AN: So..I'm sorry again for not getting this next one out sooner. It just took me a while, and I have had a lot going on and my mental health is horrible but it's slowly getting better...Anyways though, I'm sorry it's not that good and it's not exactly how you wanted it, but I hope you enjoy it at least a little anyways...I've been trying hard to write it these past months but I've just been having a lot of trouble...sorry again...This type of story just doesn't click well with me I guess?..And I don't want to start something I can't finish, so I'm sorry again for the person who requested this that it will be shorter then you wanted..Maybe someone else can write a long story for you...

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As Naruto fell asleep in his bed he couldn't get Sasuke out of his mind, and even ended up dreaming about them, mostly about the past, when they were closer as kids and were always together and had a bond that was unbreakable. He just couldn't understand what had happened and why Sasuke changed so much.

When they were kids, they did everything together. Sasuke usually got to school early, and then Naruto would run to school, being almost late every day since he always slept in. Once Naruto got to school though, he always ran straight over to Sasuke, waving and smiling happily and then starting to talk to him about what they should do after school together. He would pass him tiny notes he made during class and would get really happy whenever Sasuke sent one back.

Naruto had always had a tough life, his mother dying when he was born, and his father dying when he was young from getting drunk while driving. When Naruto was sent into the orphanage, he was depressed and tried to act happy but couldn't, and as he got older, he just wasn't the same and couldn't make any friends. But then Sasuke couldn't take it, and Naruto didn't know how, but Sasuke somehow convinced his parents to adopt him, and then they became like brothers.

A few years later, though, Sasuke's parents were killed, and his brother's body was never found. Then he was like how Naruto was, but worse. He was only 12 years old, but dealing with severe depression and even some thoughts that 12 year olds shouldn't be ever thinking about. But again, same as with Naruto, he got better because now Naruto was the one helping him. They were sent to an orphanage together and were best friends, sharing their secrets and emotions and always telling each other everything, always hanging out with each other and not really having other friends. They were inseparable, that is, until they got to high school.

They had different classes and barely saw each other. And what made everything worse was that they were each adopted, but separately. Sasuke was adopted by a man named Kakashi who just decided to house him until he was old enough to get his own place, and Naruto was adopted by a nice man named Jiraiya. Naruto tried not to make a big deal of it, knowing they were still friends even if they weren't living with eachother anymore, but he just couldn't help but get depressed a lot, especially since now they barely hung out at all.

All Naruto wanted was to spend time with Sasuke, but they never had time anymore. Naruto was sure Sasuke did, but he was so behind in his studies himself that he was up every night trying to get his grades up, but he just couldn't, because he couldn't focus, the only thing he ever thought about being Sasuke. He wanted to ask Sasuke to maybe help him with his schoolwork, but he felt like it wouldn't mean anything, just wanting to spend actual quality time with him.

Naruto didn't know why Sasuke had changed so much, but he wished he didn't, missing the old Sasuke. He didn't know what could've happened in their first couple years of high school that would've made Sasuke change so much, but he couldn't help but think it was his fault.

When Sasuke had first asked Naruto to be his lookout, he was kind of terrified, not wanting Naruto to think he was disgusting or weird, kind of hoping Naruto would look hurt by it and ask to be the person he had sex with instead, so he could make Naruto happy and they could be together, but all Naruto did was force a smile and say sure. Sasuke couldn't tell his smile was fake, so it just hurt him and made him keep asking him over and over until it became a daily thing.

Eventually, Sasuke just made it a habit, and he barely even looked at Naruto anymore when he asked him, and so now he didn't even notice how much Naruto was hurting from it, just focused on his own pain.

The first time Sasuke had sex, it was with just some random girl, and he was anxious to do it, but he wanted to try it, wanting to make Naruto jealous, but also wanting to practice, so he knew how to do it so his first time with Naruto would be perfect.

He had nervously asked Naruto, hiding it though, like he usually did with his emotions, and then taken the girl into the bathroom. He kind of hated it at first, the girl completely whiny and practically just begging him, which he thought was gross, not liking girls anyways, but he delt with it. He kissed her, tried out a few things, and then moved on to the next part, which made him sort of uncomfortable, but once he got inside of her he just pretended she was Naruto and everything felt better.

He couldn't deny it did feel good, the pleasure racking his body, a bit overwhelming since it was his first time, but he still didn't like it much, because it still wasn't Naruto.

He panted and groaned as he thrusted in and out, hand over her mouth since she was so noisy, which he hated since she was the one who told him to keep going rougher. Then he just continued, but his mind wandered back to Naruto again, knowing he was probably still outside the door, so then he lifted his hand off her mouth a bit, so her moans could be heard just right outside the door, wanting Naruto to hear them.

He grunted and then started to moan a bit himself, saying dirty things to the girl he had heard others say to their sex partners, hoping Naruto would hear them too, wanting him to be jealous so badly, wishing Naruto would just burst into the room and beg to have sex with him, but he knew he probably wouldn't.

He took an hour or so in the bathroom with the girl, trying things out, and then soon finished up and left, not being able to face Naruto after that though so he just walked past him and left school. He felt like he was doing something wrong, because he had actually enjoyed it a bit. He knew he wouldn't enjoy it as much as he would with Naruto, but he still felt like if he loves Naruto and only Naruto, then sex shouldn't feel good with anyone else. He just wished he could just tell him straightforward that he loved him, to save all the trouble of his mixed feelings, but he couldn't, still not able to.

He did try but never could, and so he just kept asking him to be his lookout, having sex over and over with random people, in the bathroom, in empty classrooms, even on the roof and behind the school outside once. He just felt empty without Naruto, and the only thing that distracted him from everything was the sex. He even tried using it to forget Naruto, maybe thinking if he got over him things would be okay, but no matter how hard he tried, how much sex he had with other people, he just couldn't forget the one person in his life that truly mattered to him.

"Should I even be doing this..." Sasuke thought to himself some weeks later, having sex with another girl, his eyes closed as he slammed his hips against her, driving himself deeper, groans and pants coming out of his mouth, but right now he was barely even paying attention, his body just naturally moving. It had been months, and Naruto still hadn't asked him if confessed anything, and Sasuke was wondering if he was just doing something wrong. He thought if Naruto loved him, then he would've asked to have sex too by now, but he hadn't.

Sasuke started to thrust harder, getting a bit angry with himself, about to yell at the girl as he heard crying, but then he paused, realizing it wasn't from her, but from right outside the door. He got confused but then recognized it as Naruto and stopped, wondering why he was crying. He didn't know why, but his first reaction was to pull out of the girl and immediately get cleaned and dressed so he could check. A part of him was worried, but another part was kind of hoping he was crying because of him, because he wanted to have sex with him, but when he had opened the door, Naruto was already gone, which confused Sasuke. Naruto never left, and he promised not to, but now he was nowhere to be found.

After that day, Sasuke barely saw Naruto again. Naruto just couldn't take it anymore, not being able to keep just standing there and listening to Sasuke with other people. So then he started to avoid Sasuke and just kept to himself, deciding to quit having sex with his friends too since it just seemed to make things worse, even finding excuses to stay home from school some days.

Eventually though, as Sasuke started paying more attention and worrying more, he finally started to notice how depressed Naruto looked, and he started to just watch him during class, asking around what was wrong, but no one knew, because Naruto never talked to anyone about it, not even his closest friends anymore.

Sasuke thought maybe Naruto was jealous finally, but he noticed how empty he looked, and then he realized he had made a mistake. He thought he would've made Naruto jealous, and then he would've begged to have sex with him, and they finally could've been together, but it was the exact opposite now. Naruto was completely avoiding him and looked just horrible. He wasn't jealous, he looked just so sad, and Sasuke felt really bad about it.

When Naruto had woken up the next morning, he still felt just empty but hid it from Jiraiya like he always had and just got up for school. He didn't eat or freshen up at all, just slowly getting up and getting dressed and then heading out. He walked to school slowly, his gaze down as he thought about Sasuke, the whole day like that, not being able to stop thinking about him.

As Sasuke saw Naruto and saw how empty he looked again, he just watched him, but then once the day was over he couldn't take it anymore and then he followed Naruto and then grabbed his hand, and then just kept walking, pulling him into a nearby bathroom with him, glad it was empty as he shut the door. Then he just looked at Naruto, but then saw the pure shock and panic on his face, and just felt bad.

When Naruto felt Sasuke pull him into the bathroom, he really thought he was about to ask him to have sex, but when Sasuke just stared at him he felt hurt, and other thoughts started to come through his head, thinking Sasuke didn't want to see him anymore, so he was going to end their friendship.

Naruto could feel his heart pounding and tears starting to come to his eyes, just staring at Sasuke, a part of him really hoping Sasuke wanted him now, really needing him, especially since he had been isolating himself from everyone. It just made him feel even worse though, and all he wanted was affection and attention, but he was too scared to ask.

"Naruto.." Sasuke spoke after a moment, his heart pounding a bit too, but he could barely get words out. Now he could see the pure pain and hurt Naruto was going through because of him, and it absolutely crushed him. He never meant to hurt Naruto, he had just wanted to make him jealous, that's all, but now he realized he was wrong. He shouldn't seen it long ago, but he was just too blind and focused on himself to notice.

Naruto just stood there quietly and then looked down as he blinked tears away, sniffing and lifting his hand to wipe tears off. He hadn't cried in front of Sasuke in years, but he just couldn't stop it this time. Everything inside him just hurt so badly and he didn't want to hide it anymore.

As Sasuke looked at Naruto, he hesitated a bit, a part of him thinking that maybe he should just kiss him and ask to have sex and maybe that would make everything better, but another part of him knew that wasn't the right thing at the moment, and might just make things worse, so he didn't.

Then as Sasuke heard the first quiet sob come from Naruto's mouth, his heart broke, and then he just couldn't take it and pulled Naruto into a hug, holding him close, muttering an apology over and over, feeling absolutely horrible. He had made Naruto cry twice now, and Naruto barely did, and so Sasuke knew this was serious.

All Sasuke really knew about love was that it felt good, and so all he assumed was that it was just kissing and sex. But through the past months, he figured out it was so much more than that. He knew he didn't love any of the people he had sex with and knew that Naruto was the only one for him, and their bond was so much more than just pleasure. He cared for Naruto more than anything in the world and really didn't even care if they had sex anymore. He just wanted to be there for him. Naruto was the last person he ever wanted to hurt, and he knew from now on he was just going to focus on him now, wanting him to be happy.

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AN: So..I hope you liked it. I ended up writing a lot so I decided to make a third part too where they talk it out and get together, but then that will be the last part, so I'm sorry if you wanted more...For the person who requested it, I'll try my hardest to make it like you want, but I'm sorry if it doesn't come out perfect. I hope you'll enjoy it anyways though..