Dear Readers,

First of all, I wanted to point out, that yes, I've changed my name on here. It used to be Azeri-Doni. But I've recently changed it to QueenlingMalia.

Second of all, let me just say, I am so, so, so SORRY!

I know that it's been a while, I know that it's been sitting, and I've just not updated, but I assure you all, that this story is not abandoned. I've been reading and writing by hand more often than not.

A lot has happened to me since I last posted, and not all of it for the better.

My daughter's and my own mental health tanked and we were left struggling trying to figure out a happy medium and working on taking care of each other and getting better individually.

She's doing better at last, and I'm immensely proud of her and her progress. Being a teenager isn't as easy as one romanticizes in their head. It's easy to look back as a mature adult and look at your teenage years wistfully.

Personally, I look back at my growing self and a part of me wants to smack myself upside the head and face, the other parts want to grab younger me, (similar to what happens in numerous fanfictions I've read), and raise her right. Get her the help that she needs because looking back I see the trauma signs, and I also realize that no one, other than my husband, saw it. If they did see it, they did absolutely nothing about it.

But I digress. I did not come on here just to whine and lament about my childhood trauma.

I can honestly say, and this is the last I will say about it, is that as of last month, I've started to get better. I've had some realizations, and done a lot of soul searching, and I've finally started to make healthier progress.

But, in regards to my writing, I just wanted to let you all know, that T.L.C.W. (True Love Crossing Worlds) has NOT been abandoned.

In fact, I can honestly say that my brain hasn't stopped working on it, it's just been outlining and plotting the entire effing series!

When I started with the concept all those years ago, it was only meant to be one story. Just one simple story, with perhaps others featuring similar characters to come out afterwards. I've even got Girl-Who-Lived story ideas saved in my fanfiction writing folder on my computers. So I was under the impression that it might be a one and done kind of story.

Fortunately, (or unfortunately depending on how you view it, and honestly some days I can see both sides of the argument), this story ended up being anything but.

Best way I can think to describe it is like this:

When I'm creating a story, it's similar to taking a hike through a woods. There are well known paths that are safe to take, and are certainly pleasant to look at and enjoy while walking along the trail. But then there are those that are more difficult, but showcase amazing sights that are an even more gorgeous to see and enjoy.

So, there I was, walking along the safe trail while plotting out TLCW. Just a single story, all its own. Fairly long as it followed through the afterlife meeting, and through the mortal life with Harry to its completion.

Then I saw a more expert trail. This one split the initial story in two. Working on it in halfs. The first half was the Afterlife Arc, and all that it entailed, going into more detail in places where I couldn't before.

The second half, was the mortal life, where they descend into Harry's world, and complete the contract he had initially signed with Gabriel before meeting Malia. Kicking ass, taking names, kicking the asses of those named, and all in all, just causing chaos while getting their Happily Ever After.

Then I reached a Y in the trail, I veered towards the lesser used one because pretty flowers, and ended up with two spin offs. One was a simple one shot, more description and very little dialogue. The other was a more thought-out story with lengthy chapters and complicated plot.

Then, then IT happened.

The Muse Kicked in; some other worldly force took hold of me pouring words out of me that I had absolutely no idea was even possible for me to write; my imagination went into hyperdrive.

Or for the sake of keeping with the theme I've already started here; I saw a different trail.

This one, had been used in the past, because other authors have started something similar themselves. Perhaps not as I have, but they have a similar idea. A Harry Potter story that spans many, many stories, into a series.

This trail was one that had been used, but not as much as the other paths around me. This one, was surrounded by many kinds of trees. With many different critters and creatures peeking out at me from the safety of their woodland home. The path itself wasn't dirt, wasn't rock, or even paved. This one, was paved with many different things. Fish bowl glass orbs, sea glass, sea shells, and various natural quartz. Along the sides of the path was sea grass and various flowers. I could see, hear, and smell the ocean in the distance.

It was beautiful, and too tempting to look away. So, I took a tentative step onto the path, and I've been lost on it ever since.

It was a difficult journey to make as the you can imagine; the trail was not the best walking conditions. I had to put a lot of work into it and watch where I was stepping.

TLCW has ended up becoming a several story series. It's easily got over 40 stories in it. Yeah, that's a lot. Will all of them be written? Perhaps not. Will all of them be required to be read to understand the complete picture of my story? No. I don't think so. I think I'll even mark each story as their posted, whether or not they are necessary to read to understand the main plot line of the overall arching story.

I've had much the series planned for a long time, the basic of concepts, or an in-depth concept in some places. But the ending always eluded me. How was I going to end this, I knew roughly what I wanted, but the actual context, the words were as foreign to me as the Japanese language. Oh, I can pick out words here and there, simple phrases, but I cannot understand their written language, and for the life of me, I go glassy eyed just listening without subtitles.

That's what it was like with the ending of TLCW. I knew the idea; I had a few coherent things that I wanted to happen. But beyond that, all I could tell you was it would be painful, complicated, and traumatic before Happily Ever After.

So instead, I focused on the rest of the series. What arcs would there be, if any. What plots there would be.

I ended up coming up with an idea that caused a minor rewrite of the beginning of A Meeting of Souls. Nothing major, I don't think. Just adding a character. Or rather, moving an existing characters creation and revelation forward. By a lot.

I started to post it on AO3.

Then I got my own PC and was no longer solely working on my Chromebook.

I was saving my writing folder into my google drive and downloading onto my PC and Chromebook over and over as I made changes, rather than just a single document. Because it wasn't as simple as a single document. Some days I changed close to 20 files.

That's when I realized, I had over written an existing folder with one from a week prior. Meaning, I lost all that work. I had close to 6 chapters completely reworked and completely rewritten, and I lost it. I was devastated. And that's not all that happened. I ended up corrupting the files of two stories that were my original ideas, and now I must retype those two books all over again. Thankfully, I had them printed out. Otherwise, I would have lost everything with those two and I would have been comatose, figuratively speaking, when it came to my writing.

So, I took a step back, and started to just think about the rest of the series of TLCW. Thinking if I could plan the ending, then I could go back and fix the beginning.

That's when IT happened, again.

I reached the end of the trail, and I found the beach.

I spent all of summer, all of fall, and some of this winter, just lost in thought.

Again, something grabbed hold of me, and I have over 1000 pages worth of notes, easily, for just the ending alone. Because my mind is a complicated cesspool of never-ending mazes, and it seems to have done the same with TLCW.

I wrote notes on my phone, started to copy all of that down by hand, with the intention of typing those notes up after I was done.

Reason being:

Notes on my phone are short hand and full of mistakes.

(Also, I use medical cannabis to help me fall asleep (among other things) as I'm a chronic insomniac. I don't always remember what I've written on my phone, so just putting it from my phone, to my email, to put into my computer via copy and paste, just wasn't logical, because I would still have to go through those notes at some point.)

Putting them on paper slowly allowed my mind to fix the mistakes, remind myself of what I had written, and slowly work my way through it all adding more details along the way.

Typing them into the computer after that would have allowed me to fix any mistakes I missed or created along the way, add more details where needed and allowed me to put things into a more coherent timeline.

Then, on Halloween, my dad passed away.

I foolishly thought, I would be okay. Because I knew it was coming, he had bladder cancer, and I rarely saw him, I barely spent time with him. Having divorced when I was 11 months old, and him returning to his home state, he wasn't there for 90% of my childhood, and it wasn't until I was an adult that we really started to talk more.

But it did. It hit me hard. Because he was my dad. He was a dear friend. He's part of the reason I'm here today and the part of the reason I am who I am today.

My brain just stopped.

I ended up reading more and more to just escape the empty feeling that he left behind.

I knew that I had to accept the fact that he was gone, let myself grieve, and let my mind return to normal at its own pace. Trying to fight it, trying to rush it, wouldn't do me any good as I knew. I had to endure something similar and far worse when my sister was murdered.

I seem to be getting back to my normal self, because my brain/ imagination is working again, and I've got some ideas.

More than that, the ending is planned.

I just have to sift through over 1000 pages worth of notes to get a more concrete idea going and work from there.

I can't say when TLCW will return, but I can say that it will.

Maybe this year, maybe next year.

But I will return.

I'm just taking my time to make sure that I do this right.

Thank you for your time.

I'm sorry this taking so long, and I look forward to seeing those who return.