Chapter 18: Wedding Stress
Santana's POV
*Wednesday 7th July 2021*
The vacation is well and truly over now so Brittany and I are back hard at work. It was great being away with our friends and having fun but I am sort of relieved it's over now. I did enjoy it but with it being over then I can now put my focus on planning my wedding. I'm so excited to start this next chapter of my life with Brittany. We've actually been engaged for 8 weeks now and haven't even started planning our wedding yet so I'm looking forward to finally getting started. It's not like we meant to wait this long, things just got in the way and we needed a vacation before we done anything else after a busy time at work.
"Hey babe, do you have a moment?" Brittany asks as she walks into my office with a bunch of files in her arms.
"I do" I smile. I was about to take a break anyway and get myself some coffee.
"I started my guest list for the wedding and I wanted to talk to you about it" she says as she takes a seat across from me at my desk. "Obviously we have people in common so I wanted to see how you wanted to do it" she adds.
"I think just making our own lists and then coming together will work" I shrug. "You write down everyone you want to come and I'll do the same and then we can go over the lists" I say.
"Sounds cool" she smiles.
"Speaking of weddings, are you still on for the cake tasting tomorrow?" I ask. We're supposed to go to this cake specialist tomorrow and taste different samples to see which cake we want for the wedding. Hopefully we do like some of them and can pick the cake tomorrow and make arrangements for the caterer to do business.
"I am and I'm so looking forward to it. Anything to do with food and I'm there" Brittany smirks.
"I was just about to take a break just now and get some coffee so we could go over a few ideas for the wedding if you want" I suggest.
"Sounds good" Brittany smiles. "I will go and get us some coffee and then we can start" she adds.
"Ok" I nod. Brittany then goes to get the coffee and I get a pen and paper so we can write some ideas down. I'm old school so I like to go with the pen and paper instead of using my tablet all the time or my phone.
"Ok, I'm back" Brittany smiles as she walks inside and kicks the door shut since her hands are busy with the coffees. "Did you want anything to eat?" she asks me.
"I'll get something later. I'm still quite full from breakfast this morning" I smile. Brittany made us a nice breakfast before we headed to work so I couldn't possibly eat anything else right now.
"Ok, cool" Brittany nods.
"So, when you were getting the coffee, I made a list of things we need to still do for the wedding. It's nothing detailed just a bunch of things I could think of that we need to talk about at some point" I say. "We need to pick the date, order flowers, pick an invitation style, finalise the guest list, look at dresses, ask our friends and family to be bridesmaids, look at venues…"
"Ok, slow down" she smiles at me. "We'll just take one thing at a time" she adds.
"Ok" I nod.
"The guest list can wait just now and we can work on that on our own like you said earlier. We'll have a look at cake samples tomorrow so that doesn't need discussed today" she replies. "We could think about the actual wedding right now if you want and how we want the day to go" she suggests.
"Sounds good" I say. "Ok, so who wants to walk down the aisle first?" I ask.
"I don't mind who does it" Brittany replies with a smile.
"I suppose we would need to see a venue first to see how it works out" I reason.
"I kinda like the idea of having two aisles so we could each walk down one at the same time. We could have my family on one side of an aisle and your family on the other side at the other aisle and our really close relatives and friends can be in the middle" she tells me. "My parents, you're parents, siblings' partners and our close male friends all in the middle section. Each of us walking down the aisles at either side of that middle section and the Lopez family on the left and the Pierce family on the right. Does that make sense?" she asks me with a chuckle.
"I think I see what you're saying but I don't know how easy it would be with two aisles. Not all venues would have that but I like the idea of both of us walking down at the same time" I smile. "The only downside about that is I can't really see you as you walk" I say.
"The first person wouldn't though" Brittany points out.
"That's true" I nod. "We could research some venues tonight and then book an appointment maybe for next weekend to look at some places" I suggest.
"That works for me" she smiles. "I think I'm going to call my sisters tonight and officially ask them to be my bridesmaids as well as Tina and Mercedes. I think my sisters will already know though because I was their bridesmaid" she adds.
"Yeah I'm going to call my sister and Quinn tonight as well" I say. I think they'll both already know as well that I want them as my bridesmaids because Quinn is my best friend and even though Carly and I wind each other up, we are close.
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*Saturday 17th July 2021*
"Brittany" I say while trying to shake my fiancée awake.
"Huh?" she grunts at me but doesn't open her eyes.
"I need you to go down on me" I state.
"What?" she asks confused as she opens one eye to look at me. She's probably wondering if she is actually hearing me properly right now or not.
"I had a sex dream about you so I'm going to need you to eat me out now" I tell her. I'm really turned on right now so this cannot wait.
"Babe are you serious?" she asks with a sigh as she opens the other eye and looks at me sleepily. I can see she's tired right now but I'm also turned on so as my fiancée she's supposed to kinda help out in that way.
"I'm deadly serious" I state as I shuffle out of my pyjama pants.
"It's 3am and we're working tomorrow so I need to be up at 6am" she replies.
"I'm well aware of the time and our plans for the rest of the day but right now I need you to help me. Are you seriously denying your fiancée right now?" I question.
"I would love to help but I am half asleep honey so I doubt it'll be sexy if I did it now" she says as she gives me a sloppy kiss on the lips.
"You're not the best at going down on me anyway so it won't make a difference how sleepy you are so can you just do this for me please?" I sigh.
"I am good at going down on you thank you very much" she says seriously as she moves and gets into position between my legs. "You come every single time I eat you out so there is no way I'm not good" she says offended as she spreads my legs and puts them over her shoulders so she can get closer to me.
"Ok" I shrug.
"You better fucking admit I'm good or I don't do this" she challenges as she looks up at me.
"I find it quite funny how you suddenly decided to do this for me once I said you weren't good at it" I say amused.
"Oh, you little shit" Brittany laughs. "You only said that because you knew it would wake my right up and make me do it to prove to you, I am good. You do know I'm good at it though don't you?" she adds.
"Of course I know now please, I need you" I say desperately. There is too much talking going on right now and it's not making me orgasm.
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I've been at work for a good number of hours now. I've got to admit though I am still quite tired so it probably wasn't the best idea for Brittany and I to be awake in the middle of the night but what else could I do. I am struggling a little to concentrate because I'm so tired but I need to try and focus because I have got a lot going on today at work. I'm just working hard when my office door opens, giving me a fright.
"Ready to go?" Brittany asks as she walks into my office.
"It's only 2pm babe, I wasn't going to head home until 6 or something" I say. I've still got a lot of work to do today so I don't really want to leave early.
"Not home, to our appointment at this wedding venue we want to check out" she tells me. We were supposed to be looking at a couple of venues this afternoon as possible places for the wedding but clearly, I've forgotten since work has been taking over my mind the last couple of days.
"Shit, I forgot about that" I sigh. "I've got a meeting in half an hour so I think we're going to have to reschedule the appointment because I can't change my meeting" I add.
"Wait, seriously?" Brittany asks me sadly.
"Yeah, I've just got too much to do today so I can't leave work right now" I say. When you run your own business then you are responsible for the whole thing so it's not like I can just go to my manager and ask for the afternoon off. When something crops up at work then I am the one who has to deal with it so it's not a simple 9 to 5 job where you leave when your shift is over.
"We had this planned for a week now and the wedding won't plan itself" Brittany tells me.
"I know that but like I say, it slipped my mind and my job is more urgent right now than the wedding venue. Of course I know the wedding is important but rescheduling is possible whereas this work matter needs dealt with now" I point out.
"I know work is important but the fact is that we had this appointment booked for some time so you should have remembered especially when it involves the wedding. How can you forget you're getting married when we were only looking at wedding things last night" she replies.
"Stop getting pissed with me Brittany. It is not a big deal to reschedule because the wedding is a number of months away" I say starting to get annoyed.
"It's only 16 weeks away Santana so that time is going to go by really quickly so we need to get things planned right away" she tells me.
"I'm telling you now Brittany, I cannot make this appointment today so I don't know what else you want me to do" I say with a sigh.
"Shall I just go on my own and take pictures or just cancel the whole thing today?" Brittany questions.
"If you want to go and check out the places then you can but you can't decide on a venue yourself" I reply. That is a decision that should be made jointly.
"I know that" she says while rolling her eyes at me.
"You are actually starting to annoy me today Brittany" I state. I really don't see the big deal right now. A work matter has come up which we're both used to happening and we still have time to reschedule looking at venues and continuing with planning the wedding.
"You're starting to annoy me too" she replies. "If we want a decent venue for this wedding then I can assure you there is a possibility that they will be all booked 16 weeks in advance so we're already chancing it by going today, never mind by rescheduling" she adds.
"We'll just need to take that risk then because like I say, I can't go today" I state. Is my fiancée not listening to me or something right now? I am telling her I cannot go so why is she still standing here arguing with me.
"I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore. If I go and really like this venue then do I put a deposit down just in case you like it too and we do want the wedding there. I mean if I don't try and book it now then it might well be already gone by the time you see it. The downside is that if you don't like it then I've lost my deposit so I'm wasting money" she says.
"Don't waste any money right now" I shake my head. "We'll just need to take the risk" I add.
"I just don't understand you right now Santana. You couldn't get enough of me this morning and now it's like you don't even care about the wedding" Brittany sighs.
"Don't you dare say that Brittany" I say annoyed. Why wouldn't I care about my wedding?
"You're just not giving off that vibe that it does mean much right now" she shrugs.
"I need to work; you go and do whatever you want to do" I say while turning around and walking out of my office. If she wants to act like that then fine but there is nothing I can do about missing the appointment anymore.
Brittany's POV
*Tuesday 20th July 2021*
It's the middle of the week but Santana and I aren't going to work today. We've decided to work some of the weekend and we'll take today off so we can get up to speed with some wedding things. I'd feel better to get some things all planned and sorted out today than to leave it to the weekend and spend the rest of my working week stressing about the weekend. If I know I can sort something today then I'd feel more settled otherwise I wouldn't concentrate at work all week because I'd be too worried about not getting the wedding stuff done.
"Santana what are you doing?" I ask confused as I walk into the bedroom and Santana is changing into some smart clothes.
"Getting ready for work" she shrugs at me as she walks over to the mirror and retouches her makeup.
"We agreed we would take today off to sort out some more wedding arrangements" I tell her.
"I know we discussed it but it wasn't like a concrete decision and I didn't think it was the whole day either. I just thought you meant we'll leave work early one day" she replies.
"No, I meant we should take the full day to squash some of these decisions we need to make" I say. "I would really feel better if we could have some more things put in place right now because all we have is a date and what wedding cake we want. There is no final guest list yet and we've not even narrowed down what sample we want to go with for the wedding invitations" I add.
"We can do all of that at the weekend" she tells me.
"Like I say I'd feel better to know a few more things are sorted so can't we do that today?" I ask my fiancée.
"I have work to do and Brittany can't always get what Brittany wants" Santana smartly replies.
"Trust me, Brittany is not getting what she wants right now" I say with a sigh.
"We need to work to pay for this wedding so I am going to work today but if you want to take the day off and do some wedding stuff then that's fine" she states.
"How can I make wedding arrangements on my own Santana?" I question annoyed. I don't mind doing my share of the planning but I only know what I like. How am I supposed to know which flowers Santana will prefer or which venue she wants to use? I can't make these kinds of decisions for Santana to come home and tell me she doesn't like them.
"I don't know what to say Brittany" Santana sighs.
"Say you'll take the day off work with me and we can really get this wedding planned. I mean I guess you still want to marry me, right?" I reply.
"Don't be childish Brittany, of course I still want to marry you" she glares at me.
"Can we please take the day off together today then?" I ask as we go downstairs.
"Fine" Santana sighs. "Give me a second to make a phone call and then we can get started" she says.
"Ok, I'll meet you in the dining room" I nod.
"We're not doing it there. If you insist of spending the whole day making plans then we're doing it in comfort so let's meet in the living room" she states.
"Fine" I say while rolling my eyes before heading to the living room. I sit down on the couch and get all of our plans out so we can get started as soon as Santana comes back.
"Ok, let's do this" Santana says as she sits down next to me.
"I think we need to decide on the wedding invitations first so we can order them and get them written and sent out as soon as possible" I say.
"I can agree on that so what one do you like best?" she asks me as she holds up the three samples we had it narrowed down to.
"That one if my favourite" I say while pointing to the middle one.
"Ok" Santana nods. "I kinda like them all so we'll go with the one you picked" she adds.
"I'm going to order them now then and hopefully they can deliver them in the next day or two. I'll just order a few extra than the number of guests we want to invite just in case we've forgotten someone. Also, I'll get the company to deliver them to work since we're back at work the next few days" I say.
"Sounds reasonable" Santana states.
"While I'm ordering them can you decide which flowers you want as centrepieces for the tables at the reception and pick the flowers you want to hold as we walk down the aisle" I say. I had narrowed down my favourites so if Santana can decide then we can cross that off the list.
"Ok" she nods. As soon as I've sorted out the invitations, I join Santana again in the living room. "I've decided on flowers" she says.
"Great, at least you've made your mind up about something" I say.
"Don't talk to me like that" Santana says shaking her head at me.
"Well I asked you the same thing about flowers two nights ago and you didn't care so I'm just glad you have finally decided" I point out. I know I shouldn't be so rude but I am just so frustrated now and worried we can't get all of this planned within 15 and a half weeks.
"Where are we on wedding bands?" she asks me.
"I like this one" I say while playing a clip of the band singing on my iPad.
"No, I don't want that band, they're awful" Santana shakes her head at me.
"I actually think their music is quite good" I say with a shrug.
"Well I don't so that's not going to happen. Who else do we have?" she asks. We then spend half an hour watching some videos of the different wedding bands sing and decide on a band. We then spend 2 hours deciding on which songs we want to be played. I don't mind which ones throughout the reception but I wanted a special song for the actual wedding and our first dance. It had to be a beautiful song for walking down the aisle.
"So, we have music and flowers sorted and the date. We'll get the invitations written and sent out as soon as we receive them. We'll have to leave the seating arrangements to once our guests have replied. We can talk about the food options at the reception but we can't put the order in yet since we don't have any guests coming right now" I say, clarifying everything we have sorted so far.
"We're going dress shopping on Sunday, right?" Santana asks.
"Hopefully. We can work Saturday instead of today so ideally Sunday will be free" I reply.
"Car transport and the venue we need to sort out soon" she tells me.
"Exactly so if you're up for it, I'd like to show you my two favourite venues today. The woman I was dealing with was really lovely so I'm sure she'll do me a favour and be able to fit us in at such short notice to have a look around" I say.
"How lovely?" Santana asks sceptically.
"Just a really nice person but anyway, you didn't answer me" I say.
"Yes, we'll look at the venues today" she nods. "Also, car transport for the wedding, my dad has a friend who owns a luxury car business and they often hire out cars for weddings and stuff so he said he could get us a deal. I could set up an appointment tomorrow after work and we could take a look at the cars. I'll get my dad to come and hopefully he can persuade his friend to go ahead with a good price" she says.
"Sounds really good so we'll do that" I smile. Finally, I think we are actually getting somewhere with this wedding so hopefully everything else comes together for the date we want. It does concern me though that we don't have a venue sorted yet but hopefully we can do that today.
After spending some more time on the wedding and getting lunch, we head out to look at the venues. The two venues I liked are run by the same Events manager so we're meeting with her and she'll show us around both venues. I'm really hoping Santana will like one of them because I don't know how much time we have to look elsewhere. I'm also praying these venues will be free on the date we need because they are amazing places so I would imagine very popular.
"Good afternoon Brittany, nice to see you again" Claire says while shaking my hand.
"You too" I smile before turning to Santana. "This is Claire the Events Manager here and this is Santana, my other half" I say introducing the two.
"I'm her fiancée not other half. We're two full independent individuals so there are no halves" Santana says as she shakes Claire's hand.
"Ok" Claire smiles. "So, Brittany seemed to really like both venues but I think the second one we'll see is the more preferred one but we'll take you around this one anyway" she adds.
"Ok" Santana nods. We walk into the venue and then Claire shows us around.
"What do you think?" I ask my fiancée.
"It's a nice place and I can definitely see why weddings are held here but I have nothing to compare it to so I think I need to see the second venue before I commit to anything" Santana replies as she comes up between Claire and I so she's standing in the middle of us.
"Brittany thought having the ceremony here and then the reception in the other part of the venue" Claire replies. "You can have the two aisles you talked about along here and the guests sitting in the three sections here, here and here" she says as she points around the room.
"Ok" Santana nods. "I assume the venue would be decorated though because it looks like a funeral in here, not somewhere suitable for a wedding" she adds.
"Yes of course we would decorate the area and provide all the furniture you need. It would all just be put into the cost of hiring the venue" Claire replies.
"Can we see the area for the reception now" Santana states.
"Yes of course" Claire smiles. "Just follow me" she adds. We then follow Claire to the other area in the venue where we would like to have the reception. "Brittany thought the main table for you both and the wedding party could be here and the other tables could be set up around the side leaving the middle of the floor free for dancing" she says as we walk inside.
"Fine" Santana shrugs as she looks around the area.
"So, is this whole venue available on the 6th of November?" I ask. We might be taking a risk having a fall wedding but the weather is never too bad around here so it should be fine. Plus, I don't think either of us could wait any longer to get married.
"There are other people interested in it but I'm sure we could sort something out because you are interested in another venue that I hire out for events so I would be more inclined to do business with you" Claire replies.
"The other one I do prefer though so could we see that now and then we'll see what happens" I say.
"Of course" Claire replies. "I'll meet you both there" she says and then we leave and head out to our cars.
"So honestly, what do you think of that venue?" I ask Santana as we drive to the next venue.
"It did look ok but the more you kept saying you liked the other one has put me off it slightly. I'm hoping this next venue really blows me away" she tells me.
"I think you will like it but we'll see" I smile.
"Do you think I'll like it more than Claire likes you?" she asks.
"Excuse me?" I ask surprised.
"She kept walking close to you and standing right next to you. Also, what was that all about when she's telling me what you like and all that shit. You're my fiancée so I think you can talk for yourself and furthermore I think I know better than her what you like" Santana states.
"Are you serious babe?" I ask.
"Yes, I'm serious" she snaps. "You can call me jealous or whatever you want but I don't like this woman or her intentions. I mean why is she so interested in giving us this venue more so than the other couples she's dealing with?" she questions.
"Like she said, we are interested in two of her venues so ideally we will definitely pick one whereas the other couples may not be as interested. If I was her, I would put my money more on us than other couples since we are interested in both of the venues so she will likely get the business" I reason.
"I think it's because she fancies you" Santana shrugs.
"Santana, she is an events manager showing an engaged couple around a potential wedding venue so I very much doubt her sights are set on someone very unavailable" I say.
"Fine, if that's what you think" she sighs.
"We can agree to disagree on this but the important point to remember here is that I'm yours. Even if she had other motives then it's going to get her nowhere because I'm with you. I'm in love with you and I'm marrying you" I say honestly.
"I know but it still pisses me off that when I'm finally with the one person I'm meant to be with, other people want to take her from me" she states.
"Is this because I said she was a lovely person because I didn't mean it as anything but that. She just seemed like a nice person who was willing to do business with us" I say. I didn't mean for Santana to start questioning the woman because I genuinely just meant she seemed nice.
"I don't know what it is but I just don't like her" she shrugs.
"Ok that's fine but don't let it put you off this next venue because I think it's really amazing" I say as I pull up outside. We then get out of the car and meet Claire before heading inside. "So, what do you think of the outside?" I ask my fiancée.
"I must admit, it does look really nice and it would be a great place for the wedding photographs" Santana replies.
"I thought that too" I smile. We then start making our way around the venue and discussing how we would want everything set up. I'm getting a bit more enthusiasm from Santana this time so I'm hoping this means she likes this venue too.
"What do you think Santana, do you prefer this venue?" Claire asks.
"I think I do" Santana says as she pulls me towards her by the hand. Initially I thought she was just pulling me close but then I realised she was pulling me further away from Claire.
"I could definitely see the wedding here" I smile. "What do you think?" I ask turning to Santana.
"I think we should book it" she nods. "I don't want any extravagant prices though; I want some sort of discount otherwise we won't bother" she tells Claire.
"I'll put some figures together tonight and email you the quote, how does that sound?" Claire replies.
"Sounds excellent" I nod.
"You have great taste Brittany because this is one of the more exquisite venues I manage" Claire says.
"Yeah, I do have great taste. I mean look at who I'm marrying" I say while kissing Santana's cheek.
"Uh…ok" Santana says surprised, "we'll get back to you as soon as we get the quote. Thank you for today" she says while pulling me away.
"It really is a great venue, right?" I say as we get into our car.
"Why did you just do that?" she asks me.
"Do what?" I ask confused.
"Say that to Claire and then kiss me. We've been fighting for a while now so I assumed kissing me would be the last thing you'd want to do" she states.
"I did it to reassure you but also because I wanted to. Yes, we're still fighting but it doesn't mean I've switched everything off and feel nothing for you. Couples fight all the time too" I shrug.
"Ok" Santana nods.
"Anyway, we need to get back home now and see what else we have to do for the wedding" I say as we drive off.
"Really" Santana groans. "Aren't we due a break?" she asks.
"We can take a break but we can't stop for the day because this wedding won't plan itself" I point out.
"Just when I think we're going to stop this fighting; you start getting annoying again" she sighs.
"How is planning our wedding making me annoying?" I ask. I think with 15 weeks to go then it's quite reasonable of me to want to sort things out so we can have the wedding we want.
"You're making it out as if I've been doing nothing so far for this wedding and that's not true. I've been working hard but I still have been making wedding arrangements during work and when I get home" she says defensively.
"Santana I never said…do you know what, let's not get into this" I sigh. I'm not about to start another argument right now.
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*Sunday 25th July 2021*
Santana, myself and some of our friends and family are going dress shopping today. We're primarily going to look at wedding dresses but if we found some nice bridesmaids dresses along the way then we'll look into that. I don't know if Santana and I are really in the mood for this today since we've been getting a bit frustrated with each other but I feel like we can't put this off if we do want the wedding in November. We really need to get things sorted out as soon as we can so we can have the wedding when we want it. We're going around 11am so I'm just having some breakfast right now before I need to go and shower to get ready for the day.
"Hi" Santana says quietly as she walks into the kitchen and makes herself some coffee.
"Morning" I reply coldly. I do hate the awkwardness between us but at the same time, I don't think I'm wrong to feel how I do and I think Santana thinks the same.
"I'll get breakfast and ready and then we can meet everyone" she tells me.
"Yeah, I'm doing the same" I reply.
Once Santana and I have both eaten, we get showered and dressed for the day. Showering together was definitely out of the question so it did take a little longer for us to get ready since we had to do it separately but we got there. We then headed outside and into my car before I drove us to the location. We met our family and friends outside of the store and then headed inside. Quinn, Carly and Maribel all went with Santana and they looked at some designs together while my mom, sisters, Tina and Mercedes went around the store with me and looked at some dresses. Once we had both picked out quite a few selections each, we went to the dressing rooms.
"Here is how it's going to work, Britt and I don't want to see each other in our dresses until the big day so we'll come out one at a time in our selections and you can tell us what you think" Santana says as she heads into her dressing room across from mine.
"Also, no peeking Santana because we don't want 9000 years of bad luck" I say while going behind my curtain.
"I'm not going to peek because I want to be surprised on the day" she assures me from across the way in the other dressing room. "I'm all dressed so shall I go first?" she asks after a second or so.
"Yeah, you go first" I reply through the curtain.
"Ok" I hear Santana reply before I hear her leave her dressing room. She tells me once she's tried the first dress on and then I take my turn. It goes like that for some time before we've both finished trying on all of our dresses. We then wrap them all up again so we don't see any of them.
"Do you think you've found the one?" I ask my fiancée.
"You're standing right there Brittany so I would say she has" Quinn smirks. I am so grateful for my friends and family being here at the moment because it has broken the tension a little between Santana and I.
"I meant the dress" I smile.
"Yes, I think we all came to a decision of which one looks the best on me and we've picked out another one to change into for the reception" Santana replies. "You?" she asks looking at me.
"I definitely think I've found my two although, I need one adjusted but I'm sure that shouldn't be a problem" I say.
"Just book an appointment whenever you want and we'll do that for you" the female member of staff tells me. "You too Santana if you need anything" she adds.
"That's great" I smile.
"Since neither of you want to see each other's dress then we'll sort all this out for you and liaise with the staff about which ones you've picked and then book you appointments to come back and get the dresses adjusted" my mom tells me.
"Ok, thank you" I smile. For the adjustments I think my friends and family will come with me and Santana will have a separate appointment and her friends and family can accompany her to that.
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Santana and I are back home now after our busy day looking at dresses. We managed to get some ideas for the bridesmaids which was really good so we'll sort that all out in the next week or two. We've just finished something to eat so now we're sitting down together to finish off our invitations. We've already written and sent some out so we just need to do this last batch and hopefully people can get back to us soon and we can sort out the seating arrangements. Obviously, we have some tables we can arrange right now for like close friends and family since we know they're coming but we do want our other guests to reply soon.
"You looked great today" Santana tells me as we start writing out the invitations.
"Wait, you saw me in the wedding dresses?" I ask worriedly.
"No, I meant in general today but I'm sure you did look amazing in all of those wedding dresses because I heard everyone's reaction when you went out in each selection and they sounded like they loved every dress" she replies.
"Thank you" I smile.
"I don't want to fight with you anymore Britt" she says softly.
"I really don't want to fight with you either but we do need to come to some compromise because nothing is getting sorted for this wedding very quickly" I sigh. Of course, I hate the fighting but at the same time, this is something we both care about passionately and neither of us want to ever get married again because we love each other so this wedding is a big thing to both of us. I won't let Santana make all the decisions when this is my wedding too and I'm sure she feels the same about me.
"We are making progress Britt" she assures me.
"I know but you know what I'm like. I panic if things aren't going to plan so it stresses me out when I can't get things completed" I say.
"I know but we'll get there" she says.
"I hope so" I nod. "Oh, I meant to say, I spoke to my lawyer the other day and I've got the prenup all sorted."
"Britt, I told you before. I don't need you to get that drawn up because I know you would never rip the piss out of things if we ever got divorced. I honestly can't see us separating but if we ever did, I trust you" she tells me.
"You own your own business and you have a lot more money than me so I wanted to do this so you knew whatever you worked for was still yours" I say honestly. Santana has worked her whole life to be where she is so I wanted to do this to assure her that I won't take any of her assets. She is successful in her own right so I don't want her to give up anything that's hers in the unfortunate event that we ever did split.
"If you want to do this then fine but you really don't have to because like I say, I trust you" she smiles.
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*Wednesday 28th July 2021*
Things are still a little weird between Santana and I with the stress of the wedding but I'm hoping today we can put that behind us because we've got something exciting planned. We're going ring shopping for the wedding rings and we both love a bit of jewellery so I'm hoping it'll cheer us both up. We confirmed our plans with each other last night so I don't expect any issues to arise since we both agreed we're doing this today and have agreed to leave work until tomorrow. I'm also hoping we might be able to go to a nice restaurant for lunch and put our issues behind us. I do want to sort things out but I can't see us agreeing right now so I think we should just have a day off from the stress and forget about it. We can just have fun shopping for rings and have a nice lunch and remember why we're together in the first place.
"Are you ready to go?" Santana asks me as she walks into the bedroom where I'm still getting ready.
"Almost" I reply. "I just need to put my shoes on and find my sunglasses" I say. It's a nice bright day today so I'm definitely going to need my glasses when we're walking from one jewellery shop to another.
"From a fashion point of view, that dress looks amazing on you" Santana tells me. I'm not actually wearing anything special, just a nice summer's dress for this heat that shows a nice bit of leg.
"Thank you" I smile. "What about from a fiancée's point of view?" I query as I put my shoes on.
"You look hot as hell" she smirks at me causing me to blush slightly. Even though we are sort of fighting at the moment, I like that we want to make sure we keep the compliments coming for each other.
"You look really good too. I always like when you wear shorts because you have amazing legs and they always seem to highlight your butt which you know I love" I smile.
"You love everything about me which is one of the reasons I love you very much" she smiles at me. I finish getting myself organised and then we leave in Santana's car. We have a browse at a few shops just looking for ideas before finally finding a shop we think would have the perfect rings. I'm just having a look around and so is Santana when I think I've found what we want.
"Now they look nice" I say while admiring the white gold rings in front of me.
"They really do" Santana says as she follows me over to the display. "They all look like they would go well with our engagement rings" she says.
"Should we get the exact same band?" I ask.
"I think it would be nice to but if not then I'd want them to be really similar I think" she says. "It might be hard though because it has to match both engagement rings and obviously those are a little different from each other" she points out.
"All of these look really good so I'm sure we'll find something" I smile. After spending some time looking at the rings and trying them on, Santana and I both find the perfect one for each other. We then make our purchase before heading to one of the restaurants nearby that we like for lunch.
"Today has been fun and I love the rings we chose" Santana says as we look at the menu.
"I know, me too" I smile. I really can't wait to marry Santana and get to wear the rings.
"What are you thinking about eating?" she asks me as she looks over.
"I'm not sure yet but it all looks lovely so I'm sure whatever I decide will be great" I reply.
"I'm really quite hungry today so I probably could manage dessert after this but I couldn't manage a full portion so do you want to split with me?" Santana asks.
"Sounds good so let's do it" I smile. "What do you fancy?" I ask. Hopefully if we order our food and dessert at the same time then it'll come quicker.
"I fancy you but I guess you mean for dessert which I don't know about yet" she smiles back.
Santana's POV
*Friday 3rd September 2021*
I am hard at work right now but I can't stop thinking about everything we still have to plan for the wedding. We've been planning it for weeks now but we still have so much to do and it's stressing me out again. There's a good number of weeks before the wedding but I don't want to leave anything to the last minute. I'm usually that type of last-minute person but this is my wedding we're talking about. I want everything to go to plan so I'll be damned if I'm not organised in time. Like I keep saying I'm only ever going to have one wedding and that wedding will be with Brittany so it has to be really special with no issues.
"Hey, have you got a minute?" Brittany asks as she gently knocks on my opened office door.
"I suppose so" I sigh.
"I just heard back from one of my cousins and she's decided she will bring a date to the wedding so I think we're going to have to adjust the seating arrangements" she tells me.
"Again?" I ask annoyed. I don't know how many times someone has replied late to us and we've had to rearrange where everyone is sitting. There is a reason we put a rsvp date on the invitations. We didn't just put it there to fill space, it was for an important reason. I mean this fucks up the catering as well because we now have one more mouth to feed.
"I know but she's my mom's sister's daughter and my mom and her sister are close so I couldn't just say, no you're not allowed a date anymore" she sighs. "I don't want to cause any tension between the family" she adds.
"It's really rude Brittany" I say shaking my head. "I would never do that to someone" I state.
"I know babe but like I say, what could I do" Brittany shrugs. I suppose her cousin probably didn't think about the repercussions but I still don't like that because we did put a date to respond by and she responded as a single person.
"Please tell me nothing else has cropped up today" I say.
"Not really but apparently Mercedes and Tina can't make lunch next weekend because they're both working" she tells me nervously.
"Fuck" I groan. Next week we were supposed to all have lunch together and have another fitting for the dresses so we needed all of our bridesmaids there.
"Have we decided the sleeping arrangements for the night before the wedding yet?" she asks me.
"No, we haven't" I sigh. Great another thing we need to sort out because we can't spend the night together because it's not tradition to do that.
"We also still haven't booked a honeymoon location yet" she states.
"Oh, for fucks sake" I groan again. I totally forgot about that as well. "I personally think we should just elope" I sigh. All this planning is way too hard and it's driving me insane.
"I don't want to though. I want my whole family to be there and share my special day with me because we've always been close" Brittany points out.
"We've just got so much to do and so little time to do it if we want to make sure we can have everything on the same day so it's too hard. Eloping would make all the stresses disappear" I sigh. Ok, yes the actual wedding day is a while away but we need to book things in advance so we can make sure all of this can come together on that one date. There's no point leaving something to nearer the time and whatever it is is all booked out.
"Do you honestly want to elope?" she asks me.
"I just don't know what I want anymore. This whole thing is so frustrating. I just want to be your wife, plain and simple" I sigh.
"I want that too honey" she smiles at me. "Maybe we just need to take a step back from work and sort all of this out again" she suggests.
"Maybe" I nod.
"Take tomorrow off for me and let's sort everything out once and for all. I'm not working tomorrow" Brittany replies.
"Ok" I say. I can't concentrate at work anyways so it would be stupid to keep going to work without sorting anything when it is distracting me.
"I need to get back to work just now but I'll text you later" Brittany says. "You're on a half day today aren't you?" she asks.
"Yeah so I'll be leaving soon" I reply. I would like her to leave with me but I know she has urgent things to deal with today so I won't ask her to finish soon.
Once I finished work for the day, I headed to Brittany's office to tell her I was going home. However, when I got there she was nowhere to be found and Jack told me she had a meeting with the sales team. I didn't want to disturb her when she was working hard so I just headed home and sent her a little text to just let her know I was no longer at work. As soon as I got home, I stripped off my clothes and got into the tub for a relaxing bath. I needed something to calm me down because today and the last few weeks really have been stressful. I'm just taking a sip of wine as I relax in the bubbles in the bath when my phone vibrates at the side. I quickly check it, hoping it's Brittany.
From Brittany: I need to stay at work later than planned
To Brittany: ok
From Brittany: you can go ahead and eat dinner because it probably will be really late
To Brittany: I'll see you when you get home then
From Brittany: love you babe, see you later
To Brittany: love you too x
It's not really the text I was looking for when she first texted me because I was hoping it was her telling me she was headed home. I can't be mad though because I've spent plenty of late nights at work so I get it. I spend another 10 or so minutes in the bath before getting out when the water starts turning cold. I wrap myself up in my robe and head downstairs for something to eat. It's not until I'm sitting alone for an hour that it really gives me time to think and time to realise this whole stressful situation isn't worth it. I live with Brittany and work with her but I've never felt such a distance between us before and I hate it. I've decided I'm going to make things right when Brittany gets home so I'm texting her now just to see when that might be.
To Brittany: can you give me a text when you leave work babe?
From Brittany: I'm actually just going to leave in 2 minutes so I'll see you soon : )
To Brittany: awesome ; )
Ok, time is of the essence now to get everything in place for my apology. I want to make things right between us and what better way to do that than to show her some love. I'm putting on the best lingerie I have right now that I know Brittany likes and I'm going to light some candles and make the room look romantic. I'm pouring two glasses of red wine because I know Brittany really likes red wine and I'm going to throw some rose petals across the room. I'm finished the room preparations reasonably quickly so I'm now just getting myself settled in bed, looking sexy. I've barely got myself in the sexiest position I can when the front door bangs. I can only assume it's Britt just getting home. It takes a few seconds before I hear footsteps on the stairs and then the bedroom door opens.
"Hi" I smirk at Brittany.
"Hi" she smiles back at me as she closes the bedroom door behind her. "You look so sexy right now" she tells me as she makes her way over to me.
"Do you like what I'm wearing?" I ask her.
"I love it" she smirks at me.
"I wanted to make things up to you because I hate how we keep fighting over this wedding. The bottom line is I just want to be your wife so why are we making this so hard. A wedding is one day whereas I'll be your wife forever so why are we focusing on this one day when we should be looking forward to the future" I say.
"I wanted to make things up to you too" she says as she sits at the bottom of the bed, looking over at me.
"Who are the flowers from?" I ask. She's been holding a bunch of flowers since she walked into the bedroom but hasn't done anything with them.
"Oh shit, I forget I had them" she laughs. "They're for you to apologise for being a bridezilla recently. I want you to know I'm sorry for the way I've been acting" she says as she holds the flowers out to me.
"I need to apologise, you do not" I say honestly while taking the flowers from her.
"Let's just say we both need to apologise to the other because we have both been letting things get on top of us. You're right though, we shouldn't be getting this stressed out about a wedding when there are more important worries in the world. We should think of ourselves as lucky to have each other and not fight over something that's not life threatening" Brittany replies.
"I agree" I smile while moving down the bed to kiss Brittany. "I really hate when we fight" I admit as I put the flowers down on the bed and move to straddle Brittany's lap.
"I hate it too baby, I really do" she says as she wraps her arms around my waist.
"Can we get some of these layers of clothing off you please?" I ask as I start removing her sweater from her shoulders and pulling it down her arms.
"Of course" she smirks.
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*Monday 6th September 2021*
The wedding planning is still a little stressful for Brittany and I at the moment but I definitely think we're coping better with it which is good. I still can't help freaking out sometimes but I definitely don't think we've been fighting as much which is clearly a good thing. I'm currently just working in my office on my computer like I do a lot of the time when my door swings open. Brittany walks in and closes it behind her. She doesn't say anything; she just walks over to the seating area I have.
"What an absolute day" Brittany groans as she throws herself to the couch.
"Good afternoon to you too" I tease.
"Sorry, hi" she says while turning around on the couch to lie on her front so she can look at me. "I've barely been here today and I'm exhausted already" she adds.
"I did notice you seemed to be missing from around 10am to 12pm" I state. She was here at 8am this morning but after a couple of hours or so she seemed to disappear and I haven't seen her since then until now.
"I wasn't missing babe; I was otherwise engaged" she shrugs.
"Where were you?" I ask curiously.
"My mistress and I had a meeting in a hotel if you know what I mean" she smirks at me.
"That's not funny so don't joke around like that" I shake my head. Why would I find cheating amusing when it happens to so many people all the time?
"Perhaps if you listened to me last night then we could have avoided the joking around" she tells me with a shrug.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I ask offended.
"I've been saying for weeks that I had a dental appointment today and I reminded you again last night that I would be out of the business for a few hours so that's where I've been" Brittany states.
"You don't sound like you've had surgery on your mouth so was it just a routine check-up?" I ask. "I mean I can't see why it would take 2 hours though for a check-up" I shrug.
"It wasn't surgery, it was just a routine appointment to check my teeth and gums" Brittany replies. "However, the length of time I was away was due to traffic and the fact that the dental practice I go to isn't even that close anyway" she adds.
"Why can't you go to a dentist closer to home then?" I query.
"I used to do that but the one I went to was more like a butcher than a dentist so I changed and found a new practice to go to" she shrugs.
"There is more than one dental practice around here so maybe you should move to a different one closer to home where the butcher doesn't work or even go to my practice. My dentist is really good and my whole family goes to him" I shrug.
"Maybe I will then" she tells me. "Anyway, maybe we should be thinking more about you going to the hearing clinic than about me and the dentist. I definitely told you last night my plans for today so you must be losing your hearing these days" she smirks.
"Brittany, if you insist on talking to me when I've just got into bed then it's your own fault because you know I can't comprehend anything when I'm almost asleep" I state.
"You're very moody today and you can't seem to take a joke, what's up babe?" Brittany asks.
"Nothing" I say with a sigh as I shake my head.
"There is clearly something annoying you so come here please" she says as she sits up on the couch and pats the empty spot next to her. "You don't seem very cheerful today and you seem like you have some concerns about me. It was like you didn't even believe the dentist story at the beginning until I explained why I took so long."
"I should probably get back to work now. We can talk about this later at home" I shrug.
"No, we can't" she states.
"We can't?" I question.
"No because you and I both know if we don't nip this thing in the bud now then we never will. We'll both get home later and eat since we're hungry and forget about the talk because we're too tired. You're just trying to say we'll talk later because you know we won't so you can avoid talking about your troubles" Brittany replies. Fuck, she knows me too well.
"Fine" I say with a sigh as I make my way over to Brittany.
"What's going on?" she asks as she puts her arms around me and kisses the side of my face.
"The wedding planning is just stressing me out I think and I'm taking it out on you when I shouldn't be" I admit. "I do trust you so ignore me when I question you about where you've been" I add.
"I thought we cleared everything up about our stresses and getting frustrated with one another?" she says.
"We did but things won't magically be less stressful within minutes. It's going to take time to sort everything out" I point out. It's not even been a week since we had that conversation so everything hasn't just fell into place all of a sudden.
"Ok, fair point" Brittany nods. "So, what is the major stress at the moment for you?" she asks me.
"Quinn looks awful" I sigh.
"You're stressing because you think your best friend is ugly?" Brittany asks with a laugh.
"No, I meant she looks awful in the bridesmaid's dresses and I don't know what to do" I say. I wanted all of the bridesmaids to match. I don't mean in the exact same dress but definitely the same colour and similar designs so it's not like we can just randomly find something else for Quinn to wear. On the other hand, that's a lot of hassle to change all of our bridesmaids' dresses so I'm stuck.
"Is she the only one you feel looks bad in the dress?" she asks me.
"Yes, so that's why it's so frustrating. Everyone looks great except Quinn" I state. "The even more annoying thing is that she thinks she looks great so she's won't agree to change her dress" I add.
"Maybe she doesn't want to change because she's mad at you for saying she looks awful when she doesn't look bad at all" she tells me.
"Do you think she suits the bridesmaid's dresses?" I question.
"I actually think she looks really good" Brittany shrugs.
"Why don't you just marry her then" I say while rolling my eyes.
"Babe, where did that come from?" she asks me surprised.
"I knew you would side with Quinn because you frequently do" I sigh. Even though she is my best friend, Brittany always seems to take Quinn's side.
"Honey, there are no sides. I generally think Quinn looks ok and to be honest I'd rather she stayed with the dress she had and saved us any hassle to look for something else" she replies.
"She doesn't look good though Brittany so I don't want her embarrassing me at my own wedding. Also, I'm a fashion designer so I know what looks good and what doesn't. I'm an expert in that kind of thing" I say.
"I know you're great with fashion but you're actually coming across quite rude now" Brittany tells me. "I know you mean well but there really isn't anything wrong with Quinn or the dress. Different people have different tastes and if Quinn likes it then what's the harm. Fair enough it's not your taste but she still looks good" she adds.
"Ok, fine" I sigh.
"We're starting to take things out on each other again and I don't like it" she points out. "Can we please promise to move forward from this and be there for each other. If something doesn't work out then it doesn't matter because we've got each other?"
"You're right" I smile. We love each other so much so why are we letting all of this get on top of us. At the end of the day Brittany is more important to me than some day so if I can't get what I want then it's not ideal but it's ok because I have my one true love.
"Come here" she says while pulling me close for a kiss.
"I love you" I smile.
"I love you too" she smiles back.