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Entry Twenty-Six
January 26, 2001
I save about an hour or so before I go to bed to write my entries. I let the day pass by, and sometimes I think, oh my gosh I need to write about this, or I can't wait to write about this. Well today I woke up around eleven, yeah I wake up late because apparently the potions wants me dead to the world. I woke up and got ready. I was a bit sluggish but make my way down to the dining room. I ate alone until I heard my husband's voice. I continued to eat, and he sat down next to me. I didn't say anything to Theo, he sat down next to me and told me he was sorry. Sorry for arguing with me and since he has been apart from me, he had been thinking about everything. I continued to eat, while I felt him staring a hole in my face. I turned to him and asked him, what do you want me to say? I told him everything was already said and done, what more is there to discuss. I have already made up my mind about researching my theory and I am going to focus on that and follow through with it. Theo then said, he understood and that he supports my decision and what I am going to be doing. I am not going to lie, I missed him. Tears well up and I blink them back, because I don't want to cry again. Theo stood up and pulled me up into his arms and hugged me and I hugged him back.
I am such a sap, I can't stay mad at him. I easily give into him because I really love this man. I would move mountains for him. I am just a silly girl in love. I asked him what made him change his mind, he said he thought about everything I said and thought about the things he said, and came to realize he was scared something would go wrong, and the thought of having me suffer more made him anxious. Laying in bed last night alone in our room at our home, he said he missed me and did not want to push me away because he was scared and anxious. I told him I understood and said its just a theory I want to research, if it doesn't work, then it doesn't work. Theo then said that he wanted to clear the air before he left as well, he was summoned and has a mission he has to go on and he will be leaving with Draco. He doesn't know how long he is going to be gone. We went out into the garden and I sat with him, he pulled me onto his lap and we sat in silences for a bit and said he had to leave. I gave him a long kiss goodbye and hugged him tight.
I sat in Lucius study with my notebook and tome, and looked at the other tomes Lucuis had, and began reading another tome about blood magic. I was so engrossed in my read and writing down my notes, I didn't notice Lucius had came into his study. In his study, he has his big mahogany desk, but by the one of the windows there is a smaller desk, where you look out and see over the garden. I was sitting there as I was writing away. I heard a small cough, and I finally looked up and saw him standing next to me. Lucius asked what I was doing, and I told him about my theory and I was looking into foundations of blood magic and researching the runes. Lucius looked over my notes, flipping through the pages of notes I had already gathered and sat down at his desk with my notebook in hand. I continued to read the book in front of me, when he came back to the desk I was at. I asked him if it was okay for me to utilize his desk while I did my research. Lucius stated it was fine with him and he wasn't bothered with me being in his study with him. I also told him, I feel safe in here, because I knew I wasn't going to be interrupted and questioned about what I was reading and doing.
Lucius said my theory might work, but it needs to be thoroughly researched. I informed him I was going to take it seriously and see if it does work. Lucius then asked me if I had spoke to Granger about it. I told him I haven't talk to her about what I was doing. He just nodded and said he had an appointment and he had to leave. Dinner time had passed, and I made my way to the kitchen, to aske one of the house elves to send some food to my bedroom then made my way back to my room. I ate and spent the rest of the evening and night reading the new tome I had brought with me.
I am mentally exhausted. I miss my husband. I hope my research is fruitful. I am sure I will figure out something. I am going to take the rest of my potion and go to bed. I have long days ahead of me. I am very capable of doing all the research, at some point I am sure I must talk to Granger about this whole theory.
XO,
Mrs. Nott