Prologue 2000 1014 years ago

What would happen if I walled in my self-pity for too long that's what the story is about and I only give one person. One chance one shot and a romance with me because of the way I feel and the way I do things. What would happen if I never gave my current boyfriend another chance I would decide to date other people in the world of Valencia instead what would our lives be like? That's what the stories are about I hope you enjoy it.

2000 1014 years ago

reflection reflecting

like I said up there at the beginning, I only give one person a chance once in a romance I'm normally not the type to give second chances because of what happened with me and my first boyfriend I'd rather self-pity at this time than anything else, but I did date afterward, but this is what happened before that my first boyfriend broke up with me over the phone and just hung up in my face. It didn't go so well did it he just said let's be friends and clicked right in my face when I was about to say something exciting, everything I wanted to say was words were stolen right out of my mouth it was like a slap in the face something I wasn't expecting at all. I was hoping I'd stay with him. Trust is broken. He broke it by dumping me. I would've been fine if it was years ago when we were in school or on his graduation year, which was the year before that would've been nice, but he dumped me this year after his graduation, which was more of an embarrassment than anything else.

what do you say when the most popular boy in school and campus dumps you over the phone like that? What do you say when he slaps you in the face or to speak you cry and I did I cried a little my grandfather dying was what hurt me the most being dumb didn't hurt badly, but it hurt less so it changed my perspective about dating trust is the most important thing to me and it was broken stolen right from me and I decided then in there if I can't have trust in a relationship I can't think much of it and I'll just react to my crushes and romantic fantasies on things and have to pretend boyfriends at least then I wouldn't hurt and if I do, it's not badly hurt and my trust can't be broken anymore.

but then I tried to fall in love again in April one month before prom maybe I'll have them as a date for prom. I wanted a date for prom because I needed one. It would be embarrassing not to go with someone.

more than that, this man was this guy was my best friend so I decided to try and date him and try to date again by dating him and it worked for a while, but I was still broken and my heart was broken still and I was in self-pity and I was blind not physically, but emotionally and he dumped me for another girl his ex there. My trust was broken once again.

I stayed friends with him obviously because he wasn't evil or anything like my last one and I forgave him somewhat and we stayed best friends at least.

but I knew I needed a date. Also, I wanted to date just for fun not for fun but to try to find my partner someone who wouldn't break my trust so I tried another guy in school. We dated up until prom. He promised to be my boyfriend and maybe even engagement try to at least, then my trust was broken again after prom. He went back to his girlfriend before me. What's up with these people breaking up with me I thought this was ridiculous.

Who would love me now a broken girl myself when summer came I went to camp and then to someone else for about a good year and a half but it wasn't going well for me.

I'm ending here you'll find out what happens next in the next chapter. See you then.

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