A Bad Love
This has NOT been proof read so I apologise in advance!
In this Chapter it goes in to more detail about why Bella became Izzy and why she is the way she is, there will be a bit of drama in this.
Previously...
"What the hell was that!" Charlie said looking over his shoulder walking back in to the room, feeling out of loop.
"You will find out soon Charlie. You will find out soon" Aro replied vaguely before him and Marcus ran out after their brother, leaving everyone feeling dazed.
"CAN ANY ONE PLEASE EXPLAIN WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON!" Izzy yelled snapping out of her daze. No one really looked that shocked from her reaction. One of the three brothers just launched himself at her and screamed that she was his, any would act the way she is.
"Izzy Darlin' we can't explain that to you. You will have to let Caius do the explainin' it's not our place to" Jasper told her wrapping his arm around her shoulder trying to calm her
"That isn't true Jasper dear, you know Caius is just trying to mess with Bella's head!" Alice simpered Peter and Charlotte glared at the pixie like vampire
"What have I told you about calling me Bella!" Izzy snapped "What are you even still doing here? Didn't my dad say you weren't welcome in this house anymore? You cant really say anything about anyone fucking with my head because that's all you lot did! You guys don't know the half of what has happed to me since you left so shut the fuck up!"
"Then why don't you tell us! Instead of saying we ruined your life tell us what has happened so we can help you instead of making us feel guilty all the bloody time!" Edward yelled "We did it for your safety, why can't you understand that!"
"You really want to know what has been going on since you left?" Izzy growled, making everyone flinch "You really want to know how you ruined my bloody life! DO YOU?" Edward looked hesitant to answer
"Y-yes!" He stuttered
"Really? Because I don't think you do! You don't want to see the truth in behind what happened when you all left! You don't want to see what you could have stopped but didn't! After all I am only human, I have a mind like a sieve right? I can easily forget? WELL IM STILL WAITING TO BLOODY FORGET!" There was a groan from the couch, indicating that Perrie had woken up. Caius Marcus and Aro walked back into the room, looking at everyone confused
"Izzy, sweetie calm down! You know what happens when you get too angry" Charlie said
"My power isn't effecting her!" Jasper said frantically "That's never happened before"
"It wont now, she's too angry. It's too late, Charlie its going to happen" Paul whispered to Charlie sadly. Izzy started shaking the air around her was rippling, Everyone except the pack, Charlie, Peter and Charlotte was looking at her shocked.
Peter had known what was going to happen and rung Charlie just after the Cullen's left, Charlie had explained to the pack when they had gotten closer to her. They had never actually seen her get angry enough for it to happen though. They all stood back with sad eyes ready to see. A loud scream erupted from Izzy's mouth and her eyes clouded over, a white mist started leaving them making its way into the middle of the room. Every one edged away looking wide eyes at Izzy
"You don't want me?"
They heard, they turned there head away from Izzy and looked at the mist. There was pictures on it. Izzy and Edward in the woods. They all gasped
"She's showing us what happened" Esme whispered faintly "How?"
"Just watch" Peter said emotionlessly
"You don't want me?" They heard again
The images started to rewind and then stopped
"You promised! In Phoenix, You promised that you would stay-" Bella said frantically, tears rolling down her face
"As long as that was best for you," Edward interrupted. His face void of emotion but his eyes cold
"No! This is about my soul, isn't it?" Bella shouted furious that he would just ditch her when a problem stepped in the way
"Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it with out you- it's yours already!" Edward looked at Bella furious
"I don't want you to come with me" He yelled "Cant you see that!"
"You don't want me?" Bella looked like someone had stabbed her him the stomach multiple times
"No" he said bluntly "Look. I tried, but I'm done pretending I cant love a human. You are weak, You were just a source of entertainment for me and my family! Nobody cared about you Isabella"
"But I love you" Bella whimpered clutching her chest
"I don't love you. I never did. How could I love you? You are pathetic"
Pathetic
Pathetic
"Human's.. They have mind like sieve's. You should be able to forget me easy! I would give it a week!" Edward laughed bitterly
"Just keep one promise! Don't do anything reckless! For Charlie's sake" After he said that Edward disappeared. Bella looked around frantic
"Edward!" she shouted running forward a few steps
"Edward!" silence
"Edward don't leave me here!" silence
"HOW DO I GET HOME!" she shrieked before collapsing on the floor sobbing in her arms
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"Isabella?" Bella heard the faint shout of her name, she couldn't reply. She just looked upwards. She heard her name being called for about five minutes before there was silence once again.
What seemed like hours passed until she heard a twig snap close to her she then heard a loud howl, once again she did nothing but stare upwards, even when she saw someone standing above her she just lay there.
"Isabella? Can you hear me?" The figure asked crouching next to her
"Isabella?" a really warm hand pressed on her cheek, she leaned into the warmth
"Shit!" The figure cursed before picking up her frail body and taking off through the woods. Bella heard voices in the distance
"Charlie! Call a Doctor!" The person holding her yelled, the talking in the distance stopped, she heard some faint gasps.
"We need to get her warm! Quick!"
"Bella, baby?" She heard Charlie's voice asked faintly
"Daddy?" was the last thing she said before she blacked out
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Bella was sitting on the bathroom toilet looking blankly at the razor on the edge of the bath.
'Should she?' was the question that was floating around her head. Would it dull the pain like people said it did?
"Bella? Are you okay in there?" Charlie's voice snapped her out of her thoughts. she slowly stood up and unlocked the door to face Charlie. He looked relived to see her standing there. She nodded blankly at him before walking past him to get ready for school.
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"Apparently she got pregnant so he left her to look after the baby on her own because he didn't want to be a father"
"I heard she cheated on him"
"She's a slut I bet that's why he left"
Whispers were spreading around the school. They were all about her. She didn't talk to anyone. Angela tried to talk too her just to show she wasn't listening to the rumours. Jess would always look at her apologetic and Lauren sometimes looked guilty when passing Bella but no one did anything about it.
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2 months had passed and Jake had started to ignore her for no reason. Charlie had been sending her more worried looks than usual since he got a phone call yesterday. Every one seemed to think that she was over reacting, but non of them knew the truth about him. Like he said she was pathetic and weak. That's why he left her. She tried emailing Alice but she never got a reply.
"Bella why don't you go out, isn't there a new book you want?" Charlie asked quietly trying to make her do something other than sit around, truth is since HE left, she didn't read. Bella just nodded and headed toward the car. Heading toward Seattle took a little over 20 minutes, she went to the book store like her dad had asked looking around but nothing seemed to interest her like they use to. She picked up a random book and walked towards the counter to pay for it.
"Is that all miss?" The cashier said roughly, Bella nodded not saying anything
"You don't talk much do ya? I been watching you since you came in and you haven't said a word" She looked at him curiously before shrugging
"Your wondering why I was watching you huh? Well I couldn't help myself, your such a beautiful young girl." He told her freakily, she backed away with the book in her hand looking at him a little scared
"Don't worry doll, I won't hurt ya" He smirked, she turned around and made her way out the door, letting out a sigh of relief when she was out. She headed down the street towards her car with proof for Charlie that she had actually been to the shop.
(Mentions of rape below, Skip if you don't want to read)
Suddenly she was grabbed and pulled into an alley way.
"Didn't think you could get away from me so fast did ya doll?" she heard. She turned and saw the cashier from the book store leaning against the wall smirking at her lustfully. she shuttered and tried to get away.
"You know its good that you don't talk, it will make this a whole lot easier" he said walking towards her like a predator stalking its prey. There was a hungry look in his eye
"P-please d-don't-t hurt-t m-me" Bella stuttered roughly,
"Ahhhh! She does talk!" He said cupping her cheek, she flinched away from him
"This will be so much fun, you will have the time of your life baby!" he said huskily before kissing down her neck, sucking on the skin in between her neck and shoulder, His hands unbuttoning her shirt while another pair of hands did her jeans.
"P-please stop!" Bella whimpered
"Oh but baby, we have only just begun" He said pulling off his clothes. He stood him front of her bare, his manhood stood tall with excitement, he grabbed her and pulled her close while the other man too off his clothes, Bella stood there crying and begging struggling to get away. He shut her up with his mouth, kissing her roughly pulling down her knickers, leaving her in her bra.
"No! Please, stop!" her begging only seemed to excite him even more he bit her neck hard making her scream before he thrust deep inside her making her cry out in even more pain, she could feel blood rolling down her thighs as he plunged deep inside her again, the pain was getting worse with each thrust, suddenly she felt some one behind her, realization took over her face and she screamed in horror
"Please no!" But the other man ignored her and got his pleasure by taking her from behind. He pushed in roughly, Bella screamed loudly. This was the worst pain she had ever felt.
"God! I love them when they are weak" The cashier groaned, the man behind her grunted in agreement, she felt a sharp pain in her side and whimpered
'Weak'
'pathetic'
She deserved this. Edward was right she was weak and pathetic. Even the men who was taking her innocence thought so.
(Rape scene finished)
'I deserve this'
When they had finally finished they got changed and left her in the alley crying, wishing she was dead. she heard a gasp and a cry for help before she blacked out
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"Its all my fault" She heard he fathers voice as she woke up
"Charlie it isn't your fault" a familiar voice replied
"It is! If I didn't make her go out she wouldn't be here now!" Charlie's voice broke
"Charlie" The unidentified voice sighed
"Daddy, its not your fault" Bella whispered hoarsely
"Oh my god! Bella, your awake! I will go get the nurse!" Charlie sobbed as he ran out the room. Bella looked around the room and noticed that Billy was in the room with her. She smiled weakly at him.
"Ahh Miss Swan." The nurse said as she walked in "Its nice to see you finally awake"
"How long have I been out" she croaked, the nurse handed her a glass of water that she took gratefully
"Around about three days. Right I am going to do a few check up's and then the doctor wants to talk to you okay?" The nurse told her before getting to work.
"Everything seems to be in order, I will go get Doctor Thorne" She said while walking towards the door. They sat in silence as they waited for the Doctor. They waited for five minutes before a young looking man walked into the room, he had dark hair and brown eyes, he was about 6 foot in height.
"Its good to see you up Miss Swan. I need to talk to you privately if you don't mind" he said to her, Bella nodded towards him.
"Okay I will go ring your mother to tell her your awake" Charlie said, walking slowly towards the door not really wanting to go.
"Okay, what is it you need to talk to me about sir" Bella asked weakly when everyone was gone
"Do you remember what happened Miss Swan?" He asked her seriously, she nodded slowly.
"I w-was r-raped" she stuttered to him
"Okay, now this is the hard part. We took a look at your scans and because the abuse towards you was quite brutal, it seems when your attacker stabbed you, he caught you in a place that may effect you quite a bit." he told her
"What do you mean?" She asked shakily
"Isabella dear, I'm sorry but you wont be able to have children in the future" he explained sadly, tears streamed down her face as she heard the news. she sobbed into her arms as the doctor tried to comfort her.
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3 weeks passed since she got out of hospital, she had not been in school since. She was glad she didn't have to go in, she didn't want to hear the rumours that were going around about her now. that would just add to the pain. Charlie was trying his best to look after her but she was just so distant, the pain was too much. She was waking up every night because of it and hardly getting any sleep.
Bella was sitting in the shower in just her underwear looking down at her scarred thighs and hips razor in her hand. Tears were rolling down her face, Is this what HE wanted! she took the razor and pressed it to her skin drawing a line across her hip letting the blood flow, ever since that night she didn't care about blood. This dulled her pain remarkably and she would keep on doing it until the pain was completely gone.
"Bella what are you doing?" Charlie whispered through the door, when she didn't answer he panicked and kicked the door down. He saw her with blood on the thighs and sobbed at the sight of her he clutched her body to his and held her.
"Why?" He croaked tears in his eyes
"Because it helps" was the reply he got
"Promise me you will stop!" Charlie begged
"I don't make promises I cant keep"
The mist slowly started to make its way back to Izzy, every one had tears in their eyes or pouring down their faces. Rosalie was sobbing hard in to Emmets shoulder, hating the fact that Izzy had to go through what she did. Edward looked horrified. The mist was finally back to Izzy and her eyes were back to normal. She looked at Edward with empty eyes
"Was that proof enough" she asked before walking to the back garden. Jess and Lauren looked mortified and guilty, they both ran after Izzy, the Imprints following close behind. Perrie stood up with angry eyes.
"I hope someone has the balls to burn you to hell!" she said before going after he best friend
Everyone else was in a state of shock. Izzy had never told them that she couldn't have children, Charlie looked like he was hurting for his daughter. Rosalie got out of Emmets grasp before walking over to Edward and slapping him hard across the face.
"I told you we should have gone back sooner! But no! Everyone just has to listen to the golden boy and girl don't they!This is all your fault! I just had to watch my past happen to a perfectly innocent girl because you couldn't take your head's out of each others arse to see reason!"she snapped at Alice and Edward. She turned and walked out the back door towards the Group of girls trying to comfort an emotionless Izzy.
There was a growl and Caius lunged at Edward.
WOW THIS WAS A LONG CHAPTER! I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS CHAPTER! I MADE THE CHAPTER LIKE THIS BECAUSE I WANTED IZZY'S DRASTIC CHANGE BE MORE THAN JUST ABOUT EDWARD LEAVING SO THATS WHY I MADE IT LIKE THIS!
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