CHAPTER 61

ENJOYING THE ROUTINE

Dianna was lazily grazing her finger on Jason's chest. He was heavily asleep on her bed, with his mouth slightly open, snoring. Not lightly this time, his snore was louder than usual, even though she still managed to sleep. But she slept of pure exhaustion, there could be a bombing nearby and it would take her a while to wake up.

She smiled at herself thinking about the night before. Jason was acting incredibly bossy and dominant, and even though Dianna always loved his cuteness, she definitely was pleasantly surprised by that other side of him. She thought she had seen all there was to see about his Bravo One side, but apparently not; he kept surprising her.

He had her against the wired fence, where he made her come once before they came again together, then while he recovered he sat on the uncomfortable bench of his cage, lazily kissing Dianna on his lap while she took off the boots. But kept the coat, attending his request. When he was ready, Dianna decided to be the one in charge and moved on his lap, and Jason was really loving it, but when they were close to their climax, Jason got too excited with the role play and got dominant again, stopping her and carrying her to the center table, where he climbed up and had her on all fours, still with her fur coat on, and they loudly reached their orgasm again.

Although at first it doesn't seem like it, Dianna thought it was a magical night. Not only because the sex was great, but because she noticed how Jason could let go and do things that he always wanted to do, but was too shy or afraid to ask her, or even someone else to do, probably. He released his inner dominant side, the Bravo One side, and even though Dianna never thought she'd like to be submissive in any way, she enjoyed not having to make any decisions. She teased him in the beginning, but from there on, she just relaxed and enjoyed the ride, literally. And she loved it, to relinquish control.

She glanced down at her thigh entwined on Jason's leg, and it had slight purple bruises, marks of his fingers. She always had sensible skin, but since he had to hold her for a good amount of time in the same position, and even carry her around, the marks were there. They weren't really painful, but she knew that if someone saw those bruises on her they could be a little shocked, and even she would be shocked to discover that some guy left her bruised, but this was definitely not the case. Jason was the most attentive guy that she ever been with. She couldn't imagine doing anything similar to what they did the night before with any other guy she met. And he kept his word, and she kept her promise; after they came on the center table, she told him she was a little exhausted, and he grinned at her, he was too. They had to catch their breaths for a few minutes before Jason got out of the table and helped Dianna come down, then they clumsily got dressed and left, both of them sleepy. Dianna left her car at the Base because she was too tired to drive, and Jason disguised it but was also almost dozing off, but they got back in her house and couldn't even shower, they shamefully just took their clothes off and fell on the bed.

Dianna woke up a few minutes ago, to pee, brush her teeth and her hair, and look all pretty for when Jason woke up. But it was noon and he was still asleep. They needed to eat and the jacuzzi would be installed that afternoon, they didn't tell her at what time, but she needed to be at her place waiting. That's annoying, but at least they'd install it already. She wanted to keep it as a surprise for Jason, because after all he'd use it too. He mentioned how he wanted a jetted tub at his apartment, and that was impossible, so Dianna knew that he'd love to be able to use that jacuzzi to relax his muscles. He'd be hanging out at her place a lot for the next week or so, since he's still on a leave because of his concussion. She's just glad that he didn't experience any of those mood swings anymore, those were terrible.

Dianna sighed, hating to do this. She had to wake Jason up now because they needed to shower, eat, and then be ready. She thought about not waking him up, but maybe he'd wake up with the noise and then she wouldn't be able to cook anything for him, she'd be busy with the guys outside, and, of course, it wouldn't be a surprise. Besides, they started the night early and came back from the Base at 2PM, so he slept almost ten hours already. She needed to know if he wanted brunch or something else to eat, her fridge was full, so he could choose. She felt like a housewife. And she kind of liked it.

"Jason" Dianna slightly shook him, and he didn't even flinch. "Jason, hey, wake up" she shook him a lot harder, and he finally made a snort sound and woke up, confused.

"I'm sorry to wake you up, but it's noon and I wanted to know what you want to eat, so I can prepare it. There will be guys making noise at the backyard this afternoon, and I'll have to be outside with them" she said all at once, slowly, but Jason took a few seconds to understand what she said.

"I don't… what?" Jason asked, blinking and sitting on the bed.

Maybe he didn't understand. Dianna smiled, and repeated the same words, then he finally understood. And gave her a cute smile.

"You don't have to prepare me anything, I can just make me a sandwich here, or some place else".

Dianna kissed his neck. "I want to. I'm hungry too. Just tell me if you want like breakfast or something like tacos".

"Oh" he was thinking about breakfast, but the taco idea got his attention. "Well, if you're up to it, I do love tacos" he joyfully said.

She smiled. "Good. I'll prepare a few things then I'll come back up to shower. You can shower now then.

"You know, you can shower with me first" he naughtily said, and she chuckled.

"No, it's okay, I'll leave some things cooking and shower in the meantime. Besides, I know that the shower wouldn't be so quick, huh" she teased.

Jason sighed. "Perhaps you're right" he chuckled, then he changed his expression to concerned. "You're not in pain, are you?"

"No" Dianna said, and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Not at all. I loved it".

Jason lazily smiled at her. "Me too. Thanks for the gift" he huskily said, gazing at her, touching her lips with his finger, and remembering the night they had.

"Yeah. Any time" Dianna said, gazing at him and getting out of the bed. She couldn't let him seduce her again for now.

"Why are there sticks in the grass?" Jason asked Dianna, curious, while chewing and swallowing, in one bite, almost a third of his taco.

Dianna didn't think he'd go back there already, so she had no excuse. "I was thinking about placing a fire pit somewhere on that area" she made up.

Jason looked at her, confused. "There's a slope there. You should place it to the right, closer to Ms. Lewis' fence.

Dianna liked that Jason was into details and wanted to give her landscaping advice, but she knew about the slope and wanted to take advantage of it. So she decided to tell him part of the truth.

"I know, I was thinking on making like some sort of deck there, in the future. I don't want to build it too close to Ms. Lewis, she would hear all our chatting and gossip" Dianna naughtily smiled, reminding him that Ms. Lewis heard a lot of things during the past weeks.

"A deck, huh" Jason casually said, glancing out of the kitchen window, even though he couldn't see much of that area from there. "The guys coming in this afternoon are landscapers?" he suspiciously asked.

"That too. They'll be preparing the backyard to build me new flower beds" Dianna casually lied, annoyed that her taco was falling apart. She was always incredibly clumsy while eating, it drove her mad, and Jason always thought that it was cute that she never realized that the reason why her burgers and tacos always fell apart is that she takes forever to eat them, and the filling ends up sliding out or dripping.

"Cool" Jason lied. He had no idea why women kept spending money on fancy gardening stuff for flowers. They were flowers, just a wooden retainer or a fence is enough from his point of view. He was aware that they were very beautiful, true, but they were an unnecessary expense. "So… I'll be at Ray's today. I'm still helping him out on that project" Jason casually said.

Dianna smiled, it was even better then. "Sure. I'll have to stay here anyways, with the landscapers. Do you want to have dinner here tonight? Or will you eat at Ray's, or your place?" Dianna put down her taco, giving up eating it. It was a mess. And she felt more comfortable now making plans with Jason, not as shy anymore.

Jason licked his fingers, before cleaning his hands with the napkin. Dianna had ideas. "I thought we could go out tonight. Some place of your choice, ma'am" he huskily and seductively said, and Dianna felt a shiver down her spine.

She didn't think about dining out, but she was in the mood for eating some Italian food lately. "Oh. Okay. What about Italian?" Jason smiled, agreeing, then she remembered she still had the untouched dessert in her fridge. "We could have dessert here, after. We didn't eat it last night" she seductively said, walking closer to Jason and straddling him on the dining chair. That is, the outdoor chair that Dianna used in her dining room. She wasn't a fan of eating in the kitchen island, unless it was breakfast. The stool was uncomfortable.

"Oh" Jason was happily surprised when Dianna straddled him and started to lick his fingers out of nowhere, but he would never complain, ever. She was also kissing him and his neck. "Yes. Great idea. Hum. You know, I didn't really tell Ray at what time I'd arrive" Jason playfully said, while Dianna hummed on his neck.

But then a car parked in front of Dianna's house, and she almost jumped out of Jason's lap.

"Oh, the landscapers are here. Go on, go help Ray. I'll see you tonight. Pick me up at 7PM, alright?" Dianna was grabbing Jason and making him stand up, then pushed him to the front door while talking.

"Dianna" Jason called her and stopped, annoyed. "What do you mean pick you up? My things, toiletries stuff, are all here".

"Oh, I thought those were your extra, like when you go on an op or deployment" Dianna was confused, and didn't notice he was hurt.

"They are. But. You know, it would be easier to just get ready here" Jason said, awkward. She was too eager to get rid of him.

Dianna finally saw he was hurt. The landscapers knocked on her door, they came a lot earlier than she thought. She had to think of something, stat.

"Oh, but you know what" she seductively caressed his chest, "I'd love for you to pick me up, all romantic. All dressed up. I could surprise you with my outfit" she said, raising her eyebrow. Jason's member twitched and he couldn't agree more with her idea. Best idea ever. Second best, actually, he reminded himself.

"Okay" he grinned. "Sure, u-hum. I'll pick you up here then. 1900 hours. I'll be here. To take you out. Fancy dinner" he seductively and anxiously said.

"Can't wait" she seductively said, then almost shoved Jason out of the front door, because the landscaper and plumber were waiting. They would prepare the ground and connections and then the store would bring the jacuzzi and install it. Jason nodded at the guys and made his way to his truck, leaving, for Dianna's happiness.

"Okay, this isn't fair Dianna" Davis grumbled, squirming next to the newly installed jacuzzi. "You'll have almost an in-ground jacuzzi paying the price of the normal one" she said, envious. Davis would pay more than double the price of the installation of her jacuzzi than Dianna, because her backyard didn't have a slope anywhere. She checked. Dianna's backyard was mostly leveled, but that part on a corner near the patio and a tree was sloped, and the jacuzzi looked amazing there, even though it still lacked a deck.

"Well, to be honest, I did spent a little more with the landscaper, but true, he managed to dig the slope by hand. I'm lucky, because I don't have the money for these things". Dianna casually said, proud of her own accomplishment.

Davis turned to her, crossing her arms. "Your wage is almost the same as mine, Dianna. If you were more conscious with your expenses, like, I don't know, clothes, boots and restaurants, you could afford an in-ground jacuzzi too. And a bigger house, by the way".

"As a matter of fact, I don't want a bigger house. I'm fine in a two-bedroom place, okay? And it's less cleaning and maintenance" Dianna calmly explained. Davis was right about her expenses, though. She just didn't care. She wanted to live life.

Davis sighed. "Fine. I'll go to my place, the landscapers will come by tomorrow to start. I can't believe that I'll spend days digging dirt out of my backyard for this. Can you imagine the mess? I should've never let you convince me" she said, walking to Dianna's front door.

"Excuse me? I didn't convince you to do anything. You're the one who said that jacuzzis were lame, huh, now look at that. You could have bought a normal jacuzzi" Dianna followed her, indignant.

Davis was already with a foot out the door. "No. Normal jacuzzis are lame. In-ground are nice. Okay, bye. Go get ready for your frogman" she said, annoyed, closing the door behind her.

Dianna sighed, but Davis was right. She had finished placing some lights on the tree that had some branches over the jacuzzi, and showered, but she was still with a robe, and she also had to dry her hair. At least she already knew what she'd wear. A new dress, of course. With new boots. It wasn't too hot that day. So she ran up the stairs.

Jason was smiling at himself and checking if his blazer was okay by the tenth time, but it was. Since they were eating Italian food, he chose to look like a mobster again, or at least he cockily thought so. He was wearing a black blazer with polo black shirt, and a dark jeans. He got off the truck and decided to knock on Dianna's door, instead of opening it with his key. Of course she took a minute to answer, running late again. But she opened the door and it was worth the wait.

She was wearing a wrap around floral dress in a light fabric, black with some delicate white, pink and burgundy flowers on it. And she was wearing burgundy boots, that ended in the middle of her knee. He never saw anyone, except celebrities, wearing boots of that color, and he was immediately turned on. She also had a reddish lipstick on, a bit blurred, like someone had just kissed her. Or bitten her lips. He couldn't wait to do that.

"Hi" Dianna shyly said, getting out of her house and shutting the door behind her. "You look great" she sincerely said, and immediately she caressed his chest, pulling him closer by holding his blazer. Her boots had high heels, but he still had to hunch down to kiss her, and he didn't mind it, at all.

"You look amazing" Jason muttered to her, with a hungry stare, when she came closer. She softly kissed his lips, and he joyfully guided her to his truck, opening the door for her.

"I can climb it up on my own now" Dianna joked, reminding him when he had to hold her by the waist to get in or out of it, and again when she hurt her shoulder.

"You sure?" he huskily said behind her, in her ear, holding her waist, and Dianna forgot about the joke and just nodded, looking back. He was teasing, of course, but she loved his look.

They made their way to the restaurant, and Jason made reservations, just in case, and they ordered different pastas, salads and wine. Neither of them was much of a wine person, but they made an exception, convinced by the waiter, and it was the right choice. Dianna's lip was darker on the center because of the wine, and she complained about it, but it made her lip look even more bitten. When Jason parked his truck in her driveway, he opened the door for her again.

"Will you invite me in?" Jason joked, but he still had a hungry stare.

"Of course" Dianna seductively said, and leaned closer. "We have dessert. And I mean food" she chuckled, and he laughed too. Jason was already breathing on her neck when she opened the door, but he'd have to wait, she really was in a mood for dessert, as always. "It's just an apple crumble pie, with ice cream, not Italian at all, but at least the ice cream kinda is" she chuckled, and Jason suddenly felt very hungry for something sweet too.

She put the crumble pie in the hot oven to warm up a bit, then decided to ask about his day. She was afraid Jason might get easily bored.

"You know what, it was good" Jason was also surprised, "Of course I was pretty much with the boys all afternoon, so the good times are guaranteed" he sincerely said.

"What did you guys do at Ray's?" she asked, taking the vanilla ice cream off the freezer. Jason got the bowls and spoons in the meantime.

"Some physical labor" he cockily stated, "You know. Building stuff".

"What did you build?" she served him the pie and ice cream, and he took a couple of seconds to answer.

"A piece of furniture. For Ray's house. Just a small one" he tried to sound as casual as possible, and Dianna was too invested on the pie to notice anything.

"That's nice. Oh, are you building Naima a table? She's really tired of her old one" Dianna was excited.

Jason didn't know if it was bad or good that she knew something about a table, so he lied. "We'll test it out first, build her some side tables that she wants. To see if we can do it".

"Nice. I love a man who can build stuff" Dianna seductively said, and Jason never finished a dessert so quickly. He glanced at the island where they were eating on.

"You know. This island is at a perfect height for me" he seductively told her, and she blushed, surprised. "Just saying" he added, gazing at her and standing up.

She decided that she could show the jacuzzi for him later, it wouldn't go anywhere.

"Is that so?" she said, but still a little shy, because he was very eager, taking the bowls off the island. Dianna still had some ice cream left in her bowl.

"It is, you see" Jason casually stood beside the island, placing his hand on the top of it, and yes, his crotch was exactly at the same level as the countertop. Dianna looked up at him, still sitting on the stool. He hunched down to kiss her, and suddenly grabbed her waist and raised her to the top of the island, and she gasped.

"This is a great dress" he said, looking at her while he untied and unwrapped the dress, letting it drop on her back. "This is a great bra" he continued, and Dianna agreed, it was a new black lacy bra. But Jason better not rip her new lacy panties this time, she wouldn't let him. He probably thought the same. He muttered, "this is a great lacy panties", and took it off of her, Dianna raised her hip to help him.

"And the boots?" Dianna asked, raising an eyebrow. "Don't you like them?" she was sad that he didn't say anything. She loved her new boots.

"Oh" Jason came closer, taking off his blazer and placing it over the stool. "Yes, the boots" he casually said, looking at the boots, then he took his polo shirt off and looked at her again. "The boots are my favorite" he mumbled, softly kissing her lips.

Dianna smiled, and thought Jason would advance at her, but he was slowly kissing her. Then he trailed kisses on her neck and down her breasts. He stared at her body for a few seconds, then gasped and took the ice cream that was left in Dianna's bowl, a little melted.

"The ice cream is great, too" he muttered, looking at Dianna, and she gasped when he let the drips of ice cream fall from the spoon to her stomach and breasts. "It's even better now" he mumbled on her skin, while licking the ice cream off of her.

Dianna was squirming and pulled him closer, and started to open his belt and jeans. Jason let her, smiling at her eagerness. He came back to look at her face when he finished licking her, and guided his erection to her core. Dianna was very wet already.

"I love apple crumble pie" he lazily said, while pushing into her slowly, both of them gasping. "And vanilla ice cream" he started to move, slowly and deep, holding her hips in place so she wouldn't slide back. "A very American dessert. Some people say it's plain" he stated, reaching deep.

Dianna squirmed, moaning. "I love it too. It's not plain, at all" she said, smiling, and Jason embraced her closer, with his lips on hers. "You see" she continued, now scratching his back and disheveling his hair, "I love the combination of the warm pie, and the cold ice cream. It's comforting".

Jason chuckled, still moving. "Comforting, huh?"

She pressed her boots firmly on his butt, making him shiver. "It is. I love comfort food. My favorite" she smiled, and he smiled back. It was his favorite type of food, too. "I could have it every day" she explained, biting his chin.

Jason gasped, so happy that he moved faster, and Dianna pressed the heels of her sexy boots on his skin, again. "Could you, now?" he bit her lip, like he wanted to do all night, and she moaned with the pain, but loved it. "You know, I could have that Uruguayan chimichurri all day, too. With every meal. Even breakfast" he said, chuckling.

Dianna chuckled with him. "Good to know. I'll make a batch of it".

"Please do" he said, now moving a little harder. "I could eat it tomorrow morning already" he stated, and suddenly began to thrust much harder, while Dianna wrapped her arms on his neck and messed his hair. She was wrapping herself around his body and Jason could barely move inside of her, every time he pulled out she pressed her boots. He was loving the sensation, grunting, and was pressing her thigh harder too. He felt her twitching and she was loudly moaning now.

"I have some from last night yet" Dianna quickly said, in a high-pitched voice, because she was coming, "I can" she stuttered, not able to finish her sentence, then held Jason's face in front of hers. She was astonished about how he could always make her come so hard and give her this urge to want to cook for him and take care of him, like he takes care of her. She never thought she could enjoy doing day-to-day things with someone, this was new to her, for sure. She thought she wasn't cut for it.

"You can do this to me everyday, if you want to" Dianna blurted to his face, not thinking, but she didn't even have time to regret it, she was already shutting her eyes.

Jason loved to hear that, and smiled dangerously at her. "Oh, I want to. And I will. Everyday" he blurted back to her, and couldn't control his orgasm any longer. He came with her, and they both screamed their moans together.

After they recovered and Jason helped Dianna come down from the island, she asked him to wait in the kitchen. She put her underwear back on and closed her dress, but took off her boots, for Jason's sadness. Then ran outside to turn the lights on, then ran back inside, trying to disguise that she was already breathless, both from the sex and from the run.

"Okay" she said, excited, and waited until a shirtless Jason finished drinking a lot of water, then took his hand. "I wanna show you the backyard".

Jason tried to look excited about flower beds, but he didn't do an excellent job, yet he obediently followed Dianna outside. The glass door was wide open and he saw some new light there, which he thought that was a nice addition, then when they got to the patio he looked down, and saw the jacuzzi. A round white one, a cute one, just like Dianna likes.

Dianna was grinning, thinking that at night the jacuzzi looked even better. She wanted to see Jason's reaction, but he just kept still, surprised but serious and confused. He walked closer, while Dianna waited on the patio, now thinking that maybe he'd think that this was a ridiculous waste of money. She still loved it, of course, but his opinion mattered to her. Especially because she wanted him to use it too.

She watched as Jason walked to it, then looked around it, where the landscaper kindly planted some bushes and flowers around, his idea actually, for both privacy from the neighbors and beauty. The branches of the tree with the lights made the jacuzzi almost an exterior private spa.

Jason kept his back to Dianna, and she was feeling very insecure with his silence.

"You building a deck here?" he asked, not turning, pointing at one of the sides of the jacuzzi, the closest one to the patio, that for now was covered with fake grass, so the dirt wouldn't make a mess. Again, the landscaper's idea, Dianna didn't even think of that. But at least it didn't look ugly, especially at night, it was hard to notice the difference between the fake grass and the real grass there. In the middle, the guy made a stone patch from the patio, leading to the jacuzzi. Dianna loved all of it.

Jason finally turned. "This… looks amazing" he said, but still looking serious. Dianna was confused, so at first she smiled, then her smile faded away.

"Thanks" she muttered, not knowing what to say.

"This is a rental, Dianna" Jason told her, affectionately, walking back to her and pointing at the floor.

Dianna squirmed. "I know. I talked to the landlord, she gave me permission. When I leave, if she doesn't want to pay for it, I can take it with me" she explained, feeling awkward.

"Aren't you worried about the maintenance? I mean, you'll be out of here half your time, it's hard enough to keep the lawn mowed. I mean, I'm not complaining" he added, because he volunteered to mow her lawn, "but still, someone has to mow it from time to time when I'm not here".

"I know. The landscaper offered already, for when we're deployed again" Dianna was feeling more foolish by the second. But she still stood by her decision.

"I just… don't want you to get overwhelmed. Or in debt. I mean, I hated to see you struggling when you worked for the Navy, Dianna" he explained, when he noticed her hurt face.

"I wasn't struggling" she explained, "I'm just not really good with my expenses. I could have taken extra work as a consultant at that time, I just didn't want to" she felt a lump in her throat, and was hating that Jason was making her feel like a penniless teenager.

He did that sometimes, talking like he was twenty years older than her, even though he was seven. She knew he had been married and had kids, and it would give him some wisdom regarding some things, but he still lacked wisdom about many other things where Dianna was a lot more conscious, like handling traumas and death, not meddling in the jobs of others, and especially when he was antagonized.

Jason exhaled, holding her hands. "I didn't mean to bring you down. I just think that you have to think more about the future, like, financial safety. I know, you got to rent a great house, but maybe you could have lived in an apartment and bought one in a few years, instead, for instance".

Dianna now was feeling angry, and her eyes were filling with tears. "What, and live in a crappy place like you do? Until what, I'm forty-five?"

"No" Jason felt terrible, "Just, maybe, an apartment, nicer than mine of course, I mean, you don't need a backyard, or a two-bedroom house" he gestured around him.

Dianna finally understood what he meant. He thought she would be okay living childless and maybe even unmarried for the rest of her life. She was never sure if she wanted to have kids, but like her father told her in Uruguay, she never said she didn't want them either. And it was becoming clear to her that, if she got pregnant without planning, she wouldn't really mind it anymore. She just didn't know if she wanted something planned yet.

"I'm a firm believer in living the moment and being ready for good things that might come, Jason" she harshly told him, "and I want to live in a two-bedroom house with a beautiful backyard right now, and not in ten years. I want to have flower beds, and a nice dining room, and maybe use the second bedroom as my office" she said, distancing from him, because he kept looking at her with a confused look, as if it was a shock that she wanted those normal things.

"I'm still young, Jason, and I haven't lived an entire life yet, like you did. I didn't have a husband to stay home taking care of kids while I was working, and this is the first time that I get to live in a house, all alone, in my life. Because I did this all on my own, I didn't have a second person to share all my expenses with" she gestured, pointing at the floor, very hurt.

"And you're right to be proud of what you got, that's not what I meant. Like I said, I'm just really worried that you'll be in debt, I know how much a jacuzzi costs, Alana wanted one years ago, and we didn't get one" he said, trying to calm her down.

"Exactly, Jason" Dianna now had a tear rolling down her cheek. "Alana wanted one, and she never got one" she stated, and Jason was surprised. Dianna walked closer to him again. "Probably you both decided it would be best if you got one in a few years. Maybe after you retired. But she never got to live that far, did she?" She said, and she knew she was hurting Jason, but she was too angry because he ruined her surprise. His eyes were filling with tears, but she continued.

"My mother always wanted to travel to Europe. She and my dad kept postponing it, even when they could afford it. Then they couldn't afford it anymore. Then she got sick. Then she died. She never knew Europe, Jason" tears now were rolling down her face, "She never saw Paris, like I did, or Germany, she always wanted to know Germany".

She cupped Jason's face with her hands, she wasn't angry anymore, because she now knew that he just ignored and overrode all the things he couldn't do because of his job or because he postponed it. Because he felt too guilty otherwise. "I was caught in dangerous situations twice in a matter of months, Jason. Twice. You almost die at least twice a year. Is it really so strange that I want to enjoy life while I can?"

Jason kept staring at her, blinking, because he tried to clear the tears from his eyes. "That's too low, Dianna. To bring up Alana like this. Make me feel guilty because I didn't want to buy her a fucking jacuzzi" he dangerously said, looking at her with his hands on his hips. He was incredibly hurt and angry.

Dianna couldn't believe that he thought she was doing that. "No, Jason. You're the one who tried to make me feel guilty for wanting to live, to pamper myself" she said, feeling hurt. "But it upsets me that you would think I talked about Alana to make you feel guilty". Her lips were trembling.

Jason just continued to stare at her, hurt too. "I wasn't trying to make you feel guilty. I just wanted what's best for you" he said, but harshly. "But that doesn't give you the right to say anything about what you think happened between me and Alana".

Dianna blinked, to avoid the tears. She knew she hurt him, but she was feeling the urge to yell at him. However, she remembered that he was always thinking he was a terrible husband, the worst of them all, and of course he felt guilty even about things that didn't concern him, when it came to Alana or his kids. Or even the team, actually. He was screwed up and always feeling guilty, and he wouldn't change overnight. So Dianna decided to be the cooler person this time, which she wasn't used to do.

She sighed, to calm down, then she came closer to him. "Jason. I'm sorry. I really didn't mean to meddle. Ever" she sincerely apologized, and Jason blinked, now not angry, just hurt.

"Look, Alana had a full life, the jacuzzi obviously was just a small detail about it, maybe you guys really couldn't afford it, I know. That's not the point. The point is, getting the jacuzzi, or having this cute house, is not a small detail to me, no, considering that this is probably the biggest expense that I'll have over the next year" she pointed at the jacuzzi, and Jason frowned. "From what you and everyone tells about Alana, she was a great woman, and wanted to make everyone around her happy. She definitely would want you to be happy too, Jason, like, not living in that horrible apartment you live" she explained, and Jason squirmed. Dianna really hated his apartment, but to be honest, so did he.

"She'd want our kids to go to a good college and boarding school, Dianna" Jason states, annoyed that she couldn't understand that he only lived in a crappy apartment because he wanted to pay for his kids' education.

"I know. I'm just saying, maybe you could have picked another one that's not so sad. It's like you don't care where you spend your spare time" she tried to explain.

"I don't. It's a place to sleep, that's all" he bluntly said, squirming.

Dianna exhaled. "That's the thing, you never think of yourself". She wasn't going to tell him this, but she changed her mind. "I had the idea of buying the jacuzzi after you told me that you wanted a jetted tub and couldn't have one" she muttered, squirming. Jason's chin dropped. "I always wanted one too" she quickly added, because he reacted like she bought it just for him, like a gift. "I just decided that this was a good time to buy one, since then I wouldn't be the only one using it. That's why" she shyly told him, feeling foolish for doing it.

Jason stared at her, with his mouth slightly open. He was still hurt by what she said, but he felt guilty about criticizing her after what she told him now. He looked down, with his hands on his hips, now ashamed to make her feel bad about it.

"I don't… know what to say. That's very thoughtful of you. I mean, to think that I'd like to use it too" he muttered.

Dianna felt awkward and sad about the things Jason told her.

"Yeah. If I knew you wouldn't like it, maybe I could've just changed the bathtub upstairs for a jetted one or something like that" she muttered, avoiding eye contact. Feeling irresponsible and foolish, for sure.

"No, but I liked it" Jason said, the guilt taking over him after he saw Dianna's sad demeanor, "I told you, it looks incredible. It must be very relaxing" he came closer, slightly smiling, but she kept avoiding eye contact.

"Sure. That's okay. I'll use it, of course, eventually" she muttered, then turned off the lights of the tree and gathered the towels from the patio, that she had left for them to use.

Jason felt a lump in his throat when he noticed he ruined all that she prepared for them. He wanted to die. "Dianna, I swear, it's amazing, please, let's use it tonight, I mean, my muscles are sore from all the labor I did this afternoon" he followed her, and he meant it, he really was in pain, his back was killing him.

"I'm not in the mood right now" she muttered again, walking to the stairs, "Please, close and lock the glass door when you come back inside" she said, then she stopped, still with her back turned to him. Strangely, she realized she didn't want him to spend the night at his apartment. "I'm not angry with you, Jason" she suddenly said, and Jason came closer to hear, she was talking very low. She turned to him, not completely. "Will you stay here tonight?"

He swallowed, looking at her in the middle of the stairs. "If you want me to, yes".

"Okay. Good" she mumbled, then continued to walk up the stairs.

Dianna was very upset with herself, for trying to surprise Jason, she should have just done it all for herself and that was it. But no, she wanted to do something romantic and got shut down.

But what hurt her the most, was to realize that Jason never thought she could be having a family soon, either with him or even with some other guy. That he thought she should just live like a spinster for ten years to then afford to buy her own house… alone.

That really hurt, and an alarm went off in Dianna's head.

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