Words That We Couldn't Say

A big heartfelt thank you goes out to jessica499499 aka Lacy Fairgold and neveria yan for their continual support and excellent feedback for this story. You two are the greatest!

Prologue

Noah knew it was a bad idea coming here, but damn was it hard to remember that while he was balls deep inside his best friend. Once he received the text with hotel address and room number, his libido took over. With a shouted excuse to his parents, Noah jumped into his Jeep and did all he could to not speed to the hotel.

There was a moment, while he was in the elevator, that he tried to think things through without lust getting in the way of his brain. It was his last night in town. Tomorrow he would be on his way to Boston where he would officially start his college experience.

Tonight, though, tonight he was going to make sure he made lasting memories with Rex as his summer ended, and with it, their arrangement. Perhaps they should end their summer fling with minimal making out and spend the rest of the time trying to relearn what it meant to be only friends. To not give in to every urge to kiss or to see the same with unbridled want in Rex's eyes until Noah dragged him into the nearest bedroom. But then he was standing in front of the hotel room door and before he could knock Rex yanked open the door, grabbed Noah's jacket by the lapel and greeted him with a kiss before pulling him into the room where all thoughts of ending this wonderful and hot thing between early in the evening were banished from his mind.

We are so good at this, Noah thought as Rex bucked underneath him, causing a groan of pleasure to escape from Noah's lips. Pleased by the sound, Rex repeated the move, causing Noah to bit down on Rex's shoulder, his teeth grazing over Rex's sweaty skin. Noah quickly replaced his teeth with his lips, kissing Rex's shoulders and neck in time with his thrusts. He could feel the gooseflesh bloom over Rex's body and chuckled knowing their appearance wasn't due to the drop in temperature, but from a spike of pleasure coursing through Rex. Noah increased his pace and pressed his forehead on Rex's shoulder in order to focus on bringing them over the edge at the same time. Rex's eyes snapped closed and he choked out a groan.

"Yes. So good. So close. Don't stop," Rex moaned, and gripped Noah's side in encouragement.

"Fuck," Noah grunted as Rex dug his fingers into his hip, his nails digging and leaving half moons. Leaning back, he obeyed Rex's command and didn't stop, going to far as to speed up even more; his hips slamming into Rex's backside.

"Right there. Right there. Oh, God," Rex dawdled his hand pumping furiously over his cock. Noah continued his onslaught. It wouldn't be long now. The orgasms they had been building were quickly reaching their climax.

Noah felt as well as saw the moment Rex came. The walls of Rex's insides squeezed tight around Noah's cock, pushing his own release over the edge. Noah grunted and moaned as wave after wave of his orgasm crashed over him. He wasn't even aware he had closed his eyes until he opened them to the sight of Rex gazing up at him with half-lidded eyes.

"Oh man, that was incredible. I don't think I could move even if I wanted to. I can't feel my legs," Rex breathed, laying back on the bed. "We are so good at this."

Noah smiled as Rex unknowingly echoed of his earlier thoughts. "Your leg is very much there," Noah teased. He ran a hand up Rex's leg towards his inner thigh and was delighted when Rex's muscle jumped under his touch. "And it seems you can feel it." He chuckled when Rex grabbed his wrist and tried to tug him closer.

"Come here," Rex commanded in a low growl.

"Wait. Let me take care of this first," Noah said, gesturing down the condom still wrapped around his spent cock. Rex released him, but only after Noah promised to not go far. Turning his back to Rex, Noah expertly pulled off the condom and tied it off. The idea of the cleaning crew finding the used condom made him pause and pluck a few tissues from the box on the nightstand. He carefully wrapped the tissues around the condom before lightly tossing it into the wastebasket on the side of the desk. Getting to his feet, he stretched and then made a rude hand gesture as Rex whistled at him as he bent over to grab two bottles of water from the mini-fridge.

"Well, I'm trying, but somebody is taking their sweet time getting their ass over here," Rex remarked snarkily, easily catching the bottle Noah threw at him. "We gotta make the most out of our last night."

Although Rex spoke in a light matter of fact tone, an unspoken bitterness had crept in, sucking out all the good vibes which usually filled them after sex.

"I'll be right back," Noah said and slipped into the hotel's complimentary bathrobe.

"I'll be waiting," Rex called after him.

Noah padded over to the bathroom. After using the toilet, he grabbed a washcloth and got it damp with warm water for Rex before returning to the bedroom. He smirked at the sight before him.

Rex was still laying on his back, completely nude just as Noah had left him, only now, his eyes were closed and his breathing was even.

Giving in to his impulse, tossed the washcloth on the foot of the bed and sink to his knees on the side. Resting his elbow on the mattress near Rex's head Noah gently wove his fingers thru Rex's hair, enjoying the soft hairs brushing against his skin. Rex hummed in his sleep and his head tilted into Noah's hand. Noah looked down and saw Rex staring up at him, a satisfied grin on his lips.

"You fell asleep before I could wash you."

"I'm not asleep now." Rex pointed out.

Noah chuckled and reached out for the washcloth. It was Noah's turn to have his hair played with as took care of Rex. Taking long, light strokes, Noah cleaned the semen off of Rex's chest and stomach. "Stop distracting me," Noah ordered when Rex's hand moved from his hair to his neck to his back.

"I think I'm clean enough. Besides, I'm only gonna get dirty again." Rex said, tugging at Noah's bathrobe.

Noah undid the robe's belt, letting the robe fall to the floor as he crawled back into bed. Rex's arm came over him and pinned Noah next to him. "So you don't get away," Rex mumbled and put an end to any more talking by pressing his lips to Noah's. Noah felt the hunger growing in Rex as his touches went from slow and lazy to harder and insistent and soon they were both panting and moving against each other.

They made love several times that night. It was as if they were trying to imprint themselves on each other. They didn't talk, choosing instead to let their cries and pleas to say everything they couldn't bring themselves to speak.

Afterward, when Rex fell asleep and stayed asleep, even with Noah's fingers in his hair Noah watched his friend and tried to memorize as much of this moment as he could.

All too soon he would be leaving this place. He would head back home where he would have breakfast with his parents and listen to their last-minute advice before they all piled into his mom's mini-van and drive up to the airport.

When Noah was sure Rex wasn't going to wake up, he leaned down to kiss the side of Rex's head and whispered, "I've loved this," in a voice so quiet he wasn't sure if he'd actually said it out loud.

After one last kiss to the temple, Noah got up and gathered his things; his heart tearing with each moment. The temptation to stay with Rex and try to turn this thing they had going on into a relationship was strong. But they had a deal. Once summer was over, their time as lovers was over, too. It seemed like a fun, easy idea at the beginning. And boy, did they have fun. Noah wouldn't have wanted to spend his summer vacation any other way. Now it wasn't so easy, at least on his part. Noah didn't want to admit how hard it was to say goodbye.

But the end was here, there was no denying that, though he couldn't stop the thoughts of something more happening between them from creeping into his head. He knew it wasn't an option. In all their time together since the arrangement was made, Rex never once mentioned anything about taking it further. Which meant he probably didn't want to take things any further. Which was why they had done everything they could to make tonight as meaningful as their first time together. Except instead of clumsy hands fumbling in the dark, they each knew the other's turn-ons and could make each other sing with so much passion for hours on end.

Despite that, there was no way this arrangement could continue. Noah was leaving. And Rex...Rex was going to remain here and do what he does best, protect the world from danger. And that was fine. That was how it should be. Rex had accepted that and now it was Noah's turn to come to terms with it as well.

Picking up the discarded bathrobe, Noah held it in his hands for a brief moment before folding it over the desk chair. Grabbing his jacket, he headed for the door, determined not to look back. His hand was on the door latch when he heard it. A voice, soft and deep with sleep, but clear.

"Stay."

Noah tensed. Helpless against the sound of Rex's voice, he turned around and tried not to grimace. Rex was sitting up in bed, his gaze imploring Noah to give in and come back to him.

Noah took a step back to keep himself from moving forward. "Rex-"

"Please, don't go, Noah. Stay." Rex pleaded and removed the bed covers so he could get up.

Noah held out his hand and shook his head. "I can't. I have to get home before my parents wake up."

"That's not what I mean," Rex said in a huff. "Don't go to Boston. Stay here. With me. I want to be with you. Officially."

Noah was stunned. Rex was ruining the deal by trying to change it without any clue that he wanted it changed in the first place. Why had Rex waited until the last possible moment to mention how he wanted to be more than just friends? Than just bedmates? Why couldn't he just let Noah leave? It was bad enough that he was sneaking off without saying goodbye, now Rex was making it so Noah had to be the one to say no and be the bad guy.

The incredulity of it made Noah angry, and luckily, anger would help him do what needed to be done.

"We had fun, Rex. It was great. It was a blast. But that's all it was. All it could ever be. Us being a thing, being more? Is impossible. So let's just move on, okay?"

Rex's mouth hung open and his eyes grew wide like he had been slapped. Noah couldn't bear to wait for him to gather his wits and respond.

"I'll text you when I land," Noah said quickly. Hating himself more than he ever thought possible, Noah opened the door and walked through brokenhearted, but looking forward to his college life, knowing walking out of that room was the worst time of his life.

I've been working on this story, off and on, for years anf finally decided I ought to start posting it. Thank you for taking the time to read it and I hope you look forward to the rest.

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