Cassie lived for Friday's.
They were her moment of sanity and assurance that Nate Jacobs actually wanted her. Every Friday night, Cassie would wait for Nate outside Mrs Greene's house. Just far enough for her mom and sister to not see her skip her way to his imposing truck.
When they were in Nate's bedroom, at the Jacobs' house, they were in their own reality. In love and in lust, incapable of keeping their hands off of each other. From sweet kisses and love making, to choke holds and rough fucks.
"It's so hard lying to Maddy" She would say as they spooned in bed. Nate would sigh and squeeze her tighter against him.
"I know…" He would kiss the side of her head delicately. "But it's worth it, right?"
And Cassie couldn't deny that the feeling she felt in his arms was worth all the heartbreak and disappointment to come.
"Yea, it is."
There were moments Nate feared Cassie would be eaten away by the guilt and confess their deception to Maddy. She would call him hysterically or get lost in her own thoughts as they lay in bed. In some ways, Cassie wasn't the best person to be having a secret relationship with. She was emotional and at times unhinged. But she was also loyal to him and willing to lose everything to have him. And that was the most amazing feeling he had ever felt.
"I love that I'm your secret" She would gasp out, as his strong hands squeezed her delicate neck. "and I can't tell a soul."
He loved the way her big eyes had watered as she allowed him ultimate control over her and her breathing. Was it love? Was it fear? All Nate knew was that Cassie would allow him to do whatever he wanted to her. She was a giver and he was taker. No lies.
"I love how fucking sick you are." And as Cassie bit his lip, he felt she was his perfect other half. Willing to do anything to have what she wanted. Both angel and vixen, both victim and perpetrator.
Emotions, what are you doin'? Oh, don't you know, don't you know you'll be my ruin?