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Wednesday 4/22/92
Dear Harry
All I could think when I got you letter was thank goodness the dragon is gone and Harry is safe. The first time I read it through nothing else mattered. Now I can take in some of your other points but in spite of the dragon biting Ron and the ridiculous pick up at the top of the astronomy tower and Ron and Hermione being angry at you. (what about Neville? Is he angry too? He has just as much reason to be). All I can say is that it's worth it. The school is safe from your point of view and from mine, you are safe.
I'm proud of you for standing your ground and refusing to carry the dragon through the castle. It sucks that your friends are cross with you because you wanted to do the right thing, the safest thing. But don't be too upset about the fight they're having with you. Remember that you wanted Ron and Hermione to be angry with you, to give you an opportunity to see what happened, and find out whether they were influenced into forgiving you and trying to regain your friendship.
I can't believe that Professor McGonagall knew about the dragon and still gave Hermione and Neville detention after Malfoy told her they were out after curfew smuggling a dragon out of the school. She had to have known he was telling the truth about the dragon and that it's presence in the school was an immense threat to the safety of all the students, as well as knowing who was really to blame for there being a dragon in the school in the first place. It's really off that she punished them instead of doing something about it herself. I hate to have to say it about a professor but you definitely can't trust her.
I got your photos, the dragon doesn't look anything like I'd pictured him. I guess he's grown out of the so ugly he's cute phase because I didn't see anything cute in him though he is amazing. I suppose he is a boy or couldn't you tell. Looking at him I could understand Hagrid's fascination, but I have to say that I'm relieved he's gone, and a little relieved that he wasn't killed. I hope he arrives at the dragon reserve safely, a wooden crate hung between a few brooms doesn't seem like a sensible way to transport a dragon.
Don't worry about your reaction to girls or to those pictures in the magazine, you're still very young yet, and your body is likely still slightly younger than your age still trying to heal from the years of malnutrition before you learned how to fend for yourself. I wasn't interested when I started high school either and I was almost eleven then. Even now it's not that important to me, I have too much else going on in my life to have time to worry about girls or a relationship. It will come when you're ready, before your mind and emotions are truly prepared for it most likely. And it is okay if it doesn't happen like that. What you honestly feel isn't ever wrong but I don't know what the wizarding society's views are, so maybe if it isn't girls you feel like that about, you should keep it to yourself until you know it will be accepted there. I'm making a total hash of giving you advice about this. I'm not suggesting that you might be gay there's no reason for me to think you are. I just want you to know that it if you are or not it will never make any difference to me, you are my best friend. But from everything you've told me wizarding society is very very old fashioned and it's only in the last twenty five years that homosexuality was decriminalised in non magical Britain, and it's still illegal in parts of America. It may not be something that is accepted in the wizarding world or it might be one of the things they accepted a lot earlier than non magical people, like their racism seems to be totally about how long your family has had magic and not the colour of your skin. But you already know that being famous, means that everyone you meet has expectations of what you'll be like, and I imagine this will be the same, even if it might be kind of accepted but not really spoken about there will be people who are upset about it whoever you choose to date be it a boy or a pureblood or a muggleborn. You can't live your life trying to please other people but you shouldn't invite trouble either.
Ethan has a girlfriend so I'm getting some up close and personal experience in what it's like to be around a couple. Unfortunately, it seems that one of the things I'm learning is that I'm kicked out of the room for hours at a time so they can be alone so I see less of Ethan and more of the library and the study room in the house. She seems nice, and she's a physics major and not giggly and girly so I have no trouble talking to her about her studies or when she asks me about Ethan but she does like to tease me and try to embarrass me which seems to be humiliatingly easy for her to do. She makes me feel like I'm a twelve year old just starting college again and I don't like that. It makes Ethan laugh too, I want to think that he hasn't noticed how much I hate it. I don't think that the relationship will last that much longer though, I can already see signs that they're less attracted to each other than they used to be and get more easily annoyed with each other.
It's not like I want a girlfriend, I'd be like your quidditch captain Oliver, I just don't have the time to give to a relationship, between my studies and going home almost every weekend to see Mom I can't see any girl putting up with me if I even knew any girls my age, and it's not like I'm lonely. I have you and Mom and Ethan and a few other friends when I do have spare time. It's just not nice to either be shut out or to always be the third wheel around Ethan and his girlfriend.
If you want to send me the essays Harry, I can try to mark them, or I could find someone who teaches that grade to do it if you'd rather. It would be better for you to receive some feedback not only on content but on the way you structure essays as well. I'm so proud of you for even trying to do this on your own, even more than the reading and learning you used to do in the library before Hogwarts and I want to help you all that I can. But don't do it just for me Harry, do it if you want to. I don't want to be one more influence in your life trying to make demands on you and to change who you are. If you want to just concentrate on becoming the best wizard you can be I would understand.
Your friend always
Spencer
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