Sophie
I felt like Janna's party was a hit, except the fact she fell into the pool. I mean we really need to put a fence around it, she was walking a lot more but still not very good. She loved her big sister so much and followed her everywhere, and sometimes Ashe was not careful enough. I know she doesn't mean to do these things, but she does need to be careful. Josh keeps asking me to have another baby, and I do want more but it is more work for me than it is for him. Plus, I still finishing school and then I will be working, I know he just wants to have that baby boy. I feel like if we end up having another girl he will want to try again. I just am not sure how many babies I want, I am happy with just the 2 of them but I feel like we do need to try at least one more time. Who knows if we will get a boy, but I don't want Janna to be my last baby. We are still young; I am only 21 so it not like we don't have time to have more. I do want to finish school first so if we start trying we would end up with a summer baby. Ashe was a summer baby, and Janna is a fall baby, so having babies closer together would be alright. My mom stayed to help me clean up and we were talking about this threat, "so we don't know who she is?" she asked, "no she hides, it is like she is everyone" I said. "That is so frustrating, and she is after you and the girls?" "No, she wants Josh, and I guess the girls are just to lure him to her or something. I am not really sure, but I hate it mom, like even with Jaxon, Carter and Carmen we are still in danger. Like it literally lurking around the corner" I said. "Have you thought about getting a dog?" Ella asked, "that is so much work, I mean sure I would love a dog, but would that really help?" I asked, "of course you could get a guard dog a real big one to scare off all the threats" she said, I wasn't sure it was definitely a conversation to have though, if it was something we even wanted. I felt like with me almost done school, and Josh just starting law school it might not be a terrible idea.
Jaxon is amazing with the girls but sometimes even he isn't fast enough and with Janna more mobile it might not hurt for him to have a dog too. After everything was cleaned up and Janna was snuggled in bed, I couldn't help but feel sad. My baby girl was 1 years old, and it felt like she was growing up so fast, I mean Ashe is in kindergarten. I wish my babies would slow down and be little for just a little bit longer. Jaxon and Josh were putting Ashe to bed, and I sighed, before I know she will be dating and graduating from high school. It made me wonder of the threat would be after us for that long, I really wish we could find her, Xavier was in jail thanks to Max. It was just her and for me she felt more dangerous than Xavier. She wanted to steal my husband and that was not sitting well with me, she even tried to kill me once. I had no idea if she was going to try again but I really liked Carmen. She was on it and was even helpful in some of my classes, she had a photographic memory, so she was able to help me write notes and things. I was almost done with school exams were going to be annoying but because I did school all summer I was almost done, and I was excited to start working. I was going to help those kids who didn't have a voice. The ones whose parents abandoned them or abused them; I wanted to make a difference and show them that there are people out there that will love them. "Hey beautiful" Josh said kissing me, the kids were asleep, and I knew what he wanted, it was our chance as I was ovulating, so it was now or never, I kissed him back and he carried me upstairs. I was so in love with him it was not even funny, like he literally took me breath away. I never thought that I would have the same love that my parent did, but I knew as soon as I saw him, I loved him. I am sure when we were kids it was not the same but as soon as I hit puberty I knew, he was the one I wanted. I am just so glad he wanted me back because this right here is amazing. We have 2 beautiful girls, and we are trying to have another one, I didn't think our life could be any more perfect. Othe than the threats in our lives everything is just peachy, and we are going to hopefully one day be threat free.
After sex we fell asleep, I both had school in the morning and so did Ashe, it was going to be an early day. I hated how it just felt like I fell asleep, and my alarm was going off, I needed to get up to shower before school. Josh was up to, and we had sex in the shower too, as I went to get Janna ready for Jaxon, he had both of them today, Ashe was crying, and I felt like it was going to be one of those days. She wanted to dress in something that was not fall appropriate and Josh was trying to get her to change her mind. You think it would get easier, but it just gets harder, when they can start to talk back it is hard. Janna will get there she is saying a few words her favorite one being no. We all finally managed to get out the door, and Carmen was with me, "so are you going to get that dog?" she asked, "I have no idea" I said, "well if you are I know someone who's dog is about to have puppies" she said. "What kind of dog is it?" "German Shepards" she said, "yeah they are good breed, I will have to talk to Josh but we will keep it in mind" I said as we headed to school. I felt like I was always looking over my shoulder, especially in the spot we were shot at, I hated the feeling of knowing she was out there. She terrified me mostly because one we didn't know who she was and two we had no idea what her intentions are, she is dangerous. We all know she wants Josh but why what is the purpose, she is a crazy person like Sadie. Josh has assured me it was not her but honestly at this point anything is possible but I didn't think she was a witch. I needed to get into school mode now and stop thinking about dying every five seconds, she was not going to hurt me in a public place, I felt like she was one to come out of the shadows and when you least expect it.