The campfire crackled softly in the distance as Percy Jackson lay on his cot in his cabin, staring up at the ceiling. Outside, the wind rustled through the trees of Camp Half-Blood, and the quiet hum of the forest seemed to seep into the air, bringing with it a sense of peace. A sense that, for once, nothing was wrong.
But Percy couldn't sleep.
He tried to, of course. He had been back at camp for weeks now, his body battered but healing, his mind trying to find a way to adjust to this new version of peace that had come after the wars with Kronos, the Titan army, and Gaia. For a moment, he had hoped that life might go back to some semblance of normal. He even entertained the thought that he might finally be able to get some real rest. But every time he closed his eyes, the nightmares came back.
It had started slowly at first—just a whisper, a fleeting image here and there. A shadow in the corner of his mind, a flicker of movement. And he had pushed it away. It was nothing, he had told himself. His body still ached from the battles, but he had survived. He had beaten the odds again, like always. So why was it so hard to breathe when he closed his eyes?
The nightmares grew darker with each passing night.
He clenched his fists now, his body tense as he tried to ignore the tremors running through him. A part of him wondered if he'd ever truly be free from the weight of everything he'd done. The war had ended, sure, but it felt like the echoes of the past kept calling him back. And every time they did, he was pulled under. The guilt. The pain. The loss.
It was always the same. He never got used to it.
Percy rolled over, trying to find a more comfortable position, but his mind kept running in circles. He couldn't escape it. He could feel the pressure building in his chest as he fought the rising tide of panic.
It always began the same way. A feeling of foreboding—an unnatural stillness in the air that made his skin prickle. He could never see the beginning, only feel it.
He was standing alone in an unfamiliar landscape. The sky was dark, heavy with clouds that rumbled low like thunder, and the ground beneath him felt wrong. There was no grass, no trees, just barren dirt, blackened and scarred. The smell of smoke hung in the air. There were whispers—too faint to make out—but they came from every direction, swirling around him like an unseen force.
Then, he saw them.
Faces. Hundreds of them, rising from the earth, their eyes vacant and staring. People he had known. Demigods who had fought beside him. Faces of fallen heroes—Jason, Leo, Piper, Thalia, the campers who had died in the battle against Gaia's army. They emerged from the ground as though they were trapped beneath it, clawing their way up to the surface, their faces twisted in anguish.
He tried to move, but his feet were rooted to the ground, unable to shift. The faces closed in, their eyes accusing him, their mouths whispering words he couldn't hear, but he could feel the judgment, the disappointment in their gaze. Percy felt a cold sweat break out on his forehead. His breath came faster, ragged and uneven. They kept coming, their voices growing louder, more frantic, until they were all around him.
He reached for Riptide, his sword, but it wasn't there. He felt exposed. Vulnerable. In the distance, a shadow loomed—massive and dark. A silhouette that stretched across the sky, its shape shifting, rippling like the very earth beneath him. He couldn't see its face, but he knew who it was.
Kronos.
No. Not just Kronos. Gaia. She was the one pulling the strings.
Then the voices turned into screams.
"You failed us, Percy Jackson!"
"Why couldn't you save us?"
"We trusted you!"
Percy's knees gave way, and he dropped to the ground, clutching his chest as the weight of their words hit him. He could feel their pain—feel their deaths hanging around him like a noose. It was suffocating. He had fought so hard to keep everyone alive, to make sure they didn't fall, but in the end, so many of them had died. He couldn't save them all.
The air around him grew hotter. The ground shook, and the earth split open, spilling lava and fire into the sky. He looked down, and there—at the edge of the chasm—was Annabeth.
Her eyes were wide, her face covered in dirt and blood. She reached out toward him, her lips moving, but no sound came out. She was falling, and he couldn't reach her.
"No!" Percy screamed, his voice lost in the chaos.
He reached for her, but his hands couldn't quite grasp hers. His body felt like it was made of stone—heavy, immobile. As she fell into the abyss, her voice rang in his ears one last time.
"You promised me, Percy. You promised."
Percy gasped, his eyes flying open as he shot up from his bed, drenched in sweat. The remnants of the nightmare still clung to him like cobwebs, each breath a battle. His heart pounded painfully in his chest, his whole body trembling. The sound of his own pulse deafened him, drowning out the reality of the night around him.
He was back at Camp Half-Blood. He was safe.
But his mind wouldn't let him forget.
It was just a dream, he told himself. It's not real. It can't hurt you.
But the weight of it—the guilt, the fear, the loss—stayed with him. Percy sat up on the edge of his bed, his face buried in his hands. It wasn't the first time he'd had this nightmare. It wasn't the first time he'd woken up feeling like a failure. And it sure as hell wouldn't be the last.
It was dark when Percy woke again. The sounds of the camp were muffled, the moonlight faint through the window. He had barely managed to fall back to sleep after the first nightmare, and even now, he couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong. That his dreams weren't just dreams.
The second nightmare was worse.
He was back in the Labyrinth, the twisted maze that had nearly swallowed them all up during their quest to stop Kronos's forces. The walls pressed in, and the air was thick with dust and the scent of decay. Percy's feet shuffled forward, his sword at the ready, though he couldn't see what he was fighting. The Labyrinth was always shifting—ever-changing.
Then, there was a sound.
A familiar sound. A whisper. A voice.
"You're not good enough, Percy."
He spun around. There was no one there.
His breath hitched in his chest. He had heard that voice before, that taunting whisper. It was the voice of his fear, his doubt—the part of him that still wondered if he really was the hero everyone thought he was.
He stepped forward, trying to ignore the feeling creeping up his spine. The labyrinth seemed to stretch endlessly before him, the darkness thickening.
"You think you've won? You think you've saved everyone?" The voice again, louder now.
Percy gripped his sword tighter, stepping through the dark corridor. Every step felt heavier than the last. He moved faster, his heart racing. And then, a figure appeared before him.
A silhouette—familiar, but twisted.
It was Luke.
"You failed me, Percy," Luke said, his voice distorted. His body was bloodied, his eyes wide with betrayal. "You left me to die, just like you always leave everyone to die."
Percy reached for him, but Luke stepped back, disappearing into the shadows.
"You couldn't save me, Percy. You couldn't save anyone."
This time, Percy didn't wake up with a start. This time, he was frozen, trapped in the vision of Luke's betrayal. He felt his heart sink into his stomach, the suffocating weight of the past dragging him down.
But it wasn't Luke's fault. Not really.
He couldn't stop himself from going down the same path, over and over. He had tried. He had fought. But the nightmare always returned, each one more vivid than the last. And the words—the accusations—rang in his ears, reverberating through his thoughts.
You failed. You failed. You failed.
Percy sat on the beach just outside his cabin. He had walked here in the quiet hours, hoping for some peace, a break from the chaos of his thoughts. But even the soft, rhythmic sound of the waves crashing against the shore couldn't shake the weight that had been following him around ever since the war. The nightmares. The memories. The haunting faces of the people he had failed.
He pulled his knees up to his chest, hugging them as if trying to hold onto something real. The wind tugged at his hair, cool and crisp, carrying the salty scent of the ocean. The moon hung high in the sky, full and silver, casting a soft, pale light over everything. He had always found comfort in the moon before, the steady glow of it against the endless dark. But tonight, the moon felt distant, like it was out of his reach, too far to give him the reassurance he craved.
Just as he was beginning to lose himself in his thoughts, he heard the soft crunch of sand behind him. He tensed, instinctively reaching for Riptide, but stopped when a familiar voice called out.
"You know, it's a bit dangerous to sit out here alone in the dark."
Percy turned to see Artemis, the goddess of the moon, standing a few feet away. She was beautiful in the moonlight. She had appeared in her adult form, a form she seemed to be using more and more regularly, as opposed to her usual childlike appearance. auburn hair shone in the dark, and her silver eyes glowed. The silver cloak she wore shimmered softly in the moonlight, and her bow was slung over her shoulder, as always. Her eyes, sharp and knowing, met his with a gaze that seemed to cut right through the facade he had been putting up. He hadn't heard her approach—not surprising, given her affinity with the night.
"Didn't think anyone would be out here," Percy muttered, his voice more tired than he meant it to sound. "And besides, I'm used to danger."
Artemis stepped closer, her presence imposing yet calming. She tilted her head slightly, her eyes narrowing in that way that told Percy she wasn't buying his casual tone. "Used to danger?" she repeated. "Perhaps. But it's not danger you seek, Percy Jackson. It's escape."
Percy let out a breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding. "Yeah, you could say that," he replied, his voice quiet, almost as if he were speaking to himself. "It's just… I don't know. Lately, it feels like I'm trapped in my own head. I thought I'd be okay, you know? I thought after the war, after everything, I'd finally be able to rest."
Artemis sat beside him, her movements graceful and deliberate. She looked out over the water for a moment, then turned her gaze back to Percy. Her expression softened, as if she understood the weight of his words. "Rest," she repeated, as though the word held a special significance. "Rest is more than just sleep, Perseus. It's a peace of mind. And that… that is not something easily found after a war."
Percy shifted uncomfortably on the sand, his fingers digging into the ground. "It's the nightmares. They keep coming. The faces of everyone I couldn't save. The people who died because of me. It's like they're still out there, just waiting to remind me of everything I failed at."
Artemis was silent for a moment, her gaze unwavering as she watched him. "Nightmares are not easily defeated," she said softly. "But they do not define you. Not unless you allow them to."
Percy swallowed, looking out at the water. The waves were quiet tonight, their constant rhythm almost soothing. But in his chest, a storm raged, one that no ocean could calm. "I don't know how to stop them," he confessed. "I don't know how to move on from the war. It feels like… like I'm still fighting it. Like I'm still responsible for everything that happened. I keep thinking if I had just done more—if I hadn't made so many mistakes—maybe things would've been different."
Artemis tilted her head again, her sharp eyes scanning his face as though searching for something. "You carry a heavy burden, Percy Jackson," she said, her voice surprisingly gentle. "But you are not the sole bearer of that weight. You may have fought in the war, but you were not alone. And you are not alone now. You never were."
Percy let out a shaky breath, rubbing the back of his neck. "I don't know if I can believe that anymore. It feels like every time I close my eyes, the faces are there. They're all looking at me like I should've saved them. Like I failed."
"And what of the gods, Perseus?" Artemis asked, her tone not unkind but firm. "What of the gods who also failed them? What of those who could have prevented the war but chose not to? What of the choices that even the gods had to make, the sacrifices that we all had to endure? Do you blame us as well?"
Percy froze at the question, looking over at Artemis. There was something almost challenging in her gaze, but not in a way that made him feel judged. It was as though she was asking him to look beyond the surface, to see the bigger picture. The truth.
He opened his mouth to respond but stopped himself. Could he blame the gods? The truth was, he had been angry with them at times—angry at how they had handled everything. Angry at how the gods' politics had dragged the world into war, even when they could have done more to prevent it. But blaming them… It felt like blaming the stars for the night sky. They were what they were, powerful and out of reach.
"I guess I don't really know who to blame anymore," Percy admitted. "But sometimes I feel like I'm the one who's supposed to fix it. Like I'm the one who should've known better."
Artemis studied him, her expression unreadable. Then, without warning, she leaned back against the sand, her arms crossed over her chest, her silver cloak spreading like a halo around her. "You cannot undo the past, Perseus. You cannot save everyone. You are only one person, no matter how many powers you may have. And yet, you've saved more than most could ever dream of. That is what you should remember, not the things you couldn't do. Not the mistakes. The lives you've touched."
Percy's throat tightened as he glanced at her, his voice barely above a whisper. "It doesn't feel like enough. Not when I wake up in the middle of the night, hearing their voices. Seeing their faces. Wondering if I could've made a difference."
Artemis's eyes softened, and for a moment, there was no distance between them. "The guilt will always be there," she said quietly. "It is a part of you now. But you cannot let it control you. The war is over, Percy. The lives lost are not yours to carry alone. You will carry them in your heart, yes—but not as a weight. As a reminder of what you fought for."
He nodded slowly, the tension in his chest easing just a little. "I don't know if I'll ever stop feeling responsible," Percy said, his voice rough. "But I guess… I guess I'll try to remember what you said."
Artemis gave a soft smile. "Good. Because, unlike the moon that watches over you, you do not remain unchanged. You grow. You learn. And sometimes, you find peace in unexpected places."
Percy sat in silence for a while, staring out at the sea as Artemis's words settled into his mind. The moon above them was full and bright, shining on everything in its path. And for the first time in a long while, Percy felt something like calm. He wasn't sure how to let go of the nightmares, how to silence the ghosts that haunted him, but Artemis was right. He couldn't keep fighting them forever. He had to keep moving forward, no matter how hard it was.
He glanced over at her. "Thanks, Artemis. I didn't think I'd find comfort out here tonight."
The goddess's smile was small, but it was there. "You are welcome, Percy Jackson. Just remember—peace comes not from forgetting, but from learning to live with what is, and moving forward."
They sat in a companionable silence for a while, watching the lapping waves, until Artemis said "Should you ever need someone to talk to, Perseus, or ever need someone to listen to your problems, do not hesitate to contact me."
Percy could only smile and nod.
As the wind picked up, carrying the scent of saltwater, Percy felt the weight of the world lighten just a little. The nightmares were still there. But so was he. And for the first time in a long time, he didn't feel completely alone in the dark.
