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Entry Twenty-Nine

January 29, 2001

Today was a frustrating day, everyone and their mothers kept interrupting me. I don't mean to be a bitch about it, but I enjoy sitting in a quiet area to do my reading, but today wasn't the day. So I just put away everything, and went out to the sitting room where Narcissa was at. Then Blaise showed up and Pansy, so I had tea with them. Pansy was asking how I was doing, and I told her I was doing well. I don't have to take the potions any more so I am glad about that. I slept good last night, one my head hit the pillow I was out and didn't wake up until the morning. I don't know if that was the kind of update she wanted. She changed the subject by asking me what I was wearing. Of course it would be her to make it about fashion. I am a very simple dresser, I enjoy wearing my trousers and simple plain blouse. Sometimes it made from silk other times its cotton or some stretchy jersey material. I like my clothing breathable since I run hot. Today was just a black trouser and hunter grey cotton shirt. Small turquoise and opal cluster earrings, my wedding rings, and my heirloom ring. Nothing fancy and a pair of checker vans. Pansy had asked me why I wasn't wearing any of the outfits I got in Italy, I just told her they are for special occasions. Why am I going to dress up when I am not going anywhere.

I know Pansy means well, but we all don't like to dress up everyday. I am to lazy to do that. My hair is was just in a pony tail and I was bare face, no makeup. Pansy then suggested we go to Diagon Alley, but I decline her offer, I told her I am not allowed to go anywhere without Theo or Draco. Blaise lifted an eye brow at me but didn't say anything. Pansy huffed around and kept asking why. I reminded her what happen in Italy. I told her she can go, but I have to stay here. Narcissa finally spoke up and stated Lucius was going to be going to Diagon Alley and I could go with him. I smiled and said no, it's fine. I don't want to go out especially with Theo and Draco gone. Narcissa had taken Pansy to the garden, and left Blaise and I alone in the sitting room. I looked at him and told him to spit it out, since he looked like he's been wanting to say something, but held back because of Pansy. Blaise finally asked how I was doing, truthfully. I told him I was really doing better. He said even with Theo gone. I said yes. I've been busy to be wallowing in my depressive state. He nodded then said he came to check on me and see how I was doing because he had spoke to Theo. I perked up to the sound of my husband's name. He rolled his eyes at me, and I said what, I can't miss my husband.

I told Blaise about my research and that is what I had been busy. Blaise just sat there like a statue for a bit, then he said really you thought all that. I don't understand why everyone is surprise I have the ability to think and use my brain. Do I look like an idiot? I told him, yes I thought of it and told him about what happen with the barrier. I told him it derived from there. I told him about my blow out with Theo because of it and these days I've been in Lucius study and the library with Granger. Blaise whistled at that. He asked how that was going, I told him it was fine. We just been reading and comparing notes from our findings. I told him its been good I guess. I don't go talking about anything else with her. I said shes the brightest witch of our time and rolled my eyes. Blaise chuckled and sipped his tea. I sat there looking at my finger nails and said, I really want to get these chains off. I looked at him and asked him, Blaise do you think its selfish of me to do this all because I want to use my magic. Blaise put his tea cup down and rubbed his chin, and said no. Why is would it be selfish to want to use your magic, its yours to use. You have been different from the first time we met. Your magic is raw and pure. It radiates off of you and when you wail it, I can feel the humming of your magic. That is how I know its different, especially when you are using complicated spells and nonverbal. It just flows smoothly without any hesitation. Especially when you mix our spells and your wand, its powerful. You have to be an idiot to not know how powerful you are by feeling your magic in the air. I told him thank you.

Blaise and I spent time together discussing the runes I had been translating and how I intend to use it. He was impressed and said he would look in his library and see if there are any books that might use. I thanked him. Blaise then got up and said he was going to head out with Pansy. He also said he would send me some of my favorite sweets when they get to Diagon Alley. I smiled and thanked him.

I figured I'd take a break today from my research and do a light ready outside. I enjoy sitting outside and reading. Some where during my read, I had fallen asleep.

It was an eventful day.

XO,

Mrs. Nott