Ch. 1
It was a gorgeous fall day. I decided it would be a good day down to ride to the Weasley's place and visit Molly Weasley. After mum passed away, Molly became a huge motherly figure for me. If I didn't know how to bake or cook something, I went to Molly. If I didn't know how to fix or patch a piece of clothing or a horse blanket, I went to Molly. If I needed someone to talk to about anything and everything, I went to Molly. Recently, I had been dealing with a more personal problem. My mate. He wasn't just another annoying man that would bother you and you could tell him to get lost. This man was my God-given mate. Werewolf mates were lifelong. There was no "break up" or choosing not to deal with them. My mate was Fenrir Greyback. I've had to deal with this man regularly since the of age at seventeen. I'm twenty-five now. I dealt with him before I was of age, but he never acted on us being mates until I was actually of age. I found out he was my mate at the age of fifteen by accident. I overheard Greyback and my father having an argument over me one night.
I rode over the hill and seen the Burrow. I felt joy when I seen it. As I came up to the Burrow, Mr. Weasley was out fixing something in the garden. He seen me and greeted me.
"Top of the morning, Jess! Good to see you dear! Let me know when you head out and we'll send some fresh vegetables home with you." Said Mr. Weasley. I pulled the saddle from my horse, Movin, and tied her off at the post that Mr. Weasley had placed a long time. I went inside and found Molly in the kitchen. She had just pulled out a pan of cookies from the oven. She set it down and turned to come give me a hug.
"Jess, dear! It's so good to see you!" Exclaimed Molly. I hugged Molly and sat down in a chair at the table while Molly continued to do her thing in kitchen.
"What brings you over today, dear?" asked Molly. I looked down at the table and traced the wood with my finger. "It's him again, isn't it dear?" She asked. I nodded.
"He's been stopping in more frequently and his stays have been longer, Molly. I know I can't just tell him to leave and if he does want to be at the place full time, I can't tell him no. Plus I know he's been more involved with You-Know-Who again. Look." I told her as I tossed down the newspaper down in front of me. It included an article about the Millenium bridge and the kidnapping of Olivander. Molly gave a sympathetic look.
"Have you asked the man why he's been coming back more than usual? Hopefully not because you are associated with the Order." Said Molly.
"No. He won't tell me. And he knows better than to do that. He knows I'll hex him into next week if he did such a thing. Lately, I've noticed that he's been more controlling lately. I had to argue with him last night to get permission to come here today." I told her.
"Is he still there right now?" She asked.
"No. He said he had business to attend to. I'm not sure if he will be back today or not. I never truly know when he's coming or going." I spoke. I grabbed a cookie from the pan and took a bite. Just as I took a bite, Tonks and Remus had shown up and came into the kitchen.
" 'ello, Jess! It's so good to see you!" Greeted Tonks.
"Good to see you, Jess. You look well." Greeted Remus.
"Thank you, guys. It's good see you both as well." I told them.
"Is that ol' tosser Greyback giving you issues again?" asked Tonks as she grabbed a cookie for herself and took a bite.
"About the same as usual. Only he has been coming around more frequently. Much to my dismay." I told her.
"Tell 'im to get lost, Jess." Tonks replied.
"You know she can't do that, Dora. Jess, do you know why he's been coming around more?" Asked Remus. I shrugged my shoulders.
"Like I told Molly, he wouldn't say. He and I have had more arguments lately as well. I've been trying to see if he would reveal anything about what's going on, but he really hasn't. The only thing he's told me is that he was involved in Olivander's kidnapping and destroying the Millenium bridge. I already figured out that he has been more involved with the Death Eaters again." I explained. We continued our conversation through supper. Molly made a wonderful supper for everyone and sent leftovers home with us all. It was getting late and the sun was beginning to set. I went and resaddled my horse. With a goodbye to Molly, Arthur, Tonks, and Remus, I set off for home. It was a nice night out. I was just about home when I saw the light on in the house. Great. Greyback was already here. I was really hoping he wouldn't be back today. Naturally, that aged really well. I rode up to the barn, unsaddled Movin and put her back out in the pasture. I was dreading going into the house, knowing he was back. I went inside and found that Greyback was sitting on the couch, waiting for me. He didn't look to happy with me. I tried to ignore him and took the leftovers from Molly to the fridge but I could shake the feeling of his eyes glaring at me.
"Why weren't you home when I told you to be?" Greyback's dark, deep voice sounded. I shut the door to the fridge and looked back at him. I saw his dark blue eyes staring at me. Internally, I was screaming at myself to shut the hell up and not pick a fight, but it was too late.
"I didn't know I was a child needing to be home by seven." I snapped back. I looked at the clock and it was only nine in the evening. "It's only nine!" He stood up from the couch. Well shit. I'm in the doghouse now. He stalked towards me and, naturally, I backed away from him until I found myself backed into the corner of the kitchen. He approached me and threw his hands on either side of me onto the counter. I flinched away from him.
"Look at me." Greyback commanded. I did as I was told. "When I tell you to be home by a certain time, I expect you home. No exceptions."
"Yes, Fenrir." I replied. His finger came up to my mouth. I knew what he wanted. "Please don't." I whispered to him. His face came closer to mine. "Yes, daddy." I told him. He leaned down and kissed my forehead.
"Good girl. Now tell me why you're late?" asked Greyback.
"I went over to the Weasley's to visit. Molly invited me to stay for supper, so I stayed. She sent leftovers home if you want some. She figured you would be back and hungry, so she sent extra for you as well." I told him. He nodded.
"Alright." He turned away and moved to the fridge. Greyback may have been a feral man, but he did learn how to handle most sophisticated things in the house now. He took the leftovers out and began to fix himself a plate. I took a seat at the kitchen island while he did his thing.
"Fenrir." I paused. "Why have you been coming around more and staying longer? You never really stayed long before and you only used to come a couple, maybe a few times a year." I asked him. He paused, he leaned on the counter and he looked up at me.
"I figured that it's about time I be around more than I had been. Plus, it keeps the Death Eaters away from the pack." He spoke.
"So, you think it's better they come here to my home instead then? I don't think so." I replied.
"I'll do as I see fit in our household and as the Alpha." Said Greyback.
"It's my house, Greyback." I told him.
"And I am the man of this house, girly. I make the rules and I decide what goes around here." He growled. I rolled my eyes and got up to move to the couch. I grabbed a book on the coffee table and began to read it while Greyback ate his supper. When he finished, Greyback came to the couch and sat beside me. His hand found my thigh and rested it there. I lowered my book and looked at him.
"Do you mind?" I asked him. He came in closer to me. I tried backing away from him, but I was stopped by the arm of the couch.
"I do, love. Come here." Crooned Greyback. I dropped the book and tried to move away again but Greyback stopped me. I felt him grab under my knee and thigh and he pulled me onto my back on the couch. I tried to bolt out of his grip but Greyback pinned me there. My anxiety shot up.
"No! Let me go!" I growled at him, struggling in his grip.
"Not a chance, love. Now come here." He crooned as he looked down at me. I shook my head.
"Please don't, Greyback." My voice wavered. This wasn't the first time Greyback had done things like this. He may have treated me better than he did others, but I wasn't immune to being forced to give him what he wants. He didn't listen. His face dipped down to my neck and I panicked as his lips made contact. I swung up and punched Greyback as hard as I could in the chest. It was no use. All it did was piss the man off. His hands grabbed a hold of my wrists and his teeth made their way to my neck. I tried to struggle out of his grip, but it only earned me a dark growl and him biting down harder.
"Stop, Greyback! Stop! I'll behave! Please don't!" I pleaded with him. Greyback released my neck. I felt the bruise forming right away. He looked down at me.
"Good. Now prove it, babygirl." Greyback replied. With that, Greyback picked me up and hauled me to the bedroom. My fear amounted to a new level. Having gone through this same scenario many times with the man, I knew exactly what was coming. He laid me down onto the bed. I turned and tried to bolt again from him once again. My hand had just grabbed the other side of the bed when Greyback grabbed me by the waist again. I was pulled onto my back once again. His other hand gathered both my wrists and pinned me down once again. I stared up at him, afraid. His other hand fumbled with the buttons of his shirt. His face turned into a dark grin. He smiled at me with his pointed, sharp teeth. I tried struggling again. Greyback's arm came closer to me. I attempted to land a bite on it, but Greyback caught me and grabbed my face. His dark smile widened and darkened more.
"Looks like baby girl doesn't want to play nice either. Now let's see that beautiful body of yours, love." Greyback crooned again. He began to fuss with my clothes.
"No!" I yelled out. Greyback undid my shirt and jeans. I managed to pull a hand from his grip and threw an upper cut at him. The punch connected and I pulled back a leg to kick him but before I could land it, Greyback grabbed it and put my leg on the side of his hip. His hand came up to my throat and it tightened, not enough to choke me but enough to get my attention. Tears ran down my face now. Greyback leaned down and licked one from my cheek. I shuttered.
"Now, it's time to be a big girl and quit fighting me, baby girl. This doesn't hurt you at all so enough with the fighting. You can either be willing or I'll force you whether you like it or not. Now, what's it going to be?" The bass in Greyback's voice deepened as he looked down at me. I shook my head side to side. I didn't want this.
"Have it your way, baby girl." Growled Greyback. He waved his hand and pulled himself off me. I tried to get up, but couldn't move. The bastard cursed me. He was standing next to the bed working on pulling off his own clothes. Greyback was a big man. His muscles and bulk made him that much bigger. He stood about six foot four. His chest and shoulders were broad. His face was rough, weathered, and had a beard of graying hair. I watched him as he finished. He moved over to me now and finished pulling mine off me. I couldn't fight back while he did so. After he finished, he stood back to take in the sight of me.
"Beautiful." He mumbled as he moved towards my hands. With his wand, Greyback conjured a rope for each of my hands and secured them to the bed. With another wave of his wand, I was able to move again. I pulled against the ropes. As I was distracted by that, Greyback had moved quickly to place himself between my legs. I went to try kicking him again, but he grabbed my neck harshly and leaned down.
"If you kick me again, I will tie your legs down too. Now enough." Boomed Greyback. I pulled my head away from him. Greyback gripped my face and forced me to look back at him. With a dark grin, he crushed his lips on mine. I wanted to fight him, but my better judgement said otherwise. I felt his lips move down to my chest. He harshly kissed my breasts. An uncontrollable gasp sounded from me. I felt him smile against my breast that was in his mouth. Greyback kissed down my abdomen as he moved himself between my legs. His hand gripped my thighs harshly and opened them more to give him better access. He began to use his mouth on me. My back arched from the sudden touch.
"You taste so sweet baby girl." Rumbled Greyback as he went back to my clit, using his tongue and sucking on the sensitive nub. A moan sounded from me. Greyback slipped a couple fingers in me as he continued. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of pleasing me, but my body betrayed me. I was about reach my orgasm, but Greyback stopped suddenly and pulled himself up to face me.
"You don't come unless daddy tells you to." He said harshly. Before I could respond, Greyback crushed his lips on mine again. I felt him positioning himself at my entrance. I began to struggle again.
"Please don't!" I cried, tears starting to come again. Greyback leaned down and harshly kissed me again.
"Look at me." He boomed. I did as I was told. With that, Greyback slammed himself into me. I yelled out from the sudden intrusion. He was a big man and it always hurts in the beginning with him. With that, I gave in. He began to thrust into me harshly. I heard him moan above me.
"Good girl, love." Greyback crooned as he stroked my face and neck. He began to thrust harder into me. His hands roamed my body as he continued. I felt as he released my hands from the ropes. He pulled me towards the edge of the bed as he continued. His thrusts were hard and harsh, but his touch was surprisingly gentle.
"Please stop, Fenrir." I pleaded softly to him. He leaned down to bring his face closer to mine. His nose nuzzled mine and his forehead made contact with my own. His rough, calloused hand found its way to brush the hair from my face and hold my head gently.
"I'll stop when I want to, my love. I want you and I will have you." He rumbled softly to me as his piercing eyes looked down into mine. I saw the lust and hunger that filled them. I felt his pace began to pick up. With in another minute, the most intense orgasm ripped through me. I tried to stifle my scream from it, but I heard Greyback's harsh voice again.
"Scream for me, baby girl. Let me hear how I make you feel." He crooned into my neck. Every bit of control I had left me. My whole body shuddered and quivered. I heard Greyback as he also reached his own climax. His teeth made contact with my neck. It was firm but gentle. My body continued to shake as he finished. He pulled himself up and his hand brushed my face again.
"So good, love. So good." He spoke. I looked away from him. Greyback didn't press me on it this time. I was still shaking. I pulled myself to my side to catch my breath and let my body settle down after Greyback's assault on it. Greyback laid behind me and began to caress my bottom as I laid there. After a few minutes, he finally spoke again.
"Go shower and relax, love. I'll come join you in a minute." Greyback ordered me. I thought about telling him to fuck right off, but that's pretty much what got me into this current situation. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom. The hot water from the shower felt amazing on my skin and sore body. I was in my own little world and felt content and relaxed in the hot water. I had just finished with my hair and was just wiping my eyes from the water when I turned into a solid figure. Well, there went the nice relaxing shower. I jumped when I felt Greyback behind me in the shower. I turned to face him before he asked, not wanting to have a repeat of what he just did to me. I looked up at him in submission. His hand came up and grabbed my chin. I knew I was in the clear when he took his hand and grabbed the side of my face gently. He may be a cruel, vile man to most everyone else, I knew the man truly did hold a soft side for me. When it came to me, he wasn't afraid to do something I asked of him so long as I did what he asked of me. Greyback grabbed the cloth that was hanging and put some soap on it. Without asking, he began to wash my body. I let him do it without a fuss. After he was finished, I rinsed myself off. His hand outstretched to me with the cloth. I looked up at him with confusion. Never once had he wanted me to do the same.
"Go on, love. Use the other stuff so I don't end up smelling like flowers or some shit." He smiled. I nodded and did as he asked. At first, I hesitated to reciprocate. He nodded me on. I began with his chest. I was timid about it, but I did it. I switched with him so he could rinse off. At least I knew he was coming to bed clean for once. I was in my own little world for a second when I felt his arms wrap around me and pull me into his chest. Greyback leaned down and kissed me fiercely. I let him do what he wanted. He pulled away first.
"Come to bed, baby girl. Time for bed." He told me. I followed without argument.
Greyback left quite early. I had woken up to him leaning over me and kissing my forehead. He mumbled something along the lines of "I'll see you later" or something like that. I went back to sleep for a while longer before I got up to do chores and do my daily routine. I thought it would be a good day to see if Tonks could come over. I just needed a friend who knew my situation and just needed time with someone else. Tonks and I had gone to school together and had been best friends since year one at Hogwarts. I called her through the Floo network. She was happy to swing over in a little bit to have coffee with me. She asked if Remus could come as well, to which I was more than happy for Remus to come as well. They apparated to my doorstep.
"Watcher, Jess!" greeted Tonks as she hugged me.
"Hello, Jess." Smiled Remus. I had known Remus since I was a child. My father essentially took him under his wing and helped him.
"What's new, love?" asked Tonks as she went to the kitchen and took the liberty to pour three cups of coffee for us all. You know we've been friends for so long that she knew where all my stuff was in the house and that she even remembered to put some creamer in my coffee for me. Along with taking some for herself. She handed the cups to Remus and I.
"Peppermint Mocha. I like this one!" She said as she looked over the bottle and took a sip of her own coffee. I laughed.
"Jess, was Fenrir here last night?" asked Remus concerned. I knew he could smell him. I looked at my cup and gripped it with both hands. I nodded.
"Oh love, your neck." Tonks said gently as she came to the other side of me and pulled back my hair. "What did he do to you?"
"I picked a fight with him last night. Obviously didn't end too well on my end." I paused, reliving last night. "He had requested that I be home by seven last night, but I had stayed longer at Arthur and Molly's, so I wasn't home until nine. He waited for me. I knew I was already in the doghouse as soon as I seen the light on in the house as I rode up to home. At least he had decency to ask me to please be home by a certain time if he gives me one." I told them both. Tonks' hand rubbed on my back.
"That's not right that he does that to you, Jess." Remus said.
"What can I do about it, Remus? You know just as well as I do that with him as an Alpha werewolf and I as his mate, I have no say. He could literally beat me every day and there would be no one that could tell him that he can't. Surprisingly, he is uncommonly gentle with me most of the time considering the man he is. That is unless I pick a fight or completely disobey him like I did yesterday." Just as I said that, my owl came with the post. She flew through the window and dropped it in front of me. It was from the Ministry. It was an updated personal profile that the Ministry provides if anything is updated.
"That's funny. I never updated anything on my profile at the Ministry." I questioned. As I looked through it and read the letter, I stopped cold in my tracks.
"Jess, what is it?" asked Tonks. I set the profile and letter down for them both to see. Both Remus and Tonks brought their hands to their mouths. I had a couple of tears roll down my face as I stared at it. The Ministry had sent it informing me that if any werewolves on the Werewolf Registry were known to have a mate, their mate was listed as their legal spouse. Basically, the letter informed me that the werewolf mating law amongst ourselves was now counted as a marriage and that it would be treated as such on their end as well. How was that for a morning shocker? Learning that the Ministry legally counts myself and Greyback as husband and wife. That was a whole new way to ruin a day. Tonks hugged me and Remus put a hand on my shoulder.
"Well, that's a way to ruin a day, love. I wish I could do something about it." Said Tonks sympathetically. I pulled back from her and wiped away a couple of tears.
"Wish there was some sort of warning about it." I spoke.
"Do you think Greyback had something to do with it?" Asked Tonks. I shook my head.
"I don't think so. He wouldn't be above doing such a thing, but I don't believe that he could just waltz into the Ministry and demand that they make that change." I told them. All three of us sat and conversed for the rest of the day. We were all on the back patio when I noticed the sun setting. Just as I noticed that, I heard a loud crack. Oh no. This wasn't good. Greyback had returned. I looked at Tonks and Remus in fear. The handle to the front door began to move as Greyback was entering.
"Whatever happens you two try to leave asap. Don't pick a fight or try to make him mad!" I whispered to them. We all watched as Greyback had sniffed the air in the house, he knew that I had guests. He looked out towards us and seen the three of us. Good thing Remus was sitting furthest away from me. That way Greyback couldn't use that against him. His face looked furious. He locked eyes with me. I froze. He made his way to the sliding doors and opened it calmly, which made me more nervous than if he slammed it open. He stepped outside and looked at Remus and Tonks before he made his way towards me and looked down at me.
"I wasn't expecting us to have guests tonight, love." He rumbled; his hand grabbed my shoulder as he stood behind me.
"I invited my best friend Tonks and her husband, Remus to come over for a visit today. We lost track of time. I was intending for them to go home before you arrived." I told Greyback. He looked at them.
"As you both can see, I do treat her decently. But I must ask you both to leave now. It's getting late." Said Greyback as politely as he was capable of.
"It's of no worries, Greyback. We should get back home before it becomes too late." Replied Remus. Tonks and Lupin got up, said goodbye to me and we followed them to the front door.
"Lupin." Boomed Greyback's voice behind me. Remus and Tonks turned around. "Please ask for permission to visit if you must." Remus nodded his head. Tonks and Remus looked at me concerned. I nodded my head at them and they had apparated away. Greyback made his way back to the kitchen when he seen my Ministry profile on the counter.
"What's this about?" He asked. He picked it up and looked at it closer. When he realized what was up with it, he smiled and chuckled. "Well, I'll be damned, love. If you wanted me to be your husband, you should've said something." He chuckled.
"I didn't make the choice to have you listed as my spouse. Read the letter next to it." I told him. He paused for a minute.
"Ah so the Ministry made the change themselves I take it?" He asked me. I nodded. "They have a point though. Being mates being the same as being spouses. Makes sense."
"I don't want to be known as your "wife", Fenrir. It's bad enough being known as your mate most days." I told him. He came closer and tucked a stray hair behind my ear. He looked down at me.
"I could get used to it if you ask me. Be happy I didn't lose my temper when I seen the Lupin mutt here with you. I take it you know I'm mad about that." Greyback said as he looked down at me. He stood about a solid foot taller than me. I looked down at the ground. I didn't want to answer to him.
"Look at me. Now." He ordered. I did as he ordered. "Explain."
"I invited Tonks over and she asked if she could bring her husband with her. I told her it was okay. Greyback, they've been my closest friends for years! You're just being over possessive over me and it's not fair to isolate me!" I told him.
"You are my property. You belong to me and me alone. I have every right to be as possessive of you as I want. Ultimately, I have the power to decide what I do with you and to you whether you like it or not. If I tell you to do something, I expect you to listen. Don't think for a minute that I will not revoke the privileges I give you, love. If you think I'm quite the bastard for doing this to you, believe me when I say there are other male werewolves and human men out there that are worse than me when it comes to their mates or women. I allow you a lot of freedom considering. I could make you be my little stay at home mate and force you to be my slave if you wish. Instead, I allow you to have a career and to have quite a lot of freedom. Be thankful that even though I'm known as the "Wizarding World's Most Savage Werewolf", that I treat you better than most other male werewolves or men treat their women." Greyback boomed over me. I averted my gaze from him now.
"I'm not a piece of property, Fenrir. I'm a person, not an object." I replied. His hand grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him.
"You are my property whether you like it or not. All I ask is that if you have anyone over, is to ask for permission first. Now, is that too much to ask of you, baby girl?" asked Greyback.
"No." I replied. He leaned down and pulled me in for a kiss.
"Good. Now, meet me in bed." Greyback told me.
"Please not tonight, Greyback." I told him.
"Why not, baby girl? It can be better for you when you don't fight and struggle while I fuck you." He spoke. I winced when he said that. "I'm not above pleasuring you before myself if you would let me for once."
"Can I have one night to not be forced? Just one night. I'm not asking for anything more, Fenrir." I asked him softly. He contemplated it for a minute before he said anything.
"Fine, baby girl. One night. Unless you change your mind." Greyback leered at me. I headed to the bedroom to get ready to sleep. I had just finished in the bathroom when I found Greyback already in bed. I took my time going to bed. I crawled in on my side and laid facing away from him. Greyback pulled me into him and nuzzled my neck. He laid gentle kisses down it and my jawline. Without thinking of what I was doing, I leaned my head to the side more and a soft moan came from me. It felt good. His hands began to rub my shoulders and back. I rolled onto my stomach. I was a sucker for a good back rub. I felt Greyback lean down to my ear.
"It mustn't be too bad if you're allowing me to touch you like this, love." He whispered.
"If you did more things like this, I'd be more apt to let you touch me willingly. I don't mind this, Fenrir." I replied. I felt him smile against my ear. He continued to rub my shoulders and back. I was asleep in a matter of minutes.