Chapter 17: Mine regardless

Sam's POV

The Next Day

A wise man by the name of Bobby Singer once said family do not end in blood. Whose Bobby Singer you ask? Bobby Singer was a friend of my father John Winchester who became a father figure to me and Dean along the way. For reasons unknown even to us we called him Uncle Bobby when we were small children but now, we call him Bobby. Anyway, the point I am trying to make is that my brother is the one having a baby from a fertility goddess as you already know that is not mine for Jessica and me to raise. That baby is my niece or nephew (we have not found out the gender yet).

Even if was not in any way related to me, I would love it as if it were my own. I mean it will be mine regardless of the circumstances it got here. I just wish Jessica could have children whether she met me at the time or not regardless of if it were mine or not. Do not get me wrong I love that I will get to call my niece or nephew my daughter or son, but it is just not the same in some ways.

So, you can see why I went off on my brother the other day without meaning to which is why I am going to beg for forgiveness now. After taking a shower and being careful not to wake Jessica as I get dressed for today, I head downstairs. I am met with the sight of Dean laying on the couch smiling with a pair of headphones set on his stomach and his hands on either side of his stomach as he watches the tv.

"What are you watching?" I asked as I kicked his legs off the couch to sit beside him. He placed the headphones on the table in front of him and set up on the couch.

"A tv show called Yellowstone," he passes me his iPod and motions for me to put the headphones on. "I downloaded some kid friendly music to this along with some of my favorite songs for her to keep as she gets older to remember me by. I played some for her before you came down here."

"You think it's a girl?" I go through the list of songs and play one at random called My Wish by Rascal Flatts. "What do you mean by songs that she will remember you by?"

Dean nods his head before answering with a tone of hurt in his voice. "You said once this is all over, you are done with me. After she is born, she will not be able to get to know me because I am leaving her with you and Jess like you wanted."

"Do you want the baby to know you?"

Dean nods his head sadly, "But it does not matter because you do not want me around and what you think matters to me."

"How could you even for one second think I would not want you to stick around? You are my brother. I did not mean any of what I said-"

"Tell me to stay after she's born, and I'll believe you."

I did not tell him this but ever since I told him what he said I did, I have been thinking of asking him to move in with me and Jessica after the baby was born. I planned to have the baby know him as uncle until she or he got older to tell them the truth.

I did not realize he was waiting for a response, so he took it the wrong way and bowed his head and began to cry in earnest as he covered his face.

"That is fine. I will stay with Bobby or find somewhere else to live after she gets here," Dean lifted his head and looked directly at me, and I was struck by the pain I saw there. He went to get up as he wiped his face, and I stood up with him. "I can do you one better. I'll leave now and come back when it's almost time-"

"Stay with us after the baby gets here!"

"You mean that?"

"Yeah. Don't go."

Dean turned around and hugged me like his life depended on it and I hugged back just as tightly before letting go.

"Have you thought of any names?"

"I thought you and Jess would want to name her."

"Yeah, we would but I want to know names you picked."

"Samuel if it is a boy and Samantha if it is a girl but I am perfectly sure it is a girl."

I laughed until I realized he was serious because he was not laughing. "Really?"

"You can change them if you would like. I just always thought that if any time I had a kid I would name them after my brother."

"I will keep those in mind, but I have to check in with Jess about it. Am I forgiven?"

"Yes, you are. Would you like to watch Yellowstone with me?"

"Sure."

And that is how Jessica found them. She had come down to ask for something but in the end decided to not ruin their bonding time and went back upstairs. She smiled to herself wishing she had a sister like her boyfriend Sam had a brother.

Author's note: Hope everyone likes this chapter including you ncsupnatfan since you were hoping for Sam's point of view. Remember to favorite, follow, and or review! Reviews make my day!