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Day 95: Catching up
From: Kevin KR
To: kitten_loverJJMU
Time arrived: 5/26/2260 00:00:01
Subject: Sorry, it's been so long
Hey Jo Jo.
Sorry I haven't written for a while. I'm sure you know by now that I have joint custody of baby Sulu. She's still adorable, but mobile. She's an expert crawler and really starting to walk. Baby proofing the new apartment was necessary. In addition, finals prep and moving into my new apartment with Liz. I hate moving. Moving with an 11-month-old is the worst. I don't know how she has so many toys. We packed like four boxes of just toys. It is probably because she spoiled, but adorable.
The new apartment is nice, two bedrooms with all the amenities. Although Liz's mom lives next door. She pops over a lot. Your new grandma also lives in the building. We ran into her in the elevator a lot. And we may have had to correct her on the fact that Nyota is your adopted mom, not your stepmom. The stepmom thing would be highly inaccurate anyway since they are not legally married yet. When are they going to make it legal? It's like they're married, except no marriage license or contract.
Final exams are final exams awful and soul crushing and I'm not even taking them for another week. All it been doing is studying and writing my term paper for my Starfleet history class which is mentally draining on its own. I probably should have explained to my professor why I shouldn't write a paper on analyzing what went wrong during the Tarsus catastrophe, but my therapist says it's better to confront the past, then run away from it. It was totally random anyway. It's not like she would've known. The only people who now are people that I've told like you.
The cuddle breaks with Desi have been helping but I'm still counting down the days until it's all over with. Of course the last 24 hours are going to be the worst because I'm going to have to take all my exams within the first two days because of coming to see you and Jim. We're taking Starfleet transport. So we have to leave when they tell us, and that means condensed finals. Although I wouldn't be surprised if I slept the entire ride to Yorktown. I feel like I'm living on two hours of sleep a night. I'm so glad Desi is almost a toddler and sleeps through the night.
Despite that, I am looking forward to Yorktown. It's supposed to be the future diplomatic hub the Federation. Almost every member state of the Federation and a few ally planets will also have embassies and a few will be opening while were up there. I'm excited.
I'm also happy that we will be able to hang out in person. I miss our movie nights. Don't worry, I'm bringing the good junk food. We have to do one while wearing Yorktown. I need a break from my brother and mom anyway. Those two can be intense. Also slightly annoyed with big Brothers weird reckless behavior. Although maybe that's because were getting closer to the anniversary of when he died. Seriously. Now these messages are taking like days to get here and I got those suckers the next day. I have a lot of baggage. You're aware.
It's obvious I'm afraid of losing him. Did anybody tell you how I acted when my brother was getting married. I was kind of like Desi with for toys. You watch your entire family be killed in front of you and you end up with issues. It's to be expected. You think that you've dealt with that fear and then you realize that you haven't. There's this old rock/hip-hop song that Jim used to play that said grief was something that you deal with over and over again. I think that was the title. But it's true. Over time it will happen less often but it will still keep happening. I'm pretty resigned to the fact I'm probably never going to get out of therapy.
So how is life on the USS Enterprise, right now? Do you have to do finals? Sue's friend Gina is going to be your new teacher next semester. She's cool. She brings Desi the best toys. Sorry that there's no breaks, but hey you'll be out of high school sooner. That's always a good thing.
Anyway, write back when you have a chance.
From: kitten_loverJJMU
To: Kevin KR
Time sent: 5/26/2260 12:23:01
Subject: Re: Sorry, it's been so long
Don't apologize. I understand. You're still writing me more than any of my old friends. We been here for more than three months and still not one letter.
Yes, I have finals. I would think that junior high finals are not as bad as Starfleet finals, but I wonder about that. It's definitely harder than what I had in Georgia. I think because our teacher is leaving she's being extra hard on us. It's like she's punishing us for making her quit, which is not fair to me because I was actually good to her.
I have to do three papers, one for English, one for history, and one for xeno-cultural studies. Uncle, Spock is helping me but I think talking about old Vulcan is probably just as hard as you writing about Tarsus. I'm trying to do as much of the research on my own as I can, but there's a lot of stuff he knows that's not in the books.
I know that song. Uncle Jim gave me the whole album, the parts of the album that have survived to this day, anyway. Uncle Jim always complains about how much music was lost before first contact. His therapist gave it to him after Sam died. He said it helped him, so maybe it would help me. It did a little.
I'm still working through things. Mother's Day went okay. Even though I sent mommy Nyota's mom present without actually telling her first. Uncle Scotty helped. She wasn't happy when she found out, but I want my mom to have a good relationship with her mom. At least she still around to fix things. Although after I explained that to mommy Nyota that she just hugged me and cried a lot.
I tried not to think about my biological mom, but it didn't work. I don't know how I'm going to deal with the anniversary. We are supposed to be back exploring by that point. I saw what the Ashley's went through a couple of weeks ago and I'm worried. I'm always going to be dealing with it, right?
I'm looking forward to seeing you guys too. I'm starting to make friends with Ashley 2 and J, but it's not the same. Also, sometimes I think there with me for the contraband snackfood. I should probably send a thank you email to my aunt for the vast quantity of orioles. The real things are always better than the replicated version. Jeremy is still an asshole. Everybody is hoping that his mom gets transferred but Uncles Jim and Spock can't do that without a good reason, and they have yet to find one.
I don't think mom Nyota and dad will ever going to get married. Mom Nyota says that they're both committed to me and that's more important than a marriage license. Although I would be okay with the wedding. I want to be a flower girl. I'm still mad other mom wouldn't let me go to your brother's wedding. I'm still mad at her for a lot of things. She's dead. Why am I still mad? I should focus my anger on the aunt that didn't do anything but I'm not sure if that's any better. I probably should go talk to Margarita. Or work in my therapy Journal. I'm on book number two now.
Anyway, I need to stop this letter so I can actually eat lunch before I have to be back in class. We are doing a final review for the other courses that I have to take tests for. I just try to remind myself that I'm going to be done early. That's the only thing that helps me get through some days.
To be continued