Bo stretched her arms out as she watched Lauren eat the last of her breakfast and wiped her mouth with a napkin. "So, you've slept in my house. Used my shower and eaten my food. Can you move in now?."
"Bo." Lauren said and winced.
"Lauren, all I want is you. You have always been who I wanted." Bo took a seat.
"You're a succubus, Bo. You want a lot of people." Lauren lifted her head.
"Wow. You've never mocked my succubus before." Bo frowned.
"I am not mocking her, Bo. I was just saying that as a succubus you want and will want a lot of people. Not exactly exclusive to me." The doctor leaned back in her seat and took a breath. She had almost eaten too much food which meant that her stomach was almost tight. She has never liked that feeling.
"Wrong. My heart is exclusive to you. My love is exclusive to you. You just never knew that, and I never said that until now. Yes, my succubus nature made me sleep with other people to heal. It sucked but that's who I was." The succubus sat looking at the blonde and nothing else. Not the empty walls behind her. Not the window that was being pelted by rain. Perfect really. This is the perfect stay in weather. Lauren won't want to go out anywhere. At least, Bo hopes she doesn't.
"You will want other people, Bo. It's your nature. What you have to do. What you can't resist doing. We'll be out somewhere like that party and your eye will spot someone. It's just who you are." Lauren pulled her hair over her shoulder.
"I was shocked to see her there. That's all. She gave me all this shit about why she wouldn't come. I needed her there in case some shit went down, and it did. That's all she was to me. All that she is to me. Everything about my love for you is in my kiss. In the way that I make love to you. In the way that I hold you. In the way that I look at you. Like I am looking at you right now. I wish I had told you all of this sooner. But as smart as you are, I thought you knew or would have at least picked up on it." Bo rubbed her head.
"I never said you don't love me. I said I know you will have others. That's not fair to me. It has never been fair to me. But as smart as I am, I am not sure that I can overlook it anymore." Laruen opened her mouth to say something else but allowed the thought to die in her head.
Bo took a massive breath to stave off losing her temper. "Don't you get it, Lauren? We're different. We are different because you bravely jumped into that bed with my father and me and changed everything. I won't ever need another love. I won't need to look because I am looking at my future right now. I would tell the whole word to fuck off for you. You brought me out of the darkness and literally jumped into it to save me. I know you're a doctor. You believe in helping people. That's your nature. Your life's work and I don't mean being a scientist. I mean being a wonderful woman to everyone. Whether they deserve it or not." Bo stood and walked to get them something to drink. She cringed when she saw how empty her kitchen is.
"You are the same way. You will go on these cases. You will help people. You look after the frightened and helpless. There is nothing wrong with that. But why would I want to date someone like me?." Lauren asked watched as Bo made fists with her hands.
"You're right. I am like you. You don't have to want to date me. But you will. You will when you see how much I love you. You will when I prove how much I love you. I will prove it all. You think they are a competition for you? They are not. Competition means something or someone having what could be yours. I am yours." Bo wiped some tears away. Lauren has lost whatever she believed was Bo's love for her. She has lost the urge to want to kiss the woman. She has lost them. But in the doctor's defense, she watched Bo choose someone that wasn't herself or Dyson. She heard her sleep with Dyson. She listened to Tamsin telling her how close she and Bo had gotten. All of this not knowing that none of that mattered. It was just something that happened while the succubus waited for the doctor to return to her. Now, while said doctor sits in her living room. Her body can be in so many places but her heart never left the doctor's body.
"I don't know." Lauren finally replied.
"I do know. But I can't blame you for feeling the way you do. Had I done this before. Had I actually said the words, you wouldn't have had a single moment to doubt me. To doubt us. When Evony had you, I knew it was your decision to stay. It was the right thing to do. No matter how painful it was to me. It wasn't my right or my choice to try and force you to come back because I was just going to wing it until I found a way to free you. The easy choice would have been to force Hale's hand. But I didn't want to do that and piss Kenzi off. She had already been somewhat distant since she was kidnapped. We hadn't gotten as close as we were at that time." Bo yanked at her hair and pulled. "What I'm trying to say is, that can accept that you don't want our relationship again yet. You don't want to date me and all that's fair. I will wait forever for you, Lauren. I will also find a way to feed that doesn't involve anyone else.
You said oh boy at the party and I asked oh boy yes or oh boy no. It is clear to me that we are resolved to oh boy not yet.
You can go and do whatever you want to do. Don't worry about me, I need to shop and fill this house with furniture." Bo turned away and walked towards her bedroom to get her phone. She only had internet through her service provider, so her desktop is not ready to be used at the moment. She sat on her bed and listened as Lauren walked around and eventually walked out. She dropped her phone and sat staring at a blank wall hoping answers would magically write themselves on the fresh paint for her to read.
Lauren.
The doctor climbed into her car and looked at the house behind her. She didn't want to hurt Bo or to be so standoffish, but she can't help it. She's not sure if she's the same woman that woman loves. She can't be sure just thinking about it. There are two sides to this. Human science and whatever the fight with Hades did to her. Fae science. She's the only Fae doctor that she knows. The only one alive since Sam died recently.
She thought about her clinic and how so much had happened there in so little time. They brought Bo who had been severely stabbed. It didn't make sense to her then since all Bo needed to do was heal. Her succubus was gone and that was hindering it. Then when the succubus returned, she wanted Dyson.
She removed her sunglasses and wiped her face with her hand. It's not about not wanting a relationship with Bo. It's about finding how to get that back and that won't leave her dumbfounded.
She started her car and slowly drove away. Kenzi left because she got tired of the fae bullshit and the most powerful one they all know wants to date Lauren. Bo knows what her succubus can and can't do. Lauren doesn't know what she can and can't do anymore. Not with so much in her DNA now. And her true nature is leading her to a clinic.
She wants to test and retest her blood until the same results bore her. Those same results will make her certain and uncertain of what she is. That's how her brain works. No matter how exact she believes science to be, she'll always wonder what if.
Trick and Dyson.
"I have heard the rumblings." Trick turned around to the wolf before he could even speak.
"I am not so much as worried about them as I am Aife. Things were going pretty smoothly, Trick. Nobody knew about Aife until we needed her. Like letting a monster of out of the box." Dyson took a seat and rubbed the back of his neck. That succubus always makes him nervous and wolf hairs stand up all over his body.
"I needed to know who Bo's father was. I didn't have a choice. We have a choice by leaving her alone unless she attacks one of us. All she ever wanted was her mother back and to find her daughter. She has one of those." Trick looked around the bar. It wasn't slow, slow but it wasn't busy busy either. By now Kenzi would be up to something. Some game of pool with Dyson or sitting and going at it with Hale.
"But Bo and Lauren…Dyson started.
"Are nothing to you." Aife smiled from the stairs leading to Trick's lair.
"They are nothing to you, either." Trick replied.
"Wrong. The doctor went in and saved my daughter from her father. The ultimate test of good vs evil. And good won. She and Isabeau are alive and happy. Even if they are not a couple yet, your fumbling antics won't prevent it." The old succubus started walking towards the bar. "Glass of your most expensive wine."
Trick couldn't do anything but look at the woman. Isabeau but nastier. She wasn't always this angry. Her mother's death broke whatever good was in the woman. Now, she's a mother and looks somewhat relaxed but still pissed off at the world. Probably because she was the one that avenged Isabeau's death. Trick thought about doing that for many years afterwards, but that would have blown his Blood King cover. He hadn't any idea where the Una Mens were and that scared him. They were too powerful to take on by himself, but the Queen's namesake took them out for good. Bo had listened to Rainer's foresight guidance, and they were dead afterwards. Funny, really. Rainer is the one that Bo mourned the most when Kenzi moved away. Now, Rainer's gone, Kenzi's still gone and Bo is back to trying to love on Lauren again. He shook off his musings and looked to find something else to do before he thought about his granddaughter's sex life.
Lauren.
The doctor sat looking over her lab equipment. Could she do it? Could she really run her own labs and trust the results. She has stabbed so many people over the years with needles, yet she sat there too nervous and unsure to stick herself.
Silly really. While she does believe in Bo's love, who does she love is an even bigger question. Sure, they are different but the blonde needs to know how different. Obviously, she has something big inside of her. Something born out of their fight with Hades. It was literally hot and painful. But Bo got more shots on him than Lauren did. She turned it into protecting the doctor more than protecting herself. She knew it the minute Bo saw her. Even in the dark.
Stop being a coward, Lewis and test your blood. She grabbed the needle and in it went. She didn't need to immediately cover the wound because it was already covered because being a doctor is first nature to her and pain is second.
She thought about what she just thought. How being a doctor is her first nature. Could it also be her first reaction to everything in life, including love?
She finished filling the vials and started running her tests. She stared at the machine and fell into her thoughts again.
Has being a doctor in fact guided every decision of her life? Heal them and not thyself first? She had been crushed and cut off for so long until that dark haired succubus walked into their lives.
Bo has always been..something to Lauren. Something moving around her mind. Moving around in her body. Moving her from the bullshit that she had become accustomed to with the Fae. She was rude in patches but deeply kind in others. That first day, she wasn't sure what to think of the woman. She looked so innocent and lost until her succubus showed up in the hand touching. She knew what she could do but not who she was. That came from the doctor.
She took a loud breath and let it go. Finding a small blanket and seat, she sat. No matter what the results say, she will still have questions. Questions about what it will all mean. What does it mean about her and Bo as friends? As more? Will she need the succubus stuck to her ass in order to use whatever is going on in her body? No. Bo wouldn't do that to her. Not even if she asked. She'd allow her to move on her own. To groove on her own.
That night Kenzi left, Bo came over to Lauren's late, late at night. As they talked and Bo got to see a little bit of Lauren's new life, the doctor tried her best to get Bo out of her funk. But she simply stayed there. She wouldn't accept a hug, only a drink. Then a few days later, she was stabbed and brought to Lauren. Even then there was a part of the doctor that had been hesitant to treat her. It had already been a long enough day without helping a woman that simply needed to heal using her succubus, but the succubus was absent until she wasn't with Dyson. Absent even when Lauren said the brunette still had her heart.
She kicked a chair over and closed her eyes. That wasn't her. Just months…years of letting the shit pile up and on her brain.
Bo wants another chance. To do what exactly? Get wounded and need Dyson, again? Why, why, why did she have to fall for a succubus? Not that there's anything wrong being a succubus but it's wrong that her human lover must wait and likely listen to her sleep with others. Hades has come and gone and that still hangs over them like the world pointing and laughing.
"Whatever it is, we'll be fine." A soft voice made the doctor freeze in place.
"When did you get here?." Lauren asked.
"About half an hour ago. I was watching you from the outer office window. I can go if you'd like?." Bo offered after picking the chair up.
"Good. I need you to. I can't do this with you here." Lauren replied.
"Ok. But I won't be far." Bo smiled and walked back out. She kept her eyes up and her head straight. She could have asked why she wanted her to go. But Lauren always has a reason. Always a cause. Pushing now would push the doctor completely out of her life and out of any chance of being Bo's again. She cleared her throat and climbed into her car again. She smiled at how she knew exactly where the doctor was because Lauren never stops being a doctor. A scientist.
Lauren stood waiting for the tests to be done. With Bo there so suddenly, she wanted answers just as suddenly. If not infinite answers than a clue. Something her brain can dissect or determine her next steps.
Her Bo Dennis study files will help. She can compare her results to Bo's results. Her recent ones that is.
Stop it. She scolded herself. Stop making everything including science about science.
After the results were ready and a few hours had passed, the doctor decided enough was enough and she needed to try and rest her brain. She did find matching traits that could be a clue to why her hands light up when Bo says heal but she's too tired to investigate any further into the night. She closed down her computer system after making a usb of her findings. She put it in her lab coat pocket and grabbed another coat to put on over it. She locked up and turned around and took in the night air. She didn't need to look to know that Bo was there. Staring directly at the woman. She smiled and held out a bag. "Thought you'd be hungry."
"Not fast food." Lauren shook her head no.
"Not exactly. It is fast food, but fast because I had to fix this in a hurry. It's one of your recipes or something that was scribbled on a napkin." Bo smiled and popped her passenger door open for the blonde.
"Bo, I'm sorry." Lauren said gently closing the door behind her.
"No. Don't do that. You were just being you. A scientist." Bo started her car and the smell from it being washed hit her nose.
"I am always going to be a doctor. Think like one. That's all I have been doing today. All that I have ever done. You want a relationship, I am not sure I can do that anymore. I can't no more turn my brain off than you can not go on those cases." Lauren watched the road as she spoke. Every white line started and ended when she spoke.
"Lauren, I knew that when I met you and every day since then. There is nothing wrong with you being a doctor that will turn me away from you. It's who you are and who you are is who I love. It's all of you that I love." Bo took a hand and reached for Lauren's. She sped up on contact and let go. "Okay. That was different. We are going back to your clinic, and we will stay there until we find absolute answers because this could get very interesting." Bo put both hands back on the steering wheel but continued to verbally dote on the doctor as she drove. She prepared to be poked and prodded. It has never been annoying when this doctor does it.
TBC