The next morning, I woke up to find Master up. "Master?" I asked rubbing my eyes. "Oh, Nemo Good morning!" She greeted me with a big smile across her face. I quickly blushed at her. It was too early to see her smiling that brightly at me. "y-yes Good Morning Master." I yawned as I slowly got up. This was a normal morning for us. I had my own room, but I was most always here now. I felt worried about leaving her by herself. So, I almost always sleep here now. "If your still sleepy you don't have to get up now." I shook my head to her voice. "No, it's fine." If I wasn't lying next to her in bed, I didn't need to be there. "Are you feeling better today?" I asked changing the subject. "It feels better today. sorry I was sleep when you showed up yesterday, Nemo." she apology to me like she always did.
"It's fine. don't worry about it. you should always take care of your health first."
"yes, I know your right." I placed my hand on her back. "Nemo?" I frowned. "I tried again...it didn't work did it?" I asked her. "tried what?" she couldn't even tell. "I tried to heal your back again yesterday." she smiled. "I'm sorry but no. Thank you for trying again." why can't I heal her back? am I not strong enough? "you always worry about me so much, Nemo." I can't help that. I just can't help but worry over you. Do you not understand that? "W-Well shouldn't I? You are my master, remember?" that was just a excuse to be near her more. I never want to be away from her for every long.
"Well, yes what you say is true." I frowned of course she wouldn't get it. No I'm sure nothing like that would ever cross her mind. I pressed my head against her arm. No way would she ever. I know for a fact. My master wasn't ever happy. she was always trapped in regret. She was trapped in sadness. "Nemo?"
She did her best to try to hide it. Even behind that smile she would put on her face. But I could tell. It was like she was wearing a mask. She didn't want others to know. Or was trauma from her past the reason why she hid so much away? I know she didn't have a good time when she was younger but she didn't tell me much about it. Perhaps it was hard for her to talk about. I know I shouldn't ask but perhaps I should? "Master." I whispered softly to her.
"If it's alright. Could you tell me about...what happened to you. I mean...more so how you got those scars on your back." I wanted to understand her more. "That isn't really something pleasant to talk about." She quickly said to me. It almost felt like her voice was shaking just from saying that. Not Pleasant? What did she mean? "These Scars I got them when my training to become a mage became more dangerous." she plainly said. "More dangerous?"
She pulled away from me. I saw her stare at me. I knew than I had asked something I shouldn't have. But it was too late. "at one point I had a little sister." had? What did she mean had? I soon found out the answer. "She was great at everything she did. I couldn't keep up with her even those she was my little sister. she was 4 years younger than me." she started. "She was even 20 times better at magic than me as well." she was frowning as she spoke. I Knew than I did something horrible to her asking her to speak of the past. Her past.
"Because she was so much better at magic than me. she became the family heir." I couldn't help but frown as I listened, she kept on using the word had when it came to her sister. so, I knew something had happened to her. I was sure it was something horrible too. "When I was about 10 years at the time of when her training became more dangerous. she had gone into town in place of me. A mage hunter found her and killed her." I stood there shocked. killed? killed? as master said that she started to break down and cry. "S-she was only 6 at the time! But the hunter didn't care! We couldn't even make out her body when we found her! and-and the most horrible thing was my grandparents didn't care! and were like oh well I guess you have to be the heir now." This was it. this was where her trauma came from.
It was from her own grandparents. but it was always from her little sister being murdered and her own family didn't care. Why did she wear a mask? this was why! "M-Master I..." She shook her head and fell to her knees. "I couldn't...I just couldn't do it. I couldn't even get past her death and they just wanted to move on like it didn't matter. How could I control my training when I was still dealing with my little sister being murdered?!" No. The reason for her scars is because...she couldn't.
"I couldn't pay attention cause my mind couldn't deal with any of that. The scars I have are my own fault! but I don't care! cause this pain is nothing next to what happened to my little sister!" she started crying heavy. She couldn't deal with the fact of what had happened and no one around her cared aside from her self. "Master." I tried to comfort her. but she wouldn't have it. "No. No. I can't do it. I just can't." she pushed me away. I had done the most horrible thing to her. making her remember it all. "Sara." she shook her head.
"Please..." she cried. "Could you leave me by myself for now?" No I didn't want to leave her. "But..." She rubbed at her cheeks. "Please leave me." She cried.
I did as she asked and left her room with regret.
"I'm horrible..." Master...please forgive me. The trauma she had to face she couldn't move on from. it was too much for her. That was why she placed a mask over herself to protect herself sense no one else had helped her back then.
After I had left, she had locked her door. she really didn't want to let anyone inside. I found out even Marine couldn't get inside even when he tried. he came to report to me. I was really worried. I knocked on her door, "Master?" I called out to her. She didn't answered me. "M-Master? its Nemo." I called out to her again. She still wouldn't answer me. marine looked at me, "Captain what should we do?" It was my fault this problem even came about. her regret and sadness had pushed me out before. perhaps leaving her alone was the wrong call to start with. No... even asking her about it was the wrong move.
I sighed, "Could you get Sion?" I didn't want too. But I messed up big I had to ask her what to do now. No matter what. This will not end well for me.
Sion was Sara's closest friend on the ship. But I'm sure the marine told her what had happened. "Are you just trying to hurt her now?" was the first thing she said to me when she greeted me, "Nice to see you today too." I glared at her. She glared right back at me. "Serious when the Marine told me what happened. I thought he was joking. But he wasn't. you really did ask her about her past. I mean come on! you are way smarter than this!" she quickly yelled at me. " I know I messed up okay?! How do I fix this!" I yelled back at her. "You don't." She plainly told me. "What?"
"She maybe your master. But You step away over the line. I doubt she even wants to see your face ever again." I felt my heart drop. "Y-You mean she hates me now?"
"Oh yes without a doubt." She wasn't joking. She was being serious. "When She finally did join us. she was still badly hit with her trauma. it took her years to get over it. and I guess saying she got over it is wrong. she hid it away. But someone brought it back into the open." I felt like bricks just fell on top of me. I know I messed up. but...can I really not fix it? We both still glared at each other as Sion knocked on her door. "Hey Sara! open up I'm not leaving until you do!" there was silent. slowly the door opened she quickly when inside closing the door behind her. I frowned and fell to my knees, "Captain?" Marine asked, "I'm a idiot." I whispered to myself.
Sion frowned when she first saw her. She wasn't in a good place. She had been crying non-stop. "He's a idiot." was the first thing she said to me. "But of course. he's a guy after all." I said jokely to her. but she wasn't joking. She was clearly upset. "I didn't ever want to think about it again, ever. Never ever." she pouted. "well as you said he's a idiot. I can't disagree about that." she wouldn't be ready to see him anytime soon.
"Why would he even ask about my past? there nothing good there."
"He most likely just wanted to know more about you."
"Why would he want to know more about me?"
She clearly doesn't see it at all. How that boy is very fond of her. Why he is always so worried over her. Even if he doesn't want to ever tell her. He is clearly in love with her.
"Perhaps he was hoping to learn more about you so your master and servant friendship would be closer." She could only look confused at me. Yeah...you clearly don't get it at all. "I don't want to see him." She said as she hugged her knees to her chest. "Should I send him away? he's right outside the door." She nodded.
If anything, she may try to ignore him now and try to avoid him. If anything, he has hurt they're relationship.