Thank you to everyone who read or reviewed the last conversation. You are absolutely fabulous.
Day 65: Sorry for Procrastinating
From: Mommy_Susan
To: SuluHG2260
Time arrived: 4/26/2260 00:00:01
Subject: So I haven't talked to my sister yet about being Desi's guardian exactly
Actually maybe you could hold off on talking to Liz or Kevin about taking care of Desi long term for a little while. I wanted to wait until you gave me a hard yes before I directly approach both of them about the possibility. Although considering how long it took me to get your message, I bet you already sent them a letter. I haven't been informed yet about anything arriving, so maybe I will be able to broach the subject with my sister before she reads it in your letter. Something tells me no.
I'm glad that you're at least investigating the possibility and I promise that I will verify everybody carefully. I've heard secondhand Frank stories and trust me, I'm terrified of anything like that happening to Damora. Kevin doesn't know everything that happened with the asshole, but he knows enough and well I am so never ever getting married. The only step daddy our baby is getting is Ben. Not all of us can find the love of our life at a support group. Sometimes we end up with Franks and Franks are assholes who are so bad they get murdered in prison.
Did I ever tell you that I was Cynthia Williams' CO, Ashley 2's mom, when she almost killed her boyfriend for raping her daughter? Actually that's part of the reason why she wasn't kicked out of Starfleet. I had mom pull some strings because apparently our code of conduct doesn't cover angry mom reactions to bad life choices. But I would've done it too, if someone hurt my baby like that.
Although I haven't broached it with my sister yet, I did talk to my mom about custody options. She is actually on board with the Kevin and Liz arrangement. She might even pull some strings so they're in the same apartment building as her. That way she can keep an eye on them. She's the head of Starfleet, if she wants her cadet daughter and her boyfriend in her building she will get what she wants. Her predecessors spent money on much, much worse. The Admiral could totally pull this off.
They could try to live in the same apartment, but that would just be bad for everyone involved and I think mom likes to pretend that Kevin and Liz are not having sex yet. She misses the old days when they were just dancing around each other and completely ignoring the fact that they've been in love with each other since Kevin shared his rations with her. Considering what they were going thru at the time, that was true love.
So this is another reminder to write your cuddle bug. Although she loves the daddy bear reading stories to her in your voice, I think she wants another letter. Of course, maybe you have written to her and due to the email system being the way it is, the letter will probably show up in another week. So, if that's the case, sorry for this berating.
Other updates: It's been three weeks with the new playgroup and I am still not drinking to survive the other parents. Actually I like these people, which is why there has been a little drinking outside of playgroup. Ben and I have been invited to multiple no kids' happy hours at Purple Haze and Weston club and we said yes. I love the tops at Purple Haze and the margaritas are awesome, so you know I'm going to say yes. Especially because we have babysitters. Babysitters are awesome.
Kevin and Liz watched both kids and nothing bad happened. OK, baby K is walking and getting into everything, but that is to be expected and they handled it. See, even your boyfriend will let his kids stay with my sister and her boyfriend while we go clubbing. OK, not clubbing because I'm too old for that. Now it's drinks and appetizers without the kids because single parenthood is too exhausting for clubbing and I still must tuck Desi in at night.
I'd never thought one small child would be more difficult than being a first officer, but I was wrong. At the same time, I'm just dreading going back to the Hamilton. I'm sure the missing her is going to get worse as the mission goes on. Right now I'm just trying to write my finals, mentally preparing myself for being mom's arm candy at the Remembrance Day celebration, and packing. Maybe if I keep focusing on work, I will forget about how lonely it's going to be when I go back to being in space full time.
Anyway, please write back whenever this arrives.
From: SuluHG2260
To: Mommy_Susan
Time sent: 4/26/2260 00:05:32
Subject: Okay. We are really starting to get far out here.
Even though Jim has only raised a Kevin, I think he would agree with you, but hey at least Kevin turned out okay. Personally I'm not so sure. Although I am just a second officer, my boss and his husband are driving me a little crazy and they haven't even done any really stupid stuff yet.
Although, we're in transit to our surveying mission and I just have a feeling that's going to not be some simple planet surveying. Unfortunately, I'm not going to get to go down and play because we now have a fungus expert on ship to do the plant stuff and Pavel won the coin toss for the other spot. If things go well during the initial inspection, I might get to go with team three. I feel like we won't get that far.
I don't know why, but I just have this feeling that this could go badly like volcano exploding badly. Possibly, Jim violating the Prime Directive again, badly. There's so much potential for it to go badly that personally I think I prefer our small child. But maybe that's because Jim is childlike, sometimes.
Yes, it's definitely taking a while for these messages to get to you. I sent a letter to Desi the next day, so I hope it has already arrived or at least arrives soon. I also sent a letter to your sister and future brother-in-law that day so, sorry. Although, since you didn't get Desi's letter, maybe that means that you still have time to talk to her before the letters show up. I haven't heard back yet, but I did send your letter first.
After thinking about it for a couple of weeks, I am more open to the idea of Liz and Kevin taking care of the baby especially if your mom is going to be in the same complex, and therefore nearby to keep an eye on things. And it's probably best that there is at least some distance. I don't think all of them together in a Starfleet apartment would go well. Like I think security would have to be called multiple times. That would not be good.
The rumor mill is already being the rumor mill so she might as well be doing what she's being accused of. There always going to be some who talk shit about people. I'm already hearing various rumors about my promotion. Although then again these are the same people that think Jim was captain last time because he sucked Pike's dick. Assholes. All of them can get fucked.
Thanks to that little bit of colorful language, I will write another letter for baby girl. You can't read this to her.
Also I want to talk about more grown-up things in this letter, like the Ashley situation. I mean, I knew something bad happened, but I knew she was mostly comfortable around me because I identify as gay. I didn't realize it was that awful. Now I'm perfectly okay with her attacking all the practice dummies in the genital area. I really hope the fencing gear is already at Star base 36 waiting for us. It will be a couple more weeks before we can actually pick it up because we're going to be here at least two weeks investigating the planet, once we actually get there, if nothing goes wrong. You know something will go wrong because it's Starfleet.
I definitely want to know more about your adventures with the other parents. Glad you're doing happy hour. Also a little sad that you get to go on more dates with my boyfriend then I do. At the same time I'm glad he's going out. We're getting closer to the anniversary of Zack's death and I don't want him to get lost in that this year. I really wish I could be there with him so he doesn't go into the dark place. I want him to know that he is loved and cared for. I am just worried and scared.
I'm well aware I'm the second love of his life. I also know deep down that if things did not go so badly in this timeline, we probably would've never even met. He would've been living the rest of his life with Zach. But then I fucked up and here we are. So, I met this great guy who I love, and I feel guilty about because if I would've did my fucking job correctly, he wouldn't have even been available. Guilt is a weird thing.
Anyway, hugs and kisses to all my girls. Show my boy an enjoyable time and if you get him to do body shots, I expect pictures.
From: SuluHG2260
To: Mommy_Susan
Time sent: 4/26/2260 6:08:01
Subject: Daddy Loves You
Hey baby girl, how's everything in San Francisco. I wrote you a couple weeks ago, but apparently your mommy hasn't got the email yet because email is evil when you're this far out. Sorry baby.
I keep hearing that your new playgroup is good for mommy? Is it good for you? Have you made new friends or are you and baby K just the best BFFs ever. I'm assuming the latter.
So what's this I hear about Liz and Kevin babysitting you? So mommy has a life again. Apparently tapis were involved. Since I've mostly been eating replicator food for the last couple of months, I'm a little jealous. If you think most peas taste awful, replicated peas are so much worse. It's just not right.
I really hope your mom included some chocolate with the fencing gear. I've already gone through my stash and I'm not sure if I will be able to purchase any more when we get to the Star base. Hopefully the gear will be waiting there as well. We should be going in a couple weeks because we had to drop off a prisoner because he did something you're too young to know about. When you're old enough to date, promise me you won't date idiots. Promise your daddy that.
Jim mentioned something about Liz and Kevin taking you to an amusement park to keep you nice and innocent. Is that true? Something about Princess land or Knottsberry Disney. Somebody better send me pictures. I think Ben would be adorable surrounded by Disney princesses. Milan is the best. Remember that.
Anyway love you butterfly kisses. I hope this one shows up this time.
To be continued