Our Crazy Family

by JadesR

Bella Swan is a single mother and has not had the easiest start to life. Follow her as she journeys though the hard ships of falling in love for the first time! Same couple pairs plus some new friends along the way. Rated M for lemons-rape-language

30. Chapter 30 Wedding Dress

Eeep! We made it to chapter 30, I am not sure why, but I am very proud of myself for writing 30 chapters. I am thinking there will be about 10 or so more chapters until we finish this thing!

I am SO SO SOOO sorry that, this is such a late chapter. The holidays kicked my booty and on top of that, I managed to get covid :( I tried writing when I could, but my goodness did time go by fast! My sister got married and work has been wild! But I did not forget about this book and hopefully I will be writing more often. I added a little lemon in the end since it has been so very long.

*ALL CHARACTERS BELONG TO THE LOVELY STEPHENIE MEYERS

November

Edward POV

I was almost feeling a sense a déjà vu when we pulled into the parking lot of Tuxedo Club in Seattle. It felt like I was just here for Jasper and Alice's wedding and now we're here doing it again, but this time around, I am the groom! "Daddy do I get to wear my batman cape with my tuxedo?" Masen asked, looking up at me with those big brown eyes, I didn't have the heart to say no, to my boy.

"Let's just get our tuxedos today, Masen. We can talk to Mommy, about your batman cape." Masen shrugged, I breathed a sigh of relief that he took that answer without a fight. You just never know with him these days.

I had a very strong feeling that Bella was going to let him wear this cape to the wedding either way. But looking down at my son's smiling face, I don't think I will have any issues with letting him wear that damn cape.

It has been almost two weeks since Halloween. Masen attitude had changed tremendously! Dr, Curtis is helping him so much, she has been working with him on his emotional outbursts, trying to teach him different coping mechanisms that can help him calm down and tell us what is bothering him and how we can help him. That's all we want to do for Masen, is help him. Anything we could do, and we will.

"Daddy, when are my uncles gonna get here." Masen whined, rocking back and forth on the balls of his feet. He looked so handsome today, Bella dressed him in some dark jeans and a blue polo shirt and his jacket of course. He looked so grown up, It just made me feel so sad that I missed out on so many years of his life.

He was three when I met him and now he will be five years old before we know it. I just wish I could have met Bella sooner, If I had only went with my mom all those times she went to visit, Alice. So many times had she begged me to go with her and this was what I was missing out on. My family.

"They should be here soon, Masen. I'm sorry it is taking so long." We had been standing outside of the tuxedo club for almost fifteen minutes waiting on my brother in-law and soon to be brother in law. It wasn't like Jasper to be late, I wasn't sure how Emmett was, but he seemed like the late type. "Hopefully they will be here soon."

I picked up Masen and readjusted his jacket making sure he stayed warm. "After we get our fancy outfits, does that mean, you and Mommy are going to get married tomorrow?" I chuckled, shaking my head no.

"I wish Masen. But we are going to get married soon, after Christmas." I explained. I couldn't wait to marry Bella, I was feeling how Masen seemed to be feeling. Almost anxious for us to all finally be a family and maybe be in our new forever home.

Bella and I had been to at least 20 open houses in the past few weeks, but non of them felt like home. Most of them being way to expensive and extravagant for Bella's tastes and honestly mine too.

I didn't want to live in a mansion like my parents have, or even Emmett and Rosalie owned. Those just didn't feel homey like our house does. We just want a normal five bedroom home with a good sized back yard, so we can hopefully get Masen a dog!

If we couldn't find a house we liked soon, I was really going to push Bella on us building one, that was perfect just for us. Money wasn't an issue and that way I could build Bella her dream kitchen, Masen his dream backyard and for me.

All I wanted was a nice home office so I could spend more time working from home and being near my family. The only downside of building a house, is it will take a year or two for the house to be livable at least. Bella's lease ended in april and she really doesn't want to sign another three year lease.

I wasn't really too keen on the idea of being in that house for another few years. James knew where Bella's childhood home was, I'm sure he very well knew, where our house is too. Sometimes it feels like he is watching our house, waiting for a moment to strike and take Masen away from us again. We needed to be in a community with a locked gate and 24/7 surveillance.

Like where my parents lived.

The only way to get through the gate at my parents house was by the guard calling either my mom or dad to get the ok and let them through. My parents had a list of ID's that were approved and could be let through without being called in. The list is pretty much only family and a few close friends, it just makes it easier for people who come around more often then others do.

Either way, no matter what we do, or what happens, as long as were all together, that is all that matters to me. I just wanted my family safe and happy. Bella and Mase have been through so much already, I just wanted to take care of this house thing and get, at least one thing off, Bella's shoulders.

I tried to clear that off my mind and focused on Carson's smiling face, as he welcomed me and Masen. "Ahhh; Mr Cullen and Master Swan. What a delight to see you again! And this time, I hear the congratulations are for you, Mr Cullen!" Carson exclaimed, coming forward he pinched Masen's chubby cheeks. Masen giggled pushing his hands away.

"Thank you, Carson. We are all very excited for the happy day. I was hoping you could set up me and my boy here with some suits!" I patted Masen's chest giving him a big smile. I was so happy that he was going to be my best man and stand by my side as I married his mom. "I actually have some groomsmen who will also need suits. That is if they ever show up." I added. I was feeling rather snippy at my brother in-laws. I had at least hoped that Jasper would be here on time.

"It is quite alright, Mr Cullen. I don't think I have seen an email from your wife about what material she liked." Carson stepped around to his desk. I'm assuming to look and see if he had missed the email, somehow. "No, you're not going to find anything. Bella is leaving that all up to me and what, I like best. We both decided we like the look of just the plain black tuxedos with an ivory tie."

I that was all I knew. I had no clue what style of tuxedos I wanted, I didn't know what fabric I liked and I had a big feeling that. Mr, Carson was going to ask what shade of black we wanted. I just wanted black suits. I want a mini version of my tux for Masen and my groomsmen will have something similar, but I want to do a different style for them, that way we could switch it up a bit.

"Well that makes my job easy. We have two different shades of black." Told ya. "One is more of a greyish black, while the other, has an almost navy undertone. Oh and of course, just midnight black." He chuckled, handing me the three color swatches. "I feel like the navy one might look nice. Mr, Cullen. You can only see the navy color in some lights mainly natural sunlight."

Carson ducked under his desk, standing back up with a large binder that was filed with different fabrics. "I am, almost positive that I have, an ivory fabric somewhere in here.." Carson started flipping through the pages of his binder, trying to find what he was looking for.

Beep, Beep, Beep

I fought the urge to roll my eyes at the sound of Masen's watch going off. Bella went and ordered a kids watch for Masen, which is cool, but the thing has a damn tracker in it, like our son's a dog or something. I get, it's for his safety, but Bella has set these check in alerts for every hour on the hour. It beeps three times and then Masen has to click a little OK button, which sends a text to mine and Bella's phone stating he's all right.

Masen on the other hand, he LOVED the watch. No only did it have little games he could play, but he was able to send little pre-typed messages to me and bella, along with his grandparents and aunts and uncles. It was a very cool little thing to have, just added a small fee on our phone bill and he was set with data and everything. I just wasn't sure I liked the tracking part of it all.

"Daddy, I am a little hungry. Can I please eat the snacks in my backpack?" Masen asked with such good manners and cute a cheesy grin. I don't care who you are, me and Bella had the cutest kid in the whole world! "Of course you can Maser! Do you need my help, or do you have it handled?" He thought about it for a moment, before he answered me.

"I just need help with the zipper on my backpack, Daddy." I am not sure when my heart will stop melting each time I heard him call me that. I never knew I would love being a dad as much as I do.

"I can most definitely help you with that." After I pecked his chubby cheek, I stood Masen on his feet and helped him remove his little batman backpack, Bella packed for him today. "You can just sit on that couch over there, like you did last time." I unzipped his backpack, before handing it back to him.

"Thank youuu!" He sang, jumping over to the couch and climbing ontop, getting cozy. "He is one cute kid." Mr Carson said. I didn't hesitate to agree with him. Masen was the cutest, coolest ans funniest kid around.

"Thanks! His mother and I, think he is pretty awesome. But we have been told were bias when it comes to Masen." I rolled my eyes. The only kid who comes close to beating Masen in the cutest kid spot is miss Kimberly. She is such a gorgeous little girl, with her sandy blonde curls and big blue eyes, not to mention her little dimples! She looked just like Alice, but with lighter hair. Thank goodness she didn't take after her father!

Speaking of the devil himself. "Nice of you to show up Mr Whitlock." I squinted my eyes at my brother in-law, my arms crossed over my chest. "I was starting to think, my own groomsmen were going to ditch me!" I added. Jasper held his hands up in surrender.

"Hey man, I'm so sorry! I had Kimberly at the house, because Alice is with Bella today, my brother's wife was going to watch Lee, for me but she canceled last minute." He threw his hands up in the air. "Who the hell, just cancels last minute like that! Do you know how hard it is to find a babysitter with an hours notice!" Jasper threw himself down into the leather arm chair near the door. He looked truly exhausted. but then again, who wouldn't look tired chasing around a ten month old who just discovered the joy of crawling.

"It's alright, Jazz. You couldn't help any of that, but I'm guessing you found a babysitter?" I asked. He didn't have my neice with him so I figured he found someone. "Nope! That is another part of it. I couldn't find anyone who was free to watch her on such short notice. I had to go drop her off with Alice and the rest of the girls, at the bridal boutique." I nodded. That makes sense.

"I was totally going to just bring her here, but Alice said your mom and Bella's stepmother could cuddle her while they tried on dresses." Jasper said, shrugging his shoulders. "I am sure the grannies are loving the baby fix, I am actually a little disappointed you didn't bring her here, I am sure, we could have figured it out." I feel like, I barely see my cute little niece. She is always attached to Allie's hip and hardly gives anyone else the time of day.

Everyone tells me that, Masen was the same way with Bella when he was a baby. And honestly in someways, he still is attached to her hip, that boy loves his Momma. "I am sorry to interrupt, Mr Cullen. But I found the fabric swatch. I only have the one shade of ivory, but I can order more fabric if this is not to your liking." I took the fabric swatch from Carson, letting my finger tips run over the fabric. It felt soft and it looked right to me. But just to be safe, I pulled out my phone and sent a picture to Bella, to make sure she liked it too.

"Let me get the OK, from the Missis, before I give my final answer. I like the fabric, but my girl has a plan and wants everything to be perfectly, perfect." I once again today fought the urge to roll my eyes. My fiancé and honestly my little sister, were going a little crazy over this small wedding. Both girls just wanted it all to look perfect and match perfectly. I didn't understand it, but then again all I had to do was look nice and show up.

"That is perfectly acceptable. I will set it over on the side for now. If you wouldn't mind following me into a private fitting room, I will gather the the black suits I have in store." I nodded.

"Definitely, but we do have one more person in our party, he just seems to be running late." I sighed. At this point I wasn't even sure, Emmett was going to show up. I had already sent him a few messages and Bella even tried calling him, for me. But no luck. Even Rosalie has gone MIA.

"The door has that little bell. Once he arrives, I would be happy to escort him to the fitting room." I was fine with that. If Bella's brother chooses to be late, he will just have to take the extra time to find our fitting room.

I went over and helped Masen repack, everything back into his backpack. He took everything out of his bag, just to find his snacks, which were just right on top. After everything was packed away. Again. I had, Masen hold his mini bag of chips he was snacking on, and just carried him and his backpack to the room and got him restitute on the velvet sofa and propped his backpack up next to him.

"You just sit right here and watch, while me and uncle Jazz make a fool out of ourselves, trying on a bunch of monkey suits." I said, laughing as I did. Masen gave me an odd look, before craning his neck trying to check behind me. "Monkey suits? What's that." He scratched his head, looking so adorablely confused. "I don't see any monkeys, Daddy! We didn't wear monkey suits to Auntie Al's wedding."

My small laugh, turned into a full on, belly laugh at his words. He was just so cute, trying to find the non existenting monkeys. "Masen buddy, there is no monkeys here." I laughed. "I just call them monkey suits, because they are not very comfortable and I feel silly in them." I shrugged. I was very long and lanky, i didn't feel, like I looked very good in a suit. Made my arms and legs look to long.

"But Mommy says we both looked handsome in our suits." Masen said, looking confused. I hurried to explain, not wanting him to think, he didn't look handsome in anything he wore. "Masen! You do look handsome in a suit, you look handsome in anything you wear! You took all of your Momma's best attributes. You have her beautiful brown hair, her eyes, her smile and even the little dimple she has on her chin. How could you not be the cutest kid in the whole world, when you have all of that going for you!" I booped his button nose. Another thing he got from his Mother.

"Don't you look handsome too?" I chuckled. "Your mom and Nana Esme always say I do. And they are almost always right." Masen looked at all the suits, before moving his big brown eyes back to me. "I think you look handsome in a suit, Daddy. I don't think they are monkey suits either." He crossed his arms. Clearly upset that I was calling them monkey suits. I didn't realize he had such an attachment to these suits.

"I'm sorry Masen, Daddy won't call them monkey suits anymore. I'm sorry, that bothered you." I rubbed his cheek, hoping to make him feel better. I really didn't mean to upset him. But he has been on high emotions, since everything happened with James. Therapy has been helping him a lot, but somedays are long and exhausting.

It could be from the moment Masen, wakes up, till the moment he goes to bed, he is throwing temper tantrum, after temper tantrums. It will seem like it's never going to end, but the next morning he will wake up and be back to the normal Masen, we all know and love. Dr Curtis, says this is all a completely normal reaction to the trauma he went through. The days he struggles, he probably had nightmares all night, as his little brain tries to figure all this out, meaning he is exhausted, in the morning, because he didn't sleep well.

My poor guy, is going through so much, I just wish I could take all this pain away from him. I want to see my happy boy again. I would take all of his burdens, onto me if I could. I would do anything for this boy.

Masen thankfully forgave, my mistake with the suits and happily went back to eating his snacks and scrolling on his tablet. Breathing a sigh of relief, I stood up, my knees popping as I did. I was crouched down in front of, Masen for way to long, my knees were already starting to ache from holding that position.

Mr Carson, picked out two arm full's of suits, handing half of the stack to me and the other stack to, Jasper, shooing each of us into a dressing rooms. All the suits were so soft and surprisingly very comfortable. I found, that I didn't enjoy the velvet fabric, it just didn't feel right and I didn't like the new of it. Same goes for the satin fabric. Just the plain regular fabric I was more my type. Plus I think Bella will love it too.

"Edward!" I jumped at Emmett's booming as it echoed through the small sitting room. "UNCLE EM!" Masen yelled. Pushing open the curtain, I saw Emmett swinging my son around the room, making him giggle. I wanted to speak up and say, Emmett if you keep on spinning him around like that he is going to puke his full belly of food. But I stop myself, if Emmett wanted to be late, he could get puked on.

"Nice of you to finally show your face Emmy." Jasper sniped at him, as he stepped out of his dressing room. "Oh shut it, Jasmine. Something came up last minute and I got here as soon as I could." Jasper crossed his arms and glanced towards me and Carson. "Please by all means, share with the class what was so important?"

I was glad that Jasper was doing all the talking. I didn't know Emmett, very well and I honestly wasn't sure how I was going to deal with him showing up so late. I didn't want to upset, Bella or Bella's dad by disrespecting Emmett. Jasper and Emmett have been friends for years and clearly know each other way better then I would.

"I can't say I what, I was doing...yet..But don't get your, panties in a twist boys, you will all found out soon enough." Masen clamped his hand over his mouth trying to keep from giggling to loudly. I'm sure he was lauging at the fact, that Emmett had said panties. "Well at least you are here now and we can start with getting your suit size." I said.

Stepping forward and taking Masen out of his arms, I continued. "I think I have found the fabric like, already. All we need from you is sizes, so it will be easy, peezy." Emmett gave me an apologetic look, before sitting Masen down on his feet and literally shuffling his feet into a dressing room. Mr Carson, following behind him with his tape measure around his neck.

For the next few hours we were all fitting for suits, getting poked with damn pins, as Carson sectioned, out the parts of our suits, that would need to be hemmed or in my case, make the sleeves longer, for my freakishly long arms. Luckily for us, Masen's suit fit him perfectly as he had only gone up in a pants size since Alice's wedding, which was hard to believe because it seemed like he was growing, like a freaking weed, these days.

The fabric I had picked out, did not have enough in stock to for three adult suits, but, Carson assured me that he would have everything ready come new years eve. Masen's suit was ready to take home today. Carson packed it up in a mini garment bag, so it wouldn't get damaged on the drive back to PA.

I couldn't wait for Bella to see Masen all dressed up in his suit. It was literally a mini version of my suit, while Jaspers and Emmett's were very similar, but had some differences, so we didn't all blend together. But since Mase, was my best man, I wanted us to match. Plus I knew Bella and all the ladies in our family would get a kick out of it.

By the time we got back home, Masen was fast asleep in his carseat. The guys had taken me out to lunch, where we talked about my bachelor party and I fully crushed all their dreams, by letting them know that, Bella and I had decided to go with a combined bachelor and bachelorette parties. It wasn't like we were sad to see our single days go. I couldn't wait to marry, Bella and start our lives together. She is everything I wanted and more, for her, I will happily kiss away my bachelor days!

Emmett, tried convincing me to change my mind. Of course he wanted to go to a strip club. I had ZERO want to, go, to a strip club. That was the last place I wanted to be. Bella was the only person I wanted to see stripping. Ever.

Even Jasper scoffed at the idea, which was surprising because I figured if, he had actually had a bachelor party, he would have gone to a strip club. Not that, Alice would have let that one slide. Because they got married so quickly, they decided to skip the whole party thing. Not that, I blame them for that, me and Bella, almost decided to do the same thing. But we wanted to have a small dinner gathering with our friends and family members.

We considered having a fancy dinner with everyone in our family and Masen, of course. After dinner we could ditch the oldies and go out clubbing, have some drinks, do a little dancing. It might be fun, but the only downside is we couldn't bring Masen. Neither me or Bella is ready to leave, Mase just yet.

All three of us have, grown to have separation anxiety, I only leave to go to work, and then I'm right back home. I hate that, I even have to leave and go to work. I feel sick, the whole time, I'm away from them. Bella said, Masen gets very antsy, while I am away. Constantly asking, when I will be home, if he can call me, just to make sure I am alright. Masen's therapist, tells us that it is normal and he will soon learn how to manage these's emotions.

I've noticed that Masen has been a little anxious, today, just from being away, from Bella. This has been the first time either of them have been away from one another. Since we got Masen back, he hasn't really left Bella's side. His therapy session is really the longest, Masen is not right by, Bella. Masen is doing great with the sessions, but, Bella still squirms around the whole time, until Masen is back by her side. Who know's what she is going to do, once, Masen want's to go to school, or spend the night with a grandparent.

"Daddy, my tummy hurts." Masen whined from his chair next to me. I looked down to see her had finished all on his chicken tenders and fries, plus the half of my burger, that I couldn't finish, and he eat a side salad before we got our food. "Maybe you ate too much, buddy." Masen leaned over against me and I wiggled my arm free, wrapping it around him. I pressed my lips to his forehead and thankfully he didn't feel warm. Last thing we need is a sick, Masen right before the holiday's.

Looking up, I found Emmett and Jasper smirking at me and Masen. "I swear, man, all this dad stuff just came so naturally to you. Sometimes, it seems like you've been Masen's dad since the beginning. You are way better at it, then I am with Kimberly." Jasper sighed and I wondered if there was a deeper issue going on here, but I really didn't want to be pushy.

"Masen, he makes it easy. I never had to deal with the sleepless night, or all the toddler tantrums, I have never even changed a diaper in my life. Masen was already so grownup, when I 'stepped' into the dad role." I looked down at Masen, pushing his hair back from his eyes. "You guys have not seen, all the talks, I've had to have with Bella. All the questions, I have had to ask. So many times, I gone to her panicked thinking, I would completely mess this kid up." I chuckled. It has definitely gotten easier, but it was not easy getting to this point, and it's only going to get more complicated over time.

"You make a good point, Eddie boy." Emmett said, tipping his glass at me before taking a big drink. I internally cringed at the name, there is nothing I hated more then being called, Eddie. "Hey, don't call him Eddie, Uncle Emmett. Its Ed-Ward." Masen said dragging out the D at the end, as he scolded his uncle. I pushed my face against, Masen's head trying to hide my smile. Always ready to protect me, even when he doesn't need too.

Emmett held his hands up in surrender, wearing a huge smile on his face. "Hey' yo don't get mad at your dear ol' uncle alright. I'm sorry Edd-ward." I rolled my eyes, at his overly exaggerated tone. Noticing, Masen has the same reaction, but cuddle back into my side, happy that, his uncle said my name correctly.

We paid our bill, well Emmett and Jasper spilt the bill and wouldn't let me pay for anything, not even, Masen's meal. "Thanks guys, I was planning on paying for this, I am the reason we all had, to be out today." They shrugged, both going to speak at the same time.

"Hey man, you did the same for me when, I was the one getting married, it is only fair I repay the favor. Plus your sister, would have had my A-S-S, if I didn't pay for your meal." Never been more thankful that Jasper spelled out Ass rather then just saying it. Because Bella would've had my A-S-S if our son came home yelling that word.

"I was super late. Least I could do is pay for lunch." Was all Emmett said. He was a lot quieter today, then usual. The few times, I had been around, Emmett he was the life, of the party. But today, you could clearly see the difference in him today. I would have to ask, Bella about this when I got home.

"Well thank you both. I really appreciate you guys coming out here today and for being my groomsmen." Honestly, if Masen wasn't feeling so yucky, I would have suggested, we go bowling, or to laser tag. Just something fun, we could all do together. But Masen was already starting to doze off next to me and I knew the smartest thing, was to get him home and in bed.

The guys finished up paying the check and I gathered my sleepy boy up in my arms and tossed his backpack over my shoulders. I could only hope, I hadn't forgotten anything that was in his bag. Masen wouldn't just take out the one thing, he needed from his bag, no he had to unpack the whole bag, just for one item. Kids will keep you on your toes, probably why we are designed to love them so damn much. Keeps us parents from getting to upset.

Masen whined about getting in the car, making me worry, that I was wrong and maybe he is getting sick. "Maser, don't be sad. We are going to go home and get all cozy, in our jammies. After that you can pick any movie you want for us to watch. How does that sound?" Masen gave me a pouty lip as he thought, through his opinions. He always looked so much like, Bella when he did that.

"Alright, daddy. But only if we can watch that new kung fu panda movie." I smiled, booping his nose with my finger. "Deal, buddy."

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Bella POV

I never wanted to become a bridezilla, in fact I have spent the last month or so, trying my hardest not to be one. I didn't want to be that woman, who gets all frazzled and freaking out, over the smallest things. But as the wedding day gets closer and closer, I am starting to freak out over the little things, because all, I can think about is the little things, that needs done, before the big day.

We have a little over a month before this wedding, I don't have my dress. We have two different caterers, we have to decide between. Esme promised she is taking care of the cake for me, I have sent her, half a dozen inspiration pictures of other wedding cakes, that I liked.

Bless her, she is truly the best mother in law, I could have ever asked for, she is so amazing, not only with the wedding, but even when it comes to helping with, Masen or whatever we need. Masen definitely needs his all of his family right now, but Nana Esme is always on the top of the list.

But now the days seem to be ending faster, then I can keep up with. Our wedding day is quickly approaching and as fast as it is approaching, is as fast as I am becoming a major bridezilla. I have snapped at poor, Edward more times than I can count. He has been so sweet to me though. Always finding ways that calm me down, not to mention anything I was freaking out about, he somehow finds a way to get it taken care of for me. I don't ask to many question, I am just happy it is done and I can stop worrying about it.

On top of all this wedding stress, I am still worried sick over James and the fact that the police, still have not caught him yet. It has been six weeks since he and my mother have disappeared. Only one time have they been spotted, they were seen together at a campsite, in Tennessee. The person who called in was able to catch a few pictures of them. But the man who found them, He wasn't a young guy and he was all alone out there. He did the smart thing and left to find help.

When the ranger and the older man returned James and Renée were no where to be seen. Apparently, they had ditched the small old car they were driving, now driving a dark green jeep. Well at least, they were, a few days after they were spotted the jeep was found abandoned, 30 miles away from the site. Leading them to steal another car on their way out of Tennessee. After that no one has seen them since. Police are just keeping their names on the news and hoping we will find them.

I just want to feel safe again. I want my son to be able to return to school and playing at the park without looking over our shoulders. I would love to feel safe enough to get another job, I miss working with my kids and watching their little brains learn. But the thought of going into another school building, sends me into a panic. I'm still not driving, I have tried to get behind the wheel, but my hands shake so badly, I can't even grip the steering wheel properly.

Dr, Curtis is really pushing me to get another therapist that is just for me. She can only help me so much, because she is just a family therapist and has more knowledge in the minds of children rather than adults. She's given me a few different people, I could call and make an appointment with. But as silly as it might sound, I am scared to go all alone. I haven't been by myself in so long. Plus it would be weird, having someone driving me there and drop me off and then have to go back, just to pick me up. Like I am a child who's hanging out with a friend. I need to drive again, but I don't know how!

"Mommy? Are you ok, you are crying." Looking down, I found Masen's big doe eyes looking up at me, his arms wrapped tightly around my legs, where I was standing in the kitchen. "I'm fine baby!" I promised him. Wiping away my tears, I leaned down to his level and pecked his cheek. "See, I am all better now. I was just thinking about some sad memories."

Masen wrapped his little arms tightly around my neck. "Don't be sad Mommy, I hate when you are sad." I smiled at him. How did I get blessed with the sweetest little boy. "You make me so happy, my sweet boy." With one last kiss and cuddle, I stood back up to finish packing his snack for the day.

Today Masen and Edward, along with our brothers were all going to get fitted for their tuxedo for our wedding! I can't wait to see my handsome boys in their suits all gussied up. Seeing, Edward in a suit at Alice's and Jasper's wedding, almost had me melting into a puddle. HE looked so incredibly sexy in that suit, I wanted to strip down right there and jump his bones. Lucky for me, that's just what I got to do, when we got home that night. Yummy!

Edward is looking forward to having some guy time with Masen. Get him out of the house a little, but I can't lie. I am so worried about them leaving and me not being there with them. Masen hasn't left my sight since we picked him up from the police station. I've kept my son with me at all times. The only time I've really been 'away' from, Masen is during his therapy session, but I'm watching him on a tv screen, so it's not much different then me being right there beside him.

I want Edward and Masen to go out and have fun today, but I will probably be worried about them the whole time. It's not like I won't be occupied while they are away. I am meeting up with all my ladies this afternoon. My bridesmaid Rosalie and Alice and then the moms, Sue and Esme, I also invited Leah, but she has been pretty quiet lately, so I am not sure if she will even show up or not. I wanted her to be a bridesmaid too, but she actually declined being in my wedding.

I was more than a little hurt, by her declining. I mean she of course had every right to say no, and I'm sure she had a very good reason behind it, but it would be nice to know what that reason is. I mean not a lot of people turn down being a bridesmaid. Me and Leah have practically grown up together, I've known her since she was born and our parents got married when she was a teenager. She was always hanging around Jacob and a lot of the time, so was I. I've always looked at her as my little sister.

Not even Sue fully knew what was going on, with Leah. All she has told me, was to please be patient with Leah right now, that there was something going on that she couldn't talk about right now. I have wondered if this is all has, to do with Jacob, because Sue, has been watching Julia a lot lately. Where before, Sue never watched Julia. Leah and Jacob were so good about keeping their schedules moved around their daughter, so she always had one parent watching her and didn't need daycare.

I wish I could help, but if Leah, doesn't want people to know what's going on, then I can't really help her in anyway. I wouldn't judge Leah or Jacob in anyway. They are family and you help your family, I know, Leah knows that, well at least I hope, she knows that.

I sighed, there is not much I can do standing here worrying about it. Leah will reach out when she's ready, but until then, I will just have to be a silent support for all three of them. Besides she has got her mom and Jacob's sisters who she is very close with, I am sure all of them are being there for Leah right now.

For now, I had my own family that needed all of my focus and attention. Until James and my mother are found and behind bars, I don't see me being a very big help to anyone, all my energy is put into worrying about that! I just wanted it to all be over with.

Finishing my task at hand, I put a few extra snacks in Masen's backpack and zipped it up, hanging it from the knob on our front door. I figured the guys would grab some lunch, later on today, but I didn't want Masen to get hungry while they were trying on suits. No one wants to deal with a hangry Masen, plus the snacks keep him busy for awhile. My son is my type of guy, give him a few snacks and he is happy for quite some time, especially if Cheetos are included!

"Babe! Have you seen my sneakers, anywhere. I can't find them and I have looked everywhere they usually are." Edward yelled from our bedroom. We live in a pretty small house, he could have walked the few extra steps and not yelled across the house. I sighed looking around for my grown fiancé's shoes, and of course Edward would choose to wear his sneakers on the day, he is going to try on tuxedos. But with as much as, Edward has to year nice shoes for work, I can't blame him for not wanting to wear them today.

Spotting his black and white sneakers by the back door. He must have kicked them off when him and Mase came back inside from playing football. Another thing James and Renée have put on hold in our life. "Edward, I found your shoes baby." I announced as I stepped into the bedroom. Edward was standing at our bathroom counter combing hair, mousse through his untamable hair. He was barefoot and shirtless, looking oh' so yummy!

"Oh thank you, love! I don't know what, I would do without you." He walked over to me with ease, always walking with such confidence, making me jealous of his balance. Pulling me into his strong arms, Edward's lips were on mine and his hands were cupping my bottom, trying to get me closer to his body. His cologne smelled so good, his lips were making me lose my mind and all of this combined was making me feel dizzy. I was out of breath when he pulled back, his eyes staring at my lips, as if he was going to go back in for seconds. Not that, I would have minded, if he did. "God, I just love you, so much." He whispered, pulling me tightly against his lean body, tucking my head under his chin. I snuggled in against his strong chest, deeply inhaling his cologne, that always smelled sooo good!

"I love you too, Edward. You are my whole world baby." Without moving from my comfortable spot, I leaned my head back and pursed my lips for another kiss. "Well, who am I to deny, those sexy lips." He said, smiling, leaning down and pressing his lips to mine once again. I don't think I could ever tire of kiss Edward. He is almost addictive, in a way.

"Ugh yuck, you guys are always doing that." Masen whined. Me and Edward couldn't hold back our laughter and were in a fit of giggles with our lips still pressed together. "I hate to break it to you, but I will be kissing your Momma, for the rest of your life kiddo." Edward said, pulling away from me so he could pick up our pouting son.

"Aww, don't be sad bubs. When me and mommy kiss each other, it's just because we love one another so, so much! I promise you will understand it more when you are older." Edward told him.

"When you are MUCH! Older bubba. Please give me a few years before you start kissing girls." I added, making Edward laugh, but Masen gagged sticking his finger in his open mouth as he did.

"That is so yucky, Mommy. Uncle Emmett, said girls have cooties and I don't want any of their cooties on me!" Masen cried, pretending to wipe the cooties off of him. But of course if woild be my brother that would tell him that. I am jusy thankful he is not wanting to kiss anyone, any time soon. I want him to stay my little baby, forever! But I know that is just not possible and he is growing up more and more, everyday.

With that thought in my head, I pulled Masen, from Edward's arms and cuddled him into my arms. "Can you please, just stay this small forever and never leave us!" I asked him, my face pushed in his hair, breathing in his baby shampoo. Edward wrapped his arms around the both of us, pulling us tightly against his chest. It's crazy to me, how you can literally hold your whole world in your arms. It may seem so small to other people, but I would never trade these moments for anything.

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"Ooh! Bella that one looks so fantastic on you. I'm not sure if I like this one more, or the one before this." Alice's cooed. This is what everyone has been saying for the past 18th dresses, I have tried on. I have five women sitting in front of me, but none of them have anything bad to say about any of the dresses. But, I have managed to find something wrong with every dress, I try on. Non of them seem like the right fit for me. Non of them screamed, this is the dress you marry your best friend in.

I held up the dress as Alice finished tying the corset on the dress. It was a beautiful dress, I loved the style and look of it all. It was tight around my back, but came out around my waist allowing it to flow nicely, down my back into a very long train. It was almost too long for my height, but it could be tailored, if I was going to pick this dress. But I wasn't sure about this dress.

"Don't stress about this, Bella. You still have roughly seven weeks before your wedding. You have time to find the perfect dress. We could drive a little further out, to another bridal shop." Alice suggested, her soft voice breaking through my thoughts. I smiled, patting the hand that was on my shoulder. "Thanks Al, I am going to try on a few more dresses, but then I might just call it a day here. I am so over trying on these dresses." I laughed, I didn't want to stress over this, but I could definitely feel myself stressing it.

Looking over at the wall, I felt a little overwhelmed by the fact that I had seven more dresses to try on and those are just the ones that I picked out and a couple the girls found that I also thought were very pretty. I just wanted it to be perfect, I was marrying the man of my dreams and I really hoped, I was wearing my dream dress when I did so. "You know, I could always try to help you design a dress, or we could always add things onto any of these dresses." Alice mentioned to me. It wasn't a bad idea, but did we have time for that?

"Alice that would be amazing, but we only have seven weeks until the wedding. Could we even make a dress, in that time frame?" Alice thought about it before answering me. She was probably trying to remember her crazy schedule, she somehow managed to upkeep and be a, hands on, Mother. It's simply amazing to see.

"I think, I could do it. I have a few ladies that are training apprentices for their wedding boutiques. If you decide, that you wanted to design your own dress, I will call them up and ask if they all, could help me with the making of the dress. I'm sure between all four of us, we could get your dress done, maybe even before your wedding!"

"Well that would be wonderful. Definitely makes me feel, a little less stressed out. If I didn't find something soon, I am going to be out of time." I huffed out a breath, which was, rather difficult with this dress on. "Bella, you have a whole family right here who are willing to help you. Just gotta let us know and it will be done, I promise you." Alice soft words, were like a balm to my stress, making me so grateful that she was my best friend.

"Thank you, Allie. I'm not sure what I could do without you." I said, hugging her tightly. She really was my life saver in so many ways, and there was no one else I would rather have be my sister in law.

"Well lucky for you, we never have to find out. Now come on, let's go show our family this beautiful dress!" I nodded, taking a final look at the dress. I knew I wasn't going to pick this dress, but I would still go out there, let the girls ooh and aww over this dress, that I definitely wasn't wearing on my wedding day. I guess it was all part of the experience of wedding shopping.

With Alice's help, I waddled my way into the show room, as I had been calling it. This dress is almost impossible to walk in, I'm now sure how, I would have made it down the aisle.

Once I made it to the pedestal, I was very surprised by how quiet it was. Usually by this point, they are all just going on and on about the dress. "Dang, that bad huh?" I chuckled, looking around the room at the women, that made me, who I am today. Each of them wore big smiles, all of them were quick to shake their heads no.

"I think it's a wonderful dress, Bella. But it is not you." Esme said with a soft tone, clearly trying not to hurt my feelings.

"I have to second Esme. Besides you could barely walk in here, with your luck, you would trip and fall walking down the aisle." I rolled my eyes at, Rosalie's statement. I would have argued with her, on that one, but it was honestly the truth. Sue just gave me a sweet smile, as she sat and rocked a sleeping Kimberly.

Hopping off the pedestal, I waddled over and took a big swig out of my champagne glass, letting the fizzy drink sooth some of my stress for a moment. "Alright, Alice. Let's get this over with." With her help, we made it back into the dressing room, immediately pulling this dress off my body and sliding another one over my head. As soon as it was over my head, I had Alice pulling it right back off. The dress was way too small and it just wasn't me at all. I don't think, I have never hated a dress so quickly!

"Oh Bella, I think you are going to love this one. Close your eyes! I don't want you to see until I have it on you." Alice squealed, jumping in place as she held the dress clutched in her hands. "Allllice." I whined, reaching for the dress, but she quickly yanked it away.

"Humor me, Bella." I rolled my eyes, before doing as she requested and closed my eyes. Listening to her shuffling around the small room, I soon felt the cool satin hit my arms. "Lift your arms, Bella." I did as the little pixie said, raising my arms above my head, allowing her to slide the dress over my head and down my body. This dress was skin tight, all the way down to the floor, flowing down to what I imagined would be a very long train.

"Alright now, take my arm and just let me lead you back out there."

"Alice, I just got over a broken foot, please don't make me do it all over again." I sighed. I used to think that child birth, was one of the hardest things I ever went through. Until I broke my leg and being stuck in a bed for weeks on end, was literally the worst thing ever. At least child birth is over with after a day or so, then you have this cute baby to cuddle with. I was just stuck with a big ugly cast.

"Bella, I promise, I got you. I would not let you fall! Especially not in this beautiful dress." I wanted to roll my eyes, but they were closed, so it would have been a pointless matter. Instead I acted like a big girl and I held my hand out, letting Alice, lead me back to the showroom. We were not even all the way back to the pedestal before, I heard their gasps. I just hoped they were good gasps and not ones of horror!

Alice helped me onto the pedestal and started fluffing the dress around me, I'm sure trying to have it lay pretty. "You can open your eyes now, Bella." Taking a deep breath, I opened my eyes and gazed upon the most beautiful dress, I had ever seen. It was literally perfect, looking like it was made just for my body.

The front of the dress was plain all white silk, which was something I was unsure if I would have liked, but surprisingly enough it actually looked beautiful on me. It was long sleeved and even had some little hoops that my finger slipped through, allowing the sleeves to lay pretty on my hand. It added so much elegance to the dress. But with the beautiful lace patterns going all the way down my back, to the top of my bum, it was already looking very elegant. It was tight around me, but it flowed slightly towards my legs with a long train. It was gorgeous and I knew without a doubt that this was the dress. It was my dress!

Turning around to face my family. Their smiles were blinding, even Kimmy was awake now. Squealing in Sue's arms, wildly kicking her tiny chubby legs. "I see my Kimmy bear like the dress!" I giggled.

Esme jumped up from her chair and rushed over to me, embracing me in a big hug. "Oh Bella! This dress was truly made for you, my dear." She cried. Leaning back she held me by my arms looking me over. "Edward won't know what to do with himself!" I giggled, feeling my face flush from her praise.

"Bella I will smack you myself, if you don't leave here with that very dress." Rosalie said loudly, making us all laugh. But I knew she really would slap me, so i didn't take it very lightly. "It really is a beautiful dress, Bella. Edward is going to love it." I smiled at Sue.

"Thanks Sue. I certainly hope he loves it, but he's been telling me, he will happily marry me in a potato sack!" Looking back at the mirror in front of me, I just knew this was the dress! It didn't take us long to find a beautiful vail that was almost as long as my dress train, but it just flowed beautifully together.

Since the dress seems to be made just for me, there was only a few things that needed to be taken in. It was mainly in the boobie area that needed to be taken in some. I had lost so much weight since the accident and my boobs were back to my pre-pregnancy size. I knew if I put on some weight, I would have slightly bigger breast. But with the wedding only a few weeks away, I knew I would not be able to gain it all back in that time.

Before I knew it, I was dressed in my black leggings, cashmere sweater dress and tall brown boots once again, watching our sweet sale's lady was zipping up the garment bag that held my wedding dress and vail. Because Alice's house is closer to the venue, she was going to take my dress home with her. We will be getting ready at her house too and that way I won't be worried that Edward, will try and sneak a peek of my dress, before the big day.

I pulled my wallet out of my purse, ready to grab out Edward's shiny black credit card, that he insisted, I bring with me today, begging me to use that card for anything I bought during my little outing. My insurance settlement from my car crash, was more than enough for my dress, but he wanted to pay for it, telling me that money was for me to spend. Me being me, tried to bargain a deal with him, that if he buys my dress, I buy his suit. But Edward, being Edward. He shut that down and shook his head no as he laughed and pushed the card into my palm, folding my fingers around it.

"The dress and the vail came up to 15,000 dollars. Will that be cash or card today, Miss, Swan?" I did my very best to not let anyone see me cringe at that price of this dress. I guess in all my excitement I forgot to look at the price of the dress, I figured that Alice would have saw the price and skipped to the next one. I am not sure why I thought, Alice of all people would do that. She never checks the price tag. I don't even spend more than 20 dollars on my clothes that I wear everyday and I will only wear this thing for one day!

I just had to do it and get it over with. Pulling my wallet out of my bag, I went to get the card, but was quickly distracted as, a swift hand shot out like a rocket, swiping their own card, before I could even get the card out of my wallet. Surprised I looked up to find Sue smiling at me. "Sue! You didn't have to do that, I have Edward's card with me!" I announced waving the black card in front of her face.

"Your father wanted to buy your dress, sweetheart. He-…Well we both knew, you would not let us pay for this, so I had to be a tiny bit sneaky." Sue mischievous expression was just too cute to be upset with. She was so happy to be doing this for me, but this was just too much. This dress was way too expensive.

"Sue, this is so kind of you and dad, but this dress is so much money. At least let Edward and I pay for half." I begged.

"No." She said firmly, gently pushing my card away. "You are Charlie's only daughter and you deserve this Isabella. We have stuck money back just for this day and we are paying for your wedding dress. And that's final!" She added with no if, ands or buts. She wasn't going to let me argue about this, no matter how much I wanted to.

"Fine. But I'm finding someway to repay the two of you for this!" I said, pointing my finger at her and squinting my eyes. They would be getting very nice Christmas gifts AND I'm going to find someway to repay them for the dress. It was just way too expensive. I shouldn't even be getting a dress this expensive! Edward told me to get whatever I wanted, but did I really need, a 15,000 dollar dress. It just seemed a bit excessive.

After the sweet sales women handed me my bags, I knew it was too late to go back now. I would just have to make sure I didn't ruin this dress during this wedding. I will buy a dress box, that perseveres the dress and keeps it from yellowing or any bugs or debris. That way if I have a daughter one day, she might want to wear the dress I married her daddy in. And if she doesn't, that's okay too.

"I'm sure you and your father will figure something out." Sue said, knowing full well that my dad would never let me pay him back in anyway. But that doesn't mean, I'm not going to try my hardest!

We gathered together our belongings and the girls paid for their dresses. Something else I wanted to pay for, but was shot down once again. I mean this is my wedding, wouldn't it be me paying for these things. Me and Edward had budgeted for the dresses and though it would have been a bit tight with my dress included, we would have made it just fine.

I just didn't want them thinking we were broke and starting our marriage in debt. Me and Edward are very smart with our money and keep the spending within our budget. You have to with the economy the way it is. Especially when you have child to care for and planning to have another in a few months.

"Well seeing as everyone has got to treat the bride today, let's go out to lunch! Wherever you want Bella, It's on me today ladies!" Esme announced, clapping her hands happily, reminding me so much of Alice!

"Ooh! We haven't taken Rosalie to, The Pink Door yet! We should go there! They have some of the best lasagna I have ever tasted! The sauce is made in house with tomato's they grew themselves. It's fabulous!" I was feeling excited for this lasagna then I was for my dress. It really was that good.

"That sounds delicious! I can't wait to try." I smiled at Rose tossing my arm around her waist and tugging her beside me. It felt so nice having my sister-in-law here with us. This wedding would not have felt complete without her and my big brother. "Glad you are here, Rose." I told her. Rosalie wrapped her arms around me and squeezed me tight.

"Me too, Bells. Me too."

We all piled into Esme's huge SUV that she insisted on getting when Kimberly started hanging out with her and Masen more. She said that more grand babies would come along and she would need all the extra space. Besides it worked amazingly for days like today.

The car was a deep red color with tented windows with all leather interior her SUV was very spacious. The backseat had two big captains chairs leaving the middle open, that opened up to a small backseat with three seats. I loved it and almost wanted one myself.

Esme drove us and Sue sat beside her in the front seat. I let Alice and Rosalie take the captain's chair in the middle. Even though they both wanted me to sit in one. I wanted to sit next to my Kimmy bear, who was sitting in the very back strapped into her pink car seat, happily chewing on her teether, babbling away at me. "You are just too cute Kimberly." I squealed giving her tiny nose a little boop, making her giggle away.

"Alice I need you to have about five more babies for me please. Hopefully all little girls too, because Kimmy is just perfectly, perfect and we need more." Alice rolled her eyes at my words. Clearly she didn't feel the same way. "Bella, I love my daughter more than anything! Kimberly is mine and Jasper's biggest blessing, not to mention a huge miracle, so we want to just focus on her for a while before thinking about another one. I don't want my sweet girl to feel left out in anyway."

I leaned forward and patted my best friend's shoulder. Feeling bad for bringing that up when it was evidently bothering her. "Allie, that's completely understandable, besides I was just pulling your leg, because you make some pretty babies. We all love Kimberly and we will love her the same no matter if she has siblings or doesn't. Nothing would ever replace Kimmy, she's the best little girl ever and has the best mommy ever too."

"Oh Bella." She sniffed, Rose leaned over handing Alice a tissue. She loudly blew her nose, blushing as she did. "I'm sorry Bella, I didn't mean to sound harsh or rude at all. Honestly…I am so worried that me and Jasper won't be able to have another baby. I feel selfish for even wanting another baby when we already have one perfectly healthy and happy daughter."

"Alice you have far from selfish. You and Jasper made a beautiful little girl and there is nothing selfish about wanting to have another baby together, that's only natural that you would want another. And your doctor said that you guys have a very strong chance of having another baby. Your body held up quite well having Kimberly." Kimmy squealed loudly hearing her name being said. Her cute noises finally brought a smiling to her mom's face, making her laugh.

"She is right sweetheart. Please try to not be so hard on yourself MaryAlice. You're a wonderful mother and wife. You carried a beautiful baby, you gave birth to her and have nourished from your body nine whole months. You are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for." Esme motherly voice sounded from the front seat. Esme always knew what to say, I hope one day my kids feel that way about me.

"Mom, got me all weepy again." Esme reached back, patting her daughter leg. Rose smiled and handed Alice another tissue from her purse. "Thanks." Alice said as she took the tissue and wiped her face off, blowing her nose once again. Before I knew it, we were pulling into a parking spot at The Pink Door, actually managing to find a spot up close, on a Sunday.

I unstrapped the baby from her car seat and handed her over to Alice. I didn't want to risk dropping her, as I climbed out of the very back. Alice already moved Kimberly into those rear facing seats, so we couldn't bring her car seat inside with us. I just used an infant carrier with Masen, until he was about thirteen or fourteen months old. After that I switched him into a rear facing toddler seat. Masen was a chunky baby and just got too heavy for me to carry in the carseat. I honestly would have switched him sooner, but I sadly didn't have the money for that.

Kimberly was happy to be out of the car and into her mother's arms. I'm sure she was being passed around by Esme, Sue and Rosalie while, I tried on dresses, so I'm sure she must have missed Alice by now. Or she might have just been hungry with how she was rooting at Alice, trying to eat through her shirt. "Oh Lee, Lee, mommy will feed you as soon as we get settled." Alice patted her bum and softly bounced her as we stood waiting for a table. I couldn't help but think of all the times, I stood just like that with Masen, time seems to just fly by so quickly. It truly feels like it was just yesterday that Masen was Kimmy's age.

A young man with dark hair and a bright smile walked over to the welcoming desk immediately grabbing our menus. "Hello welcome to The Pink Door, how many do we have today?"

"Five and a high chair please." Esme answered. The waiter grabbed five menus and used his free hand to grab a high chair leaning it against his hip. We all followed him as he lead us towards the back to a table with a beautiful view of their courtyard. "Your server will be with you shortly." We all thanked him settled down at our table, Alice grabbed the diaper bag and pulled out her breastfeeding cover, waisting no time in feed her hungry baby.

We didn't have to wait long for our waitress, she came over with the same sunny disposition as the host had. "Hello my name is Leah, I will be your server today. Can I start you guys off with some drinks." I chuckled at her name. Her and my step-sister might have shared the name, but they didn't look alike whatsoever. Our Leah had a darker complexion with big brown eyes and black hair that looked like pure silk. Where this young woman had platinum blonde hair and piercing blue eyes, and she smiled more than our Leah did.

"I would like iced tea please and I also want a bottle of champagne to be brought to the table. We're celebrating!" Esme exclaimed. The rest of us put in our drink order and I ordered us some Tuscan fries to start out with. Edward took me here for my birthday dinner and we had some of these fries and they're just delicious!

"So Bella, do you think Masen will want to go back to school again?" Rosalie asked, her elbows leaning against the table as she wrapped her hands around her cup, her long red finger nails tapping the glass. "I am honestly not sure, Rose. Some days he is begging to go to school, but once he sits and truly thinks about it, he panics because, me and Edward wouldn't be there."

"That is a very understandable fear." Alice said. It was very understandable, I just hoped that it didn't take over my son's whole life. He deserved to have a "normal" childhood.

"Has the therapy helped him? Or you and Edward for that matter?" Rosalie asked. "Lots! for each of us." I replied nodding my head. "Dr Curtis has been wonderful for Masen. She has help tremendously with his separation anxiety. Like two weeks ago, Masen would have never left my side for this long, I know he would have ended up coming with me today, if it wasn't for Dr Curtis." Not that I would have minded having my son with me. But I know how excited Edward was to have some guy time with Mase.

"That's wonderful! He is such a strong little guy. I can't imagine me having the same strength that Masen has had, during this time. Despite everything that was thrown his way, he is still smiling." Rose was right, Masen was the strongest person I've ever met.

"Is he excited about the wedding?" I smiled at Sue's question. I don't think I would ever tire of talking about my son.

"He is soo excited! Surprisingly, he can't wait to stand up there next to Edward and to hand him my ring. I was a little worried he wouldn't want to stand up there, but he's excited for it all. He will also have his uncles up there to help, if he needs it."

"And he will have all his grandparent on the front row!" Esme added. Either way, Masen was going to have everyone he needed.

Conversation flowed easily between us girls, but when you added champagne and pomegranate martinis into the mix, we chatted it up for over two hours. We caught up on everything, laughed way too hard and talked about things that we probably shouldn't have, but is that not the whole point of lunch with the ladies. I ate the best lasagna known to man and then to top it off, I had a large piece of chocolate hazelnut cake.

By the time Esme dropped me off at the house, I was completely stuffed and I wanted nothing more than to get out of this dress and take a nap. But I opened my front door and was met with a house that was in complete disarray.

The throw blankets were slung around all over the living room. Masen's toys seemed to be scattered everywhere starting from his room all the way into my kitchen and covered our dining room table. The back door was left open. Letting all the cold air inside the house. Masen and Edward were nowhere to be seen. I knew they were home because Edward's Volvo was parked in the driveway, right beside my own car.

I pulled my boots off, leaning then up against the door. Making sure to lock the front door behind me. First things first, I went over and slid the back door closed, making sure to lock that as well. Figuring it was best, I started in the living room picking up Masen's toys, following the trail of them as I went, the pile growing quickly as I picked up tonnes of Batman action figures, trucks of all shapes and sizes, an array of pretend weapons with those little plastic bullets lying all around my house. I should have been more upset over this mess, but it wasn't hard to tell that Masen, had a very fun day with his Daddy and Uncles. How could I be mad about that.

Soon enough my arms were too full of toys to hold anything else, I bypassed the rest of the toys on the floor, going for Masen bedroom, so I could empty my arms. I was half way expecting to find my boys in there, but when I walked inside Masen's room it was empty. Well, besides the mess of toys of course.

Walking over to my son's wooden toy chest, I simply opened my arms, letting the pile of toys fall from my arms and into the toy box, with a loud crash.

I quickly turned my head, looking at Masen door, ready for him and Edward to come running, trying to figure out what that loud noise was. But it was still eerily silent in my house. Suddenly I had an anxious pit forming in the middle of my stomach. Making the hair on the back of my neck stand up.

Forgetting my task of cleaning up. Well more like abandoning my task of cleaning, I dashed out of Masen's room and went straight for mine and Edward's room. The door was partially closed, only a small crack leaving the door open just enough that the latch didn't fully shut. With shaking hands, I pushed the door open and walked inside. With how we had our room set up, the first thing I saw was our bathroom door, which was wide open and the light was shut off, it looked exactly how I left it this afternoon.

Walking farther into our bedroom, I breathed a sigh of relief as I spotted my two boys all cuddled together fast asleep, Edward was lying on his back with one arm above his head and Masen laid right up against his side with his baby pushed up against his face, just how he liked to sleep.

The credits of some Batman movies were playing on our tv, the music sounded very loud in our bedroom, I was actually surprised i didn't hear the tv already. I felt so relieved to see them both there safe and sound, that tears started to well up in my eyes, rolling down my cheeks. I was so tired of being scared all the time. Feeling like I had to constantly be looking over my shoulder.

Using the buttons behind the television, I turned it off and made way my over to our queen sized bed. Another thing we will be getting once we move, a bigger bed!

I crawled into our bed, cuddling up to Edward, breathing in the smell of his cologne, my body fully relaxing for the first time today. Edward shifted slightly closer towards Masen, giving me more room to lay down. He wrapped one arm around me resting his large hand on my head let his fingers tangle in my hair and used his free hand to grasp my thigh, pulling it up and over his hip. He didn't release my leg, but kept his hand there, his thumb rubbing the inside of my thigh.

"I missed you, Love." He said, kissing my head. I pecked his chest, letting his steady heartbeat sooth my worries. "I missed you, Edward. So very much." His long fingers were busy tracing patterns along my side.

"Did you find you a dress, baby?" I nodded, a smile on my face, thinking about my beautiful wedding dress. "I did and it's just perfect." I knew he was going to love the dress. But he was going to love what was underneath the dress even more. "Did you get yours and Masen's suits?" I asked.

"Yes ma'am. He looked very handsome in his suit too." I wondered if I would be lucky enough to convince, Masen to try it on again. Edward sent me a picture, but I was just dying to see his outfit in person.

"Maybe he will try it on for me." Edward's deep laugh told me that wasn't going to happen. "Very unlikely, Love. He was ready to get out of it as soon as it was on him. He loved how he looked, but he said it wasn't as comfortable as his other clothes." I giggled, at the thought. I could just see Masen all red and flustered trying to convince his daddy to take off the suit.

"Thankfully he only has to wear the full outfit for a couple hours, if even that. At the reception, he can change into something more casual."

"I wanna change too!" He joked, but if he was being honest, I don't think it was fully a joke. "My poor baby, I will make sure you have something to change into." I cooed. Leaning up, I cupped the side of his face in my hand, my fingers rubbing the slight beard, he was growing. "The beard is so sexy on you, Edward." I whispered. The smirk he gave me, was just as sexy as that beard was.

"You are the sexy one, Isabella." My face flushed at my full name, he knew what he was doing, what it did to me when he said my name like that. So full of power and want. My thighs went to push together to find friction, but with Edward's thigh wedged between mine, i stopped cold. Peeking up at Edward through my lashes, he was smiling down at me with a wide grin and patted my butt.

"Later baby." He laughed. "Did you have fun with the ladies? My mom has already texted me earlier, talking about how, beautiful you are and gushing over your dress. She can't wait for you to officially be a Cullen." I couldn't hold back my smile, I had been smiling so much today, my cheeks actually hurt! Esme is truly the mom, I never had. She has loved me like a daughter from the moment we met during college orientation. She never once judged me for being a young single mom, she accepted me and my baby without even hearing our story, helped me through many sleepless nights, potty training. Taught me how to give Masen baby foods, listened to me cry when I felt overwhelmed in those early stages of motherhood. She was one my biggest inspiration and has molded me into the mother, I am today.

"I know this might not sound very traditional, but I would really love to give a speech at our wedding and just thank your parents and honestly your whole family for everything they have done for me. Edward I wouldn't be sitting here with you about to get married, if it wasn't for them. Alice knew she was going to be sharing a dorm with a girl who had a baby, well was going to have a baby. I was pregnant when I met Alice for the first time.

"I think that's a wonderful idea, Bella. I'm sure they would all love that." It was settled then. Now I just need to write down a speech, but it should be easy when you are just speaking from the heart.

"Hi mommy." Masen pushed the blanket off his face and giving me a sleepy smile. "Hey buddy. Have you had a fun day?" He nodded, tucking himself closer to Edward's side. Edward moved his arm and wrapped it around Masen. "I'm glad you had a good time Mase, I missed you!" Stretching my arm over Edward, I brushed Masen's crazy hair out of his face. His curls were always so crazy when he woke up, most likely from sleeping with the blanket over his head.

"I missed you Mommy. Guess what! I got to see uncle Emmy again!" I laughed. Masen still wasn't fully understand that, Rosalie and Emmett live here now and he gets to see them whenever he pleases. "That's so awesome Masen, I got to see Auntie Rose today too. She helped me pick out my wedding dress."

"I wanna see your dress mommy!" Masen jumped up, bouncing on the bed full of excitement. "It's at Auntie Al's house Masen, I will have to show you some other time. I'm sorry." I apologized, I wished I had it with me, so I could have shown him then and there.

"That's ok, mommy. That just means I get to go see Lee,Lee! I love going to see my baby cousin."

"She loves getting to see you Masen. I'm pretty sure you are Lee, Lee's favorite cousin!" I winked at him. Little did he know, he is Kimberly's only cousin. But she still loved him nonetheless. "She is my favorite cousin too! Daddy is Lee, Lee your favorite cousin too?" Edward laughed at his silly question, the way Masen's mind worked, was truly adorable.

"Kimberly is not my cousin, Buddy. Lee, Lee is actually my niece, because Auntie Alice is my sister." Masen's mouth made a little O shape. His mind trying to work all this out. How could Kimmy not be everyone's cousin when she was Masen's cousin. "I know it's confusing, but you will understand when you get a little older honey." Masen's just shrugged, clearly not caring that much.

We all pulled ourselves out of this comfortable bed and worked together to get the house back in order once again…well me and Edward worked together, but Masen ditched us half way through so he could play with his toys in his clean room. He had a busy day and I was just thankful he wanted to be alone. He hasn't wanted alone time since everything happened and Masen was the type of kid, who really thrived are having a few moments alone to play quietly. I'm glad he was finally starting to get back to that point.

Together we made a small dinner and all sat together at the table, sharing our favorite parts of today. Afterwards we gave Masen a bath and Mase had tons of fun splashing his daddy with water. His sweet giggles filling our house with so much joy and happiness. I couldn't wait to have another child with Edward and have double of the happiness in our home!

I fell into my bed with a sigh of relief. I had managed to get through today alive and I had accomplished finding my dream wedding dress! Edward got his suit. The decorations have been purchased, the venue has been reserved, the church has given the ok for our wedding ceremony, Esme was handling our cake and the catering, so now all we needed to do was get married!

"Are you still awake?" Edward whispered, the rumble from his chest as he spoke tickled my cheek. "Yes." I replied back, just as quiet. Masen was asleep in his own bedroom and definitely couldn't hear us all the way in here, but we still whispered either way.

Edward wiggle down the bed until he was facing me, his nose almost touching mine. "Hi." He whispered once again, before pressing his lips against mine.

I giggled, wrapping my arms around his broad shoulders and pulling him closer. I opened my mouth, my tongue tracing his soft lips.

Edward opened his mouth, letting his sweet breath into my mouth and wrapping his tongue around mine, letting me take full control of the kiss. Grasping my hip in one hand and my thigh in the other, he pulled my leg around him and rolled, pulling me on top of him. He never let our kiss break, keeping his lips firmly against mine.

He pulled back slightly, taking in a much needed deep breath. "Only 48 more days until you are officially Mrs Cullen." He gave me a big goofy grin and I'm sure I was wearing the same goofy grin myself. "I can't wait to marry you Mr Cullen." He grabbed my chin and pulled me back down to kiss him, his hands resting on my ass for a moment before pulling up on the hem of the blue nightgown, I wore to bed.

"As sexy as this little number is, I feel like it would be much prettier on the floor." I giggled, lifting my arms up in the air allowing him to pull the gown over my head. "I was right, much better on the floor." He said with a sigh as his eyes roamed over my body. His hand drew up my side, rubbing the sides of my breast. "Edward.." I breathed, I longed to feel those hands on me, or even better those magical lips.

As if he read my mind, he sat up and started kissing down my neck, sucking lightly on my pulse point, most likely leaving a hickey there. But I honestly didn't even care, he was mine, just as I am his. Besides I knew, I would get my turn to give him a mark of my own.

I moaned loudly as his lips finally wrapped around my nipple, already sucking it into his mouth, flicking the taut nipple with his tongue, his hand went to my breast twisting and pulling it, making sure both breast had his equal attention.

Not wanting to forget about him, I ran my hands over his shoulders and down his stomach, loving the way his muscles flexed under my touch. Using my finger nails, I scratched the trail of hair leading down into his sleep pants, letting my fingers drag over his hard cock. He let out a deep groan, his head leaning back against the bed frame. As if he sensed me watching him, his green eyes opened and met mine. Heavy and full of desire, desire that was all for me.

Keeping my hand on him, I pressed my lips against his, not wasting a moment to invade his mouth with my tongue. Suddenly, Edward pulled me away and sat me beside him. Quickly he hopped out of bed and jogged over to our door and locking it shut, all while yanking his pajamas pants down. I couldn't help but giggle, watching him rush around our room half naked. I wanted to call him cute, but I knew how much he hated that, even though he was very cute!

Pulling the covers back, he climbed back into our bed, pulling me back into his arms. "Don't want to scar him for life?" I questioned, laughing as I did. My giggles grew heavier as Edward blushed and ducked his head down. I knew immediately that there had to be a story behind this, one that I needed to know about! "Edward?..Did you get scarred for life?" He chuckled, nodding his head yes. But his eyes showed his true disgust.

"Yes and I don't want to think about that right now Bella. I want to be able to actually make love to my beautiful fiancé tonight and I'm not sure I can do that while thinking about…that." He shivered, burying his face into my neck, I could feel the heat coming off his flushed cheeks and I had to bite my lip to keep from laughing even more.

"Aww Edward! I'm sorry baby, I won't bring it up again." My hands tangled in his hair, hopeful that would coax him out of his hiding. I also would like to have my fiancé make love to me, but I can't have that if he's hiding away from me. "Please let me kiss it and make it all better." He scoffed against my neck, but my words work, as finally Edward pulled away and looked down at me. "Tell me where it hurts baby." He grinned, his eyes sparkling with excitement.

His long fingers tapped his cheek, turning his waiting for my kiss. Not wanting to keep him waiting, I keep his cheek and cupped his face, turning it the other way and kissed that cheek too. "Does anywhere else hurt?" I asked softly, hoping I didn't sound too silly, but I could feel his excitement pressing against me, so I assumed I was doing something right.

"My lips are feeling very sore, Love." I smiled and pulling his face closer to mine. "Well we can't have that, now can we." I kissed his bottom lip just light pecks, before doing the same thing to his top lip before kissing him fully on the mouth. His arms immediately wound tightly around my middle, his tongue demanding mine to come out and play.

His hips started rocking into mine, I moaned at the delicious friction he was making against my clit. "Edward..I need you." His lips started kissing down my throat, leaving open mouth kisses on the tops of my breast. "You have me baby, I'm right here." Locking my legs around his hips, his hardness was pressing right where I needed it, all I needed was for him to move down just an inch.

"Edward please..please." He chuckled and I thought he was going to make me flat out ask him to make love to me. But he kissed me softly as he slid inside of me, finally making me feel so complete. "Jesus, Bella you always feel so good..so tight." I moaned at his words, running my fingers through his soft hair.

"I love you so much." I whispered, he was looking at me with so much love, with each thrust, I felt more relaxed and at ease. No one made me feel better like Edward could.

"I love you beautiful. You are my everything, baby." His thrust became more rough as we chased our release. He was hitting that wonderful spot inside that had my legs quivering. "I'm so close!" I cried out, I wanted him to come with me, but I was having a hard time expressing anything right now. But he always knew what I needed or wanted. His hand slide down my stomach, in between my legs, rubbing my clit as he angled his hips upwards, playing my body like I was his piano.

Stomach clenched tightly, that coil inside getting tighter with each wonderful thrust of his hips. Edward pinched my clit and lightly bit down on my neck. "Yes!! Oh Edward." I cried, my orgasm washed over me like a freight train, my whole body seemed to be shaking from it and I was so busy with myself I barely made sure, Edward had come with me.

"Even when I think our sex life doesn't get any better then it is. It gets a thousand times better!" I laughed loudly, you never knew what was going to come out of Edward's mouth sometimes. "Well Mr Cullen, we have many, many years to see just how much better it can get." Edward kissed me passionately, his hands rubbing my sides.

"I can't wait for it all, Mrs Cullen." With one last kiss, he carefully pulled his body from mine, I whimpered in response, feeling sad at the emptiness. "I know, but let's get clean up and we can cuddle." He said, rubbing my cheek. He leaned down and kissed me once and slipped out of bed walking to our bathroom.

He returned moments later with a warm washcloth and a big smile. Even though he has seen every part of me and more, I still blushed and his hand went underneath the covers and gently cleaned me. Edward went into the bathroom so he disposed of the washcloth, I leaned over the bed finding my nightgown and slipped it over my head. Though I longed to sleep skin to skin with Edward, Masen usually find his way back into our bed most nights and I would rather have some type of clothing on.

Edward seemed to be on the same mindset because he came back from the bathroom wearing his sleep pants once again. Making sure he unlocked the bedroom door before he came and got back into bed, wrapping his arms around me and holding me close. "Sleep my Bella. We have had a busy day and I'm exhausted." He was right, it was a long and busy day, but gosh was it a good day. I wish all days could be just like today. But if they end with me wrapped up in Edward's arms, it's a wonderful day.

If anyone is interested, Bella's wedding dress is just the same one from the movie. Did yall know her actual dress cost 35,000 dollars! And here I am cringing over the fact we spent 200 on my sister's wedding dress :-/

Has anyone watched, Wicked yet? I thought it was FABULOUS! I've already watched it sooo many times and not to mention I've had the soundtrack on repeat! Completely obsessed over it and if I had the talent, I would totally dabble in writing a Wicked fanfic. Lol

Till next time ~Jade

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