Chapter 5
Her mother in law's unease still weighed heavy on her mind yet she let it slide, focusing instead on the upcoming wedding. Like all girls she had dreamed of the day since she found out what a wedding was. Sadly after she hit fifteen all thoughts of a white June wedding hit the breaks.
She had put all her dreams on hold to fix a mistake she had made with the greatest intentions. She had fancied herself marrying Inuyasha once upon a time, settling down in the past after their journey was done. That dream had died when she realized that while he loved her, he was not in love with her.
He would always be in love with Kikyo. It had hurt, she had thought them destined for each other, a 'love that crossed time and space' yet she had swallowed that bitter pill and still held him close.
Thoughts of him and their other companions were all that kept her sane when she had been trapped in the void with Naraku.
She shivered recalling the cold dark dense space. There was nothing there, nothing but Naraku who had tried to whisper sweet promises of power and corruption into her ear. While she was loath to admit there had been fleeting seconds where she had almost given in, yet at the last moment held strong.
She had been told her time in the void had been only three days, yet it felt like so much more. An entirety locked away in darkness with a man who wanted nothing more than to corrupt her very soul.
In the end she held fast to her beliefs, her inner light and the battle had been won. She had done it alone, faced her fears and her inner darkness and came out a stronger person. A different person. Gone was the foolish teenager who believed in happily ever afters, her rose tinted glasses had shattered.
Yet she still held onto her beliefs, her inner light and knew that while there was darkness in everyone it was up to them how they handled it. She was no preacher on a soap box, she knew she held darkness but she did not let it take over. She accepted it as part of her and in doing so had come to understand things on a whole new level.
She felt enlightened, which was why even though she laughed and chatted with Sif, planning out a wedding reception to end all wedding receptions, she kept the odd behavior of her mother in law, and anyone she had shown the necklace to, in mind.
There would come a time for confrontation, to find out why everyone was walking on eggshells around her. Until then she would play the part of a blushing bride, and she would enjoy it. She would be selfish and let herself enjoy her wedding, while it was not one of love she knew that she wouldn't have to try very hard to let the man that was to be her husband into her heart.
She just hoped that it wasn't her childish notions of happily ever after fueling it. The last time she had done so, she had been heart broken.