I'd like to thank everybody who reviewed and followed the story. I wasn't expecting anyone to read my story. I stared at a blank piece of paper for most of the day stressing on how I should continue. I wanted the second part to do the story justice so far. What I decided to do was have Lisbon inner monologue in this one and have them interact in the next chapter. Here goes nothing...
Disclaimer: I own nothing, just a fan of the show.
Chapter 2
Is it just me or am I being watched? Who am I kidding, this uneasiness smells of Jane. Not that I mind, but I've been down this road before. This train of thought can only lead me down dangerous paths. I don't know what to make of him lately, she thought to herself. He seemed different; he carried himself differently. The only problem with this is that she could never tell. Some of his "skills" had rubbed off on her but she was nowhere near as good as him. I suppose I do have some insight but when it comes to him shes learned that he couldn't be taken at face value. You could never really know him if he didn't want you to.
From her peripheral she thought she could see him staring in her general direction. A part of her thought maybe it was at her. Just thinking about it caused her to feel a warmth inside that she realized was reserved only for him. Nowadays, she kept those types of feelings at bay. For her own protection, walls were put in place especially for these types of situations. Problem was that some of those feelings still made it thru the cracks. There is a special place for him in her heart; it cant be helped. For the longest time shes known that the potential for them is like nothing shes ever had before. Its strange that now more than ever she fears for her heart. With Red John out of the picture, Jane no longer has to hold back with how he wants to move on with his life. Would she be enough anymore? Uncertainty was running rampant with in her while her exterior displayed the calmest demeanor. Its causing her to doubt that they could ever be more then friendship between them.
If that's the case, she fears that she may never be able to give herself; mind, body and soul to another man. All she could do is try to emulate what she feels for him with somebody else. There had been many times where she thought that maybe it was going somewhere , but too many of those moments had passed with the end result being the same. Now, more than ever she felt that whatever might have been was less and less of a likelihood. On top of everything she could of sworn that Agent Fisher had expressed interest in Jane whilst being questioned by said agent. For the briefest of moments she got the feeling that she might be old news. Out with the old in with the new as they say. What little resolve she has was beginning to dwindle. Its like I'm running on fumes she thought frustrated. From across the room she made out his three piece suit making his way to her with a cup of tea and coffee . Game face she thought.
Alright... it may seem that Lisbon may be too insecure giving as how shes portrayed in the show but just humor me. I'm setting it up this way for the bigger picture. Also it might take me a little longer for the 3rd chapter as I want the interactions between them to feel genuine to the characters. Thanks for reading y'all.