A/N: Hey, everyone! Good to see y'all again. As you can see, here's yet another update for this fic! Man, I'm on a roll with this one. But then again, the format for this story is pretty unique and doesn't require as much effort as my usual stories, at least when it comes to drafting drawn-out chapters with multiple sequences of events. But hey, you gotta do what you gotta do to overcome your writer's block and experiment with your style at the same time, you know?

As for the new "Soul Eater" fic with the third-person narrative that I announced in the previous chapter, it's still in the brainstorming phase. However, it's very likely that it'll be spun off from some ideas that I had planned to explore in this fic. Obviously, I had some plans for this fic, but it was becoming increasingly obvious that it would require a third-person narrative to explain them, not the first-person diary format that's being used here. So, if and when that fic is published and you notice some thematic and stylistic similarities between this fic and that one, then you know why.

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Entry #3
Date: March 31, 2009

Dear Diary,

It's me again. Crona.

AnD rAGnAroK

Maka's with me again. She wants to watch me write these entries for a few days. I guess she thinks that I won't be able to write a long entry on my own. She's right. I still don't know how writing in you will help me deal with things. She says that I need to give this process time. Time. Time was always in short supply when I was with Lady Medusa. Now I have so much time. So much. I don't know how to deal with having so much of something.

Also, I still don't know why I have to keep starting my entries with "Dear Diary".

bCuz ThAT biTChy CoW ToLD yA So

I'm not writing letters to you or to anyone. You're not a real person. Do you have the answers on how I can deal with things. If you do, can you tell me now? Like, right now?

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I thought so. You're a lot better than my shadow.

Maka wants to know who the shadow is. Truthfully, I don't know who or what it is, other than myself, I guess. The shadow is me but also not me. I mean, it's supposed to be my shadow, right?

I always see the shadow in my dreams, and all it does is ask me questions. I used to avoid those questions by saying "Pass", and that makes the shadow very sad. Sometimes I still pass on the questions, but I have been answering a few of them lately. I've been answering the shadow ever since the Kishin was defeated and I was allowed to live in Death City.

Maka wants to know what kind of questions my shadow asks. My shadow asks all sorts of questions. They mostly have to do with what's going on with me right now. If I'm able to deal with something or not. Last night, it asked me if writing in this diary is worth it, and if I should keep on doing it in case I get some sort of breakthrough. I had to pass on that one. The shadow was sad about that but it is what it is.

What else can I tell my shadow? I don't feel anything from writing in this diary. I still feel the same. I still can't deal with things. I still can't get away from Lady Medusa, even if Maka killed her. I still can't stop passing on my shadow's questions. I'm still me.

Maka just told me that I need to give this process time. Time. Time was always in short supply when I was with Lady Medusa. Now I have so much time. So much. I don't know how to deal with having so much of something.

I feel like I just wrote that already.

Oh, look. I really did.

WiLL yA LooK AT ThAT WAy To Go jEEnniuS

Maka's telling me that I need to write about what I did earlier today. Now she's telling me that I don't need to write about what she's telling me right now, at this very moment. I don't get it. She wanted me to write in you honestly and accurate and

Maka and the others took me to go see something called a "movie". Before today, I didn't know what movies were. Lady Medusa never let me watch them, not even once. Movies are shown in what are called movie theaters, but they can also be sold a few weeks after people get tired of watching them in the theater. There are all kinds of movies. Scary movies, funny movies, action movies, sad movies. Sometimes movies can be both scary and funny at the same time, action-y and sad at the same time, and so on and so forth and so on and so forth and so on and so

SLoW DoWn ThEyrE yA DuMAZZ

Maka and Tsubaki like the kinds of movies that are called romantic movies. They told me that they're about two people overcoming all odds to fall in love, marry, and have children in the end. In romantic movies, the two people have to be loyal and faithful to each other, no matter what. At least, that's according to Maka. To be honest, Maka didn't sound like herself when she told me that. I think she mostly said that because her dad was following us around for some reason. He tried to hide himself but he was very obvious to everyone, including me and Ragnarok. I think what Maka said gave him something that Soul calls a "stroke".

Soul and Black*Star like action movies. They told me that they're about a guy who kicks names and takes ass. Their words, not mine. I don't know why a guy would like to take someone's butt. That's very creepy. I don't know how to deal with someone who wants to take my butt.

Oh, Maka just told me what the proper phrase actually is. It's still kind of creepy. Why does someone want to take someone else's name? The only thing that I can think of is that "name" is another word for "soul". Did Soul and Black*Star mean taking someone's soul?

Maka's telling me to move on from that topic.

Liz and Patty like funny movies. They're movies that're funny.

nO KiDDin i wuLDA nVEr GESSED

That was the kind of movie we saw today. I think everyone agreed to watch a funny movie beforehand because they didn't want me to get scared by any of the other movies. Black*Star didn't seem too happy about it, because he left five minutes in to watch his action movie. Soul fell asleep ten minutes in. The girls were laughing, but I think only Liz and Patty actually liked the movie. Tsubaki's too nice to not laugh with her friends, and Maka just wanted me to feel comfortable. It didn't really work.

First off, now that I know what a movie theater looks like, I don't know how to deal with it. The floor is so dirty and messy. No one cleans up after themselves. If I left my sleep deprivation room messy, Lady Medusa would've done so many horrible things to me. I don't think Lady Medusa would've liked the inside of a movie theater. Maybe it would've been easier to defeat her if we just shoved her into one of those movie theaters.

Also, I forgot to mention that other people in the theater are loud and noisy. They're the ones making the mess in the theater, and their loudness makes it hard to hear the movie. I know the others were very annoyed by those other people. Patty got angry with this one fat guy and shouted at him until he ran out of the theater crying like a little baby. I couldn't deal with it. Soul knows how to deal with it, though. He didn't wake up at all during the movie, not even once. Not even when Patty got angry. Patty is louder than my Screech Alpha when she's angry. I don't understand how Soul didn't wake up from that. I'll have to ask him when he gets back.

Oh, I forgot to mention what Kid was doing during the movie. Well, he didn't watch the movie with us. He spent his time cleaning and rearranging the entire theater because it wasn't symmetrical enough for his standards. Maka says that Kid got the theater manager to resign, and then he bought the theater with his Lord Death Credit Card. She said about that card, "Kid never leaves the DWMA without it."

After that, we ate out.

yEAh WE ATE ThEr SOuLS

No, that's not what I meant. I meant we ate at a restaurant. Please ignore Ragnarok.

I'd never eaten such good food. Maka says it's called Italian food. They ordered lots of it. Maka got carbonara, Soul got pepperoni pizza, Black*Star got bistecca alla fiorentina, Tsubaki got spaghetti, Kid got fettucine alfredo (after getting the chefs to cook it five times because they couldn't make it shaped like the number 8 correctly), Liz got minestrone, and Patty got a lot of gelato ice cream. As for me, Maka bought me tiramisu.

n ShE GoT mE EVEryTinG On ThE mEnu

Even after trying everyone else's dishes, tiramisu is still my favorite. It's grained and layered, but soft and sweet, just like

Maka says all of the food we tried comes from Italy. I remember Italy. That's where I first met Maka. I hurt Soul there.

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Everyone's so nice. So nice. They didn't have to invite me with them. I didn't have to watch a movie and eat Italian food with them. Not after everything I've done to them and Death City. Everyone's forgiven me for what I did. Everyone except myself.

oF CourSE bCuz your SuCh A FuKin puSSy

Sometimes, I'm still afraid and confused. I don't know what to do. To this day, I'm afraid that I'll be too weak, that I'll be unable to deal anything, and I'll surrender to my weakness and betray them again. Maka says it won't happen as long as she's with me, but what if she's not with me anymore? What if she gets hurt? What if she

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Maka just told me that I shouldn't think about that. That I should keep writing about my day and not go off-topic into my thoughts. I'm trying but it's difficult. Isn't that the point of writing your thoughts into a diary?

Oh, I need to finish writing about my day. After we ate at the Italian restaurant, Kid got the head chef to resign (because they kept messing up the symmetry of his fettucine alfredo) and bought the restaurant with his Lord Death Credit Card. I know his dad's Lord Death and he's rich and all, but I don't if his dad is going to like it if he's buying all the businesses in Death City just because they're asymmetrical. Liz certainly doesn't like it every time he does that. Patty thinks it's funny, though.

After that, we played some basketball. Maka and the others taught me how to play it after I recovered from getting stabbed by Lady Medusa's Vector Arrow. I'm not good at it. I keep getting hit in the face by the ball. When they throw the ball at me, I'm always reminded of Eruka's tadpole familiars. I don't like tadpoles. They look like fish without fins and I can't deal with things that don't have limbs or anything else that helps them move around. Tadpoles just use their tails to move around. It's very, very weird.

Also, whenever someone gives me the ball, the people on the other team just pounce on me. I don't know where to run to or who to throw the ball to. I'm always afraid that I'm going to throw the ball at someone's face and break their entire skull and make everyone hate me. I can't deal with breaking somebody's skull. But I also can't deal with getting tackled by the other team. What do I do?

mAybE u CAn JuST Thro ThE DAm boL LiKE DAm CronA your A rEAL FuKin puSSy yA no

Ragnarok says that like it's easy, but I have to think about hitting somebody in the face. What'll happen to me if that happens?

Maka thinks I should stop writing here. She's worried about me now. I can tell. She tries to put on a brave face for me all the time, but I can tell. This was such a bad idea. Writing in a diary isn't helping me at all. I'm just messing everything up. I don't want Maka to blame herself because I'm making this writing experience a terrible one for myself. I know she's only trying to help me after everything that had happened. But I just don't know how to deal with this.

Soul and Blair just returned home. They had to go out because Maka and Soul's apartment is running out of food. Maka's now yelling at him for not buying the salads that she told him to get. There are certain salads that she likes and she can't stop eating them. She says it's for a healthy diet so then she can be more athletic and use Soul more properly. That's why she's mad.

But Soul's not bothered at all by her yelling. Maka can get scary when she yells (not as scary as Patty, though), and she's at her scariest when she's mad at Soul. But Soul's never scared of her when she's mad. He knows how to deal with her. He definitely knows how to deal with stuff.

I still need to ask Soul what he means by "cool". But I'm afraid that if I show him I don't know what it is, then he might not like me anymore. If he liked me to begin with.

In fact, I don't know what Soul thinks about me. He's always so mysterious. If they're faking it, Black*Star, Tsubaki, Kid, Patty, and Liz try really hard to make themselves look like they like me. They're all Maka's friends, after all. Surely they'd pretend to like me because she likes me and they don't want to disappoint their friend. That, I understand.

But Soul doesn't show much emotion to me. He can give me a little smile full of shark-teeth and a few words of advice or encouragement, but it always sounds like his mind is somewhere else. I really don't know what he thinks of me. But what I do know is that he knows how to deal with stuff. What I would give to be in his shoes right now, mysterious or not.

Also, speaking of shark-teeth, I wonder how Soul brushes his teeth. Wouldn't they just break whatever toothbrush he uses? Doesn't he get hurt extra-bad if he bites his tongue or his cheek? Did he make his teeth that way or was he born like that?

Maybe I shouldn't be in his shoes. I can't deal with biting my tongue or my cheek with shark-teeth. That really sounds like it would hurt.

A/N: And that's the end of this chapter! I hope that you enjoyed the humor that I inserted here. I feel like this Chaotic Neutral style of comedy is something that you'd see in "Soul Eater" itself. Other than that, not much happened...or did it? I hope you noticed something happening in the end there.

And if you didn't, well, maaaaaybe I'll elaborate in a few chapters or so. Maybe. ;D ;D ;D

Well, hope you enjoyed the chapter! TheCartoonFanatic01 is out. Watch out for the next chapter, or I'll take your soul!