Merlin woke up and looked around his room... it was not Arthur's master bed or fine furniture, but it was a good room. Merlin felt grateful that his path had not led to any other route. As Merlin sat up he remembered all of the conversations he had with Arthur, as well as the guilt that he was hiding one huge truth from his lover. The man in question went through hell to keep the warlock by his side… and yet Merlin couldn't do the same to keep their love strong.
"Should I tell him?" Merlin asked himself. "I could be putting my very life on the line as well as Guias. Is it worth it? Yes, Arthur is worth any risk, I love him more than anything! But... if I tell him he might hate and even fear me!" Merlin sighed in anguish, uncertain about what to do. He got out of his bed and got ready for the day ahead, before leaving to get some breakfast and set out for work. He was going to take breakfast for Arthur but Guias said that a maid was doing it instead. He liked to greet Arthur every morning, and he knew that Arthur liked his morning hugs and kisses, therefore he knew that the prince would be in a foul mood... Until he had his Arthur and Merlin time.
Unsure of what to do, Merlin wandered the castle for a short period of time as he contemplated on whether or not he should tell Arthur that he has magic. As he walked he found himself back at the thoughts he had earlier. He could not help himself and he ended up at Arthur's chambers door. The guard eyed him up and was about to tell him to get lost but Merlin was not about to stand for it, his eyes flashed gold as he used his magic to make the guard forget what he was doing. The guard strolled off in a random direction and Merlin unlocked the door with his magic.
Arthur lay asleep on his bed, unaware of Merlin's presence; he was lying on his back with one arm under his head, his perfect pecks on show and his smooth skin was the definition perfection.
Merlin closed the door and walked over, smiling at his lover. "I... I wish I could just tell you...", the warlock whispered as he watched Arthur's chest go up and down slowly. 'I wish that you knew about who I really am. I wish that we did not have to keep our love a secret, I wish that you could understand and accept what I am' he thought and he sighed as he gazed at his prince.
"Tell me what?", Arthur asked, his eyes snapping open in an instant and he looked at Merlin.
Merlin jumped and rubbed the back of his head, "Uuhhh... That you snore really loudly?"
Arthur raised an eyebrow, "Yeah, so? You sometimes snore"
Merlin shrugged and began to pick up clothes around the room, wanting to stay as quiet as possible.
"Merlin? What are you doing? C'mon over here, why did they let you in?" Arthur sat up in bed and he stretched.
Merlin walked over and sat on the bed before casting his eyes past Arthur so that he did not feel guilty, "The guard had to do something and told me to watch you for a while."
Arthur reached over and he grabbed Merlin's hand "Do you want to know what one good thing about being on house arrest is?"
Merlin hesitated but he turned to look at Arthur, his heart stopped for a split second as he gazed at the prince and he squeezed Arthur's hand "What would that be?"
"I get to kiss my Merlin all day without anyone asking any questions about where I am." Arthur smiled with love in his eyes but it only made Merlin feel worse.
"I love you" Merlin moved and he hugged Arthur.
Arthur returned the embrace but he was confused by why Merlin seemed upset, he hated it when his love was sad so he kissed his neck to try and comfort him "I love you too. What's wrong?"
"Nothing" Merlin buried his face into Arthur's shoulder and his breathing hitched.
Arthur knew that Merlin had lied straight away "Merlin, tell me what's wrong. I don't like it when you are sad, it makes me sad" he rubbed his love's back in an attempt to make him listen.
Merlin sighed "I'm scared that I am going to lose you, what will I do if you leave me?" he sniffled as tears threatened to fall from his worried eyes.
"I am not going to leave you, I love you too much to even think about letting you go. We are a team and that is how it is going to stay" Arthur answered with comfort and reassurance as he tried to express his love for Merlin.
"You promise?" Merlin pulled back and he looked into Arthur's wonderful eyes.
Arthur looked straight into Merlin's teary eyes and he cupped his face in his hands "I promise" he confirmed before he gently pulled the young man into a soft kiss.
Merlin's started to calm down as he shared a beautiful kiss with his beloved Arthur and he held onto the prince's wrists 'Not today, I will tell him another time. Maybe tomorrow?' he thought as his princes kissed his sadness and worries away.