A/N: Back with another update, been busy with work so hard to get time around to write. :(
RyantheSamurai;
"Hmm, not really sure of that division, but I just went with 'the deeper, the worse it gets.' :P
DieKleineHexeCapraiaOfTheReich;
"This type of story is kinda different for me to write about, but I'm doing deeper topics cause I feel the show really hasn't addressed this sort of thing at all. Sure, it's barely starting, but I'm amazed that they don't question themselves more often other than just the conflicts between coworkers, romantic stuff and mass killing here or there. Blitzo went a bit more in depth, which is a nice nod towards something more meaningful on the long run, yet I don't think they will give Loona much to look back for some time. The new season/last episode trailer left me unconvinced regarding her character. It does look she may be more open to lend a hand, although I doubt if it's just because of Blitzo. Actually the change seems too sudden, which makes it looks she just wanted an excuse to stay around because of another Hellhound /"
BoneHusk13;
"Eh, I honestly wasn't sure if I would keep them around or not. I really couldn't think of much to their characters that would be of use."
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"Thizzz... *hic*...vewy stroooonnnng... *hic*... hehe, everythiiiiing loooks fuuunyyyy."
"Fuck sake, dude! You just had two glasses! How can you be this drunk?!"
"Ehhhhh? Ohhhhh, hey Looooona *hic*, you look... veeeeery fluffy."
"Oh, wow. He's totally out of it. Didn't expect him to be so sensitive to alcohol."
"Yeah, me neither. Fuck, is there a way to fix him up?"
"Well, take him away from here. Plenty of water and rest. Get him to a bathtub, warm water and keep an eye on him, with his size I would just make sure he stays warm."
"Where is that?"
"Van has lots of rooms upstairs, any guest that feels like spending the night can just make use of them, make sure to lock the door when you're in."
"Thanks. Come on, Collin, you had enough for today."
Loona couldn't help the guilt on her voice as she tried her best to guide a very drunk sheep away from the place. She quickly exchanged her number with Ferala before taking Collin upstairs, promising she would give her a call tomorrow. The couple was understanding of the situation, wishing them both well as they left. Although it was clear that Rasher's fate wouldn't be a good one once they leave the club, if Ferala's face, once mentioning their companion right after Loona left, was anything to go by.
"Weeeee lea- *hic* l-leaving?" The sheep asked groggily. Loona shook her head, but decided to speak in case Collin wasn't looking at her at that time, which was very likely considering how often he was stumbling while going up the stairs. She kept near him in case he tripped and ended up falling down.
"No, just got a place we can crash for the night, and in your case that's almost literal." She added with a chuckle. "Goddamn you're the worst lightweight ever. Not even Moxxie had it this bad back in a party he went a few months ago. Not that Spring Break counted, from what Millie told me he just had too much for even someone my size."
"Yeahhhhh, I feeeelll fiiiiiine. Just *hic* needs to stop spinninnnnnnnnnng!" He replied with a hearty laugh at the end. Loona eyed him curiously, she never heard the sheep laugh before. It impressed her how joyful he sounded despite his current drunk state, perhaps the alcohol finally helped him lighten up a bit. "You're super nice, I like you."
Loona came to a stop, looking down at the sheep with an astonished look on her face. She couldn't help the awkwardness before replying.
"Dude, heh, that's just you being lightheaded, you will came to senses after this is ove-"
"NO!"
The Hellhound's head jerked back at the sudden fierce shout. Collin went from dazed to angry in the spam of a second. It was almost as if the drunkness just evaporated from him for a moment.
"I meant it! I *hic* really do! You are nice!" He said, looking half angry and confused at the same time. "Why you always avoiding the way I care?! I *hic* try my best to make things for you, but you always get angry at me!" He looked somewhat desperate, his eyes struggling to focus on her for more than few seconds, a searing pain flashing across his mind as he struggled to get his emotions in check. "I'm scared! I don't know anything about this place! I *hic* didn't want to be here, but I only have you! I need you! I want you!"
Loona blinked, muted and hopeless to think on how to react to his outburst. His eyes were getting watery, she had no clue on what to do in this type of situation, she never dealt with people crying on her before.
"I don't... know what to believe anymore. Everything I knew... it doesn't matter. I... I'm scared! Of being alone, but... I'm also scared... of you."
For the first time, in a very long time, Loona felt a pang of guilt and shame of such intensity she couldn't even fathom. She always took pleasure on being scaring and intimidating, it helped her keep her pride as a Hellhound and feel respected. Yet, hearing the sheep admit that he is afraid of her, while also admitting wanting to be with her, that hurt a lot more than she expected. She now knows that, considering his drunkenness, such is the truth about how he feels, and she briefly wondered if he would've ever said this if not inebriated.
"Collin," Loona paused, unsure of what to say, the sheep's wandering gaze on her. He looked so lost, exhausted even, despite the haziness on his expression.
"I... only have you. Yet... I feel I don't need anything else." He chuckled nervously, his legs trembling as he struggled to keep a proper balance. "I'm so pathetic, ain't I?"
"N-No! I... look, it's not your fault. I just have... problems, okay? I'm not mad at you for trying." Loona felt cornered, unsure of how to properly explain herself in a way to ease the tense situation. "I don't want you to be... scared of me, I really don't. Please."
Collin hiccupped again, looking unsure as he kept on a light sway, his knees trembling even more than before.
"I... I don-"
Before anything could be said, the sheep fell to his side, catching himself from falling on his face with both arms, which was quickly followed by him smearing the steps with his puke. His entire body was shaking at this point, he looked completely done for. Loona's grimace was enough for him to understand the mess he made of himself.
"I... will never... drink again."
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"How do you feel?"
"...better, not quite well, but something to eat would do nicely."
"Just water for now. I will see something for us in the morning. Say, are you sure you don't want some company? The water looks nice."
Collin frowned. While he wished to enjoy the comforts of having a warm bathtub all by himself, he felt there was something on the way Loona made that offer that implied she wished to talk with him further. It has been very considerate of her, after the disaster downstairs, to help him find his way to the room, prepare the tub and help him undress. He wasn't sure how to feel after being naked in front of her, but she never said a word on it. So far things had been quiet, but there was a lot to be said still.
"Huh, if you really want to join, I won't make any objections." The sheep replied calmly, his head resting on the edge of the tub, he stared at the roof with a contemplative expression. "Just what ex-"
Before he could finish Loona was already making her way into the tub, he felt the waves of water hit his neck, his eyes widening for a second as he felt two powerful and elongated legs at his sides. The sheep slowly raised his head, finding the Hellhound resting at the other edge of the tub, looking somewhat dreamy and she seemed to enjoy the water caressing her body. Collin was surprised to see she could fit in the tub, but not so surprised that her feet were hanging out near his head.
"Fuck, it's been a really long time since I got in one of these. I almost forgot what they feel like." She said with a satisfied sigh. "Having to stand while taking a tiny line of water is annoying when you have too much fur to get through."
"I would imagine. This makes it faster for you to wash?" He inquired, sounding somewhat tense, a change that Loona didn't miss.
"Yeah, and would you relax? Just because I'm here you shouldn't be so on edge. Just enjoy and have fun. Besides..." Loona looked at the sheep with a mischievous glint. "How about we be helpful to each other? I help you wash and you do the same for me. This way we can do this kind of thing more often. I wouldn't do it alone since I know it can takes hours to wash and dry."
"Eh, I guess so?" Collin replied, internally wondering how often Loona takes baths. "We didn't bring a dryer though."
"Oh, no worries. Every room here has two at least. Thank fuck Van knows how to run a Hound's party." Loona was looking far more cheerful, which gave Collin more confidence to keep the conversation afloat.
"Say, area you gonna tell Blitzo... about us?" The sheep asked, looking at the Hound more attentively. Although his attention quickly shifted to one of the footpaws that came far too close to his face.
"Eh, maybe. Not in the mood, he will find out anyway. Not that I care. Now... start washing." She said with a teasing smile as she bopped him on the nose with her foot. "There's some nice shampoos there at the shelve. Feel free to use any."
Collin sighed, slowly moving as to grant her request, aware that this bath would be a long one.
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"Well, that was fun."
"If your definition of 'fun' is rubbing your legs on me, I suppose it was."
"You sure liked it."
"I never said that!"
"But you looked like you wer-"
"Stoooooop."
Loona laughed heartily, watching as the embarrassed sheep carefully brushed her fluffy tail meticulously. She couldn't remind the last time she felt so light and joyful for no real reason. She found Collin's shyness regarding their physical interaction rather cute, aswell the way he was so desperate to help her wash her more private parts while doing all he could to not look at them. He's respectful to the point of being exasperating, but she was starting to appreciate the way he treated her so highly. It made Loona feel valued and important somehow. Yet, she was disappointed he didn't look at her body once.
Of course she couldn't say the same when it was her turn to wash the sheep. She was just too curious about his body to not look at everything. It was rather trying to reassure Collin that she wouldn't be judgmental about whatever his body looked like. Yet, she was stunned to find out that his 'symbolic male tool' was far more imposing than she was expecting, to the point that she could compare with one of her previous one-night companies. She was surprised and very satisfied with the finding, feeling excited with the idea of their first time in bed. She couldn't help but tell Collin about his impressive load, to which the sheep flushed all shades of purple, red and gray.
"Speaking of it, I would prefer if you ask for my approval to inspect my body. I'm not upset, is just... awkward. I made my best to not invade your privacy." Loona stared in disbelief.
"Seriously? I was naked in a bathtub right in front of you! I was more than willing to let you see me like that! Endearing as it was for you to act so shy, I was still a bit bummed you wouldn't look at me. How can I feel better about myself if you keep staring away?"
Collin looked gobsmacked, blinking in confusion as he looked up at the female, surprise etched across his face.
"Wh- you wanted me to see you naked?! But wh-... ahn. Right. We are a thing." Loona snorted, shaking her head lightly.
"Yeah, and sex is a thing too, or you will do that with your eyes closed? Come on, I know you're shy about that, but it really won't be a big deal, you just need to get used to it. I won't be mad at you, I really won't."
"Easy for you to say. It is a big deal for a number of reasons. Yet... yeah. I understand the need, sort of." The sheep replied, looking slightly uncomfortable. "I noticed that Humans tend to have more harmonic patterns of behavior after co-"
"Collin," She cut him off with a tired glance. The sheep shrugged, a shy smile on his face as he easily caught onto her request. "Yeah, no pressure. The biggest reason I did that whole bath thing was to see if... hum... you wouldn't mind my body, since... we are different."
"I don't think I would." He started to only quickly receive a deadpanned stare in return. "What?"
"Thinking and seeing are a whole lot different." She pointed out, looking down at him with a narrow glance. "I'm worried about what you will think of it, cause... I value your opinion, okay?"
Collin paused, deeply surprised by her words. It seemed surreal that her demeanor changed so much because of him, but also it was clear it happened just for him. He wasn't sure if Loona's attitude towards others would ever change unless he talked her out of it. She came to a point of trusting him about her own body, which was a huge step to make in terms of how much they could rely on each other. The sheep knew this was getting very serious, and there's no point delaying it any further. Yet, there was still one important thing on the back of his mind about this relationship that bugged him.
"Loona, mind if I ask you how you feel about Blitzo?" Loona's shock to this question wasn't surprising, but Collin was thankful she didn't get irritated right away.
"Urgh, you have no sense of mood. Again asking about it? I don't know what else to say, I think I made it clear the first time you asked around." She replied, looking down at him with suspicion. "This better not be some crap about life values or whatever."
"No, it really isn't." Collin quickly replied. He slowly came in front of the Hellhound, clasping his hands anxiously. "I... what I'm trying to understand is... well, what does Blitzo do to make you despise him? I get you didn't really like being adopted. Yet, considering that your experiences at the orphanage weren't really good at all, has life with Blitzo been worse?"
Loona blinked, looking at the sheep without knowing exactly how to respond. She was not sure she could say life got worse, but the problems she has about Blitzo are of a different kind, although she wasn't sure Collin would understand it. Sure, the sheep gained her trust, but she was still wary of discussing certain things that make her feel ashamed.
"Okay, how do I tell you this without sounding weird." She spoke aloud to herself. Her attention wandering elsewhere. "Blitzo... he doesn't really treat me like... a person."
Collin tilted his head, his confusion clearly evident.
"Hum, can you be more detailed?" Loona sighed heavily.
"He... you know about pets, right?" Collin nodded curtly. "Right, so the thing with Blitzo is... while he may think of me like a, heh, daughter, he actually treats me like I'm a fucking pet of his. I just HATE that shit!"
"How so?" Collin was actually surprised by this, but probably the fact he barely saw interactions between Loona and Blitzo was the reason he was unaware of that behavior.
"I'm not a fucking dog!" Loona suddenly shouted, Collin's eardrums ringed at the sudden pressure inflicted on them, considering how close he was from the Hellhound. "I don't give a fuck what I look! I clearly don't behave like a mindless shee-""
Loona stopped, wincing slightly as she quickly looked down at Collin with a look of regret.
"S-Sorry, that's not wh-"
"No worries, Loona. I know that's not what you meant." Collin quickly replied, looking up at her with a reassuring smile. Loona felt her cheeks flush, struggling to regain her train of thought.
"Erm, right. I... as I was saying, he really acts like I'm some adorable cuddly dog. I'm not a pet. He brought me from a adoption house, not a fucking kennel! But he ain't the only one." She added, regaining her previous anger slightly. "Millie and Moxxie also have that type of view about Hellhounds, and it seems that's a normal thing about Demons and Imps, we are just lesser to them."
Collin nodded quietly, running that information through his mind, intrigued that such barrier existed. He always imagined that Hell, despite all its chaotic nature, would see other hellish creatures alike, no matter their looks or origin. Hierarchy was a thing he expected to exist, but an actual species division? That was something else. Surely Hellhounds wouldn't rank so low in Hell's power pyramid.
So that's why Loona has such mistrust and despise towards the Imps, and with Moxxie things were amplified due his relationship with Millie. Loona didn't like to be treated like a lesser being, and who would anyway? Collin felt like this was actually something that could be fixed, but it required both parties to be present. He wasn't sure that Blitzo would be the type of reasonable Imp to even bother listening, but Millie and Moxxie seemed sensible enough to understand Loona's resentment towards their attitude.
"The only way you can ever overcome such issues is by talking them out with the ones that are causing them. You cannot expect that will ever change if you just walk into your job or home everyday and hope for a different outcome, without actually doing anything about it. No, it wouldn't be a violent act or yelling at them in frustration that would fix things." Collin quickly added once Loona looked about to complain, she shut her muzzle with a frown. "Try something different. I know you don't actually like to talk about this sort of thing, but if you don't let them know, that it hurts you the way they treat you, then you're only letting them think they are not really doing anything wrong."
"Fuck me, that would make me look pathetic." Loona said, feeling irked about that idea. Collin sighed heavily, looking up with a forlorn expression.
"That... is what I thought when it came about Keenie and Cletus. I didn't want to tell them the way they treated me was hurtful. I was worried about what they would think of me if I whined about it. I let it slide for five years... it never got better, if not worse actually."
"Well, they were actual pieces of shit." Loona tried to justify. Collin snorted.
"And Blitzo, Millie and Moxxie are actual saints?" He joked, to which Loona couldn't help but share his amusement at the ridiculous notion. "Yeah, it will suck to talk about it, but it's better than keeping it to yourself. If... they truly care about how you feel... they will change."
Loona nodded silently, not seeing any other options but to agree with the sheep's suggestion. Maybe there was a reason to try something else, is not like losing her pride would matter much at that point, Blitzo was already doing a great job on making her feel humiliated with the way he treated her. There were times that Loona actually hoped he would treat her like an actual daughter, like a person. Yet, things like; 'I will take you for a walk', or 'how about a tasty snack?', or even 'catch it Loona!'. Those small reminders became huge disappointments rather easily. She didn't hate Blitzo for adopting her, but mostly for adopting her for the sake of her being an emotional support to him.
Collin so far was doing a much better job advising her than Blitzo. His support, both physical and emotional, gave her a bit of peace of mind, which was something she sought so desperately for her entire life.
'Vortex is right, Collin is someone that I won't find again, this is my only chance at going somewhere that will mean something. I won't waste it.'
"I will talk with them... tomorrow." She concluded before a smirk reached her muzzle. "Now, how about we let that aside and enjoy ourselves? I would like to think that the bath was just a warm up."
Collin paled a bit, clearly not expecting for the conversation to swing towards that direction so unexpectedly. He seemed hesitant, but knew it would hurt Loona if he straight out evaded the situation again. He nodded hesitantly.
"Err, sure. Do you... want to have a go first? I'm... sort of new to this after all." He offered with a nervous smile, clearly anxious about the ordeal. She nodded in agreement, clasping his arm gently while guiding him towards the sizable bed.
"Yeah, this will be a light session, lots to learn first time around. No worries." She reassured him with a more soothing voice, to which Collin couldn't help but think how nice she sounded at that moment. He slowly went up the bed, fully aware of how both of them still were completely undressed. Drying out was a pain after a bath, neither bothered putting clothes on. He struggled during the entire conversation to not look at her in any improper way, but gave up once Loona made it clear she wanted him to.
Despite naked, her body has lots of fur, but the cleavage on her chest area wasn't very noticeable, although he knew better than to voice his thoughts about that, aware to not make her feel insecure about her body. There wasn't really much to look for aside her fur pattern, although it was clear to him what was hidden under that fur. Loona had a sleek, curvy outline, but it surprised him to see the outline of muscles on her legs and abdomen back when she was soaked, displaying her hidden strength.
He couldn't help but think she really did look attractive in a strange way, although her eyes kind of bothered him slightly. It was hard not to when they looked so... devilish. Collin often wondered if she could also modify her looks somehow, but he would rather wait a later occasion to make such questions.
His thoughts were quickly interrupted with specific words he never thought he would hear from anyone.
"Now... are you a top or bottom?"