Life As A Chaldean Master
Even A Hero Has His Lows
*Sonic's Room*
"Welcome to your first therapy session, Master. How are you feeling currently?" Kiara asks
"I'm doing mostly well, Kiara. I sit back and relax as I usually do. Nothing too special." Sonic replies
"Wonderful; I'm glad you're taking as many breaks as you can," Kiara mentions
"I'll take any break as much as possible, Kiara. Life isn't all just about fighting. Even mobians like myself need some time to ourselves, you know?" Sonic said
"That's good to hear from you, Sonic. Continue doing so as much as possible. We don't want anything happening to you now, don't we?" Kiara asks
"Got it all under control, Kiara. Now then~ *Sits On The Edge Of His Bed* What would you like to talk about? Got anything in your mind?" Sonic question
"You seem to be in a cheerful mood, Master. But, is that cheerful expression of yours truly the way you feel at the moment?" Kiara asks
"Well, of course, it~ Nothing wrong about it, right?" Sonic replies
"I see; it's your way to get through the day, as you worded it. But can you keep it that way? All the time, mind you?" Kiara pursuing her word
"I mean... Times like dealing with serious problems can change my moods, no doubt. But even still, that wouldn't stop me from smiling and enjoying life." Sonic replies
"How much can you be sure? You told us, Servants, that you've been fighting since you were a little kid. I dealt with countless enemies repeatedly and had to save the world on multiple occasions. That... Isn't a normal thing to happen." Kiara explains
"Whoa, I didn't think it'll go this far, Kiara... But regardless, I'm doing fine; even years later, I'm still the Hedgehog I am years later." Sonic commented
"Do you believe that fighting is the only thing that matters in your life? Is fighting and risking your life that more important than anything else?" Kiara question
"..."
"I can tell you're afraid to admit such a thing. But something tells me things aren't going well for you now, Master." Kiara stated
"Oh, come on, Kiara. Nothing is wrong with me. I'm still Sonic The Hedgehog. Sure, fighting is something I do often, but I take many breaks when necessary. I know I'm not perfect, but I still do my best either way." Sonic replies.
"I do believe you, Sonic. But you still aren't seeing the bigger picture here. Why don't we begin with this from the beginning."
"The beginning?"
"Before you came here to Chaldea, life was much simpler for you, defeating that Scientist repeatedly and saving the world. You saved those you cared about so deeply; in your mind, that was your reality. A world where everyone lives happily after a crisis unfolds before them. Everything seemed normal for you." Kiara explaining
"..."
"However, that all changed when you arrived here. A different world is vastly different than yours. Tell me, from your perspective, what first major event happened when you arrived here?" Kiara asks
"*Deep In Thought As He Looks At Kiara* Well, the first I experienced was that explosion happening in the Command Room and seeing the whole place on fire... Just everything engulfed in flames..." Sonic replies
"And what did you do when that occurred?"
"I did what I have done before: save as many people as possible trapped under debris or help them from their injuries..."
"Were you successful?"
"..."
"Hmmm... I see."
"M-Maybe we should just stop this right here, Kiara..." Sonic stated
"We still have a reasonable amount of time together, Sonic. Why don't we fast forward a little to the Singularities? How was your experience during your hopping through the Seven Sinurilaites? Were they easy to get through or something else?" Kiara asks
"*Looks At Kiara For A While And Sighs* They were not what I expected if I'm honest... Don't get me wrong; I had a good time teaming up with the Servants and taking down countless enemies... But believe me... Some of those we tried to save... weren't so lucky... Countless innocent lives were... taken from us..." Sonic explaining
"Care to tell me a couple of examples of lives being cut so short?" Kiara asks
"... It's not just a couple of examples, Kiara... In each Singularity that Mash and I have been through, we had to leave our friends and allies behind... From Orleans to Solomon... Many were to stay back or are no longer with us..." Sonic replies
"Is that how everything was before you came to this world?"
"Not that I can remember... But with this discussion, I'm unsure about everything now..." Sonic stated
"We're only focusing on your time being here in Chaldea and your time here. Yes, Mash and the Servants have told me what happened during your adventure through the Singularity. Especially those from Babylonia who suffered a significant loss of life during Tiamat's reign and the Lahmus assaulting the people living there. While yes, these events are tragic in their ways, most but not everyone thinks that the Lostbelts overshadow those that happened in the singularities. I can also believe that statement since I was there to experience it as well..." Kiara replies
"The Lostbelts... Tch... I can't even begin to describe what happened during our time through the Losbelts... How so many lives were affected in each one of them... And for what? What did they do to deserve such treatment?!" Sonic exclaimed
"Master..."
"The Yagas from the 1st Lostbelt... How terrible their living conditions were... How much they had to endure and how they needed to fight against one another so that they could eat something for a day... Something told me during my time that this adventure wouldn't be good for me... But, nothing could've prepared for what was to come... Patxi... Even though we had known each other for a little while, he was a fantastic friend to have. I told him that a world out there allows freedom to its people and man... *Chuckles* His face said it all... But, the way he went wasn't anything I had ever experienced before... Taking that hit for me when I was unaware... It's like my world turned upside down from that point on... To see with my very own eyes... Not a Servant, but an actual living being's life taken away in front of me... *Sighs* I'm not too fond of people risking their lives for me... Their life is as valuable as anyone else..." Sonic said
"I'm so sorry for your loss, Master... Life isn't fair to everyone, and it shows here... If only there were some other way we could save him..." Kiara stated
"*A Small Tear Forms In His Eyes, But he Quickly Rubs It Off His Face And Continues* Not only that, but that was only the beginning of what was to come in the remaining Lostbelts after that... Gerda and the children we met in the 2nd Lostbelt... Being used as sacrifices... The kids from the 4th Lostbelt with the children seeing their hero go out in such a way... Atlantis... Olympius... Avalon... Not only that, but they also had heartwrenching scenarios that played out. They all have one thing in common... So many lives were lost in each of them... Innocent souls, and yet they were taken away from us.." Sonic adding further
"Do you believe that it is your fault that these people lost their lives in each Lostbelt? Have you always carried this burden that their deaths come from your own hands?" Kiara asks
"*Looks At Kiara But Doesn't Say Anything At All* ..."
"Master... *Walks Towards Him And Sits Next To Him* Tell me, do you think you're the cause of all these deaths throughout your journey through the Lostbelts? Is that what you truly believe?" Kiara asks
"... Kiara... I wanted to help as many people as I could... I promised everyone after Solomon. Before everything began, I would try to save as many people here as possible with you guys. I truly believed I could save everyone as I had done before I arrived here... But, after going through these lost belts, I now realized the reality of not being able to help as much as I wanted... Not only that, but time and time again, I've been told that I am at fault for everything that has occurred as well... From the Singurliaties and Lostbelts, everyone blamed me for everything... at first, I swept it off me as I always do before, but after a while, I begin to question whether my actions were futile or not... I'm sorry, Kiara... I didn't think I was bottling all of these feelings this whole time..." Sonic stated
"*Hugs Sonic* Please don't blame yourself, Master... Going through the Lostbelts was difficult, and many sacrifices occurred there. However, it would be best if you didn't put all the blame on yourself. Your Servants can agree that none of this is your fault." Kiara stated
"Kiara, my actions have also caused harm to those close to me. I also have a role in hurting my friends; I always take the blame for stuff when it isn't right! I WANTED to help everyone; that's the mindset I've always had for a while now! And yet... That is going anywhere when it comes to Lostbelts... If hundreds, if not thousands, were lost... Then, I should take the blame for causing that to occur in the first place. I should be blamed for all of this as well..." Sonic replies
"I'm glad you're finally expressing yourself, even if it's for one time, Master," Kiara said
"*Sighs And Looks Up Towards The Ceiling* Kiara... Please answer this question for me... Do you think I'm a monster in disguise or someone doing their best for the best possible outcomes?" Sonic asks
"We can all agree that you're a hero doing his best to save the day. I heard stories before we met about the incredible acts you've done previously. I admit, you fought amazingly when we first met in SEPRAH. To think you are capable of such strength is fascinating." Kiara replies
"Well... I have to do everything I can for a better future. Also, it is not my first time-fighting someone with whom I can become friends soon after." Sonic stated
"I can believe that from you."
"Either way, I wasn't ready for what this world would throw at me. I knew other worlds existed with enemies I never fought before. But this world is vastly different than those. I realized just how cruel reality can indeed be. Maybe I just needed time to comprehend everything that was happening to us. I just swept it under the rug and continued doing what I do. I'm not realizing the bigger picture and what's truly going on. But not many of you don't think I can show that much expression considering I have a reputation for having a cocky personality and whatnot. Which I'm fine with, don't get me wrong." Sonic said
"*Pets Sonic Gently* All you need to do is have an open mind and express more of yourself to others. While I understand we all see you as a determined and confident Master, sometimes you need to step back for a little while and process everything. Don't worry about what others think about you; focus on yourself and care for your health. Especially with the fighting you endured since you were just a kid." Kiara stated
"Yeah... I get it, thanks Kiara. At first, I was embarrassed to explain all this to you or anyone else. But I'm glad you were able to hear me out so I can express myself. Your job as a therapist is working wonders, and I'm glad to be a friend of yours~" Sonic said
"Anything for you, Master~ Whenever you want to talk about something, just come find me, and I'll do whatever it takes to help you find the right spot," Kiara replies.
"You got it."
"Just one last thing. Those innocent lives who are no longer with us, I can guarantee you that they are in a better place, finally in peace and cheering you on as we speak." Kiara said
"Right, no matter where everyone is, at least they are somewhere more peaceful and no longer have to endure what they've been through the Lostbelts. At least by then, I can rest my mind knowing they aren't in pain anymore. I have to continue pushing forward and save this world. Not only for Chaldea, but for them, and I won't let their sacrifices be in vain. I'll do my best to get this world back to its original form, whether someone disagrees or not; I'll make sure Mash and everyone else can finally live their days in peace soon enough. I promise." Sonic stated
"And will support you wherever you go, Master," Kiara said
"Heh~ Thanks Kiara. *Fist Bumps With Kiara Soon After."
This Is An Attempt To See How Sonic Performs In His Therapy Session With Kiara.
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