the pearlescent ink marking the day'Ritual (P - 5 pm)'.The almost transparent words make you freeze up and all thoughts pertaining to the private room, return. They reach out to you from the page in their pearlescent, bold and shaking letters, screaming at you to pay them the utmost attention and to disregard the regular black-ink notations occupying other days. Shakily—you just realised it was your hand that was shaking the calendar—you flip back to July. Almostevery dayis marked with'P - 5 pm'.

What was that disgusting bitch doing?!

'YOU WORTHLESS, GOOD-FOR-NOTHING MUGGLE!'Walburgashrieks in her offence, triggering yet another skull-fracturing migraine,'YOU ARE NOT PERMITTED TO GO SEARCHING FOR THE PARLOUR! SOMEONE LIKE YOU IS NOT ALLOWED! I CAN HARDLY BELIEVE YOU WERE ABLE TO SEE THE INK! NOBODY SEES THE INK BUT ME!'

'Must be some special-ass ink...'was the last thing you remember thinking before falling into darkness.

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12 Grimmauld Place 13th September 1971

The following day, you awake in your bed and groan at the ceiling's offending sight. You dread to look at your nightstand, already knowing there's no escape from the magenta healing potion you would need to take. A slight tilt of your head reveals the phial in your periphery and you resolve to avoid directly looking at the disgusting concoction in hopes of delaying your need to drink it.

As you continue to lay in bed, the weight at your side becomes more and more obvious through the foggy haze obscuring the most conscious parts of your mind. When you finally look down to see the source, your face blooms into a warm smile and you have to keep yourself from cooing aloud. Cuddled up into your side was Regulus. He lay atop the blankets with another blanket to keep him warm. Kreacher must have done that for him after taking you to your room. In a whisper, you call out to the house elf whilst manoeuvring yourself to sit against the headboard. Under the glow of motherly affection, you allow your fingers to gently comb through Regulus' soft curls. Kreacher was at your side almost instantly and didn't waste a second to urge the phial of healing potion into your hands.

Shaking your head, you smile at the loyal elf and lean down to whisper your thanks before regretfully taking the potion from his grasp, "Thank you for making sure Regulus was taken care of, Kreacher," the house elf doesn't meet your eyes and simply nods at his young master.

"Young master Regulus told me he wasn't to be sleepin' in his room with the Mistress being ill. K-Kreacher worries too loud when the Mistress faints..." he shook his head, droopy ears flopping, as he emphasised Regulus' decision to stay by your side after causing a ruckus.

"He's such a stubborn child..." you voice with much fondness, eyes glittering as you look at Regulus' peacefully sleeping form, "What a lucky mother, I am,"

"Mistress must drink her healing potion, now," Kreacher urges in a slightly shaking voice. You hesitate, "for Kreacher?Please?" at that, you finally drink the potion you hate so much, muttering a vow toneverdrink something so disgusting again. It was odd to the house elf that you wouldn't drink the potion for yourself but rather for his sake. He found that if he said those words and followed them with the magic word 'please',you would be willing to do even that much. The word'please'wasn't a spell to make someone do one's bidding like the 'Imperius Curse' but Kreacher finds that the effects of 'please' are much more pleasant. He was taught this alongside the two young masters after your great fainting spell and change in demeanour. Kreacher learns a lot of new things from his Mistress every day and he finds that he enjoys it a lot. Unlike his Master Orion...

"Has my husband asked for his healing potion yet, Kreacher?" he shakes his head 'no', not really knowing what expression to make. On one end he detests seeing the suffering of his master as it means he's being a bad house elf by not taking care of him well enough and that was ever house elf's entire life's purpose. On the other hand, Kreacher finds that he doesn't care much for his Master's suffering, at least, when compared to the Mistress and the two young masters, even Master Sirius. Kreacher finds it easier to be called upon by them rather than the patriarch.

Smiling to yourself, you reiterate a very important point, "When my husband finallydoesask, make sure he says'please'before complying, Kreacher. Make him aware of this and that I specifically told you to do as such. My husband needs to learn some manners," the playful wink you send Kreacher before chuckling to yourself, confirms the house elf's suspicions but he resolves to do nothing about it. He simply follows the orders of his Mistress, that is how he stays a good house elf after all. "Kreacher, can you fetch my calendar, from my desk please?" like now, Kreacher was away and back with your desk calendar with two snaps of his fingers. He watches you with rounded eyes as you flip to July and show him the blank spaces. "What do you see?"

"It is the month of July, Mistress," Kreacher answers with some hesitance. It was a simple answer to a simple question.

"Nothing else?" you arch a brow, "No writing?"

"K-Kreacher's eyes see nothing but blank days, Mistress," Kreacher anticipates being hit for the first time in months when you reach out your hand and he shuts his eyes tightly in anticipation, shrinking into himself. But you don't hit him. Instead, he feels a soft caress atop his head and his ears wiggle in delight. This was a nice feeling, "That'll do, Kreacher. Thank you," of course, his mistress wouldn't hit him, he's a good house elf! At your side, Regulus begins to stir and you quickly ask the house elf for a small favour, "Can you please make us some breakfast in bed, Kreacher? One for Regulus and one for me. Make it a yummy treat for my son, pancakes with cut up fruit and a glass of milk. I'll have a Full English..." you pondered to yourself for a moment before asking that he make the portions big, "so we can share with each other," Kreacher nods and vanishes to make the best breakfast he can, following your instructions for him to the letter and remembering the way you prepared breakfasts without magic.

Regulus slowly wakes to the comforting, familiar feeling of you gently stroking his head and combing your fingers through his hair. Peeking up at you, he smiles in relief at your kind eyes and warm expression. Even though he fell asleep from worry, waking up to his beautiful, kind mother like this made it all worthwhile. With a relieved whisper of 'mother...', he launches himself into your embrace and hugs you close, arms locked around your neck. The way your arms locked around his body gave him a feeling of completeness he didn't want to let go of.

"I was worried you wouldn't ever wake up, Mother! You haven't had this bad of a fainting spell since that first time!"

"Never," you whisper comfortingly into his ear, "I would never leave you like that, I love you too much," your words have Regulus beaming brightly.

"I love you too, Mother! I was so worried last night. You didn't come to tuck me in so I snuck out of bed to check on you but Kreacher told me you no longer slept with Father and redirected me to your new room..." he bit his lip, not wanting to recount the paralysing panic he felt at the sight of your motionless form in bed. He had never seen a person look so still and it frightened him that that person was you.

"I'm sorry I worried you so much," Regulus nuzzles his small face into your neck for comfort and his muffled voice can only be heard because he was so close to your ear.

"It's okay... you're all better now, right? That's what matters most,"

"You're right," smiling softly, thoroughly warmhearted by his sweet words, you press a kiss to the side of his head, "Thank you for taking care of me while I wasn't feeling well," again, he muffles his response into your neck, unwilling to break away from your embrace.

"You're welcome,"

"I have Kreacher preparing breakfast for us so we can stay in bed this morning," at that, he lifts his face from your shoulder to smile brightly at you.

"Really?"

"Reallyreally," you nuzzle his nose with your own, you're going to savour the privileges of being a mother before either of your two boys become rebellious, loud and angsty teenagers, "We have as long as it takes for him to make breakfast to snuggle in bed,"

As you cuddle in bed together, Regulus softly asks to be told a good story, not only to pass the time but to distract him from his worrying thoughts. He doesn't like the potential implications of you experiencing a similarly concerning fainting spell to the first one you had suffered that fateful night. He doesn't want you to be sick all the time. He only has one mother and you're perfect now, he doesn't want you leaving when he just got you...

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Breakfast in bed is a treat and you were happy to share it with your darling youngest. He had such good manners, even when having breakfast in bed. As requested, Kreacher prepared pancakes and cut fruit for Regulus and a Full English for you.

"Wow! Thank you Kraecher," Regulus smiles at the house elf who shyly returns the kind expression, "The portions are really big too,"

"So we can have a bit of each other's if we fancy," you wink and Regulus giggles with a nod, immediately handing over a pancake from his plate.

The two of you spent an hour eating breakfast in bed, talking about nonsense. It was a moment you would treasure forever, you would remember the way Regulus' eyes light up from the fluffiness of the pancakes and the way his smile never left his lips from the happiness he was experiencing while lost in the moment.

Once breakfast was over, the two of you walked to the kitchen and decided to tidy up, happy to extend your time spent together. You would wash up while Regulus would dry and you would help each other put the dishes and cutlery away. Kreacher almost has a heart attack at the sight of you but his concern only made you both giggle.

"Mistress is doing Kreacher's job! Not allowed! Not allowed!" the poor house elf chants, tugging at his ears, staring at the scene with disbelieving, watery eyes, "Youngest master is not allowed to!"

"Don't be so dramatic Kreacher," you flash him a kind smile as Regulus giggles beside you and looks over his shoulder to smile kindly at Kreacher as well, "we want to do this as a'thank you'," Kreacher is visibly unable to comprehend your words — he still has a long way to go when it comes to things like this.

"It's to thank you for making such a yummy breakfast for us," Regulus adds with a small nod of kind acknowledgement. For a moment, Kreacher appears to silently accept the gesture but just as you and Regulus share a smile, Kreacher rushes forward with the same flurry of panic. He doesn't accept the gestureat all.

"No! No no no! Not allowed!" But Kreacher is unable to get past you or Regulus and goes to slam his head against the wall nearby only to be stopped by you. Patiently, you press his face into the folds of your skirt and that is where your poor house elf stays, muffling his soft whimpers and clinging onto your dress for comfort as you softly whisper for him to calm himself, assuring that he's still a good elf and worthy of serving House Black. Regulus smiles appreciatively up at you and finishes off drying the plates so you can both put them away.

"Will Father be joining us for dinner tonight? I've hardly seen him as of late, surely he's feeling better now," Regulus comments after Kreacher finally leaves, assured by the small task you had given him to dust the Library.

"Oh..." you avoid his eyes to keep him from seeing the devious smirk tugging at the edges of your lips, "he's still feeling a little under the weather, my darling," Regulus observes you curiously, his interest piqued at the fact that you don't meet his eyes and there's a sneaky smile hidden behind your fingers. "His stomachache is persistent so he's been sequestering himself in his room and his diet remains to only be soup and bread — something light but nutritious so he can sustain himself," Kneeling before Regulus, you meet his curious eyes warmly, "please don't worry, darling, your father is going to be okay..."

Regulus nods, accepting your explanation. "I hope father gets better soon," Even though his father was horrible to him, Regulus is still so incredibly kind and his words make your heart swell with pride.

Cooing at his angelic image, you bring him into your arms and kiss his forehead, "How can a child be so precious? You're so very kind Regulus, your father doesn't deserve it after what he's done to you,"

Pink in the cheeks, Regulus shrugs nonchalantly, "It's okay...everyone deserves kindness, right Mother?" his words were from one of the last lessons you had given the brothers before Sirius had to leave for his first year and now, although Orion is the least deserving person, you're still so proud of your baby for remembering your wisdom.

Regulus kept you company in your office as you waited for the grandfather clock to strike five in the afternoon. His lesson with Peony had already finished and he had just gotten done with consolidating his learning in the library. You had some letters to reply to as the Matriarch of the noble and most ancient house of Black while Regulus was eagerly writing his letter for Sirius. He was excited to use the colour-changing ink you had bought them during Sirius' first-year shopping spree.

Replying to so many letters was getting tiring and your wrist was beginning to ache. You shouldn't have procrastinated on responding. Hopefully, there was a spell you could do on the quill to make this easier, perhaps make it write as you spoke, the same way Rita Skeeter did.

The frequency of your sighs increased through the labour of writing but all you needed to do was look up and see the diligence of your youngest son writing his letter to feel re-energised again. Smiling to yourself, you savour his innocent image a moment longer before opening the next letter in the pile. The penmanship was rather rough and scratchy, leaning towards print rather than cursive, it was a breath of fresh air from the swirling, loopy handwriting of all the other letters you've had to read and reply to.

Opening the letter, you begin to read dismissively but your eagerness spikes when your wandering eyes glimpse the signed name at the bottom: Alphard Black.

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Regulus reads his letter again and nods in satisfaction. This was his third draft of it but he felt his efforts to be worthwhile. Letters were a special occasion and something that made a person feel immediately special when they read a letter that's addressed specifically to them so he wanted to put in a good effort for Sirius. He just hopes it reaches him in good time.

"Mother," Regulus stands with his letter in hand, ready for postage, "my letter is finished, may I deliver it to Sirius now, please?"

You smile warmly and nod, slipping Alphard's letter into the main drawer of your desk. With a small wave of your hand, you gesture him over to you, "Would you like to give it a wax seal?"

Regulus' eyes sparkled with excitement, "I'm allowed?"

"Of course, little love, come here," you pull him into your lap and gesture to the apparatus around you to create a wax seal. "First, pick out the coloured wax you want for your seal," Regulus picks metallic silver wax, a perfect choice for the black envelope he was sending it in, a signature of the Black Family. "Now you put it in this little spoon and melt it over the candle," with an eager nod, Regulus holds the spoon over the candlelight and the two of you wait for it to melt together.

"I think it's melted now, Mother,"

"Let me see..." he shows you, swirling around the liquid wax to demonstrate its fluidity and grins at your approving nod, "good good. Get the seal ready," he diligently takes the Black Family seal in his other hand, "now, when you stamp the wax, don't wiggle it around or else the design will get muddled," Regulus gives an affirming nod and waits for your instruction to pour the wax before stamping it. He doesn't wiggle it as you've advised. After a few moments, you whisper that it was finally okay for him to take away the stamp and he gasps in delight at the beautiful seal that was left behind.

"Thank you, Mother!"

"Would you like to post it or ask Kreacher to post it for you?"

"I'd like to post it please," his request pulls you away from your desk, just in time as it was nearing 5 pm already. You patiently lead him to the family owl and watch with a smile as he hands over his letter and waves off the owl with a cheer. "Sirius is going to love the letter, darling,"

"I hope he sends one back soon!"

"I don't doubt that he will,"

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You've stationed yourself down the hall from the library. The same location where you had first fainted after falling into the world according the Regulus who was practising the piano in the reception room downstairs. Hearing his piano melodies travelling through the walls and floating up the stairs made you awe at how talented he is. The repeated melodies comforted your racing heart and eased the ache in your head as you waited in anticipation for the afternoon to finally reach five o'clock. There was nothing to go off of when you set about searching for this magically disappearing room. Kreacher described it as a private parlour where only the mistresses and ladies of the Black family could congregate to discuss confidential particulars.

Only for the women...

It was a comforting thought, somewhat, that there was a sisterhood amongst the family. It makes you wonder how long the tradition has been taking place. Perhaps it wasn't entirely for ill-intentioned meetings for dark magic. The optimistic part of you imagines the women of the Black family aching for a private room away from the men in their lives just to share a cup of tea and relax. Maybe meetings were held in contented silence, relishing in the calm and savouring the safety of the cliquish room.

tick...tock...tick...tock...CLANG!

The grandfather clock gives a discordant chime down the hall at the lower floor and your heart spikes once again. You spin on your heel and face the dark, elegantly embellished wallpaper of the house. For a moment your brows furrow in confusion and disappointment when nothing happens, even when the grandfather clock finishes its chime and begins ticking normally again.

Tick...tock...tick...tock...

You're about to turn away in disappointment when a black door begins to appear on the wall before you. It rises from the floor as if answering a call to reveal itself by the grandfather clock's afternoon chimes. The black wood it's composed of shines like a black pearl as its glass components are decorated with iron embellishments that swirl over it in a symmetrical pattern. They keep the interior entirely secret. Once fully revealed, you awe at the grand entrance; it's arched at the top and rather than a singular door, its double doors that open at the centre, pulled apart by swirling, gold doorknobs that appear recently polished. Only the best for the ladies and mistresses of the Black family, the noble and most ancient house.

You don't have the time to tame your thundering heart and grab at the gold handles before the door can disappear again. At the simple touch of your hand, a faintclickmeets your 's very reminiscent of a key turning in a lock and allows you to pull the double doors apart. As it was when you first arrived in this world, the room is pitch black and you have to squint in the darkness, blinking as your eyes adjust to the shadow-veiled environment. Thankfully, the light from the hallway manages to seem through from behind you as your silhouette stretches across the room's expanse. You're about to take a step forward when a pungent smell meets your nose and you sharply draw back with a hand over your mouth and nose. Eyes wide and finally adjusted to the darkness, you take in the various elements of the room as your panic gradually rises inside you, your mind racing.

There appears to be a seating area for the prim conversations you had once imagined but the furniture was pushed away from its place at the centre of the room and the accompanying coffee table appears to have been thrown about, kept on its side on the far side of the room. In the corner, there's a lady Chippendale English-style writing desk with its chair thrown down. Its desk space is cluttered, piled high with books with one at the centre, its aged pages ripped out and flung across the room. Brass artisan wall lights fitted with candles remain unlit on either side of a smashed mirror, victim to a fallen, heavy book below it, surrounded by its shattered remains. Black-out curtains that drape to the floor block out a window on the far end of the room, shielding the world from the parlour's internal happenings. Two glass jars occupy the centre of the room, identically filled with unknown elements that cast the same dark silhouette within it. They're stained with a mysterious liquid you were too scared to investigate further but the sight wasn't as frightening as the avian-esque carcass rotting into the carpet at the centre of the room. The sight makes you choke and cough, realising the source of the sickening scent in the musty air. There's an array of feathers that surround the skeletal remains and not too far from it is a knocked-over bird cage. It looks generic and indistinguishable from the one Sirius' owl came it.

Your racing mind flashes back to the interaction you shared with the shopkeeper at the Owlery for Sirius' first-year Hogwarts shopping.

"What happened to the last owl you purchased?" the shopkeeper asks suddenly, finally finished with preparing all the items and eying you warily. You feel Sirius and Regulus' eyes on you from his question as well and hurry to make an excuse. This situation has grown very uncomfortable.

"Last owl?"

"Yes, the screech owl, from last week,"

Was this... was this the fate of that same owl?...

Unable to tolerate looking into the room further, you slam the double doors shut and collapse backwards into the railing beside the stairs. Your shaky hands grip the rails and try your best to keep your stomach still — you're not going to be throwing up on the hallway carpet.

"YOU FILTHY, CHEATING MUDBOOLD!"Walburga screeches loud enough for you to feel the ache at the forefront of your brain and the tender spots of your ears.Not this bitch again..."HOW DID YOU GET THE PARLOUR DOORS TO REVEAL ITSELF AND OPEN?! IT ONLY OPENS TO ME!"

"Not anymore..." you snipe weakly, as an overwhelming migraine floods through your head.She must be really angry at you."K-Kreacher," you call weakly but are too occupied with clutching your head, trying to suppress the pain, to hear the faint pop of your loyal hope elf appearing at your side. He's panicked and doesn't know what to do with himself as he calls to you frantically. Quickly, he realises you're unable to even hear him, spiking his panic all over again.

"YOU ARE NOT A TRUE MISTRESS OF THE BLACK FAMILY! YOU ARE NOT A BLACK FAMILY LADY! DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT TOUCHING THAT BLASTED RITUAL OR THOSE CONFOUNDED BOOKS!"

There's a knocking at your temples that gets harder and harder to ignore atop Walburga's grating, pic-squealing caterwauls. It rises in volume above your hammering heartbeat and feels like an intruder trying to smash their way into your door. It's invasive and makes you cry aloud from the tormenting pain — it's almost as harrowing as your first arrival here. Memories of your past life flash before your eyes like an old-fashioned image projector, torturing you with snapshots of your most heart-aching moments: your ovarian cancer diagnosis, the surgery, your depressive state, and your husband leaving. But then it captures you beating the odds and rising from the ashes, you made something from the remains of your old life's trajectory, successfully creating an economic empire and practising philanthropy for many other women who had to face the same devastating diagnosis as you. It all ends with an image of a heavy truck barrelling straight towards you and then you're consumed by darkness.

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A/N: back to the below 10k chapters haha! i'm thinking of going back to proofread and edit this chapter again in the future since i don't feel like I've properly done it this time because of some personal things going on. nevertheless, i hope you darlings enjoyed this chapter! thank you always for all the love and support, this series has been able to grow so much thanks to you darlings x