july, 2017
Naomi
…
I stared. I just stared at this scene… before me. Why was I back here? This doesn't make sense… or maybe I had just an internal mental breakdown with fantasies.
Once this man, I had already forgotten his name and his status, said those words. For me the world stopped as I sat down in the chair behind me at a snails pace, but it was normal speed, I felt everything in me go… quiet. Silent even as he continued speaking, everything went silent. It was as silent as the early calm hours of morning dew. Serenely calm but creeping with eerily fog. I can feel myself die again… just… everything went dead…
Everything is… how… What am I supposed to do now?
My vision went into a tunnel at Sonic speed until the familiar darkness surrounded me.
It's so cold. So… dead.
Hmm.
"I told you." She says from behind me, so calm but it… didn't irritate me.
"I guess you did."
"Wow."
"What?"
"You gave up."
I hummed in apathy.
"Wow…" she sounded… disappointed.
"What?"
"You letting me win that easily?"
"What can I do? You… you take everything from without mercy… you want the boy I love and quite frankly… it's selfish to keep fighting like this."
"Why?"
"Because… it's getting everyone I love killed… everyone is… leaving when they have the chance… All wanting to take the opportunity to be happy… away from me… he left. And he never should've came back."
"But he loves you."
"I doubt it. I'm not saying I don't love him… but I can't… do this… fighting for someone when it brings everyone in. Changes their lives… it's not fair. It's selfish. It's… childish."
Silence for… I don't know. It was a very long time.
"Naomi… I don't understand."
"Why? You didn't expect this did you?"
"No… I didn't… everyone always fights until they… they die."
"Well… I am an alpha… I am a leader… I have land to protect. Generations to account for."
"I never expected this from you… I don't like it."
"I don't care… I… just…"
Silence for a very long time again.
"Why are you giving up on him?"
"I already told you."
"Lies."
"Just take him… just leave me alone. I forfeit. You win."
Silence for a very long time.
She hums.
Silence again. Yes, a long time again.
"Honey… I've been winning since the beginning."
"Huh?"
"You know I'm very surprised that you believe that these are all…" Images flashed on the walls of the box, rapidly but I can see them this time. "Seth. I'm quite intrigued that you believe that this boy," She shows Seth Swan, a spitting male version of Renee with brown eyes, "When this boy," she shows Seth Clearwater, a boy who was a perfect mix of Harry and Sue Clearwater, "Is the real Seth. Don't you remember? I don't expect you too. My curse is working, that's all that matters."
Wait a fucking minute. I stood up and turned around to face her.
But then I felt the whiplashing speed knock me backwards and smack me into unconsciousness.