TAZ POV
In the meantime we were back in London and Mimi was doing really well again. She'd had a lot of success with her music recently which was earning her good money and I was writing a little piece. Today she had a gig and I watched her from the Bar. She was really talented. I couldn't help but smile. She really was my Mimi. "She's really good, isn't she?" I looked to my right and looked at the Man behind the bar. "Yes, yes she is." "Are you two together? I saw you two coming together." "Yes. She's my Girlfriend." "WOW you are so lucky." The man looked at me in admiration and carried on. Yes, I was and I appreciated every second of my life. When she had finished, she soon came to me. She was beaming from ear to ear. "T.J. You won't believe it, but I've got a mega job offer!" She looked at me with shining eyes. "Go on, tell me." I laughed lightly because she was really excited. "A film agency asked me if I'd like to do music for several Films and Series. They think I'm just the right person for it. I got the Card and have like one month to get in touch." I gave her a big hug and spun us round in circles. It made me very happy. But then her eyes dropped. Apparently there was a hitch. "What's going on?" I looked at her sadly. "The problem is that we, or rather I, would have to go to the USA." Oh. I wasn't expecting that. But do I want that? I mean, we've only just made a life for ourselves here, do I want to start again? In the USA? We don't have anyone there. I mean, yes, it's what she always wanted, but can't she record the music here? Or is there something that doesn't exist here? She looked up at me and I just didn't know what to say. "I... Can we talk at home? Tomorrow when we've slept? It's too loud here..." She looked down disappointed. I didn't want to see her like this. But it was a big step and I didn't want to decide head over heels whether we should just go to the USA or not when we just found a place for ourselves. I don't want to stand in the way of her dream, but I can't imagine leaving London now that we've sorted everything out. But I don't want to lose her either, not now when I want to ask her the question of all questions. Because I love her. God and how I love her. When we got home, I could still see that she was disappointed. "Hey, I just don't want us to make such an important decision right away, okay? Let's sleep on it. We'll talk tomorrow. I love you." She looked up at me, her eyes looked tired, it was already one in the morning. "You're right. I love you too." She gave me a kiss on the Chest before she went into the bathroom and smiled slightly. We went to bed together. She fell asleep quickly but I couldn't sleep a wink. What happens if I don't want to go?
Will she leave without me then? Or stay here with me? Will she accuse me of not supporting her? I don't know, but we will have to talk about it very clearly. We have to talk about what the Agent told her. At some point my eyes closed. But even my sleep was plagued by all these questions...
I don't want a fight...
But what will the future hold for us now?