Even though I'm a shadow of my former self, I still love you. I always will.
I've loved you from the very beginning. From the moment our paths first crossed, I've loved you, even before I fully understood what love meant.
I still remember your cute, chubby freckled face. I remember how you used to scrunch your nose when you were deep in thought, and I remember the sound of your laughter.
I remember the way you looked at me, like I was something good, something worth holding onto.
Even though I turned out to be a monster in the end.
Yes. I'm a monster. Like of the rest of them. At some point, I became everything I once swore I wouldn't. I became what you feared. What you hated. And yet, even now, even after everything, I still find myself longing for the past—longing for the days when you believed in me.
Do you remember those days? When we would sit together for hours, talking about nothing and everything? When you would laugh so easily, so freely, as if the world was something kind? Back then, I thought that maybe, just maybe, I could be like you. That I could be good, too.
But I was wrong.
The darkness that runs through my veins, the same darkness that swallowed the others whole, finally took me, too. I told myself I was different, but in the end, I proved that I wasn't.
Because monsters don't get to be loved.
And I am a monster.
Still, even though I've strayed too far from the person you once knew, even though I've become something unrecognizable, my love for you has never wavered. It's stayed with me through every mistake, through every dark moment, through every choice that's pushed me further and further away from you.
Oh, Izuku...
I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry I couldn't be your Hero. I wanted to. I thought it was God's will for me to be it. But in the end, it was like He was never even there to begin with.
I'm sorry for such blasphemous words, it's just... why did things have to get so fucked up? Was it fate? Was it my own weakness? Were things always meant to end this way?
I don't know anymore.
All I know is that I still love you. And I always will, no matter how far I'll ever fall.