A/N: This takes place a couple weeks before Christmas. I don't own any of the characters.

Cold

Hank had no desire to celebrate Christmas anymore. Camille was gone. Justin was gone. Olive and Daniel had moved to Arizona and he rarely saw them or heard from them. Erin moved to New York and had been on assignment, so she wouldn't be able to come to Chicago for Christmas. The woman he had developed feelings for had been in a relationship with someone else. He really didn't care anymore. The only people he talked to were the people he worked with. He'd go to work, do his job and go home. He hardly ever went with the squad to Molly's.

For years Olivia always tried to avoid Christmas, since she had no one but ever since Noah came into her life, she's loved Christmas. She was grateful everyday that she had him. It had been a while since she had seen or talked to anyone from Chicago. She had always felt something for Hank but she had never said anything to him and she didn't know if she should. She had no idea if he felt the same way about her. Olivia decided to take a trip to Chicago on her own. She asked Amanda if Noah could stay with her and Jesse for a few days and she said it wouldn't be a problem. She had made her arrangements and said goodbye to Noah when she dropped him off at school. She said Lucy would pick him up and then Amanda would pick him up on her way home. She ended up taking the day off work, so she could have more time in Chicago. She had always heard that Chicago was beautiful at Christmas time and she actually wanted to see it for herself. She went to the airport and waited for her flight.

Once the flight arrived in Chicago, she went to get her luggage, got her rental car and drove to the hotel to get checked in. She decided to go over to the District. When she arrived, she went in and Trudy was in her usual spot.

"It's nice to see you again, Olivia."

"You too, Trudy. How's your husband?"

"He's doing great. He had thought about retiring but so far, he hasn't. He did have a heart attack a few months ago but he's driving me crazy as usual. How's everything going with you? I haven't seen you since we were all looking for Yates."

"Well, I was in a relationship with someone for about a year. He was with IAB and then transferred to Hostage Negotiation. He was then offered a position in the DA's office with Conviction Integrity. He was thinking about retiring just before we ended things 11 months ago. We weren't on the same page and I needed to focus on my son."

"That'll do it. We've had some changes around here. Lindsay left for a job with the FBI in New York."

"That I knew. We see each other occasionally."

"That's good."

"Detective Upton started with the unit before Lindsay left and so she's probably the only one you don't know. Of course, Burgess is now up in Intelligence."

"I hadn't heard that. Should I even ask how Sergeant Voight is?"

"You heard about his son, Justin, right?"

"Yes. Erin told me that after it happened."

"Ok. Olive, his daughter-in-law, took Daniel, his grandson, and moved to Scottsdale, Arizona and Hank hardly ever sees or hears from them. The last time he saw them was 6 months ago when they came to see him for Father's Day."

"That has to be hard. Have you had lunch yet?"

"Actually, no I haven't. Intelligence is out on a case anyway."

Trudy told the other person behind the desk that she was going to lunch and then she and Olivia went to find a place to eat. Once they arrived, they went in and were seated.

"Can I be honest with you, Olivia?"

"Of course."

"I'm worried about Hank. He's been a mess ever since Erin left. He hardly ever joins the rest of us at Molly's after our shifts and the only socializing he does with any of us is at work. After Olinsky, I have known him the longest and we're both concerned for him. I know he had a difficult time coping with losing Justin and he misses Daniel like crazy. It just seems like the Unit isn't as close as they used to be. I keep telling Hank that maybe he needs a vacation and told him to go see Olive and Daniel but he said no. I think but I'm not 100% sure that he had feelings for you but was disappointed that you were seeing someone else."

"I've had feelings for him since I first met him. That's kind of the reason I came here. I need to see if this is worth pursuing or if I'm just kidding myself. I told him I was in the relationship the last time I was here and he didn't take it too well."

"Good luck with trying to get through to him."

"Thanks."

They ordered their food and then they continued talking. Once they got their food and ate, they went back to the District. Trudy could tell that the Intelligence vehicles were back.

"They're back. Are you going to go talk to Hank?"

"Maybe I should."

They walked in and then Trudy walked Olivia up the stairs and unlocked the door for her.

"Good luck."

"Thanks."

Olivia continued up the stairs.

"Hey, everyone."

"Hey, Lieutenant. Do we have another case?"

"No. I'm here on my own."

Olinsky was in the kitchen and got Olivia's attention, so she went in there.

"What's going on, Al?"

"Be warned. He's in a mood."

"Thanks for the warning."

"Coffee?"

"Yeah, sure. I'll take one to him too."

"Ok."

Al got Olivia two cups of coffee and then she went to Hank's office. She saw he was on the phone, so she waited.

"Lieutenant, this is Detective Hailey Upton. Upton, this is Lieutenant Olivia Benson from NYPD Special Victims Unit."

"I've heard a lot about you, Lieutenant. It's nice to finally meet you."

"You too, Detective. Detective Dawson, I thought you went to the DA's office."

"I did but it didn't work out. I hope you're here to talk some sense into him."

"I want to talk to him."

"Do you see or hear from Lindsay at all?"

"Yeah, I see her occasionally."

"How's everyone in your Unit?"

"Everyone is doing great."

"That's good. Tell them we said hi."

"I will. They all said to say hi. I did tell them where I was going. Detective Rollins is keeping my son for a few days."

"How old is he now?"

"He's 5."

"Wow! Time flies."

"I know it does. It seems like only yesterday that he was a baby."

Olivia saw that Hank was off the phone.

"Excuse me."

Olivia knocked on Hank's office door and then he got up and came to open the door.

"Lieutenant."

"Sergeant."

"Come on in."

"Thanks. This is for you."

"Thanks."

Olivia walked into Hank's office and sat down as Hank shut the door again. Hank went to sit down at his desk.

"What brings you here?"

"I needed to talk to you."

"So, talk."

"I know I'm not your favorite person after what I told you the last time I was here but the thing I never told you was that I have felt something for you from the moment I met you. I know you have been through a lot in the last year and a half with losing your son, your daughter-in-law and grandson moving to Arizona and Erin moving to New York. I still care about you and I wanted you to know that."

"I thought I had feelings for you too but I'm not sure if I do anymore. It hurt me when you told me that you were in a relationship with someone else."

"I'm not anymore."

"I have a lot to think about and I have a lot on my mind right now."

"I understand."

Olivia got up, grabbed her stuff and left. Olinsky could tell by the look on Olivia's face that things had not gone well. Olivia went downstairs and left without saying anything to Trudy but Trudy could also tell things didn't go well. Olivia drove to the hotel and went up to her room. She was starting to think that maybe she had made a mistake by coming to Chicago at all. She had expected Hank to be angry with her but she didn't expect him to be as cold as he was toward her. She went to lie down for a nap and cried herself to sleep.

To be continued…

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