Chapter Eight

My gaze is fixated on the skyline as I stand in the luxary penthouse. Watching my belongings sitting in boxes around me, I feel out of place. Never would I have agreed on this if it wasn't for both of the men I love, pushing at me for it. Sure, Jason has mentioned moving me out of the studio or buying me a car. But I could never accept them. Accepting them meant we were more that just fuck buddies.

Guilt consumed me, and ate away at me. Had I really been so foolish to not realize I was leading Jason on? Honestly I didn't mean to at all. It was just so fun to be careless, not thinking of my own

consequences for it. Yet here I am, living with them. Torn between two men who would move mountains for me. Jason was supposed to be a fun time, but my heart gave out to him.

My stomach grumbles as the smell of pizza hits my nose. Turning Dick smiles to me as he sits down the box of pizza on the large marble island. "Hungry?" he asks. My smile tells him all he needs to know as he opens the box. Sighing I pad over to him. The box contains a pepperoni and yellow pepper pizza. My favorite.

"I haven't had pizza since I left Jump." I smile.

"Ten months and no pizza?" he stares in disbelief.

"Felt wrong." I pick up a slice, bitting into the triangles point. The taste is amazing and I am

taken back to the glory days. I moan lightly as I chew. Dick shakes his head with a smile. " So now what?" I chew.

"You continue life?" he questions.

"I guess I'm asking about today." I sigh," You got me moved into this probably million dollar pad, we're eating dimer. Then what? Am I being left here to think of everything I have done wrong?"

"Rae, I don't think you have done anything wrong. I'm not mad." he looks confused.

"Jason wont answer my calls or texts, so he is." I roll my eyes,

"He will get over it." he sighs, "and you wont be alone here."

"Oh, Dick, I don't think us living together is a good idea."

"No its not." he laughs,"I uh called someone to come stay for a few weeks until you're more steady."

"Steady?" I question.

"You're not the type to cry for hours in someone's arms." he looks away nervously, "I also got you set up with a therapist."

"what?" I roll my eyes.

"You've never dealt with the trauma from your birthday." he looks at me reaching for my hand," and "I haven't helped things Rae."

"Well what does Jason think of your idea?" I scoff.

"He didn't respond to my text."

"Fine, I guess it couldn't hurt." I sigh."So what is batgirl my roommate?" my eyes roll.

"No." he looks away. "He's on his way up now." he walks away from the island.

"Who is he?" I follow frustrated from all of the secrecy and decisions being made for me.

Dick opens the door and I feel my anger instantly melt. My heart feels full as I run into his arms. The metal is cold on my skin as he hugs me."I'm sorry," I squeeze him.

"You better be." he returns the hug. The cybernetic man's voice is soft and full of concern. Oh how I have truly missed him. Releasing from his arms I step back, "you look like hell." He brushes a piece of my hair back examining my eye.

"Thanks." I roll my eyes.

"We gotta get your powers working again, huh?" He smiles. I nod in response, "thanks for calling me." He looks to Dick.

"Alright, I have got to get back to work. I'll check in." Dick walks to the island grabbing his coat.

"Thank you." I smile as he goes to walk past me, he nods as he walks through the door.

"Pizza?" Cy breathes out, "I hope it's as good as home. I turn smiling as Dick closes the door.

"It's pretty good." I follow Cyborg to the counter.

"So hide and seek champ, where the fuck have you been?" He sighs out picking up a slice.

"Depends on what Dick told you." I sit at the barstool.

"He called me and said he found you, but you needed me. That's it." He leans against the counter across from me.

"Where do I even start." I take a swig from my glass of water.

"Why you left." He raises a brow.

"I left because of Dick. Well and Star." I slide the box over grabbing me a slice.

"Yeah, he told me he kissed you." He grabs another slice, "while he was with Star. Jerk move"

"Then while dealing with him wanting to break up with Star and me realizing I love him. I uh." I hesitate, "I found Star taking a pregnancy test."

"She wasn't." He looks stern, "and there's no way she could have hid that."

"I know now. And I guess it couldn't have been his. They never did anything." I look away.

"So you ran because you were afraid of watching him be stuck with her, while you loved him from the sidelines?" He presses.

"Yeah." I smile, "sounds stupid to say out loud."

"No it doesn't. Had she been pregnant, you would have been miserable watching it." He opens the fridge.

"Oh I know." I sigh.

Grabbing a bottle of water out of the fridge he closes it, "so he finally found you. But obviously you're pretty emotionally destroyed to be in this state." He takes a swig of water, "what's happen since you left?"

"Uh, well. Fell in love again." I look away.

"Why is that bad?" He smiles, "I mean obviously there is still things between you and Dick. I feel the tension between you two."

"I didn't mean to fall in love." I sigh, "I was just casually sleeping with him." Cy chokes on his water at the thought of me having sex. "Sorry." I blush.

"No no, you're an adult." He coughs out. "So what now that Dick is back you're torn?"

"Yeah. I guess so."

"You'll just have to let your heart pick which one you can't live without." He sits at a barstool.

"Cy." I sigh looking away, "I've been sleeping with Jason Todd." Before I can look back Cyborg is on the floor as he slipped from his chair.

"Woah Woah Woah!!" He yells

"I know, I'm horrible." I put my head in my hands.

"You're not only deciding on what guy, but what Robin." He slowly stands.

"Yeah." I squeeze my eyes shut.

"I mean Dick is adopted, but technically they're brothers." He adds.

"Jason was never adopted." I sigh.

"Still, not the point."

"I know. It just doesn't make me feel as bad. I've literally lead Jason on for months. And now Dick is back and I finally have to deal with suppressed emotions."

"And Jason is dangerous." Cyborg scoffs.

"He's quick to anger, wears his heart on his sleeve and acts impulsively. Yes he is dangerous." I smile lightly. "But I fell for him."

"Well it's up to you to decide which Robin you want, but we have to get you back." He smiles.

"I haven't felt like myself in a long time." I look away. "Not since my 17th birthday."

"I know." He sighs.

We sit in the penthouse talking for hours about the titans and the glory days. We discussed the next steps on getting me better and what I've been up to since I left. After my eyes feel heavy I retire to the large master bedroom by myself. The soft king size bed feels cold as I stare at all of the pillows. I've only ever had a full and that was plenty big enough for me. This bed was huge, compared to. Curling up I sink into the mattress and almost instantly fall asleep. It was the first night I've dreamed about the tower since leaving the titans.

Hey guys! Thanks for reading! I hope you're enjoying this is much as I am. I've hit a bit of writers block with this chapter so bare with me!