A few days had passed since Merlin's anxiety had gotten the best of him, he had decided that he was going to tell Arthur about his secret that afternoon. He had thought very carefully about telling Arthur that he had magic and he had realised that it was better to tell him sooner or later. He just had to pray that the prince did not freak out or drag him to Uther and announce that he had magic. Arthur would not do that, right?
It had just turned midday, Merlin was waiting in Arthur's chambers after he had cleaned everything, polished Arthur's armour and made the prince's lunch. The warlock was so deep in his own thoughts, that the door opened and Arthur walked in and he smiled when he saw his secret love.
"Why hello, my beloved. What are you doing here?" Arthur asked as he placed his sword down on the table.
"I need to tell you something, Arthur" Merlin sighed. He did not know if he was prepared for the reaction that he was going to get.
"Oh, no. What have I done that is stupid now?" Arthur joked.
"It's serious" Merlin firmly said.
"Alright, what is it?" Arthur sat next to Merlin and he took his love's hand in his.
Merlin slowly inhaled and exhaled "I need you to promise me that you won't see me any differently."
"I promise" Arthur nodded.
Merlin nodded and he slowly exhaled "I... I have magic".
Arthur laughed "Nice one, Merlin."
"I'm being serious" Merlin stated.
"Merlin, you are not a sorcerer. I would have known" Arthur shook his head. He did not believe any of what Merlin was trying to tell him.
"Look into my eyes" Merlin instructed.
Arthur sighed and he looked into Merlin's eyes 'This is ridiculous' he thought.
'Please don't hate me for this' Merlin thought, he then made his eyes flash Gold and a small golden Dragon appeared on his shoulder.
Arthur was shocked, he pulled his hand out of Merlin's grasp and he stood up. He walked over to his desk and he covered his mouth with his hand 'This can't be happening. This can't be real'.
Merlin sat there and he made the dragon disappear "I was born like this. I would never use it to harm an innocent person or you. I've always used it to protect you and Camelot".
Arthur did not say anything, he placed his hands on his hips and he starred at the floor. He was trying to contemplate what Merlin had just revealed to him but all he felt was sorrow, anger and love.
Merlin stood up and he walked over to Arthur "Arthur, please say something. Tell me that you still love me and that you don't hate me, please" he pleaded as he placed his hands on the prince's chest. "Please don't judge me because of my magic, I love you and my abilities could never change that. Please say something".
Arthur grabbed a hold of Merlin's wrists and he pulled them off of his chest "You've lied to me for years. You've betrayed me" he said without emotion.
"No, I didn't tell you because I had to hide it. I didn't have a choice, Uther would've executed me and I was afraid of losing you" Merlin pleaded for forgiveness with his eyes.
"You're a traitor. You're a monster!" Arthur said as he unintentionally tightened his grip on Merlin's wrists.
"No. Please don't call me that, I'm so sorry!" Merlin started to cry. He knew that there was a chance of Arthur reacting badly but it did not mean that he was ready for it.
"You're evil!" Arthur was still in shock but he did not know how to handle the fact that the person he loved had been keeping such a dangerous secret from him.
Merlin winced because of the pressure on his wrists and he balled his fists "Arthur, please let go of my wrists."
"You've been in the castle this whole time. You were my servant and my best friend. I fell in love with you!" Arthur stated as he unconsciously squeezed Merlin's wrists.
"Arthur, you're hurting me! Please let go of my wrists!" Merlin pleaded.
Arthur pushed Merlin onto the floor and he took a step backwards "You make me sick!".
Merlin choked on a sob and he looked up at Arthur "Arthur, please don't say things like that. You promised that you wouldn't see me differently".
"That's before I knew about the monster that you really are. I had you in my bed, I told you everything, I trusted you. I loved you". Arthur spat at Merlin. He could see the sadness and the guilt in Merlin's eyes, his heat broke when the warlock wiped away his tears and his arms ached with the want to scoop his secret lover up and hold him close 'He looks so lost, he looks too innocent for me to be mad at him. Why am I so angry? He's still my Merlin' the prince thought to himself.
Merlin scrambled to his feet "I'm still me, I'm still your Merlin. Please don't be mad at me, I am so sorry".
"The Merlin I loved was not evil." Arthur snarled.
Merlin tried to hug Arthur but the prince just pushed him away "I'm not evil. I'm still your Merlin" he cried.
"You are not my Merlin! Get out of my chambers, leave Camelot and never come back or I will not hesitate to have you burnt at the stake" Arthur hissed as he glared at the trembling warlock 'He is never going to forgive me for that! What the hell am I saying to him?! He looks broken and I am just ripping his heart up! Arthur, stop!' his head and heart screamed at him.
Merlin cupped his hands over his mouth and he shook his head. "Arthur, please don't do this! Please don't make me leave!".
"Get out before I have you arrested!" Arthur raised his voice and Merlin took a step back. 'You fuckin idiot! You're scaring him! Stop breaking his heart! He thought.
Merlin cried harder and he ran to the door. He ran back to Guias's chambers and he ran into his room, he cried as he ran around and packed up all of his belongings before he ran out of his room, through the hallways and out of the castle.
Arthur felt incredibly guilty and he was about to go after Merlin, but he looked out of the window and he watched as the warlock ran out of the gates to the kingdom. "What have I done?"
Arthur regretted what he had said and he ran to the palace stables to get his horse. He rode out of Camelot to go after Merlin, he needed to apologise. "I am such a bloody idiot! I need to find him! I need to find my sweet Merlin!"
After a fifteen minutes the prince saw that Merlin was walking through the forest and he sighed with relief "Merlin!"
Merlin looked over his shoulder and he saw Arthur, his eyes widened with pain and started to run through the forest. 'Shit! He's going to kill me!'
Arthur galloped after Merlin "Merlin!"
"Leave me alone! I'm going!" Merlin yelled as he ran, he threw his bag off of his shoulders so that he would be able to run faster. The warlock was terrified that Arthur would kill him, he ran and he ran for what felt like forever until he eventually escaped. He hunched over next to a large oak tree to catch his breath but he heard the sound of horse hooves and he spun around "I left Camelot! I did what you told me to do!"
Arthur got off of his horse and he began to walk over to Merlin "I know".
Merlin walked backwards, he tripped and he fell backwards. He hissed in pain and he realised that he had probably sprained his ankle, he sat up and he held his hand up in front of him "Please don't kill me."
Arthur unintentionally grabbed he hilt of his sword as he neared the warlock 'I would never hurt you'.
Merlin's fear increased and he cried "Please just leave me alone. I don't want to hurt you, Arthur".
Arthur crouched down in front of Merlin and he looked directly into the warlocks terrified eyes.
Merlin closed his eyes tightly, but instead of the blade of a sword to his neck... he felt two gentle hands on his sprained ankle. He opened his eyes and he saw that Arthur was inspecting his ankle. "What are you doing?"
"Checking your ankle, because I hate it when the person I love is hurt." Arthur answered simply.
"You love me?" Merlin asked.
Arthur looked up at Merlin "Since the day I met you".
"But you told me to leave, otherwise you'd have me burnt at the stake" Merlin's lip quivered and he whimpered.
"I'm sorry. I was shocked that you have magic, I could never hurt you. You are my Merlin and you are perfect to me" Arthur stated as he gently wiped away Merlin's tears with his thumb.
"I'm a monster. I'm evil" Merlin sniffled.
"The Merlin I love is no monster. He is pure and the bravest man that I have ever met, and I love him more than anything" Arthur spoke softly as he used his thumb to stroke Merlin's cheek.
Merlin cried more "You still love me?"
Arthur moved and he hugged Merlin "I could never stop loving you".
Merlin clung onto Arthur as he cried, his emotions pouring out of his skinny frame and he scrunched his eyes up "I love you too".
"I won't let anything happen to you and I'll keep your magic a secret. I promise" Arthur reassured as tears filled his eyes, he hated it when Merlin was upset. His warlock deserved to be happy, he missed Merlin's beautiful smile and his goofy humour.
"Thank you" Merlin buried his face into Arthur's chest.
Arthur held Merlin for a few moments, before he picked the warlock up bridal style and carried him over to his horse. He sat Merlin on the saddle and then he jumped up, he felt two wary arms wrap around his waist and he held onto one of Merlin's wrists "I'm so sorry for what I said to you. I won't let anyone harm a hair on hour head, I won't tell anyone about your magic."
Merlin rested his head on Arthur's shoulder "Can we just go on a walk for a bit?"
Arthur nodded "Anything that you want" he then turned the horse around and they started to walk through he forest.
Merlin clung onto Arthur and he cried for a bit whilst Arthur shushed him. Arthur stared the horse in the direction of where Merlin had dropped his bag and he jumped down to fetch it, he then fastened it to the back of the saddle and he jumped back up to sit in front of Merlin. The warlock wrapped his arms around his beloved's waist and they turned around to continue trotting through the forest.
Merlin kept his head on the prince's shoulder and he smiled when he heard that Arthur was humming "You're humming".
"Never, I thought that I was whistling" Arthur smirked.
Merlin laughed and he smiled "You're an ass".
Arthur smiled "You're amazing".
Merlin held onto Arthur as they rode through the forest, after a few minutes they started to gallop passed the trees and they laughed. Arthur did not care that Merlin was different compared to everyone else, his warlock was special to him and he loved Merlin for being himself.
Merlin sighed happily as he hugged Arthur 'My heart is alright and he has not arrested me or killed me, maybe he understand me more now? I do not have to hide who I am around him anymore, he accepts me for who I am. I really does love me' he thought and he planted a soft kiss on the side of Arthur's neck.
