A/N: This chapter mentions parts from the latest episodes of SVU and PD that aired on 3-22-17. As always, I don't own any of the characters.
Be Honest
After saying goodnight to Noah and making sure he was tucked in, Olivia stood in the doorway watching her son sleep for a few minutes. She had a lot going through her mind with this latest case. Could she end up being a bad person like her father? Could Noah end up being like Johnny D?
Olivia went to the kitchen and was about to pour herself a glass of wine when she heard a knock at the door. She walked over to the door and looked to see who it was before she opened it.
"Hank."
"Olivia."
"Come on in."
"Thanks."
Hank walked into Olivia's apartment and took his jacket off.
"What brings you here?"
"I needed to clear my head, so I thought I'd get away for a few days. I know we haven't seen or talked to each other in over a year."
"Yeah, I know. I feel like that was my fault. You tried telling me not to get involved with Tucker and I went ahead and did it anyway."
"How's that going?"
"We broke up a couple months ago. We just weren't on the same page. He wanted to retire and wanted me to consider it too. I'm just not ready for that yet. I mean, I still have Noah to think about. I think you were right along."
"Sometimes I don't like being right."
"Yes, you do. Can I get you something? I have wine, beer, whiskey, juice, milk or water."
"Whiskey is fine."
"Ok."
Olivia finished pouring her glass of wine and then she poured Hank and glass of whiskey. She took it in to the living room and handed him his glass before sitting down on the other end of the sofa.
"Thanks."
"Sure. What's going on in your life?"
"You heard about Justin, right?"
"Yeah. I heard that from Rollins who I'm guessing heard from Erin. Are you doing ok?"
"Yes and no. We didn't always have the best relationship but he was still my son and I loved him. My daughter-in-law took my grandson and moved to Scottsdale."
"You still have Erin though, right?"
"Yeah. She found out that the guy she thought was her father really wasn't. Halstead had his DNA run and it didn't match. She was pissed at Jay for doing it but I guess he didn't trust Bunny. She confronted Bunny and then of course Bunny blamed me and said that maybe Erin should test my DNA."
"Should she?"
"Maybe. I'm surprised you haven't heard from Erin. I thought you two were pretty close."
"I think she's mad at me because I pursued a relationship with Tucker. I think she wanted us to get together."
"Huh. That's interesting."
"Is it? Do you know something I don't?"
"No. I admit I thought it was a bit strange that you would even want to be in a relationship with some like Tucker."
"Why? Because he was with IAB?"
"Well, yeah."
"I know. I suck at relationships. I always have. My problem is, I never want to disclose. That's where I always end up getting into trouble."
"That'll do it. After Camille, I wasn't sure I wanted to ever become involved with anyone again because I was afraid of losing someone else I love. Erin and Halstead hit a bump in their relationship."
"What happened?"
"He never told her that he was married before and actually still is. She never signed the papers. He moved in with Will temporarily. He voluntarily left, so he could figure things out or at least until the papers get signed."
"How do you feel about it?"
"I care about Erin but it's not my business unless it starts affecting their jobs. So far, no problems. They'll eventually work things out. I know he loves her a lot"
"If you were her father, how would you feel about it?"
"I'd try to be as supportive as I could to her and try not to want to kill Halstead for hurting my daughter."
"That makes sense. I guess fathers are supposed to be protective of their daughters. I wouldn't know. I never knew mine."
"Speaking of daughters, did you hear about Olinsky?"
"Yes, I did. That's terrible."
"It opened a lot of old wounds for me. Lexi's death hit me pretty hard too and it made me start thinking about my son even more than I do. I know nothing will ever help ease the pain of losing a child but I told Al and Meredith that Camille and Justin would look out Lexi. I'm sure I won't end up with Camille again after I die."
"You will."
"I doubt it. I have too many anger issues and I like to intimidate people into talking. I also like to get revenge on people."
"What happens if you eventually end up with someone else?"
"I never really thought about that.
"Can I ask you something?"
"Of course."
"Do you think our genes make us do things we shouldn't? Be honest with me."
"Honestly, no. I think we just do things we end up regretting later because we think it's the right thing to do at the moment. Why do you ask?"
"We had this case that the guy said he raped the woman because he had a gene that made him that way. My father was a rapist and so was Noah's. Noah's father was also a sex trafficker and a pimp. Noah wasn't conceived out of love and neither was I. When I was being held by William Lewis, I beat the crap out of him."
"From what I've heard about that guy, you were just protecting yourself. The guy was holding you hostage and you were trying to prevent yourself from being raped. There's nothing wrong with that. It doesn't make you a bad person. You're one of the strongest and bravest people I know and you are one of the few people that can put me in my place and actually get away with it."
"Me brave? Yeah, right."
"You survived what that psycho bastard did to you. To me, that's brave."
"I didn't feel brave when he was burning me with anything he could get his hands on or when he was questioning me on the witness stand and then got off for some stupid technicality. That bitch that helped Yates and Rudnick escape also helped Lewis escape, which is why he held me again and then he killed himself and tried to make it look like I did it."
"Then there's Yates, who tried saying that I was forcing myself on Nadia. I wouldn't have hurt that kid. She meant a lot to all of us. If I could have gotten to her sooner, I would have buried his ass in that shallow grave. Dead or alive. You want to throw my ass in jail, go right ahead."
"I don't blame you for feeling that way. It really bothered me when he was saying that about you. I'm glad Erin got the closure she needed when she killed him."
"If she didn't, I would have."
"Do you think my 3-year having a disagreement with a little girl at school about an object he wanted is a problem? Should I be worried?"
"Benson, he's 3. That kid is your life. If you raise him to know the difference between right and wrong, he should be fine."
"I hope so. I just don't want to be hearing when he's older that some girl is accusing him of rape. What would I do then?"
"I think you worry too much."
"Oh, I do, huh?"
"Yep."
"I miss our talks after our cases."
"I do too. We haven't worked together in a while."
"No, we haven't."
Olivia moved closer to Hank.
"Hank."
"Yeah."
"Do you want to kiss me?"
"Yeah, I do."
They started leaning closer to each other and were close to kissing when they were interrupted.
"Mommy."
"Damn it!"
Noah came out of his room carrying his favorite stuffed animal.
"I thought you were asleep."
"My owie hurts."
"Come here."
Noah went over to the sofa and crawled up on Olivia's lap. Olivia kissed her fingers and put her hand on Noah's knee.
"Is that better?"
"Yeah. Who's that?"
"This is Mommy's good friend, Hank Voight from Chicago. When I go to Chicago for work, he is one of the people I work with. Hank, this is my favorite guy, Noah."
"Nice to meet you."
"You too."
"I should probably go."
"Why don't you come by the Precinct tomorrow and we can have lunch or something?"
"That works. Thanks for the drink."
"You're welcome."
Hank got up and went to get his jacket. Olivia got up with Noah and then Hank kissed her on the cheek. He ruffled Noah's hair before leaving and heading back to his hotel. Shortly after Hank left, Olivia was able to get Noah back to sleep. She sat back down on the sofa and began to wonder what would have happened if Noah hadn't woken up and interrupted them.
There could be a second part to this. Reviews are appreciated.